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these chords are pretty sick i have a lotta videos to watch, i've been slacking i have to trust in this even if some of it is sick sometimes my heart is black too pussified n pansied out to understand you just run right back around to the thing you were running from repeating the cycle that you don't even know about there's always someone else to blame yer problems on i like to be challenged i'm low and then i'm high, just like my life don't be afraid of it, it's just a part of ya God is always w/ ya, just know that no free mason bullshit over here

are you ever sure what you're living for doubt is part of existing on this planet hypocrisy as i understand it i don't pat myself on the back all cos i'm over here i don't need to be proven all that i suspected when i was a kid i just pay more attention that's all at least when i fall i know why it happened it ain't much of a luxury since i can't just blame other people for all my problems getting low no longer scares me, so used to it they're so afraid of a negative feeling i've made it a point to understand every feeling the lsd is on lsd there's extra of me, i multiplied myself every version understands the other versions i can't play the same thing if i wanted to so on key n then soooooooo off key haha it's okay if i get in my way accepting that i'm not perfect is the first step is anything bliss other than the Kingdom did yawl see the five oh

when somebody asks you to do sumin on the spot always tell them no i don't like to tell people i'm a comedian for this reason i didn't wanna stop feeling like crap, i wanted to understand it imma take a flashlight n spend the night in this cave all to analyze surprisingly i don't like being angry so many unresolved issues that nobody wants to work on they repeatedly make themselves victims once you realize this about society, you won't let the sheep bring you down if you grow as a result of sumin that you deemed bad at the time, what's to regret

that's a really cool shot right there yes you saw that right...that's an mvp card (food lion) my work, oreillys, multiple dumpsters ag is yer favorite mental ill anything worth a shit is gonna be a challenge the New Testament vindicated my disdain for this world everything you want is in yer mind it shouldn't piss me off that the wind is blowing the wind is ruining the warmth they meowed at me over the speaker being weird is just more fun i wouldn't have it any other way they're just jealous cos all they do is get on their phone lexi is part black man voice when i'm talking to female she was in one other video from like two years ago confusing people is so easy to do esp now i can't not sound like a cunt so... i don't have the ability to stick to anything my life is more interesting merely becuz of my lack of routine my life is absurd becuz it's arbitrary i'd rather be a mess than boring as fuck

the only reason i am early is cos i went to a funeral embracing love and the difficulty of loss important that we be reminded that this shit still exists easy to despair when focusing on the negative i used to feel like i was owed sumin grievances either justifiable or exaggerated ain't worth the trouble holding onto a resentment hurts you so much more everybody has talent, they just dunno it it took me 30yrs to realize i was funny enough to do comedy comedy made sense outta my weird ass experience you clearly dunno who you're talking to, bruh very disturbing to think of how many people don't question themselves ever patience is a virtue that carries a lot of weight...i saw that on a church billboard like 15yrs ago it will still be what it's supposed to be

it would be amazing if only i could play it right if i add too much i will mess myself up but i can't not cos that's what my brain does ever have a creepy neighbor w/ a really awesome dog (criminal minds episode right there) this is kinda eighties synth wave everything is an opportunity i wouldn't be authentic for this if everyone thought like this i wouldn't have to do this so much, of course i'd find more shit to sing about, happier stuff i hope reading big ass book on aleister crowley, it makes a lotta sense outta this century so lucky to have Sumin to turn to any second, every second i wish i could say that but i need to be reminded yawl like that baconator poster over there any problem i can either solve it or not solve it some of the Divine Liturgy is minor n depressing but it's okay Lord have mercy x2 happier happier happier...dark to light i need to go into my home n take a shower but here we are doin what we do being creative is more fun, how do people handle this life being so humdrum we can make whatever the fuck we wanna make they'll never see that they can clean up this place if they actually wanted to america doesn't suck becuz of bad politicians bad education is to be expected i hate hypocrisy so much hence the vitriol not gonna be a hypocrite SPECIFICALLY in that way that casino in yer pocket *your mind is now a slot machine instincts are very good the general public acts like they're on xanax

