kaleidoscopeANON

i worked 13 hrs today getting depressed on the internet comes naturally if i smoke pot again i'll never return to the internet haha staring at a screen makes me feel less like a human being i'd rather go take a walk than do what many people do every day all day we must defend what we can't really prove is there i used to fantasize about that sorta thing for way longer but not so much now the circuit keeps cuttin out way sooner the celibacy situation not lonely but at the buffet of me thank you lauren, that's the best metaphor french toast sticks for days! it won't be a golden corral buffet but 5 stars it's crazy for me to be up at 8 5 hrs will drag but the longer the shift the better we already are doin the barter system i don't have faith in the human race but i can still pretend if people are spreading God's love that's all that matters acting like a Christian is the most important thing (to me) i wish everything i said was new n different

way more content in what all i understand now that i'm older the most that anyone could hope for is what i got don't let anyone tell you how to have fun or what you're supposed to want i make more than due only becuz of God i think way more than thrices x3 at least i understand my feelings a lotta people won't try a little harder it's so much easier to be a piece a shit that's all we do is try to crack the code of our brain can't imagine this any other way maybe i'll let you in for a pretty brief time plz don't take it personally that i leave thank you internet for turning everyone into a woman or a woman x 50 that abortion vacuum is social media birth control is kinda sorta everyday abortion tho exterminating the black race was not immoral according to margaret sanger define life (relative) super pro choice people just don't wanna be here themselves abortion is projection these arguments from pro lifers are dumb if we lived in a just, moral society... the fascist regime in my mind the man in my head would not allow me to be a dictator so don't worry i hate how women make everything a problem for everyone else here go you some nostalgia, vortex no not 2010 but 1988

healthy compulsions such as picking up trash it wasn't just reagan but he kinda got the ball rolling formerly tho many don't have that opportunity becuz they purposely fuck over the people that are born here stoned cold cynic cos this is the world i live in i've been holdin my own hand since i was 6 more healthy compulsions...overstocking they like my method which is why they've copied it outrageously overstocking, i really levelled up today this thing inside me that can make me so destructive they can't control me like my head can ask questions, pay attention to experience why would you wanna do what they tell ya ta if it kills creativity it's out they don't value the artistic part of themselves if you ain't making babies you gotta be making sumin damnit no community, no creation, just mindless entertainment to distract them from their "depression" no binge watching of my channel i start n stop paisley knows paisley will not be mocked! she cannot be controlled which i get the real reason why we pose a threat to society n authority or whatever

i dig these chords 12 step meetings get pretty boring after awhile referring to yourself by the thing that you gave up not a sheep kinda gal the sheep don't even know why they do most of what they do many say that i think too much the thoughts n feelings run together they come when i don't want em n they run away when i'm tryin to remember is this comin from me or somebody that i perceive to be rejecting me do i not wanna admit that i'm offended very rare to have a healthy compulsion picking up trash is such an easy task nobody takes cares of things tho you're stupid stupid stupid donald trump is the biggest straw tho

bad decisions... it's okay to be a failure some of the time easier to run away n blame somebody/anybody but you yours truly is an exercise in self-flagellation imagine my frustration w/ america man i sound like ani difranco, this makes me sublimely happy *i forgive her feminism social networks magnify our need to be liked (or in some cases, disliked) we're easily manipulated via identity i do this in a bigger picture kinda way always pointing at the general public i expect my sub count to go back down x2 eventually i'll say sumin that will make you frown those that talk shit keep comin back around these are mainly internet people tho at least you were honest w/ em they're missing a ballsack to say what needs to be said (not ag) i don't feel dead, i feel way more alive than the general public trying to ignore people that bother me those w/ the govt in their pocket (most of em) i'm a giant tree branch on the outside so lucky that i saw this avalanche in advance if only i could see accidents or my credit score in advance $ mgmt should be sumin i fuckin visualize i don't throw food away anymore, thankyou Lord the things that i've done i've had to confront backwards, forwards...depersonalization i can count on one hand the amt of times that i had sex n didn't wanna kill myself haha very anti-pc to either not want, not need, or not enjoy sex a lotta people need to bring children into this world the whole point is creating as much as possible my friend's kid is in a bad situation cos the relationship still doesn't work all these people are fucked up cos of their single mom or divorced parents accurate observations if they offend

