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i love these comments so much if i were an actual internet person... it's not really that comedic tho, three comments in & i am bored there are so many of the same person, i swear they will never contribute or make anything to improve this world they all act like females on the internet anyway fool for Christ yo it's so hot so i can't even roll the windows down i'm not saying that to be mean no matter how it comes across i always appreciate feedback even if it's bad i ain't gonna engage in worthless banter w/ strangers online they've been foolish this entire time but now they're "red pilled" i ain't even lickin no asshole! people watch ag n become more schizo so i guess they do catch my "disease" thank you ag for reminding me not to trust authority figures why the whole paragraph of life advice then i've always been a contrarian insta!spam makes sense logically considering the type of art that i do my brand is spitting in the face of whatever is popular so not a very successful brand i agree w/ cynicism but not giving up non artists just don't understand the purpose of creativity i will not suck the dick of the system just like the rest of you

not crying is way more of a problem feeling sumin (anything) is a problem? i always felt like an extra human people don't wanna be livin... this sounded like a country song for a brief moment if you don't have this understanding you won't have hope in yourself the direction your life goes is up to you w/out self-awareness you can't do anything different you chose for that to be in front of you whether you realize it or not man i am such a dude, i can see why i always get called sir it's not just me i gotta worry about but there's so much that could happen i'm surprised i don't have anxiety about driving considering... enough accidents to last me a lifetime enough panic attacks to last me 5 lifetimes put myself thru the ringer just to say that i did that shit woke up in piss on my own volition...that's what booze does to women luckily 13 years ago i fucked up so bad that the ambulance got called on me... impeccable timing right there ...and then i blacked out i mean it was a restaurant n all, most people are alcoholics it pains me to say that the last drink i'll ever have (God willing) was a can of pbr in the shower i used to be a total degenerate man that gum is killing me did yawl hear that...somebody just hit the curb which once again was impeccable timing given the subject matter i am discussing ain't nobody gonna be using their phone any less this culture is a nationwide abortion

art is short for artificial this world ain't official, we made it that way ag is a hot n cold mess i wish that people behaved like decent human beings well i guess i will just continue to say these things so many jokes that i don't even perform they'd complain less if they gave an actual fuck you gotta be inconvenienced in order to change anything nobody knows how this shit is gon end even Jesus i highly doubt you're in the know no matter how much you read Revelations God still loves me even tho i'm always late i always cry at some point in the service God loves you no matter what chu do God loves you in spite of you i beat myself up cos i can't use God's love to motivate me to leave the house on time i got up an hr n a half ago...pathetic amy i didn't even have my work shirt when i finally got ready to go my poor mother knows how much of a problem this has always been thanks mom but no thanks the guilt trip will keep me stuck for even longer tho the burning in Hell trick will only work on protestants n quite a few catholics what attracted me to the Orthodoxy was the hyper focus on God's love i ain't got nothin to add to that last statement my brain goes in multiple directions at once technology reduces the grey matter in yer brain how can anybody say that ain't demonic when it's literally dumbing you down n destroying yer memory n consciousness technology is an evil that is nowhere near as necessary as people make it memory of what tho...staring at yer phone the REM cycle is when you store memory so it's kinda critical i really wish it was the end of the world but alas this mf is gonna keep on goin unfortunately the tiny ass sliver that knows ain't enough to shut this shit down it's a white pill cos i have to trust God way more thank you bill gates, thank you

i don't wanna lose this curl i quite obviously need to change the battery what is the point in believing anything if you ain't passionate about it yes i'm willing to die for what i believe in i got standards way too high for most people to comprehend nobody complains about extremists when they push an agenda i've had a lotta time to think about this maybe i'm a threat to them, i dunno i understand why blacks would get offended about THAT one change ain't a business at all count your blessings not your problems, good church billboard right there thanks for insulting me, you helped me grow as a person never expect shit from other people regardless imagine if my mental illness made these kinda demands on people i stopped doin things that made me a burden on others the world does not understand human emotions, go cry in a bathroom stall