eventually this camera work is gonna be the absolute best (also, the songs) too busy scrutinizing the rest of it whatever they're throwing away might be crucial information glad to be a woman in spite of the complications they want women to forsake our compassion, fuck you it's hard to be a human in this world lookin round i no longer think it's a problem that i'm a sponge i'm sure i sound arrogant n ignorant but i'm not, man i am willing to admit that i'm wrong n i wanna learn how horrible n useless would i be if i was done learning many many people should just off themselves since they ain't tryin everybody in society is a teenie tiny example you'll live a way better life if you are conscious of the difference you can make cheapest camcorder i could find even if it made their lives less convenient, it'd be better for society i always pretend that you ask x3 nobody could replace or understand that you're not alone in this world if you have God if you're alive in Christ you don't die alone silly heads as if reality is not gonna happen all cos you... false hope in sumin that they think is gonna save em...well we don't fall for bullshit (at least not for very long) maybe i'm wrong n you won't die alone, after all i just wrote the sweetest little tribute to the sheep not in this world, man being an alien in this world means that you're doin sumin right

pipe organ sound they'll never wake up it pays to stay asleep it's society's fault that the state is so reliably unreliable DIY approach, anti-protocol i have an idea of what i want it to be an artist is satisfied 2% of the time we'll eventually get to that place where we dream we'll be ba ba ba ba ba ba ba BORING they leave cos i said sumin that i reckon they didn't like too much i fuck up a lot, man i'm embarrassed cos i'm not perfect, that pretty much sums it up i doubt myself n think i'm no good at all God would prefer us to be contrite better to not be too bright, lookin to God for the light i can break at any time n often do Romans 8:24 CLASSIC ag camera work, yo welcome

no more memory for society i'm so grateful that i remember all these things not much in common w/ them anymore so we kinda grew apart from eachother pajama pants n sweatshirt every. single. day remember when there wasn't wifi fuck memes, BORING! it's not just simple, it's uncreative it's either a statement or an unfunny joke how clever can you be using that art form in favor of censorship? shut up n kill yourself you fucking nazi no talent n no honesty so not surprising if you have an issue w/ someone don't pay attention to them why wouldn't narcissists hang out on the internet all day turmeric hands...so proud why draw attention to content that you hate you say grey rock i say grey boulder you are giving their ego a lotta food yawl dig this bag, i think it's hilarious devoting extra time/attention to someone that gets off on that doesn't really work out for you in the long run (or the short run either)

don't care much bout the camera work i feel like i'm on speed imma say AMAZING things how bout that don't be a traitor now there are many things to do besides watch my channel i always forget that i need to get over, i need to just go a different route i gotta wait for a lotta mfs plenty of things to do w/out a phone by several years i mean like twenty haha we have typically been pretty stoned @ fambly get togethers for obvious reasons trivial moments but maybe not no longer processing information from their heads anymore i've never had the same ideas about authority n social status most of em are decent, a small faction are evil this is important cos we say it is you're a loser if you don't buy this ______ none of these people, places n thangz deserve this elevation you just now figured this out, stfu i don't believe in my driving capabilities in case you missed the video where i spun around on the ice n hit a guard rail you like my little road dittys losing control of a vehicle was a pretty scary experience i was super lucky that nobody else was involved in that last accident gliding across the interstate is just the best hello n goodbye bmw i had no idea what luxury car really meant until i started driving thelonious/miles (mini cooper)

i am easily enthralled i will play way better when you're not around i wish this wasn't so but it is so why i'd choose a pet over a relationship every time that i have a guy i just push him far far away coffee break, speaking of pets just look at this mug if you're not making babies you gotta be making sumin fuckin do sumin when you have a track record of mistakes you start to see yourself as nothing more than that just trust God cos there's nothin else to trust pugs seem expensive n they have health problems due to horrible breeders purposely giving them breathing difficulty it's never a sip but a gulp don't think that i don't ever have doubts i don't freak out like i used to the wrong information has made everyone crazy having to pee is what happens when you drink coffee, amy it's funny that my friend bought me that n i ain't even a mom i would never reject a bag w/ depictions of boobies i'll get back to you if i ever remember...

