kaleidoscopeANON

sorry to be so sour, that's how i feel every hour it depletes me n yet i tell myself that it completes me i'm real lucky to have avoided all that i know it's always me i'm probably right most of the time i always understand why they left i hate school zones, who doesn't tho social media is the easiest way to keep tabs on everyone mini coopers have to blow off steam everybody that i wanna know or don't wanna know i'd much rather live in the world in my head playing victim makes victim(s) making stuff is so much fun i did say that twice but i said it right kelsey looks more n more white every time i see him so much for that party biking in a hail storm for a bag of drugs...MEMORIES! *a travesty is a mockery always check for the *** being comfortable on stage is a skyscraper of a task why do other people have to dig it it just sounds like i am playing w/ toys i do still wish you liked jazz

censorship proves that it's all a game there's no point in having a political opinion big whigs vs little people we appreciate you little tadpoles! ronnit is such a good person, she just needs to take initiative they'd give her $ in order to shut her up everybody bombed tonight tho cos the energy was so low they laugh at stuff that i don't even find funny they didn't get my anti-depressant joke, johnny stone woulda understood white people don't care if we go extinct brass ensemble sometimes my lack of coordination works well for me i'll never get over my cumbersome nature i give people way more grace than i give myself always conflicted due to forever affliction my singing has significantly improved since i've been singing acapella in the Orthodox Church choir don't chu love this terrible musical soundtrack what musical is any good tho little shop of horrors all day i was such a quiet borderline personality in high school most women have bdpd my idea of things is screwed up not so hidden hostility haha i will take full ownership for this push/pull situation i don't wanna need people tho the sentiment typically doesn't come from them sour, salty, spicy

why can't more people ask this question i can gauge the importance of a situation pretty well it's usually written all over their face somber but solid why feel bad for being sad why is it not okay to not be excited every day what they won't say to yer face they'll say to everyone else whenever you're gone of course there's always the internet in spite of this channel, i really don't like the internet i'm not gonna pretend that i like what i don't like and you had such fine potential to figure yourself out there's no point in being pissed off at them this world ain't good for nothin but deceit i can't throw rocks at my high school cos it doesn't look the same i miss the simplicity of it tho the more mandatory it is, the less i wanna do it public school taught me to be a conspiracy theorist long before reddit... authority figures are just reading off a script i always flunked standardized tests raising yer hand to ask a question is some monkey shit it's my right to take my chances let's pretend that's not totally self-righteous saved! one more day

i'll fuck it up sooner rather than later maybe i shouldn't be so negative honesty always got me in trouble, never stealing shit i just wanna simplify (maybe that's why i feel more like a guy) they keep adding when they don't understand what they already got side rant, sari outlets are so depressing options: buy this shit or that shit n never feel legit this culture cultivates mental illness i sound like conor oberst holy shit harr ball i wish more people would strive to be... lowest common denominator...avg content creator they're only making whatever they're faking you got the gyst, i won't play this game i also sound like ani difranco in & out (early nineties nyc feminist folk singer) you don't have to be a feminist to appreciate their contribution i don't like the idea of the words power feminism juxtaposed i agree w/ women doin what they wanna do if they actually can fuckin do it less talkin more doin why call yourself a feminist n then whine about being a woman i haven't done this in too long to be confident in my material this channel is amazing but it's cos it's in the moment stage trepidation is a bitch i never wanna blame the audience tho always blame yourself, that way you always learn sumin

standup was terrible tonight but i haven't done it in over 3mos delivery really is most of why you either succeed or fail failing on stage echoes the general sentiment i have always felt if i don't time the music right it won't work which art form should i choose tonight just wasn't the night thanking God even tho i wasn't thankful eventual success is after repeated failures i've been getting so irritated about regular ass shit as of late i still have a license, surprisingly i will always hate the industrial revolution i should stop expecting the state to ever fix the roads why solve problems when there's more $ in temporary "solutions" this is the posh part of nashville n the roads are STILL shit how to be less of a hypocrite every single day w/ ag i think the whole art of it is being cool w/ failure actually not much feedback w/ that kinda energy open mics of any kind are terrible some of the time i pretended to be there mentally if i ain't feeling it, it's obvious maybe i should just kill myself ya know the way i say it on stage doesn't convey how funny it was whenever i wrote it down (with such confidence, i might add) just give it 3 days (ag comedy motto)

