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suicidal declarations specifically mean that they're NOT gonna do that *suicidal people don't make announcements i hate how i do this to myself repeatedly i just spilled that whole cup of coffee all over the counter speculations that's it i sure hope it's the Holy Spirit i know that cannabis is infantilizing me n i hate that so much

perhaps i'd do better w/out my favorite plant in the whole world i'm not suicidal anymore despite the things that i say when i'm pissed ag holds herself accountable for her drug habits the cannabis plant has definitely changed israel controls the cannabis industry so... always watching myself n reacting to me i know i will be way more motivated to do whatever i'm doing i still have vivid dreams tho ag moderation: do a lot n then give it up *repeat cycle why wouldn't you drink the whole bottle, that's what it's there for celebrating a country that never existed in the first place clarification: using cannabis is not a sin "cannabis use disorder" cannabis culture is retarded cannabis taught me that this was a gift awww she called yawl kittens, feel special! lexi is now my favorite person here get pussy n start behaving like one

it's "independence" day yawl let's forget about the jesuits for the time being the other j is not talked about anywhere near as much my perspective is too dark for most to stomach anyone trying to make it in this world don't need to hear my ideas even ronnit told me that my pespective is hard to take n that's my bff not fitting in is no longer the burden that it used to be i can still appreciate people even if they don't like me i was so impressed with this number that he did white people bitching about...white people what's funny in portland ain't funny in the south black people are way more uncomfortable by this white people today are not responsible for shit that happened over a century ago but liberals just don't understand that if religious people ain't taking responsibility for all the corruption of organized religion... thank you for driving sober in america...ugh uh this obsession w/ science is totally a religion i am the whack job so...

cold n insensitive they will call me my opinions based on experience n extensive research how many people whine about things that they willingly did i spy: snoopy it's only the narcissists that are lying they're fine w/ being told what to do as long as you look good doin it there are side effects w/ everything not just THAT i know a lot about what i do or not do why are you listening to people that ain't educated everybody around you doin sumin don't mean that you have to i don't get social pressure at all man that didn't work hahahaha at least i have fun when i fuck up as if they held a damn gun to yer head call their bluff regardless of how many people hate you for it i like that one key a lot "doctors" aren't paid to know anything about health THIS is why i will get called cold n insensitive westernites do not value their emotions nor understand them, ie facts don't care about yer feelings if you don't value health you probably won't be healthy they love to call you selfish following suite does not set a good example of why God made us we have so much more potential than we allow ourselves don't tell them the truth, they will only get offended they are a victim all cos they exist? west civ capitalizes on the gullibility of the sheep the whole purpose of pharmies is to cancel out God i look like i'm drinking n driving hahahaha i have compassion for stupid people up until they start whining the victim mentality is corrosive n contagious metoo is all about women making themselves victims we were all born w/ a spirit, many will replace it w/ sumin secular you can go ahead n assume that i'm a sheep cos i'm religious, that's fine i understand why you drew that conclusion they all have an iphone hahahaha technology is idol worship check the method the AI knows you better than you know yourself feminism oppresses women better than any wife beating husband dude on the side of the road w/ a cigarette dangling outta his mouth...soooooo hot anarchy NOT feminism any woman that is self-aware don't need the govt for shit why would you need an abortion if you were self-aware don't fuck when you're most fertile, that's it ladies instead of taking down the porn industry try to encourage people to solve the root of the problem that causes them to watch that shit in the first place all they do is change the scenery, the situation will always remain what i talk about is important to me hence why i do the channel those that go along w/ society are sick too those who work for the agenda will not be punished until way later heathens should be discriminated against they use the worst _____ to represent _____ the ones on tv are getting paid either actual $ or attention "progress" just means degenerate we are not making progress, we are making success SAY IT W/ ME all these little things that lead to the bigger things nobody wants to be held accountable for their gullibility never take anyone seriously that believes the govt if you spill even the smallest amt of coffee it seems like a ridiculous amt, do it n you will understand that mindset is so narcissistic not to mention anti-Christian Christianity is an egalitarian philosophy read ACTS i can never wear anything right you are only validating me haters, keep at it