vultures pickin at cha always tryin to get a rise outta ya i like to pretend that i don't have sexual organs but doesn't that dehumanize me in a way i'd rather live for God, tho mini vans. sammiches. television. people do or don't do things for the wrong reason i know that i do n don't do do things for the right reason cos i've always thought about things i need to stop making bold declarations God shows me things that He don't show nobody else apparently they'd rather not think about it on the way down i get it not autistic, sorry to disappoint it schizos have an answer that they're not ready for they won't give up their whole world i have always ostracized myself i appreciate the altered state not so much the company tho ag n co is the way to go 95% tiger, this little thing they immediately forget if they get mad at you i wish men could just digress BARF! many assumptions society will make women don't try to understand their psychosis this ain't much of a civilization recovery triangle, yin yang, peace sign...all some kinda free mason

we could always say way more internet junkies, everyone everywhere my cat is fuckin w/ my tripod paisley is so much like me it both pisses me off n makes me happy REMEMBER: DO NOT FEED VULTURES i did a poster on this very thing due to people on the internet talkin shit but really it's about anyone that bothers you very rare that they do much besides just say things they have a fantasy of changing me (just like a woman) she will never grow outta this playtime paisley distracted me, she's so good at it schizophrenia is adhd five thousand we always go all these different places i felt like doin that damnit eighties casio right here in this day n age nobody's having fun i had a topic did i not so many in society don't have selves to be that's gotta be sad to see every day in the mirror having to face that age old question... do this _____ to get by anyway the topic... when people are real mean or obscene whatever i can talk about anything n everything, no bones why be ashamed or proud the internet allows these cowards a megaphone that alone was pretty good there she goes chasing after that marker do yawl hear that, she went for it cats don't have any attachment issues people can help having a short attention span but we choose not to

this poster is called... they were already stupid...so true! either from canada or minnesota making posters was my reaction to the leftist obsession w/ doing this in relation to protest rallies blm started w/ obama tho i did an actual comedy showcase @ tk2 back in summer 2021 is it a compulsion tho i guess they call it mass immigration for a reason they'll invade yer tree house too, make no mistake this really describes how i feel about all "progress" smartphone technology has destroyed everything but not w/out a cause the phone is an interactive television people are always holding onto sumin silly or totally understandable women don't belong in politics, NONE bitch some of us just ain't cut from the same cloth there will always be that part of me...boy i'm gonna carry that weight a long time best of intentions i swear every time i have my period i am reminded that i have the gift of being able to create life and becuz i am not doing that i must do sumin similar thru my creative contribution internet junkies everyone, everywhere

just cos it feels a certain way don't mean that's how it actually is it doesn't have to stay that way i won't always be in the same state of mind so acceptance makes more sense to me accept the difficulty n you will come up w/ solutions God is working inside of you when trusting the process we cut ourselves short cos we just give up is it an age thing when everyone is now 12 years old again this sucks for right now but eventually it won't be so bad those w/ a disability understand this way better learning how to accommodate is very valuable those that don't have a terminal illness are just paranoid about death even tho we all die at some point hardship can make a crazy diamond outta you knee deep in the victim mentality are so many women (and men that are letting the woman inside their head have control over their emotions, they should paint instead) i thought that women's studies was literally the study of women but at least i did figure out why so many of em are crazy feminists tend to whine a lot the victim mentality is so corrosive real victims can't make demands (no mic) no air time, no book deal none a that those that have been thru a buncha shit might tell you about it but probably not you can always use the same reel to stay on the same reel substance abuse is quite common blame the world all day but it still won't get you anywhere the world won't get any better if you don't get better if you can rise above whatever yer difficulty then you prove that the devil sucks the internet keeps the devil drunk