hats are fun n quite stylish my harr ain't my strong suite one little thing can change everything denim reminds me of the time that i grew up now that everyone is going thru some nostalgic phase, i am trying to get out of it go figure i wish i didn't know all this shit i can't help but react to myself i internalize what i wanna say to everyone for the most part cos i don't wanna compromise or mince words i'll give you a schpiel in my bathroom i think it's good now i'm reaping the rewards from doin the work i explored my shadow self until there was nothin left genuinely epic not hashtag epic maybe i can't fathom this cos i'm not supposed to yet this has gotta be purgatory america is hell in a lotta ways i already told you i was crazy the piano sounds like it could be an actual song i like doin this more than i like doin anything else i limit my contact w/ the world as much as i can get away w/ the devil is trying to make me feel guilty about not going along w/ the world He will forgive you cos He genuinely wants to i hope the Lord is pleased w/ what i do i need my cowbell, i haven't used it in awhile

meltdown or melt up? both my parents have "covid" right now forget everything we know about tom hanks, pretend that he is nothing more than an actor i don't wanna blame the world for everything my life is just like the green mile seeing the truth about the world is grueling everyone is a sliver of what they could be i don't have much hope for the human race that's a cool shot of my coffee mug right there i can't unchoose it for them hopefully my life is an inspiration there's only one ag damnit my harr has always been super thin so this is no surprise i tried wearing a veil at church but it just didn't feel right i grow my harr out for God, only Jesus can see me Orthodox stands for right belief, not right rules i don't understand why protestants don't just become orthodox what isn't culty these days tho cheers to liking where you go n what you do 1 corinthians 10:31 why do people like the internet so much everyone's just yelling at each other society just keeps getting dumber n dumber if it's artificial it's not really strange a lotta people don't have to be paid to lie honesty is a beautiful thing b/c it's ugly anyone that gets mad at honest people is a pansie i love my hats, arlo ate up this hat arlo's love for eating clothes is what killed him RIP, arlo passed away 4-16-23

i'd rather talk it thru than lose a friendship i hate tension, let's talk about it i have a much easier time talkin to my work fambly than my regular ass fambly i didn't start talkin to my fambly again until i started doin standup that's the perfect place to pass no excuse to be driving this slow, amy my comedy was lame due to unresolved anger anytime you think that sumin is a waste that is a thought from the evil one why wouldn't i trust myself about...myself i have been in some major accidents so... i didn't wanna drive in the first place all these conventional things were never my idea my parents are a lot of the reason why i do comedy my dad refused to clap at my graduation, i understand now (he probably shouldn't have acted that way but i forgive him) i failed my best subject cos it was the last period of the day high school was a good time for the boomers the nineties was when they started inoculating kids out the wazoo gotta have my pops...that cereal was crap it probably is plastic tho you can't enjoy anything made in america once you know i had the sneaking suspicion but i could still tell myself that i was just full a shit america is mattel, essentially authority figures don't like people that they can't control i was in a bad place mentally which is why i did so many bad things fuck trump was the no1 thing i heard haha trump proved how infantilized society is mind control thru status quo why america is the best (and worst) country that's why i'm here (hiding in the bushes) i get excited when i see other mini coopers the more i apply this logic the better my day neuroplasticity makes all the difference think of the movie groundhog day i dunno how i got an equinox outta a highlander my visuals are always sumin else haha

i dig that tree behind me, don't chu visuals are so addictive ain't they the camcorder is attached to a tripod which is on a group of bags, you will hear it very shortly there go you my apathy about that i shoot whenever i want, no goal other than to just be myself i talk to my car always w/out confidence you gotta come up w/ a story about who you think you are social media is a congregation of insecure people since it's an actual toothpick... psych troubles everywhere normies tend to be terrified of me, no pride there actually, it's just the way it is maybe there's some reverse bitterness or sumin imma hold you baby vortex i ain't protecting the vortex from nothin we were swerving, now we're not not good logic there but that's okay this is such a nice fuckin car it could always be an undercover cop tho any other bu cars same miles davis album, don't care (blue haze, 1956) if you don't like jazz yer palate just ain't refined n i pity you