this is the gender after party men n women are not who we are supposed to be this is only nurture running its' course it has to happen this way, everything does you're not gonna stop this you can't keep people from fucking up if they insist on it if they wanna do stuff that's bad for em by golly they're gonna they don't even notice the debris it's the sight i've seen all my life i didn't know how to channel what was goin on inside of me if only women could admit that they're insecure parents really do a number don't they public school is essentially jail i'm pretty sure i just got started tho so many ways to run away from responsibility all the answers are in this here Bible very few actually apply the Scripture, perhaps they just dunno how i don't expect to do much empathy does not feel like much of a gift i'd rather not be a hateful person but sometimes i know i can strongly resemble one people always want you to stay down i miss smoking n drinking but not enough to do it again i miss blacking out but my dumbass had to choose sobriety

no i did not brush my harr today i'm assuming that you left if you don't like it (sometimes i am wrong about this) the devil will disappear the second you give in the devil dunno what it's like to love anything (even himself) the ones that the devil uses have a similar problem demographic? i said that wrong, oh well the devil won't stick it out til the end the devil won't prosper w/out you givin him energy God can stand you even if your actions aren't understood by you the devil pretends cos he's a damn good mocker stab you in the face more likely all the stuff i tell myself i can do w/out... nothin is ever what i had hoped it would be if it don't make you unwell pretty much immediately... instant relief don't mean that it's a good thing when do i not fail making yourself suffer for no reason...CLASSIC american victim mentality ag's life...all this w/out a camcorder imagine it from their angle n it makes sense capitalizing on voyeurism w/ any $ hahahaha i've never needed people to hear me out

God sees everything, He knows the excuse you're about to make i could never fake excitement my lack of enthusiasm i cannot cleverly disguise some find it endearing, most are horrified you don't have to like me for me to continue to be whatever you see their approval rating is more important i never thought that anything i do would win any approval haha i have quite the advantage do i not here i am doin the same thing if i were more like them, i'd probably be successful whenever what chu say actually resonates it makes all the bombing worth it they never laugh when i want em to so it's always a disappointment success ain't my goal, helping people is more important most people don't desire to live a pious life every once in awhile you will find someone who isn't going along w/ the rest of em i am supposed to be shat on i woulda very easily gotten discouraged had i done this in my early twenties yes they meow at me i come out randomly like a good hermit i am making really good strides i am trying to get back into this routine but it's very hard i just need more jewish frenz to pressure me ronnit is about all i can take

parking right next to the dumpster for a reason this channel is essentially a dump, wouldn't you agree? they remembered my sobriety date spot on speculations from my friend's 8 yr old kids love me cos i am essentially still a kid can you tell i have absolutely no affect kids are extremely honest which is why they are way more tolerable sober from booze ONLY remember the sound of texting on a flip phone isn't this phone case so cool did yawl notice how my voice changed when talking to women ag's man voice is for anyone possessing woman energy i'm just not meant for this world this world is too regimented for me they rope in young people cos they are innocent enough to think that their political activism will make a difference marisa knows that i think AA is a cult haha i have to pretend i'm a different person when driving this mini cooper (so that i don't wreck it again)

the more that i think about it the more it makes sense why people don't make art artists are crazy as they should be stop waiting on a fix *DIY til i die sometimes i really dunno what i am trying to do maybe we don't need an answer after all awwww they waved at me, we always appreciate that at the time i dunno but later i figure out the purpose they typically never ask me shit i should just ask the question instead of introducing the question women always add unnecessary sentences they never even asked the question i don't do this for myself cos i don't need to prove anything we shouldn't look to other people to validate us all artists should have this mindset not everybody needs approval from the world how does a gps comfort anybody education system is what chu get for trusting gov i do have a negative attitude about society if the AI sees you the way that nazis did then it's probably correct i understand crowley's perspective from the opposite angle sheep will never listen to the crazy ones i don't expect you to listen or pay attention why am i giving these mfs any credit you can't control how people interpret you i should know not to come this way on a saturday but alas, here we are again back in the day i used to leave comments i still technically have a bitchute account don't we already have enough shitheads on the internet leaving mean comments i know we have made significant strides if i ain't typing, that's growth our life experience is extremely redundant

