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i have the tendancy to ignore things that i swore i was gonna do schizos have a smaller pineal gland (melatonin levels are jacked up) we're lucky to be in bed by 3am paisley will star in this video at some point, the angel w/ whiskers everything is a drug esp the stuff that society encourages you to do legalities have never phased me why are these the rules n why do people follow em if they dunno you've already proven that you have a bias the AI won't be able to figure out simple shit could robots function as people when people can't function as robots i could make the AI laugh so i ain't worried living my best life OFF the internet this channel is my telephone on a string if you know yourself you can do anything i hate wasting time, that's my issue w/ drugs if only people did creative stuff on drugs i do this w/out the camcorder present watch paisley give herself a bath! check out my new camcorder a hello song AND a goodbye song! i've been around enough people that made me wanna jump off a building what if it's just the way it is this is how i choose to live cos i'm conscious of what it is no point in living unless you're making stuff gays literally can't make babies gaslighting gets old if only i dressed the part maybe i could fulfill the role (NOT!) everything's a cope don't chu know i tend to jump from topic to topic thank you God for this magical brain but what is psychosis tho can you tell how in the zone i am this is what you get instead of actual music america is psychosis central they're just gonna say it's the other guys you never need proof like they do if you never trusted "them" then you're psychotic being in an actual band would be terrible those points that i made must've been sooooo good westernites have a very low opinion of anything NOT made in a lab the internet is a forcefield of sorts if i started smoking pot again i would drop off the face of the planet i don't even think it's a sin but it definitely a hindrance never progress always success how could i forget that the internet is in everyone's pocket all the time i'm just fucking up my lense i just gotta fast that's all the internet is only over 30 yrs old, amy dieting is dumb, just don't eat eating is a task, not a fan sleeping is my favorite thing that humans do it's interesting that in order to keep living we have to have an extended dmt trip every night

i didn't mean to stop the last video but that's kinda what we do, randomly start n stop i said i was gonna do a poster for the lgbt community the one lgbt person on rumble told me that i seem to be a repressed gay which i don't disagree w/ i guess i'm gender queer or some shit most cannot go this route should i start a gofundme for an MRI to prove my man brain do i have kitty brain instead cats are amazing creatures n i could watch them all day okay paisley NOW you can lay on it most will not agree w/ this take but that's okay the Bible is the ultimate self-help book don't worry i don't idolize leo ag reads Isaiah 56:3-8 in relation to Matthew 19:12 eunuchs receive an everlasting name that will not be cut off! son of a stranger could mean many things God wants the outsiders! that is why Jesus... God will never forsake Israel but that doesn't make them above criticism (if God criticizes Israel then we are also allowed to give them shit for genociding the fuck outta palestine) all this jewish stuff... aliens are mentioned in the Bible n not many people address this it is kinda sad when i think about it but it's just the way it is childLESS is reality i would think that children would increase yer empathy but what the fuck do i know since i don't have a kid they hate the fuck outta white people,man white people are psychiatric guinea pigs and then i flushed my medication i'd rather cut myself than kill myself they'll shame you for not having what they have but they're not aware of what's making people gay or docile people have been rewired by chemicals it really is becuz of capitalism tho materialism doesn't have shit to do w/ entrepreneurship i didn't drink coffee all thru out Lent n it really wasn't that hard is there such a thing as an innocent pleasure

parents, teachers n people on the internet you will never have to be them n they will never have to be you PERIOD i am a very observant person so my critique of this world is pretty harsh believe it or not, i get sick of hearing myself talk i know i'm nuts damnit why is talking to yourself so frowned upon you throw out a regular-ass sponge so empaths must do the same from time to time if yawl saw yourself the way that the rest of the world sees you you'd probably hate yourself more if society gave a fuck about itself the smartphone wouldn't be an issue at all those of us w/ a conspiratorial mindset aren't having fun over here i'm not coming all over myself tho, Father porn n social media trick yer brain they want people to think a lotta things politics is the end of civilization produce your cause, saith the Lord*Isaiah 41:21 time goes by super fast the longer the duration technology has turned time into tokyo on pcp this theory of mine doesn't quite work i already got a man...in my cranium *head of camera crew the inner critic, externalized what do you think they're gonna do to you, they're too busy carrying on

this poster kinda looks like shit but it ain't finished yet so we'll just see ag explains matthew 19:12 crazy women get cats n people mock us w/ stereotypes once in a blue moon i get lonely but most of the time it's a party over here i got this poster around the time of pride month now's a good time to read Isaiah this passage makes so much sense outta my life nature vs nurture here it would help if i could actually point to the word that i'm speaking about paisley has approved of this poster making babies is more about self-preservation than it is love many holy shits taken in my church i'm so in awe of women that know how to be women i am just wired differently this is most definitely a me problem it would be way more of a cope for me to pretend that i could make a relationship work

cats will barge right into whatever you're doing i am not gonna get off coffee haha i am finally doing this poster for the lgbt community 5 days away is like 5yrs internet time i worked 66 hours this week matthew 19:12 i'm pretty sure that my interpretation is correct i'm still not a man no matter how much i confuse people i got called sir to my face today hahaha i exude a very masculine energy it's literally just a pronoun trance! crap is just fucking stupid my masculinity ruins every relationship i can't be w/ a woman cos i ain't a man just gonna die alone n i'm fine w/ that blue haze, miles davis is a very underrated album if art is any good it will remind you of sumin else i will find love more easily in a song than in an actual relationship the silent meow is ideal many people can't ever be satisfied, at least i know that about myself

pray for us vortex do yawl hear that sound yet thelonious (car) is pissed i forgot that i removed my garage door opener i put Holy water all over the hood of the car haha luckily i only have to go right up the st eurofix is a bit too uppity for me why would i pay 1700 to take that much of a chance i'll be good today, thelonious the noise is intermittent but it's still enough to warrant concern i guess it's not as loud as i thought luckily there's a warranty on this other charger i coulda blown my engine so... $ is way tighter for others than me so i really am very lucky plenty of people driving on this road that also have car problems rooting on thelonious he hates hanging out, the sound is the worst when he is idle it's not yer fault thelonious yet another personal conspiracy...purposely using faulty car parts it makes monetary sense for the manufacturer not the consumer i hate industrialization so much if it's true of food why wouldn't it be true of car parts if they can take advantage, why wouldn't they walmart has ruined small biz prayer always helps, don't listen to the naysayers!