more posters, some just slightly revamped i really like that fading marker no detail but faulty materials you first must eat shit...pay yer dues you must accept being at the bottom of the barrel before you can inch up they will never be satisfied...not just true of women that stain is either from a smoothie or coffee never ever under any circumstance feed a vulture...people on the internet are destined to make trouble do not retaliate, it ain't worth it the pointless back n forth of so many dimwits same cup of coffee helped destroy this which proves that in many ways ag is also a toddler i might just add the female symbol to the letters here i know that you exist, paisley you just love to keep proving it women on top turns the world to slop, feminism sucks i don't like authoritative women until you understand what's in the basket... if women read the Bible they'd understand why they can't preach in the Church i'm fine w/ dying/living/doing everything alone our ancestors are turning in their graves, so sad what society has reduced itself to i really like the orange there but i might add to the background i added some pink to this powerful msg haha, you deserve to be depressed if you aren't making anything this msg is quite personal don't let the sheep bring you down...they dunno any better so just forgive them n move on cos they won't change i know they are arrogant but they mean well, they just simply dunno i exist okay so don't feel totally outnumbered (i count as 25) there are those questioning the system n challenging the status quo in a very underground kinda way you gotta search n seek to find the good shit college radio: the best thing about college flip phones do some stuff yawl, they just don't allow you to self-destruct my coworkers are fixin to get here to pick me up for work cos my car is not drivable right now we need another medium that's not only alternative but anarchistic sheep won't even appreciate or understand the underground stuff so...

grateful for what hurts cos it's worth so much more sadness allows me to have happiness difficulty will make you appreciate when it's easy grateful for the smell of saline there is sumin seriously wrong w/ a society that tries to snuff out any negative feelings my brain don't do what i want it to but maybe i'm just ignorant of what it's supposed to do the answer will be revealed if i'm patient i have ovaries, i'm allowed to cry damnit i guess it's good that God didn't make me a man i understand it now tho most dunno that we all have this gift to create which is just the saddest thing not to mention a total waste of potential n freedom nobody really exercises their liberty here "mentally ill" just means sumin they can't control this will always be true which is why we keep repeating it it took me so long to do what you're seeing me do i guess it's all in God's time tho better late than never, thanks dt i don't care what chu don't believe nobody has to prove anything to anyone words don't mean diddley, you gotta live what you claim you believe why should anybody take you seriously if you don't practice what chu preach if you are not an example of what you teach then shut the fuck up you know we have a feline friend don't chu try to take this from me damnit

many brilliant thoughts come to me in the dish pit non-discriminatory corruption...enslavement via habit most don't even know what an idiosyncratic behavior is alone time. freedom. mobility. no better example of slavery than technology i love having a car but it really is such a pain in the ass i know crazy uncle ted already brought this up in the nineties you either have to have a car or know sumin that has one i know these points ain't new but in light of my recent car accident i started to think about our entire system again anybody that knows me knows why i don't have a smartphone that phone weighs a lot more than they anticipated i made my decision back in 2007 you won't throw out yer standards if you have a strong conviction i ain't a regular ass virgin but i won't let technology taint me ...but it turns yer brain into swiss cheese! technology puts a wall between you n everyone not to sound like a marxist or anything imagine karl marx living right now actually if karl knew that his shit philosophy helped to shaped this society we live in now, he woulda just gotten drunk like always people seem to make a lotta subconscious decisions now they have to deal w/ all these complications that they didn't realize they signed up for my whole lifestyle is intentionally alienating there's never a case you can make for society they'll bend over backwards to avoid having to change themselves for the better so much potential in hardship w/ adversity comes growth n knowledge i learned way more from my mistakes than anything else, success is the product of many mistakes after all

i gotta write this all down on a whiteboard but... you're stuck w/ this shit you're supposed to get emotional at Church forgive me for the cheese i understand why people wouldn't expect me to be religious considering... she is no doubt gonna whack me w/ her tail i still have an issue w/ organized religion i must accept paisley behaving like a cat since i domesticated her Orthodoxy is the full spectrum she is aggressively affectionate there's a loving way to approach various aspects of degeneracy Hellfire n damnation ain't a good tactic n it's kinda boring really Godphobia makes more sense than homophobia retaliation is always based in emotion that they don't even understand emotional maturity goes a long way luckily my line of work has enabled me to be around all types of lifestyles what is the real world these days tho i hate drama, i already work at a restaurant none of this is new n different, it's just being magnified since the algorithm knows you better than you know yourself... all the "conspiracies" took a backseat cos i was focusing more on God no longer freaking out about things i can't control like my family's medical decisions or what people think is happening in this world i soak up so much of my experience, lucky to do this if only people valued their experience this world would look a lot different