don't let anybody tell ya that you're wrong for doin what chu love forgive me if you're tired of these chords not trying to bring anybody down i look high, i'm actually not haha don't give up all b/c they don't understand this crazy bitch uses her turn signal damnit you gotta be your own cheerleader candyasses don't look to themselves for what they want sorry if it seems i'm flaunting anything at all i'm happiest when i'm by myself doin shit like this believe it or not i am somewhat perfectionistic i guess i am too disillusioned by the standard process of making art perhaps that artist decided to grow instead of stay stuck in a certain phase of themselves man i say some stupid ass shit a lotta the time idealization n devaluation are one in the same instability has been normalized

propaganda if not just straight up lies most things if not all things in the history books are a load a bullshit i always loved dinosaurs when i was a kid "who controls the past controls the future: who controls the present controls the past" i talk to propaganda which makes him real i was honest about my ailments til they no longer ailed me good thing this ain't an actual cigarette i have so many cigarette holes my clothes if i make it til 2mrw w/out a drink it will be 13yrs i do _____ cos it helps me, i don't do _____ cos it doesn't help me God wants me to be alone i am not functional in a relationship i'm still myself so this ain't gonna work interesting people can keep themselves entertained not trying to encourage anyone to be like me in regards to romantic status, we are rare we have been indoctrinated to believe lies the more people thinkin that i'm a loon the better much to the dismay of the internet i am actually happy

the busier we are the quicker the time goes by i love working at a restaurant DON'T LOOK AT MY TITS bras are tricking yer body, i'd rather let my titties just chill if this country were any good everyone would be forced to work at a restaurant until they stop being so arrogant a little mistreatment goes a long way not gonna be concerned about people misunderstanding me, it's happened so many x vlogging is documenting yer life, that's what this is back in 2005 people told me to do yt but i was a drunk i'll be 39 this year n i can't fucking wait i'm never gonna knock anyone making anything even if i think it's really bad i coulda never done this back in the day "progress" just means everything turning to shit i was open to medication cos i didn't know how to filter anything or sift thru my negative feelings just kept on livin n talkin to myself that is very boring hahaha the more you reject it the more it insists on hangin around being uncomfortable won't kill ya intense feelings can typically be weaponized esp by women if we accepted discomfort big pharma would go bankrupt

vulnerability is a good thing they don't care if you kill yourself not trying to be hopeless, that's not what this is my spirit is what i have held onto for dear life why are all these people jealous of me... they're so jelly of my disease it's a disease of seeing things clearly ag calls herself out...thank you man in my head i will occasionally gaslight myself this theory ain't new i should be loyal in spite of the fact that he threw all his supporters under the bus everyone's a cheerleader for anything but themselves their only identity is in ______ black n white, not yellow n brown either real gender or made up gender you can drink or smoke cos this world sucks trusting head dr w/ no liability vs doing fun drugs i keep trying to warn people about that thc vape pen just know what the fuck you are doing being anti depression doesn't make it go away accept that some parts of life are going to suck these methods are pathetic at best we're so lucky to be in touch w/ that spirit don't be so in touch w/ yer feelings that it makes you gay

the vortex is the internet has anybody been spat out of the internet yet no impulse control these narcs i let my schizo flag fly, no pride but also no shame you can't make me sorry that i don't trust authority since schizos don't have affect it would make more sense to pronounce it that way psychosis: sitting on a sofa, babbling next to a dog maybe people leaving "reality" just makes sense are you seriously nervous cos you talk to yourself only you should be in charge of you only you should know what to do they've trained society to not value their experience 6:15...the truth about psych meds i probably shouldn't be a cunt to my people but FUCK DEM SHEEP i don't wanna be mean in order to get my point across, most of the time it doesn't work anyway i don't enjoy being mean, it's outta character for me considering the world we live in i will probably make you upset but that's never my intention i love how i'm nodding at myself when i do something pleasing...to myself if eventually it makes you grow, it was worth it to piss you off times takes time...i heard that in an AA meeting n it really stuck little nuggets of wisdom to munch on from time to time, i appreciate all of them you are lame if you can't challenge me i have received a lotta destructive criticism all my life i pick up on energy far better than they do removing planks, since i cry so much i got a lotta experience only a real Christian would get that "joke"