i just saw a deer! i told him/her to go back from whence they came they can't just leave anything alone brainwashing the public into believing that this is a civilization i have to be quiet most of the time, hence this channel if what you were saying was true surely there would be studies... i prayed that they wouldn't ask me any questions n luckily my mother is super clumsy so... multiple uses for toothpicks apparently there was a time when i just had to state my opinion the futility of stating an opinion that ain't mainstream no control group when conducting these tests in the beginning proud of my parents for their original skepticism but i knew that eventually they would cave in why would there ever be a study that proves that the medicine is poison my instinct is to not trust authority figures it's totally natural to wanna fit in western civ is esp bad cos there are so many ways to convince the citizens of bullshit many were lucky enough to get the placebo psych meds don't affect those that are wise n resilient apparently hypnosis only works on the majority it seems those w/ conduct disorders or emotional disorders are nowhere near as stigmatized as those w/ thought disorders cutting myself w/ steak knife...MEMORIES! my parents weren't open to psych meds til i was a teenager maybe they are bouncing off the walls cos they were just injected w/ heavy metals i won't take THIS shot but i'll take all the other ones most people ain't ready for all this bigger picture talk it occurred to me after smoking a joint...CLASSIC ag plant life maybe i'm supposed to reconcile w/ this rather than try to snuff it out if it's a challenge it must be wrong most people haven't thought much about anything these doctors can't even explain mental disorders so why should we trust them again there was probably a skunk around these parts it's not my place to tell you what to do they've proven how docile the american public is all those people are gonna cave esp if it comes between them n their phone they love that iphone way more than God, PROVE. ME. WRONG ag representing our ancestors very unoptical over here, WE KNOW you gotta be a freak of nature to not go along i guess cool people will accept this information, boring people will accuse me of not really knowing em n continue to be a total piece a shit the tv has made us so dang predictable those of us w/ a personality disorder have more of an opportunity to learn from our experience i don't desire to be part of this world too much being rejected by this world is a compliment i'd much rather people use their phones for sumin positive but many are just scrolling on tik tok

i dropped acid ten yrs ago should i do it again if i were more organized i'd be unstoppable maybe they won't kill me after all i've always been paranoid i'm sure they could track my flip phone if they really wanted to now it's time to horrify you w/ my lack of musical talent if i was any better at this it wouldn't be what it is any attempt to clean up this mess is futile being adopted literally means you are a mistake thank you thomas dolby just don't have sex, why is this so hard i probably wouldn't have listened if somebody had actually pulled me aside n said all that up in canada they are pretty much encouraging people to commit suicide history of mental illness means history of taking medication all the ways to kill yourself in west civ slow suicide vs. literal suicide really think about it before you do it imma lose subs for this one, oh well bye if you know what you're doin you can do whatever you want the govt is sooooo good at being loving n compassionate i have thought a lot about these worst case scenarios mother teresa was a sadist that ran a sex trafficking ring they only have the capacity for instant gratification it's fine to feel however you feel about certain things w/out God in yer heart satan will infiltrate yer mind the more conscious a person becomes the less likely they are to believe bullshit that bitch was way too excited to put that dog down many are in the medical profession for the wrong reason cluster B people wanna control so it figures that if they are functional members of society they would choose to work in fields where they can do that harsh words for those working for the pharmaceutical co the various shades of sociopathy she was probably a malignant narcissist i really didn't want checkers to be taken out by that bitch politics of religion get in the way of righteous judgment when it's not all in yer mind that's when you can make a more permanent decision i hope i ain't that same shithead people don't try hard enough to improve upon their situation you are what chu eat...sooooo gmos and yes the plan was to make people gay n depressed n docile

i reckon you just won't work for what chu want back in the day i didn't do this sorta thing n i was miserable too cowardice to just end it musical confessional, the way i used to live everything has consequences, FACTS doin the right thing won't mean you will prosper being right doesn't make shit easier just be happy that you are doing the right thing be grateful that you have information they don't have, just walk away they won't listen to you anyway of course the tv tells em what to eat take that fucking shot (booze not v) always be a good example of what chu want from the world everything is $ these days more females in congress? no thankyou donald trump will be the last button i hit in 2020, never again they will choose swine every. time i swear they cloned his ass maga heads are totally delusional they just love their bullshit too much former delusion: ag thinking she can have a boyfriend example after example of cognitive dissonance the mental illness problem has been exacerbated by the internet the people of the world wanna keep trusting it they still trust the same doctors if they ain't brainwashed they're fuckin psychopaths schizo privilege, who knew i don't blame you for leaving why would i go back to the same place that i hate so i can keep bitching about it united states of dumb fuck every 5min our ancestors turn in their graves over sumin else most of these mfs that do cool shit are in the shadows don't tell your friends about me, they won't get me any women that like me probably also hate women everywhere you go there are overly sensitive candyasses