ronnit is smoking weed outside haha apparently ronnit fell the last time she was here which does not surprise me (she also fell after the mic outside going down the stairs) i totally understand now why another comic said i looked like a stray cat this place is going away (the rent is too high apparently) i am so dark already hitting that note wasn't funny at all! everything else controls you so... playing God much like the news media nope you're just projecting (again) most that think they're autistic are just addicted to their phone since they've been staring at screens since they were born... many that do comedy aren't funny (i am providing a fine example of this!) i piss off a lotta people (unintentionally) and it's always a pretty diverse group so comedy just makes sense (there were other comics nodding when i said this) no need for AA meetings due to the camera crew of self-awareness in my head watching me drink the piano thing didn't work this time, mainly cos it wasn't random enough propaganda (dinosaur) laughed so the audience doesn't have to that was Ronnit, at first it was an unholy spirit (so true!) i live in my head so no need for "real men" as if they even exist little do they know we already died made in God's image? well then God must hate Himself some of the time flexapro...flexing my 10 finger discount in order to feel sumin besides rage this was not the crowd for psychiatric medication material planet witness is a very good spiritual gym nothin says liberty quite like made in china man i have missed kelsey

i love this joke from official B luna, bar cat her favorite place to chill is this pool table *i hung out w/ her in the parking lot later n couldn't stop crying...CLASSIC ag nostalgia

i didn't mean to end the last video i can't figure out how to not press a button it's annoying but very funny being ag i ain't jonzing that bad but i definitely miss smoking it ain't really that deep everything is a choice, once you become conscious of this your life will change for the better lovely little trail over here i went thru this path earlier n it kinda freaked me out i've been a little too curious all thru out my life i found my other portion of my last flip phone i hate anticipation so much we love us some cold brew (lauren knows)

my battery is finally dying you gotta work w/ what chu have the mic actually starts at 9:15ish (if they say it starts at 8:30) ag explains cp time it ain't 15min, it's any time they wanna show up haha *there is also cp distance ("right up the street" when clear across town) by the time i get in my groove it's time to get off the stage black mics work out in ag's favor i wish i could do this on stage but... i kinda sorta hate caring about it tho work in...success progress don't exist, everything you've ever been told is a lie this gives me an excuse to go to the grocery store n buy more shit i've already eaten a cucumber on stage tho doubleA batteries, the best the geese already said goodbye w/out saying goodbye i left beaded Jesus behind, He was lying in the grass the day i totaled my car i found beaded Jesus (missing for 4mos)

pretty sure i already showed yawl this poster at this very man-made lake i recall working on this poster celibacy is better green (sick) + black (darkness) there's a reason i made the letters rainbow character building is still an option, so true! the blending of the green n black actually worked very well why i don't believe in smartphone technology...they (society) were already stupid heaven n hell is a state of mind i need to do more posters that stress the importance of choosing God no morality in our society in an effort to kill all dull moments, people have become quite dull not all of us hate society, amy this is a personal solution, damnit getting away from everything is one of the best things anyone can do all states of mind are in the Psalms secular people can convince themselves that the notion of God that resides inside of everyone has some sorta clinical explanation, thanks freud! identity is a form of possession remember back in the day when people said _____ isn't all of me elevation & degradation comes from the same place blessed are the people who know glad shouting there is so much to unpackage here david really wasn't a good guy even tho He was anointed by the Lord He that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him *1 John 2:4 once again it really just depends on the person that awareness knob has been turned all the way down everyone might as well get an AI gf at this point i usually wake up n talk to myself first thing i felt the shame of debasing myself in my addiction doing bad things in good faith is this a good interpretation or am i screwing it all up a page n a half is pretty long for a Psalm