am i just putting myself up on a pedestal overly analytical/critical of myself i hate this w/ a passion others don't seem to have this problem you have the option to not give in what if the glass is just a glass at least my defense mechanisms are interesting ag is ag's biggest fan most people just project i wouldn't hate em if i didn't already love em i still don't want you to suffer even if you don't like me being ugly to others hurts you too i hate the choices that people make n their lack of responsibility am i wrong to scrutinize every time i open my eyes the negativity ain't all i can see (i smoked a lotta weed) not putting my hat in the ring for anything but self-expression what the fuck does it mean to hurt someone these days nobody knows what anything means that sentence didn't make any sense haha *i was talking about the smartphones specifically how people can't put them down whereas i can't let go of the fact that this is terrible for humanity this is one helluva way to live i write it down for a reason, i'm trying to memorize the Scripture to potentially use it as a weapon they try to simplify emotions since this world is upside down... i made the right decision rejecting the world they are being punished for trusting authority you don't value life so you have a lower quality of it their values are all kindza screwed up don't hang yourself over yer hang ups i remember back when the cordless phone came out nobody appreciates "progress" anyway i still get excited to send a text msg they want all yer mind n all yer time eventually there will be tampons w/ the AI you can't tell me that women aren't brilliant in their own right

well i guess i ain't simple but i kinda already knew that women have the tendancy to complicate everything we're supposed to apply the Bible i won't wait for you to prove me right technology is evil as is mostly everything in our civilization at least i know what's getting me high no self-awareness til their life is inconvenienced there's a tv everywhere you go am i gaslighting myself once again i won't do sumin if i see it as a sin everybody made the wrong choice there's no escape from this women ain't trying to solve any mysteries aside from the chosen ones awwww she waved to me i felt sorry for her ass, leaving a protestant church it's not until later that i remember i think i have higher standards than that of my country

seemingly racist rant about roundabouts *don't worry, it's about white people no cutting edge technology it's called white flight for a reason it's white people responsible for city planning n it's mainly white people that live out here we always add unnecessary complications various ways to be happy, get off, waste time, etc if the idea that we have of ourselves is wrong you best believe that we will get the rest of it wrong too

i don't have self-doubt, i have world-doubt all they do is piss away their freedom i was NOT hallucinating yes i like jazz. a lot i am in awe of business owners just trying to make sense outta this chaos the AI is in yer pocket all the time so... that was the sound of my mini mini cooper crashing if you're threatened by AI that means you are boring n lazy it rides around w/ me we eat some of the time, paisley (cat) eats more than i do i love the placebo of coffee why are you concerned about sumin that you welcomed w/ open arms ag is living proof of a lotta things by the time ag gets a smartphone, everyone else will have sumin else if smartphones were advancement wouldn't we be smarter as a result instant gratification is not happiness for obvious reasons this is a nice car baby, lock that shit you know we gonna keep saying this over n over again

he waved at me, i feel special now accountability is hard to come by it would do you some good to be yelled at a little bit a lotta the time they were right tho you're lucky if you receive correction thank you for your patience correction vs projection we are driving tho it is you that is gullible did they tie you to a chair n force that shit down your throat they is whoever you wanna blame i don't JUST victim blame, i victim shame AND disclaim if other people won't change that means that YOU have to change why am i saying this, why do i have to say this people love being victims *self-fulfilling prophecy ART CHAD motherfucker those of us lucky enough to work at a restaurant... i typically do not promote anyone but there you go