i look like shit hahaha i always play the same chords in roughly the same location carrying on as if nothin's wrong...CLASSIC american shitbag even tho there's viable proof they'll act like they don't see it i don't choose to be on the receiving end but i choose to listen to it i made a decision a long time ago to leave society they choose deception in a way beautiful sunset right there they love the sun, they worship that thing can yawl see how fucked up my nose is this is what is going on inside my head at all times just taking that one step changed my life forcing myself to engage in ways that are unfamiliar to me all these cowards talkin shit on the internet cos they ain't got nothin goin for em, it's obvious i can always tell that you dunno me well oh! if only your criticism was constructive some criticize cos they care for they are more aware than the rest of em, others (most) criticize cos they are cowards that got offended by sumin they gotta know this on some level imagine waking up n doin nothin but staring at yer phone communication ain't communication nothin is what they say it is so don't trust em i dig how i change the tempo, very reminiscent of my anxiety haha no schadenfreude no matter how arrogant i sound, i pity dem sheep excessive information will always get chu called crazy n i get why once you know the truth you can't look back scratch that eyeball bitch THE laziest eye in america, it always looks hammered

smoothie mouth or die it is clairvoyance! it might also be delusion haha that tempo is messing me up they will say whatever they wanna say n i'll be whatever they want me to be this was always an everybody problem every day we're so self-indulgent we always make it about us it's offensive to have fun in your own way too many people have called me weird for me to not agree w/ them if i'm not like everyone then i'm really having fun all they know how to do is stare at their govt tracking device this ain't no smartphone, this is a camcorder bitch i'm not gonna make it any easier for them why are you trying to fix it if it ain't fixable they can so they're gonna, i mean it's about gullibility more than anything the L is obviously insecure they will always take personal offense when you don't do what they do there ain't nothin to defend in this astroturf country i don't even know the words but imma do it anyway thom yorke has literal shut eye...ptosis which is a droopy eye, i feel bad now i can't do a lotta shit this happens a lot in kitchens, it's fine i will agree to anything my hispanic coworker asks of me haha i always feel like i'm speaking a different language than the earth people they really just dunno what to say, amy most don't agree w/ me much nobody wants to be held accountable for anything if God can't fix it, maybe it ain't supposed to be fixed this channel is a reminder to myself i just saw a bitch w/ blue harr i had pink harr when i was 21 i submitted to him for like a min hahahaha i know that i still look like a liberal lunatic liberals would definitely make that color selection today, also does anyone remember the nineties? that is a machine that actually works becuz it completes very simple tasks if machines malfunction when they get too complicated what does that say about the humans that use them everyone's so used to being miserable they get mad if you point it out i remember wikipedia back in the day i'd like to think that i'm finally livin my life right they don't have good examples of living right hey man did you know that it doesn't have to be this way meaning n purpose n peace...no time for all that

imma make you wait for this good news his g/f kicked him outta the house, that's what happened a surface level apology is still better than nothin i'll take what i can get from a narcissist psycho-analyze as a defense disorders make sense out of a lotta behavior not everyone has a personality disorder, amy whether your explanation is religious or clinical doesn't really matter that much it would be in your best interest to try to understand what's going on if you still have to interact w/ that person once you put all the pieces together the puzzle really ain't that interesting this is why so many political people are narcissists he apologized again for being a bad brother his controlling g/f doesn't wanna be w/ him anymore but i never thought much of her rumble is going apeshit w/ the ads n promotions if they're doin it w/ me then you know shit is getting pretty lame out there nobody in their right mind would promote my ass what ag does is not marketable all people do these days is shit themselves that's a fun little sound to make, allow me damnit some people (most actually) are not amused do you have to have a disorder to have a personality i never know if the person complimenting is actually just a troll the internet makes people way more boring than they already were everything sheds, not just that thing if you really wanted to hurt my feelings watch more of my content n THEN insult me i could nuke all these comics but i won't do it cos i have a conscience eg candace owens she's also on the L which doesn't make any sense considering i'm pretty sure this bitch has histrionic personality cos she is soooooo dramatic i would never do that cos that's fucked up i just waved at the passenger in a student driver car cos they waved at me so many other comics have talked at me on stage these comics don't have any material that's why they're so jealous, also their opinion won't change mine i really don't like this country n i ain't gonna pretend that i do i can still see the value of certain aspects of this place but mental freedom is pretty challenging for most to come by the freedom of mobility n say no n walk away...that is american come on back vortex i just turned my windshield wiper on by accident you dunno what's gonna happen when i shoot a video always trying to find a better more palatable way to say these controversial things there are certain people that i probably won't ever reach but if i just work a little harder maybe i could affect a larger demographic i can't control your preconceived notions always looking forward to lame comments from my beloved internet trolls they also dunno what they do or why they do it if your opinion didn't resonate the first time it probably won't the eleventh time your insult has failed, try again i insult myself far better than they ever can so few good women w/ self-awareness i will lie down in rush hour traffic for a good woman 1 outta every 10 comments they're trying to appeal to me so they clearly want my attention yes my coworkers meow at me n of course i am late