i'm sitting in a different spot today nature meets corporate america it's possible to locate a placid moment or two in the middle of suburbia it's too warm to wear that sweater pieces a shit encouraging doom scrolling why would you wanna lure people in like this this is why WE hate capitalism capitalism is not conservative try conserving the amt of trips to dopamine hotel they're all doin the same thing in different places lotza stuff to do besides this ______ if it's all over, you really gon spend the remainder staring at yer phone i guess you have to be an artist to see it they've nuked the creative part of themselves do some fun drugs, damnit hallucinogens allow you to see the truth about this world i still have yet to do dmt our body naturally produces these drugs so they are obviously sumin we could learn from everything is a potential learning experience why don't chu go see for yourself these mfs do not have your best interest

music is a universal language i was singing that all day they would probably kill me haha they're using immigration to nuke west civ most immigrants probably have legit reasons for coming here talking trash about another race vs raping/pillaging/killing massive amts of people coming that hate us is not a good thing cultural clashes n tribalism cannot be denied stupid white liberals will still get killed no matter how many black dudes they sleep w/ if you hate somebody you ain't gon listen to logic n reason sheep will call non-sheep names cos they refuse to think further into things racism n classism has always existed people can't not divide themselves into little groups fitting snuggly into that little box you've made for yourself i told yawl that this sweater was amazing if you don't understand you ain't my people

having an abundance of eggs is very helpful i have plenty of friends w/ chickens i don't particularly wanna eat eggs I SHOULDA SWITCHED LANES! just like sex...let's just get thru this n hopefully it will be over soon dancing over sex any day when you dance it's just like constantly coming why do you wanna gimme an orgasm so bad (control) this never worked on me cos i never really wanted it i tend to not enjoy things that involve control why am i so opposed to this/why am i so disgusted by that let's analyze why we are right n everybody else in society is wrong sex ain't a personal weakness cos i can fuck in other ways knowing the truth about industry kills any enjoyment the gmo products will never taste the same once you know they're fake americans love their fake shit what part of your reality ain't conjured by a sorcerer of some kind those that wanted the world to be better are way more disheartened by our present reality people really are gonna start committing suicide society encouraged to react minus any consciousness all these voices are funny n some are more annoying than others the more i got in tune w/ the comedy side, the more voices i felt comfortable doing i freak out the boring ones ...as if my channel ever gave off the impression that i long for subscribers it's really cos there is this hyper paranoia about saying anything that's offensive so the opposing side to that will be rude n mean to seem like it's fighting pc culture or some shit tellin it like it is but they don't even know what IT is most westernites have taken outrageous doses of the hypocrisy pill for the sole purpose of self-preservation i refuse to be a hypocrite in ways i can avoid

look at propaganda! he is such a good friend i actually did go tonight n it was horrible haha i can eat mozarella sticks whenever i want but if i am to keep the fast w/ the Orthodox Church... look at all my grey harrs! i used this piece of duct tape on my camcorder to keep it from coming apart lent starts on monday, so excited it is a little culty but i promise it's my choice nobody has to do anything denying yourself various comforts is good cos it reminds you that routine or no routine you don't need anything i'm gonna fast from coffee so that i overcompensate for eating eggs haha gimme all yer heroin (or whatever you got)

i get why anyone would watch this channel n assume i am a narcissist hating yourself is also very narcissistic n that's an indication of a very unhealthy sense of self the devil wouldn't run the world if he didn't have all these insecure mfs to use so well i don't wanna be a piss poor example of Christianity n i know that if were to tell these people off my religion would be very questionable i underreact, below sea level when talkin shit will accomplish absolutely nothing yes it is that good you experienced this magic moment watching me eat like a pig this is the only meal i will eat 2 eggs + plain yogurt w/ REAL maple syrup + mushrooms n tzaziki sauce eating this cucumber n then we will go imma eat these on stage perhaps it's been over 3mos since i've done standup i'm either gonna be amazing or terrible *SPOILER: terrible! confidence is considered narcissism confidence w/out awareness is the problem figure out whatever that is that caused you trouble in the first place "this ALWAYS HAPPENS TO: ME" prime example of a self-fulfilling prophecy i'm attracting those that want either my empathy or my coolness they ain't getting the empathy tho cognitive empathy in order to play the part of a decent human being shivering right now, earlier it was warm those lights are so pretty the geese took off cos i'm not their goose mommy goose noises are so much fun maybe i should work at the zoo i'm that person that gets sauce all over my face i've always been a mess n a half giving up coffee for lent, so excited