this friend of mine is actually working on herself now, prayers work damnit bdpds are easier than narcissists i understand emotions quite well narcissists don't have any interest in understanding themselves or their emotions n they're not funny if you can't laugh at yourself, you suck superficial as fuck, i hate self-deprecation as a defense mechanism both bdpds n narcissists have the issue of a fragmented self, it's just that bdpds are more aware of this n open/honest about it gamut is the right word! definitely a classic borderline but at least not a bloody narcissist at least the sociopath has fun some of the time i pity the cluster Bs but i still desire to destroy them buying gifts for everyone is a way to acknowledge fucking up fuck that, i hate roads damnit such a pretty sight right there this is the ag center why did i go this way, i always hate this turn right here it scares me so that's why it was so busy over the weekend back when i barely graduated high school it was right here, man that was a long ass time ago, almost 20 years you mean mail man, amy remember that gender controversy i hate school with a passion the parts of the govt that are bad are the ones that involve societal roles i got yelled at a lot in public school, imagine that

every seven to thirteen min... idolize vs idealize...both starting w/ the letter i, now doesn't that make so much sense the L pinky is lazy compared to the R pinky i've always known that there was only one God *Christianity is not polytheistic! can you see me back peddling? pardon my thinking i hate impatient people, it's how i grew up so i ain't about that life they are actually very similar, like synonyms for one another I dea LIES your assessment of them does sumin for you, it's never really about them but what you make of them the whole de-valuing is very transactional, like i'm taking your self-worth down 50 scotches cos i shoulda never looked up at you like that narcissism is the dark side of bdpd instead of just admitting that you made a mistake... the guinea pig juice humility can knock out side effects most would rather uphold a lie than admit that they were fooled i ain't proud to be from the no1 lab experiment maybe if us citizens weren't so docile vigilantes vs boring ass people man, we really seem to have lost the plot

i know why you're not talkin to me i see you for what you truly are n you hate me for that goodbye, krysta *in the next car i wish you'd just be the entirety of whatever you're "hiding" what do you say to someone that is passive aggressive not enough self-respect to take ownership for however you feel or maybe you just dunno i ain't afraid of confrontation i'm black on the inside, i know i've mentioned this what are people so afraid of oh no you're gonna know that i have feelings i've never been afraid of emotions i'm convinced that narcissists are the stupidest people in the world your feelings will always be there whether you take responsibility for em or not i dug it outta the ground n analyzed it some more if you think that people _____ why do you copy them how could you choose this if you're not aware of it doin nice things w/ a secret expectation...surprise! REMEMBER: emotionally manipulative people usually dunno becuz they don't understand their emotions i'll admit that i used to milk it many reasons that i take Holy Communion i definitely knew better, man what is it about me that attracts all these narcissists...the algorithm knows you can't rely on God when you need everyone's seal of approval they're threatened by me talking to myself

should not address demons in casual conversation my mgr @ wendys...told me i was somewhat possessed, that's what i was fixin to say how much of an og are you aim less & amy gross, both of these former channels are featured at the bottom of this one all my names mean the same thing this is way more interesting n genuine damnit no $, no attention women n men that act like women want attention w/ attention comes expectation i hate that i sound like a feminist but it's just true shit, women have to deal w/ this all the time regardless of what we wear yesterday's coffee cold brew cos i like my coffee dark n strong i learned from a treatment center (folgers/maxwell house) gimme the whole pot, maybe it'll do sumin did yawl hear those bumps, the govt won't fix this road mf is my fave curse word never mention a sensitivity never get offended by secular people secular people gon talk like secular people it is possible to grow up in america neuro plasticity is what it is i try to make my complaints funny n accurate not just complaining cos i feel like shit the world has been shit since the garden of eden my two back tires are almost bald, i actually did it btw they only seem to grow down they do stuff cos they wanna be liked for some being hated is a way to be liked i am too empathic for my own good you can't choose rightly w/out consciousness most don't want change that they have to work for you can't see it at the time most of the time eventually it will be understood, just believe that approaching exit, we must pause AND WE SWITCHED LANES! how bout this angle, vortex aside from the fact that the camera is pointing up haha i've been trying harder to show up earlier i was driving on a really shitty part of the interstate last night so i always get paranoid that my tires are gonna go flat i went to discount tire today n apparently my tire pressure is fine but i need new back tires bad...that's the real reason i went over there since he said sumin imma do it tmrw who we are in our head is not who we really are, it makes more sense to have a realistic goal i used to be so stupidly ambitious, not anymore either God or alcohol (which is the chemical equivalent of the devil for me) God was w/ me the whole time i was drinkin the devil has to use people, places n things either what God created or what God allowed to be created thank you john hickok, once again looking for solutions in regards to navigating this internet obsessed world