ag hates helicopters FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU i know i just look crazy they won't stop proving how much they're doin ominous shit you can't explain these things to most of society i got 5 to 7 heads paisley (cat) proves that i'm crazy whenever she chimes in i'm not gonna be a slave if i can avoid it things are connected to other things yawl i don't like it later haha is it weirder to play music at 8:30am or 3:30am be proud of me for reading the Bible enough for the hardback to fall off Isaiah is just the best mark of the beast in yo pocket tho

conformity kills putting my work clothes on, i will be back biologically n psychologically prone to procreate so when people wanna make all these cases for not doin it they are just lying to themselves n the rest of the world there's no need for a bra over here pretend you didn't see that, sari i exposed myself accidentally things bother me now that never used to women are told to wear bras n they are dumb enough to do it you don't have to burn your bra, just don't wear it not all feminist points are wrong if i were slightly more functional i would totally have kids sooooo many greys, i'm dying freud n marx had to overcompensate these people won't shut up about anything tho if you're not doin it the natural way you gotta overcompensate i don't like being authoritative w/ children what does my opinion matter tho, no skin in the game right adults know better but then again they don't the education system is part of the conformity process what's in yer hand all the time mf whining about degeneracy as an internet junkie find me a trance or autist w/ a flip phone n i will buy you a liquor store

i am very happy (for the most part) cucumbers, keyboard n soul my soul is the most important thing remember impulse control? good times everybody has their reasons you always have a choice you will value things way more if you wait for them convenience ain't shit n it's not satisfying them anyway nobody on their smartphone can see themselves lookin stupid people won't take responsibility for things they don't see themselves doing there hasn't been a second recently where i wished i was like everyone else when i was younger i wasn't too cool w/ myself you don't have to whip yer dick/tits out to expose yourself narcissists don't have self-control i'm not gloating cos your lack of self-awareness is showing you have more options than that false light fuck you you're wrong damn my eye is so lazy! you dunno how to do anything anymore back when i was a drunk... my addiction was very very loud

refridgerator door swung wide open...CLASSIC ag habits it's very strange being up during the day time forgotten smoothie...oooooh ginger bear w/ me...kidding no attention span i'm so friggin cute i make music cos it's fun not to impress everyone the internet is not fun i love my liberty, that's why i still have a flip phone you don't have to defend anything if you're right me n ke$ha went to high school together the man in my head said that it's ginger so it's ginger everything wrong w/ this world is due to conformity i am not a capitalist all cos i believe in working make demands on yourself not the world hopefully once the control arm is replaced it will be driveable smartphone technology is bad, can't stress it enough stop lying, things are not better liars go to hell so...

paisley must go on a diet fat shaming my cat as if i'm not her roommate that feeds her just raw meat watch paisley lick herself from over here n then from over there i still love dogs by the way everything belongs in this world so it's wrong to say otherwise all b/c you have a preference a lotta cat people are super annoying tho animals are our friends n i relate to them more than people why is racism frowned upon n yet you're allowed to hate an entire species just cos of either a bad experience or general distaste dog people tend to be emotionally unintelligent maybe dog people are right about cat people dogs are followers whereas cats maintain their independence cats are naturally more for people that accept "dying alone" dog people are more social cos dogs are pack animals animals suit our personality types i guess it depends on the person i know that i make generalizations a lot i think that we just have a deep misunderstanding of the word love loyalty is what makes a dog appealing a cat won't do shit if you get attacked if only paisley would scratch the shit out of an intruder all creatures of this world have a purpose so we don't have to agree or like it, that's just how it is not ALL dog people just most of em plz forgive me, paisley (awwww, she did or she just forget)