there's another world i have access to w/out you this channel is a pathway...just wait for the sound this really is an advantage but society will never see it that way for obvious reasons come to what senses tho ag lifestyle will never be a thing, i could never brand it anyway never gonna pretend that this is what it isn't all they do is fall for the bullshit this obviously ain't a good place to live anybody that has the right idea will be shamed Jesus Christ is our example to live by most aren't even trying if you love God you should be crying most of the day it is gay in a way hahaha i dis the world w/ ease plz disappoint me dear world God taught me how to use it n not abuse it will never forsake this no matter how many people shit on it it's not your place to understand i guess free water at work, okay hecklers. internet trolls. makeshift mascots for their sports team the ultimate sheep i'd say assholes will always be assholes, acceptance is key they can't eat cha, amy these petty insults are just pathetic i said way worse to my mirror when i was 12 i couldn't run n hide from myself maybe this is what it's supposed to be i'm stressed just lookin at em i literally pulled a muscle out doin an impression of this bitch i work w/ you really dunno unless you watch this channel talking to yourself isn't a waste of $ but people will be concerned could you call this together tho it's better than drinkin, sleeping or masturbating masturbating is depressing cos you're not creating porn is evil n satanic that chord just freaked me out gotta trust the process, have a little faith in yourself you can make a different decision whenever you're conscious i promise there's a purpose, don't be like judas never gonna repeat this song (hopefully) that'd be so cool to be an actual musician this is already tedious enough i am in awe of musicians cos i could never take this to a studio that's what i get for making fun of people ronnit is calling *SPOILER: i don't return

Jesus was a jew, this is true but... as if they didn't vote to crucify Him they tell you that so you forget that last part about the three nails man we deserve for God to spit on us but He doesn't, he sacrificed a part of Himself all so we could shit on that Jesus wept so don't feel bad for feeling sad why would i expect anything better nobody wants to do the right thing simply cos it's the right thing i'm in the arena of these ants so i deserve whatever i get how is that a flex when they don't view Him as the messiah, i don't get their logic behind this everyone is so infantilized just looking at their talking points good luck getting the world to understand you can't criticize people for having a weird ass gender identity when you use a website that is morphing the two genders n creating all these alternatives i ain't fighting w/ you over yer gender identity, just not gonna do it i don't expect anyone to cater to me (they probably couldn't anyway) progressivism will infiltrate every facet of human existence clearly feminists want to have abortions i am pro-art no matter how degenerate they've been chipping away at the western psyche for decades feeling things for other people but it ain't empathic whatsoever i don't want people to like me that i don't like no matter how much logic i have i still got those parts free thinking body harr i don't think that women should be like me in regards to their appearance it was never him, i loved him from a distance you shouldn't have to rationalize how somebody treats you nobody can catch me tho you have to believe in getting over yourself to be in a successful relationship making sense outta complications is one of my many jobs you won't attract a good person if you haven't done work on yourself those w/out self-respect end up in terrible situations if someone's a piece a shit don't have sex w/ that person it's always up to somebody else to make a move now i listen to people way more than i talk the only reason why people have put up w/ my shit is cos i'm funny n self-aware narcissists have surface level humor those in the shallow end will never swim in the deep end if you don't understand the value of things then you will never understand how much better things could be you can't bask in God's glory in a crowd i can read negative energy too well the best is whenever you receive a smile from a genuinely warm, loving person most are neither good nor bad if you don't say yer line when you're supposed to say it... it doesn't take long for me to get sun burnt nope still on topic... that was a pretty cool angle you're way more free when you can accept being in bondage good realization: i don't have to work tmrw the only time that the weather is tolerable is like 10pm i seem to be tolerating this just fine imma text my jew (ronnit) n see what she's up to i don't wanna pressure myself to do comedy that possum thinks they're sooooo sneaky i have really bad social anxiety sometimes standup is a pathway into the culture rape jokes are distasteful but they're still allowed they will show you who they really are thru their art (or lack there of) it does feel similar to an abortion the internet is supposed to reveal what the world really is this whole experience made me realize how badly i needed God my spiritual awakening just so happened to occur on april 20...CLASSIC ag people tend to whine when they don't get their way always keep yer expectations low for this purpose you will be fine if you desire to grow you're probably sick of flamenco sketches but here you go again can you tell that these are my comedy pants