that is the best question to ask on a first date! if i don't want kids i shouldn't be fucking i'm outta my mind n he said so haha it had just been a really long time since i'd been impulsive sex ain't worth it but i didn't wanna be living a sinful life always solving puzzles when 2 make 1 they can make 3 look at this egg! we're gonna eat it super fast cos it smells bad imma have egg face, i already know it's impossible for me not to have egg face which is why i don't like eating in front of people *but i get over this in order to socialize haha i don't wanna become one w/ somebody else movies n cheesy love songs defined my idea of "love" i already have a love porno in my mind, what is the "real thing" relationships are supposed to be a dual ownership cheesy relationship advice is pretty accurate tho maybe if i just stop having empathy i will stop attracting them haha overts can't figure out why they don't like me (it's just an energy clash) talking about God around a heathen typically makes em seethe i don't seethe when you talk about eating ass, i just feel sorry for you everything's a baby (even the internet) i've turned it all into a joke i don't wanna fuck tho

i told myself that i would eat outside today tzatziki dip is worth it the sun is very important making art is a contribution annie clark (st. vincent) did a song about going the non-mom route here in america we have the opportunity to be whatever we wanna be right stuck in steerage but i don't mind so much now i guess it depends on the person always n forever i'm already thousands of people damnit my ancestors are the reason why i am able to make art the unconscious society that waits til the last min to pretend to give a fuck i promise this is fun i live up to my last name when i eat, i know camera crew of self-awareness cos the geese left us here *geese sleep on the water talking about my life vs bragging about it it doesn't seem like a flex but what if it's not a cope either you might regret it later but it's your decision to regret i'm supposed to surround myself w/ cats before i "die alone" it's okay i'm a comedian so... i'm really lucky to see it the way that i do so that my lifestyle goes along w/ my belief system not having kids on this planet

my girls are hangin out, i know that many won't mind that too much i ain't gonna do sumin that don't make sense to me all cos it's a social norm for the sake of modesty, i won't let you see too much of me i haven't always had this opinion His grace has taken place of my previous mindset they mock my God but i would scorch em if i didn't believe in Him if you can get over that ugly part the good is better understood once you acknowledge the bad what was the word? subside. so mad that the world do what the world do i never thought i'd get used to it everything has its' time n place i didn't expect to say it thataway but it actually sounded pretty cool watchin it (when doin it i thought it was cringe) it is a red robin! plz don't be a govt bird i was right the first time haha so earlier today i was making milkshakes n couldn't stop crying reciting fiona apple lyrics plenty of women are not what women are supposed to be too many people in general have kids for the wrong reason i wanted to kill myself but then i listened to sleep to dream fiona always had way bigger balls than anyone in the music industry and she's actually interesting n funny future empathy playlist

a point that i keep on making... those adjacent to _____ aren't very good i used to be liberal so it made sense that i thought of myself as a victim why change when you have so many fine examples of way worse behavior to compare yourself to drunk all of the time (ag) vs drunk most of the time (ag's frenz) i come here enough to be recognized *apparently they do have good memory that goose just took a dump, i wish yawl coulda seen it no such thing as moral superiority (if that's how you feel about yourself you have missed the mark) anyone on the outside can see that the L & the R are the same i am a weird girl, definitely not a "real woman" ie one that bakes n makes babies i'm so jealous of real women, when i was a teenager this used to bother me way more, when i turned 30 i accepted it n started doin standup no quicker way to discover your crazy than by consuming liquor "they never took me to disney world" i faced that darker part of me that wanted to stay pissed off about certain things that happened or didn't happen those truly in the dark can't even acknowledge it i have never been any good at lying, but i definitely manipulated situations, not to mention stole a buncha shit haha i hated normalcy so much now i'm surrounded by happy famblies at church my family always pretended to have it all together but...