beautiful sky right there not getting plowed into is nice that shit has happened twice damn i look so old dress nice means don't dress the way that you normally do we will always look at people this way damn vortex, i'm sorry bout the sound that's that woman shit my comedy wasn't as good as it couldve been had i not been so bitter five oh again my personal politics the east room is tryin too hard to be portland be prepared to show yer guinea pig card...even in a red state i love judson for this shit i had every intention of never going back to that mf but ronnit demanded that i go i was already in nashville anyway i guess i am too stuck in my ways the point i am trying to make will never be proven i'm not seeing porn on insta!spam at least not yet i can still hate it but becuz of that i will probably never be very good at it haha since we're in the worst of the seven deadly sins month what do i take pride in that's bad for me i usually wait to watch my comedy set so i know that i am growing as a person haha it was way better than it was up there such an awkward gal think again pick somebody else plz everyone talks about sex the entire time this dude sounded like such a girl i felt sorry for him important to know where we "stand" right now as a society if they believed in God they would think more of themselves n not need others to validate them i actually really liked the silence this time it doesn't matter what they get n when, amy i just remind em of andy kaufman is all if only i were more of a normie i'd be so much further along but alas not motivated enough to work on my jokes too bad i won't ever do that sistine chapel bit kyler has an adorable rotweiler i can't stop shit talking comedy venues, bad amy bad i never went, i didn't leave work til around 6 also i never looked up where it was cos i didn't wanna go haha i've been able to get on shows n mics all cos i'm the weird gal my liver was failing. it really was tho delivery is everythang the last thing on my mind at the time was purity traditional would mean not online most of the time i am just so outdated cos i don't give a fuck about relevance why do we rely on everyone else to inform us or tell us what's important these comments are so funny to me i don't have internet brain, sorry i'm just not interested no actual opinions or passions SAD! these people are just players in this game + those lovely mason hand symbols for the camera why do you take yourself so seriously when this is what you do all day i'm ridiculous but i'm still more serious than you resilience always speaks for itself i live on my soapbox damnit

i gotta force myself to do things that i don't wanna i can explain a lotta things very easily i don't think that a lotta my issues will ever go away mental illness is a get outta jail free card literally fuck you person behind me w/ bright ass lights the bartender gave me a tampon, sweet girl trance! "women" don't have tampons for me i am horrified by what is happening to young girls right now no, not autistic sorry to disappoint you seeing it for what it truly is will get you committed i don't wanna quit all cos it got too hard psych meds mean giving up on yourself i was never more likely to do anything on a mood stabilizer many would rather zombie out than face their shit too many side effects n it still doesn't fix anything snopes is funny if you know what it actually is shout out to red lobster, thanks ronnit people typically don't look up anything that ain't mainstream the backwards cap is sooooo nineties...CLASSIC ag medication is very modern so it figures that most people in today's society would just go along w/ it i really enjoy driving any form of travel is enjoyable to me the freedom of mobility is truly appreciated over here i know i'm not a very good driver but i am trying harder to be better considering how nice of a car this is you know i would suggest weed female plant: psychosis, male plant: stablizer