nice angle there, it's good to switch it up yawl like these intros any decision feels like the wrong one when living a life of indecision back when i attempted to have a bf hahaha what was the point in catchin me nobody can keep me but God why i get attached to things that don't seem to be worth it i'm lucky to acknowledge this damnity damn i sound like some kinda gutter punk angel you can sway the future to work out in yer favor w/ faith analyze til i cry my eyes out full of doubt in myself so much in between due to the torment of trying to figure out what this or that meant if it seems like i'm ______ that's why i'm sorry if i got chu upset, i didn't mean it i'm just venting is all that sounds like a real ass flute now that sound is so eighties vaporwave i'd like to have a nice thing w/out ruining it i'd like to have a good thing w/out pushing it far far away from me this whole fiasco is making me realize that i should probably change certain aspects of my life b/c they keep proving to be hazardous i'm convinced i do this cos i'm an orphan that has internalized a lotta guilt n shame i am attached to cars like a man my red chevy aveo, fiona *rest in peace, little dinker i blew out the speakers n wrote the Psalms on my car b/c i made it mine it lasted a long ass time she got slaughtered when i made a left hand turn n got t-boned it was a pretty dangerous intersection tho stupid n careless in relation to doing anything where i should be wise and careful i don't wanna be a piece a shit in any kinda way i organized all the dvds yawl, now i just need to do that w/ my music collection maybe i should do a mini-series... am i the sinner anointing my own head guilt n shame like i said it ain't fair to do this to myself (indicative of self-loathing) is it silly for me to try to use a mini cooper to motivate myself

this hat makes me look like a folk singer i've been listening to bob dylan a lot lately so... the right opinions are the ones they won't do anything about save ya face not ya ass even tho you sit on that the man in my head yells at me they are both equally important! i am talking about image here i can't believe that this paper straw hasn't melted into my coffee, it's all soggy n shit i love that flute sound so much it makes sense to save sumin that is actually useful your face is liable to change but not yer ass so concerned about how they look n sound that they look n sound stupid those calling you names dunno much of anything (but neither do you if you care what nincompoops think) defending yourself puts you in their hearse (cos you lack grace) you can't expect grace from the world you just look like you're full a shit i talk about so many things it's kinda ridiculous they'll never do anything that actually helps some BOD EH sometimes i wish i didn't focus on what's so wrong with the world alter ego/persona/whatever the fuck i love it so much so of course imma mess it up n forget what it was haha it was very sweet n innocent sounding i'm so happy to have this over here i have felt so shitty lately, so stressed about my car did this emotional stress allow me to make a bad n impulsive decision based on attachment i don't wanna let it go if there's sumin else i could do (i lost arlo you have to understand) am i settling for unhappiness cos i assume i won't have it in anything else what if i'm just content n loyal to my contentedness i've bought sooooooo many bags of drugs n various items of habit or impulse so...

forgiveness is not being a doormat i became a people displeaser (waaaay easier) did yawl like that choreography there there's that one part of me that wants to be the favorite honesty n humor go a long way if you can't override my negative qualities BYE i don't deal in bullshit i would love it if you had a solid argument i don't react to individual things but bigger picture things i tend to talk about a lotta stuff in one single video, you can't not notice synth drums mf playing music is so much fun so bad that it might be good? doubtful i just love these chords did yawl hear that is it that special time of the night schizophrenia is just God n the Devil in HD it's frightening at first but then you remember the good that's inside of ya i try to ta ta ta tap into that as often as possible you ain't afraid of the darkness cos you see the light that is God which is always inside of you whatever anyone thinks of you is THEIR business (no matter how much they try to make it YOUR business) retaliation ain't worth it debating it just means that you already lost everything is a _____ in some kinda way my mind never stopped being elastic my feelings are bombastic but from over here i hate it when anyone does that at least i can use my ovaries as a reason to be emotional i hate gender *i had to listen to that 5x to hear what i said cos it sounds like i said i hate cheddar haha male artists must be very in touch w/ the female part of them in order to release the emotion of art female artists must be somewhat masculine becuz they have to be in control of their endeavors (we see what happens when they are not but this is also a problem w/ just selling out in general) every industry is all about money n control you wanna just have fun n get drunk but guaranteed someone will wanna fuck, sorry my story musical confessions...the twenties having a stick up your ass vs. throwing out gender completely