i am so very lucky this seems nostalgic, is this the wrong assessment it's funny if i were any other person in modern america, i'd be looking down at my phone but here i'm looking down at my keyboard haha if we're not in heaven yet, we are struggling i'd prefer it if you believed in God this whole world is a delusion, don't chu know what a silly pursuit this delusion technological intrusion every day all day they have always been too stupid to care KIDDING i have to include that part empathy powered city, that's where i wanna live they don't think they need it, that's what i was trying to say haha judson's friend/producer/drummer works w/ toto, he's touring w/ em africa came on immediately after i got off the phone w/ him haha https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdqrZtIj7wU

if mark twain was bitchin bout it during the paper ballot era... i would totally understand believing in the system if the system actually worked it's just not true, man the tables just keep on turning do they not man oh man was dt such a firestarter this presidency is way worse but nowhere near the level of chaotic plenty of immigrants that believe in the american dream, not the ones currently flooding into the country tho if only more people would realize that they could make way more outta their situation institutionalized kick em when they're down no reason to keep upholding these free masons that probably ate kids, constitution or no constitution it's cos they hold it such high regard that they can get away w/ so much, once again we have a narcissism problem hopefully not here in this parking lot somalia's water supply doesn't change your hormones tho once again i am overdressed they all have pit stains since i sweat like a man sickos! you ain't my husband JC$ is this is all part of the show trump ain't yer friend either, he's just being used i just saw a bumper sticker that said trump 2024 save america they only seem to notice that one angle n then they get screwed over by all the other ones products that wipe people's consciousness see: smartphone *you can't not

man voice citizens against reckless expansion i agree w/ the sentiment but... way more you can lose in a first world country cows eating grass, just take my word for it they never create anything cool, it's typically a strip mall immigrants usually have their own businesses tho why do prisoners kill child molesters n nobody else does this more vigilantes that have nothing to lose, that's what we need child molesters should be taken out negligence is the easiest way to abuse a kid not enough parents that wanted to be parents objective statements damnit too much empathy to bring children into this dumpsite, it's my lack i guess (if i got pregnant i'd make a beeline for the amish community) most people don't have much of an emotional capacity the country doesn't value experience so the citizens ain't gonna value it either if you don't notice yourself how can you notice anybody else sad sally always they expect way too much outta everyone else n not enough from themselves parents should have this attitude not some crazy suburban white bitch more traffic due to corporate america nobody is gonna appreciate anything that gets built on that beautiful strip of land voting doesn't matter, it's for sheep on a granular level you can be very affective

is it cos i just bought weed? we're a threat, otherwise that number wouldn't just show up i am being tormented regularly i am waaaaay over dressed right now if you work for God, the devil is always close behind Jesus allows you to give yer sin a spin

that must be a vagina inspiring him to be so dramatic i have drugs, says the flingie thingie it's funny that flingie thingie looks like a really long joint i look like an old witch we part ways w/ flingie thingie this hill is really scary, bye

kerry harris, leader in realstate in columbia, tn definitely not the leader of anything haha and i brushed my harr! immobilize was the right word! you can't do shit about what you won't even claim FLINGIE THINGIE! i always ask people at the dispensaries a buncha questions he must be depressed not getting enough air it's in a really inconvenient location it's gotta be exhausting to be this way say somebody you know always needs $ my friend's deadbeat bf/baby daddy many won't change if that means that they'd be uncomfortable amazing what you are willing to endure in order to avoid other consequences whatever is in yer mind is always worse stop taking things personally the general public doesn't care hardly at all voting. protests. tweets it's always racial injustice they have nothing going for them so... they point at sumin n cry about it, they can't defend anything cos they don't have a solution politics has proven how artificial everybody truly is don't chu love my outfit