i put up the bad stuff to let chu know that i'm human gonna keep doin it regardless of your opinion on my "art" if you care what they think you will fail you can't let it derail the train you're on if you're this way you can get thru it i promise i got nauseous but oh well i was crying before i went up there hahahahaha as many times as it takes... it's okay that you're not where you think you outta be...you don't have to be anywhere i know that he's lying when he says i disappoint God so ronnit's daughter's bf committed suicide by downing his whole bottle of anti-depressants most of the time i am right about all this stuff correlations can't be found when you're not lookin their blind trust of those in authority like head drs does frustrate me psychiatry is not real medicine. actually FUCKING ALL OF IT dude back in the day we used to say gay in a different way, gay just meant lame deal w/ yer shit, it ain't up to anyone else damnit maybe you're not a victim all cos you're sad maybe you're just a human having an experience all i'm trying to do is help cos help don't help you can't treat what's in yer head n yer heart pretend you're the therapist n ask yourself some questions maybe you're so depressed cos you are on your phone all the time that negative voice in your head is gonna get louder n louder many have voices n don't realize they have choices i am definitely sick of these two chords

musical explanation real quick supposedly a free country so i can do whatever i want w/in reason i that bass a lot the keys represent this gnawing feeling that i can't get away from it's not bad when i'm alone but unfortunately i gotta interact w/ society not gonna succeed sorry there's that tidal wave that i was looking for don't make demands on me dear world why would you try to please em when they would never do that shit for you the lie that they sell you contrary to your very nature i have to confront this right now 4:37...CLASSIC ag insult comic receipts damnit receipts the east room reminds me too much of my high school theatre class i just wanted to see my friends nothing changes, it's just musical chairs it seems standup comedy is really depressing i guess i am just too analytical to enjoy anything for me it's hard enough to just get out getting out is such a miracle, why would i even work on jokes my strengths are your weaknesses n vice versa what i do is more profound than funny n then the opposite of that it's entertaining to me right now you're probably not making anything of your own tho i never seem to talk about what i wanna, i say a buncha other shit that seems meaningless is it entertaining? if not you're on your phone per usual at least they leave the house so they obviously know more than i do authenticity doesn't serve anyone, it is not valued in the freest country in the world i dunno what to do cos it always surprises me when females like me at all haha am i just projecting cos it wasn't what i was expecting so broken n enslaved to my pain n lack of self-esteem reptilian skin is not female liberal women are obviously not traditional but that is definitely an issue if you claim to be conservative i'll never have that normal shit, i guess that's why i do comedy not that i really wanted it but that part of me is still there being a total outcast ie freak i can't be comfortable w/ other people, it's just the way it is i am kinda special tho, too much empathy i feel like imma bust every time i step outside, which is why i refrain from doing so this one mic on friday is supposed to be really good way more cons than pros but we shall see all the really good comics have left or they are touring how many x am i gonna keep reiterating, sorry bout that

i actually did standup at the east room again i kept saying i wasn't gonna go back there thank God for ronnit keha too much of a snob for my own good if i didn't have these parts of me so difficult to deal w/ that one person in the audience that really really REALLY gets it IS worth it but also not haha don't chu miss people staring off into the distance people watching now is people watching people watching tv i'm not wrong to be depressed or stressed about the way that things are maybe i'm just not supposed to have that i have what they don't cos i made a different kinda sacrifice every time i come thru here the roads are total shit that's the man in my head by the way thank you stoplight that was nice timing we are so lucky to be driving this mini cooper! are there layers to this or not bellybutton was right about this esp in comedy i am exaggerating his black voice, sorry lloyd the explanation kinda rubs in their lack of understanding sometimes i wish i didn't explain everything so much, that's why i call it anti-art show don't tell damnit *but this is confession anytime i come up w/ an idea right before i go up it always works i just hate what i do w/ the keyboard on stage they like that awkward shit for some reason finally ronnit sat in on my set (she's usually outside smoking weed) she has a witch's cackle n yes i call her my jew peace n quiet would be nice but it doesn't make $ ronnit made me do it, damnit you can't tell a jewish woman no, that's why it's a stereotype

i love josh lewis, he's one of my favorite people in this comedy scene i'd much rather be at my house that's not funny ronnit, you're the main reason i am out here comedy n suicide are very similar i am most definitely a wife to my house, totally committed the silence is actually kinda pleasant i wish that the AI stuff wasn't a psych op, i hope it kills everybody i will educate you on what's funny damnit glad i believe in God enough to not have a smartphone i never missed the east room that organ count joke was pretty clever, if only i'd work on my damn jokes at least i am not one of those comics that insists on finishing the joke, i will just leave cos i don't wanna be a nuisance the Holy Water was sumin i thought of immediately before i went up there n it worked really well

i do not wanna fucking being here ronnit dragged me out here the first time i came here i was the last one on the list i still get nervous no matter how many x i have done this everything is still just like middle school every phase of life is strikingly similar to the last one