we can say whatever we want about ourselves why are humans on the top of the food chain again we are supposed to be better than that due to consciousness all americans are guinea pigs i have plenty of frenz that engage in illicit sexual behavior sex clubs are far weirder to me than being gay imma mock everythang damnit empathy is better than self-righteousness man it must be pretty exhausting being you of course you don't have an identity when your whole life revolves around a damn phone that thing they think makes em special the left has some sexual disorder, the right has some mental disorder you can have that bag if you really want it if they're paying any attention it's never to be of service the fame game is satanic the media makes way more $ talkin about terrible things (anything virtuous is probably fake)

i love that noise they make are they fixin to leave or what what would you do w/out me to latch onto empathy as a defense mechanism it's you out to get you empathy ain't a weakness but a strength wisdom can only come from God i need to start gawking not just meowing the geese don't care cos i am not one of them human world is different from goose world

this is how i love the world i have to stay as far away from the world as possible this is what the world has done to me but i don't take it personally man i am reminding myself of james murphy right now they don't wanna solve problems, otherwise they would no identity or personality w/out these problems it reminds me of this song by the talking heads called no compassion sitting in the same chair, shitting yourself they MIGHT move to another chair n shit in that too i can't motivate people to change i do what i do cos i know it can help people most will shit on anything/anyone that's too demanding (seemingly) i just told you what you didn't want me to it musta surely resonated tell yourself sumin over n over n then call it fate many are not willing to wait for sumin to happen that will make sense all good things are worth waiting for n you gotta work for em accommodate rather than expecting society to cater to em play victim/make victim...these people are always quite toxic just accept that you're broken n deal read the Bible, it will help you not gonna waste my energy on you it works out for me in the long run i sound like such a dude haha i would rather have less to _____ about I: phone this point just won't stop proving itself to be true accommodate to whatever hindrance you think is holding you back stagnation ain't cool, man

they don't want me unless i have bread the man-made lake has its' perks yawl know my feelings on hypocrisy the last one to the party, my kinda goose that feather stickin out is just adorable i dunno if the problem is me yawl see that goose behind me one of the select few that know how to learn from experience we are chosen, damnit you could say that about anything silly or seemingly trivial quetions that people ask about gays: queerie GET IT a lack of dull moments is very unhealthy even self-help n shit can be a distraction if i don't retain any of the information then it kinda is a waste

this girl was so on my level i am way more capable of paying attention if i give myself sumin else to do i know that i'm annoying damnit i'm good at figuring out a person's level of sheep making america great was never the intention trump doesn't think much of republicans so... eating is a way for me to rationalize socializing (i am hardly motivated to eat when alone) working on posters during the eating ass "comedy" bits i also go to black mics hahaha, eddie murphy started this a long ass time ago *but it was actually funny back then they're just trying to get a gig cos it's socially acceptable to talk about shit like that the really cool eating ass crowd eating is more of a cope than a necessity eating n tv go hand in hand, hence tv dinners rare to struggle w/ only one thing i didn't ponder shit! alcohol n cigarettes, marijuana n marijuana hahahaha

so i got the part for my car n it's functioning now, no longer leaking i like to have fun in spite of my dysfunction if you're always complaining then you suck find enjoyment outta spite normies will never understand but that's okay i'm not a mass consumer, i am a semi consumer sponges can't watch gore porn i ain't gonna choose to be bothered if only there was an award for self-awareness those that don't focus on their own experience will focus on yours neck roll did you catch it i am a fascist due to my personal experience w/ both sex n food i'd rather just look at shit around me i guess they're just used to that strain people don't have any time to notice things around them here's my smoothie recipe i did say banana! the spinach is what gives me the energy i hate the task of having to eat i got way too much shit to do to take a break to eat