i love those dead bears so much all artists are somewhat androgynous, DEAL you gotta be in touch w/ the other side of yer brain both sexes are equally important but for different reasons, that's it why do people get this so twisted everyone makes everything so difficult i get so bored w/ the way of the world in this day n age it is a virtue to keep shits real i have tried 3 x in my entire life to fake it...FAIL! never thought it was possible to keep it close to the vest "help" just destroys our God-given abilities decent people convinced that the wrong thing is the right thing i do feel sorry for em esp if sumin bad happens their life is proof that they don't think about what they do i don't wanna be a judgmental cunt cos it makes God look bad the proof is in the pudding n the pudding is the internet *byebye west civ you can't have shame w/out self-awareness self-control is an undervalued ability a society w/out humility is a very sad society so many people getting the wrong idea of Christianity b/c of bad christians Christians need to get off twitter, there i said it it's not yer responsibility to clean up their mess they're not even talkin what are they doin as if i was even ever an advocate for normalcy hahaha stare at a screen instead of a human being right in front of you i've always wondered what the fuck people are talkin about myself i've always been on the outside you choose to be a victim as you get older adulthood is processing things that happened when you were younger forgiveness is all about you, not them

i get attached to what i know won't stick around ag...too dark? i dunno my mommy, that's typically the reason behind a lot of silly things that i do i know that the world shaped me quite a bit the culture, the nation n my God-forsaken generation so conscious that it's obnoxious i tend to be scared shitless of what i'm supposed to do even ronnit scolded me n that's my bff guilt n shame i suppose? this (ag's existence) is why we can't have nice things two nearly identical injuries on both ring fingers maybe i'm just a dishwasher i hate how i have to dissect everything n there's no room to enjoy anything there are so many things that get stuck in my throat i go w/ the thing that other people tell me to throw away it just meant sumin that warrants emotion is all ag wanna be startin sumin, thank you michael how am i holding myself back w/out realizing it giving up when you don't have to seems a little cold n heartless (at least to me)

lightening my spirits w/ cold coffee my camcorder is always resting on sumin unsturdy (this was a common problem when i shot videos, driving around) paper straws are terrible there is no solution to the plastic straw situation paisley is overcompensating for ag God will truly love you back fuck that poster stare at me (says my cat) there's that ass again we're gonna have to cut down on her food intake n then feed her better (raw diet) i don't eat that much cats wanna eat way more than ag why do we have to coerce our pets into eating the way that they're supposed to it's my fault that my cat is fat i need to stop giving her so many treats now that paisley no longer has to worry about arlo pushing her outta the way of her own food dish it's totally natural for them so it's actually not nasty at all

come back vortex! setting you on the crock pot was obviously not a good idea my pipes were very clogged, now not so much thank God, i dunno what happened but i am grateful i do not have the $ to fix it right now, too much else to worry about w/ my car in the shop i will do what i have to do to keep that mini cooper cos it's such a nice car a terrible driver w/out ice so... i don't wanna end up in the same situation again take care of stuff when you can take care of stuff or else i woulda already had a rental car had i taken care of my license when i shoulda done it i had to get me a "cigarette" since i've been a dishwasher at various jobs for quite some time i will not let shit pile up, my work ethic seems to be the opposite of what i allow in my regular ass life however the older that you get the more you figure out you don't have to have MY standards but at least have SOME kinda standards should people that make bad decisions get govt $ or free housing? w/out self-awareness you won't have empathy why would i take people's opinions seriously when they don't have self-awareness i don't have to be ugly to anyone n that is foolish for people to feel entitled to mistreating people for whatever reason think about how much we deserve but God still forgives us it's a wonder that you still know how to breathe...exactly how are we holding ourselves hostage by a particular idea of who we are...i ask myself this question often if i was supposed to be a different person it probably woulda already happened but you never know when i turned 30 i accepted what i knew as a child i'd rather be in this position even if it appears to be a cope (it always will cos it always is in some kinda way) as long as you're happy w/ yer decisions MOST of the time you made the right one