maybe that "problem" ain't a problem you're seeing things that they can't but maybe your perception is right everything about this culture is wrong i really don't enjoy being confrontational i'll allow my existence to prove these points comparing n contrasting is very bad for us total strangers in our heads now, critiquing us what isn't yours truly aware of? i'm sure quite a lot the only one you should be competing w/ is yourself could you just be putting up a picture social media is our brains on pcppcppcppcppcp check out this cat, that's me in disguise cats are the anarchists of society cat people: shame em for knowing how to be alone this is what social media does to your avg american "brain" they take pride in their haughtiness social media has provided a false consciousness I HATE WOMEN...there clip that show me a woman that ain't proud to behave badly you can't do anything when you don't have awareness treat women like they are mentally challenged crazy bitches have to stick together they love dem some psycho bitches if it goes along w/ the progressive agenda why would they take it down religious nutjob is a compliment, honey

it doesn't pain me to be different you can't shame me for not thinkin like them lookin round me at all these people watchin tv... distractions from the in betweens they always accuse me of not getting it but... establish the work of our hands, okay Lord got it you don't have to see it my way for me to continue most would get discouraged by now but here i am still i hope that God is never disappointed in me like i used to be every time i stand in line at communion actually in my bag...liquor that i didn't pay for nothin cool about being a piece a shit knowing the whole time that it was the wrong thing professing my appreciation for the One that saved me ironic that i'm Orthodox considering... Christians have a knack for misinterpreting the Bible we must have the patience of a software engineer it takes time to get to a good place God continued to save me til i discovered His Son high life is right it won't mean shit if they get into it for the wrong reason n they will be quite thwarted like the fair majority of Christians

sometimes i wish this cold brew was a red stripe i don't wanna be conscious anymore can you tell how lazy my eye is contemplating suicide is not the problem if i really wanted to kill myself i'd just take some zoloft all in all it's been about ten years i miss the intensity of that original setup no longer making milkshakes for drunk people at 3am...SAD! you are stupid for choosing machines who's to say that it's wrong for kids to kill their parents if they have em hooked on technology society pushes bad parenting machines are a headache. technology has created an ongoing migraine satan is lazy, that's why he used women first most people in the world are pieces a shit you don't have to do horrible things to be a shithead this world's job is to gaslight you this country has never served its' shitizens the point is not to win an imaginary contest my existence is such a pain in the ass, that's why i have sciatica is it ironic or is it just reality i miss father andrew so much i think about him a lot cos i still swear quite a bit if i ever went to a monastery i'd never return i don't wanna turn my back on what i'm supposed to do it's already bad enough being on the internet people were telling me to do this since 2005 schizotypal is pretty weird bdpd taught me about psychosis schizophrenic.nyc is the name of the channel "psychotic episode": talking to oneself once you become aware you can no longer react if you can rise to the challenge your reward is in heaven mental illness ain't suffering, sillyheads God has always got my back so... the devil has managed to manipulate many people into thinking that they need a smartphone i'm pretty resilient for an american technology enables laziness pot dealer vs psychiatrist

my track record tends to make me out to be a cunt if i say things that make you think i'm not sorry why am i so angry n triggered by ______ my content appeals to those that wanna know why they probably don't even say bye cos they're assholes anything conventional is pretty unappealing to me when i was a kid i didn't think i would ever want all the stuff that the adults have feminism is just another way to hold women hostage women will either submit to a man or a college professor i can be very stupid but admission means that the stupidity goes down a notch more likely to make a lotta mistakes in total arrogance sorry for the sound yawl being in your element is a lot like humility, once you recognize it you're out of it what if i tried to push schizophrenic ideas, i wonder what would happen there anarchist talking point, they always get it wrong feminism is just part of the machine, i'm an anarchist women have been having abortions for a long time abortion is of the devil responsibility will never be pushed in society cos they can't make $ off of that

why can't i just be over here damnit why is it controversial, i'm not trying to get myself into trouble getting sent to the principal's office... stupid shit that i either did or didn't do or said or didn't say the pledge of allegiance teaches children to comply n do what they're told n read off the script chanting propaganda in sequence first thing in the morning 5 days a wk before "education" time i'm not in any boxes that they put me in i was trying to see which markers worked i can see why people think i have autism i feel mostly bad energy coming from everywhere no harr clip, oh well if i leave my phone at home by accident it gives me an additional boost of self-righteousness a little resilience goes a long way i'm willing to try new shit cos i don't wanna just make excuses for my severe lack of punctuality