this is my sanctuary? hahahaha my peeps (geese) ain't here i saw some possums earlier, i get stoked to see any animal i never put up anything w/out watching it first technology illiterate by choice i was really stupid for buying that software but it was an impulse buy i waste $ at some point every wk, i can't hold onto $ to save my life maybe i'm just not supposed to ______ question whatever is popular you vote w/ yer pocket book why would you wanna purposely dumb yourself down just cos it's convenient right now don't mean it will be in the long run why does society enjoy staring at a screen so much i get being bored to some extent you could just study yourself all cos they don't wanna be alone deadbeats are called deadbeats for a reason my selection wasn't all that great but... you wouldn't need strangers to validate you if you had that in your personal life fuck twitter twitter makes the majority of people who use it a total narcissist social media has usurped humanity i usually don't tell people about what i do here i got the wrong jew but i meant paul westerberg antisemitism is a form of racism much apologies to any replacements fan in the vortex there will always be alternatives ag is yer fave hole in the wall vlogger more eyeballs more problems they ain't doin much so i guess i offer them an opportunity to shit on sumin i used to wake up so empty, now i can't contain this either we go to work or we go to work putting it out there regardless of what anyone has to say about it i can understand the major risk involved in being an artist stand up is way harder than anything else tho most people on the internet are w/out substance if it ain't constructive then it ain't worth worrying about some of them don't leave tho, they come right back imma make sure that our contact is limited most just want an excuse to continue the self-pity reel bonding over mutual hatred of personal growth...those are my trolls i am plenty nice to the sheep in the real time artistic people tend to be empathic at some point imma sound self-righteous i have every right to be arrogant about this damnit plebian sheep doin what plebian sheep do best they will never be against what they really oughta be against i have yet to check out summertown, i really need to maybe it is a cult but isn't everything tho how is a hashtag not cultish i strive to make non-degenerate art answering lauren southern's old ass tweet conservatives in general aren't very artistic the point ain't recognition, the point is therapy it ain't just therapy for me, it's therapy for anyone that watches it n feels less alone i'm glad i used to be a liberal cos i have this mindset all cos i don't like what you make another side rant for ya goodbye liar, pretty sure they won't be back they won't apply it, that is true your job is to shit on people, SAD! imma assume they're all jewish ronnit is one of the few good jews Jesus was a jew, RIGHT?

the arctic tundra is where i live nobody needs to validate this so many people wanna be seen, it's why they do everything that they do they say whatever they have to say in order to fit in no sense of meaning for you ever SPOILER at least i know what my problems are could you make this criticism constructive? i guess i'll go back to myself i've already self-destructed, man i missed quite a lot back then but i guess that needed to happen for me to realize that i could do that to myself it's good to still be in possession of your liver what was the point of the song? 3:54 is who i am we're all redundant tho, it's just the way we are i don't wanna be frustrated about sumin that won't change rearrange so i can pretend that we changed at least you can contemplate suicide from another angle even if you are gaslighting yourself you still made the attempt to change J.O.K.E. he he he booze n ocean water, baby...we love drowning i seem to recount a lot of memories when reading the Psalms i knew that all the Psalms had me in mind making it personal in order to better yourself i typically remember it whenever the date comes around i'm not a free mason, sorry the body is a temple, if we have God in us we should be mindful at the very least

i thought i would offer you a blueberry vortex pretty soon the technology will be that advanced, who knows it probably already is they gave us this technology so that we'd kill ourselves don't get outta bed, you might wind up dead when do they not have a contest about stuff they just figured out competition just reminds me of capitalism of all the philosophies it ain't the best one an ongoing drinking game for the ag superfans an ant just bit me! why would they stop doin what they're doin voting n whining won't change anything this gives me a headache too just to let chu know everything is gonna be scattered no matter what we got the keys to the Kingdom, no offense to Saint Peter men are trying to compete w/ women on the false accusations the sun is good for everyone, so i am forcing myself i used to do what you're doing...absolutely nothing feeling sorry expecting sumin to change in me not willing to change anything myself if you tried many things n you still feel that way maybe you are supposed to hopefully later you will see the whole point of it in the beginning the garden was pretty spectacular human beings screw up everything they willingly march to that slaughterhouse

fake people will find a way to be even more fake i reluctantly do this outta spite i enjoy the scenic route that long ass description is my self-critique self-awareness lifetime achievement award i can't even visualize being at a mason lodge pretty sure most of em ain't THAT into it if you're not an artist YOU JUST DON'T GET IT i think i get their perspective now when i put it like that a lotta people are either having kids cos they're irresponsible or their ego tells em to repeat themselves i'd probably be right to assume that they are bad parents my purpose i guess is to make art that pisses people off when i'm drunk i will get physical, that's it enjoy me while you can, says my harr just cos i complain don't mean i don't enjoy my life i hate self-righteousness but inspiration is the goal