what can i do to remedy this problem that i have consistently on time whenever i wrecked my car cos i required rides i wear my seatbelt incorrectly if i wear it at all i got a $30 ticket for not wearing my seatbelt right back in like 2013 so i put the weed in a banana peel... tips for potheads in case you're still living in a mj unfriendly state always be cool w/ the cop police should be men period point blank if he already knows don't lie about it but to the drug lords out there... why wouldn't they stereotype if they can make $ off you the world will not change no matter how "woke" it gets if cops are profiling it means that's what the entire govt is doing also minorities tend to do their own drugs the vast majority of white liberal women are on ssris n mood stabilizers nothing will stabilize a woman's mood, sillyheads that's just the way that we are those that don't accept this about us will be screwed over by the worst of us know what you're dealing w/ b4 you start dealing w/ it

i don't play this one very often $ or attention or substances or themselves if i wanted to worship myself i wouldn't do what i do 5.5 K videos damnit i have no idea what i'm playing, i'm just hitting the notes i can't make up my mind sorry if it annoys you (it annoys me too) like i said living in the 5th dimension part of the camera crew is in awe of me i get excited about making music trying to play whatever this is inside of me i don't give into temptation from the world but my own version of it everything is an alternate version of the original version but what is that again black n white is my shit when i'm alone i'm in my zone welcome to my private sector of the "real world" what the mf is the real world oh man that is terrible hahahahahaha i don't mfing hate it but i don't like it as much as the camera crew likes it at the time that i make it i give myself too much flack n then i take it back question me babies lauren will always provide Bible verses whenever i say sumin fucked up accountability is a good thang i named this dinosaur after john dewey the mf responsible for inventing public school proverbs 24:27-18 i don't hate people anymore, i don't think i ever did but i do get bitter about their shithead behavior (no point in hating the elite, they are just actors essentially)

i actually wrote down some thoughts i haven't written anywhere near as much as i used to i got a buncha new furniture for my museum ie head depressing chords for the world that we live in i always feel so lucky to see any wild animals i'm brilliant when i'm not trying the man in my head tells me what to do so i don't need you i don't like to be admired cos there's too much expectation when i make music i can rhyme the way that i do in my own little world this is the surreal world the cubby holes were the best thing about public school this is just nurture running its' course of course there will be angles that i miss but i got a front row seat to myself of course it reminds of a fiona apple song once you become aware of the filter you can break it if it was an actual fantasy it would be so much better "more insanity from this woman" CORRECT they ain't ever gonna watch anything i do all the way thru if you wanna grow a lot as a person marginalization helps the outcasts always have a clearer understanding of the world whatever they had to offer is gone now cos they are being forced into the mainstream there's no authenticity anymore due to everything being essentially televised why would you take pride in anything sexual anyway, it's just senseless i don't wanna argue w/ anyone over their experience their criticism is completely outdated what happens on the tv only happens on the tv i'm the type of woman that david lynch would write films about i can't focus on anything long enough to get shit done why won't you come out n play, higher self it ain't about the other kids on the playground amy n you know it it wouldn't have meant as much to me if i had discovered this when i was younger i am just amazed when i don't mess up i have to remind myself to go to bed left to my own devices i will be up to 6 or 7am i'm not doing this to piss you off, i'm just doin it plz don't take it personally that i'm different tell em the truth n most will leave these voices are fun for me anything that can be creative, trust that part of yourself n you will be way cooler w/ all the stuff that they tell you to run away from still not wearing my seatbelt right, CLASSIC ag "rule following" i used to intentionally be bad just to see if i could succeed they all sound the same after awhile i will always have that nineties sound in my head since that's when i grew up it might just be total shit, they will probably lemme know tho i will still do it no matter what people think don't make us come out there, awww tire discounters knows that comedy is dead i used to be pretty low but now most of the time i'm pretty ecstatic i caught the baby (vortex) before it fell off the roof (dashboard) i can't see myself in the situation not even hypothetically i tend to ruin shit so i don't need things that require a fuck ton of responsibility don't beat yer kids if they're gay so many people are into that pride shit cos their parents were too strict women that hate their dads are a lot like homosexuals in today's world no room for me in the lgbt should i start identifying as a multiplication sign considering... finally! a joke this is my attempt at organization God made us this way n God loves us this way