i never wanted to do this hahahaha paranoia is part of the schizophrenic experience looking at this world tho why wouldn't you be paranoid my ability to connect w/ people is kinda shot, that don't mean it can't happen but it's very short-lived any criticism of me is understandable natural aversion to anything that is publicly accepted it's a genuine fear what i'm talking about is herd mentality it's not a disease from a physical standpoint maybe we're not supposed to have the answers to everything age of enlightenment didn't seem to serve us all that much i didn't just get lucky sometimes i pretend to be yer avg person that watches football more posters yawl i wouldn't be here if it weren't for crazy people (hated by society) gay people don't give a fuck about marriage unless they happen to be monogamous (stereotypes are stereotypes for a reason) women's rights...yuck i think i showed yawl this one before actually we don't have a say in what happens, the powers at be do people don't wanna change their habits paisley says hello we all have the power to not go along w/ things that we don't agree w/ i am whatever you want me to be SOME white people have had it easy john brown was a free mason so... they've lied to us about ALL history questions are sooooo underrated i love this poster cos i fucked it up feminism disgusts me but since women wanna be victims soooo bad so here you go women love being subservient tho i love the colours on this one all it takes is the power of suggestion best thing i ever heard @ an AA meeting considering other people's views vs changing yer behavior all together in order to try to plz people when you have an idea of a person, place or thing... they will choose swine every time, obesity hello i didn't used to love myself look at my scars damnit that's definitely a you problem, as lauren would say people will continue to do whatever they want regardless of your opinion of it (all subjects) everyone on the internet is a woman...gossip gossip gossip the internet is here to feminize society n turn us into a buncha docile slaves you can't deny that technology has had this impact on society always do the opposite happy in a relationship for a wk n a half this is my opinion on sex n i'm kinda fascist about it i can make these posters all day n they're still gonna keep on fucking so... i'll leave the best ones for last (Biblical) social media is psycho illogical sugar porn produces robot come social media and porn are both socially acceptable n turn us more n more into robots i'd rather be entertained by actual information not entertainment stuff please stop rapture watching...for my protestant as well as sola scriptura friends (i had to stop this myself) the people that run the world read the Bible what happens on the tv only happens on the tv the devil works in ways obvious to me ecclesiastes is just the best self-awareness is about what YOU think i have to remember all the things that i did that were wrong you must eat shit if you wanna do right personal inventory was fun for me so many wicked people in the world so i am greatly looking forward to this you know who you are... wicked servants working for wicked authority...CLASSIC american corporate mentality good people can still do bad things and bad people can still do good things forgive yer parents cos they're still yer parents be the best person you can be in honor of yer parents paisley (cat) reminds me that i'm still crazy i just wanted to get outta work that's why i went haha i watched my dad change after i changed some people dunno how they hurt people

i just wanted people to know that there's a different way that you can go i knew that people wouldn't understand everything is a loss of some kind n a sacrifice that is totally worth it if you're actually willing don't expect people not in touch w/ their emotional nature to get it why do i look younger here n so much older in the last video (maybe it is due to the happiness that i get from singing) these keys represent my moods, always changing n annoying i can't expect this to be different i'm doing the same thing that annie (clark) does when she sings don't chu love the lovely msgs that my coworkers leave me i've cried a lot over stuff thinkin that it might change sumin (delusional thinking) just cos it didn't happen my way or somebody had sumin not so nice to say i swear i am part russian, i sing that way God is always listening n watching n paying attention regardless of how connected to Him i feel at the time my faith is pretty much like gorilla glue now much peace in knowing God everything is an opportunity for personal growth nobody really knows you (God is the only one) as much as i can brag about knowing myself there are still plenty of things that i'm still figuring out i'll be a different person next wk n tmrw it's an inner transformation... it can very well be spectacular when you're not expecting it to be my definition of getting taken care of might not be the right one anytime that sumin happens ask the Lord what's this for i always feel like i'm not doin enough i don't beat myself up as much as i used to you can't change how i carry on to the outside world i'm a fool only crazy mfs can appreciate me those are my people holy shit look at that eye if you're not one of us why do you crash the party goin to a restaurant n hating on it n all the people that eat there...that's the internet for ya why would anyone in their right mind do that too much ginger in this here smoothie this really is a blast from the past that last shot

this is the fourth time that thelonious (mini cooper) has been towed some people get awkward about being filmed which i understand he is going to eurofix right now pray for thelonious plz pray for thelonious just yer avg religious nutjob you can give inanimate objects life by appreciating them maybe that's just another lie i tell myself holy shit i looks so old now! ritualistically kissing those things to extend their life is it cos i'm adopted that i do this weird thing? if sumin can be salvaged n i didn't seize that opportunity i feel like a total piece a shit don't worry we've already cried over this shit i gotta go pay this guy now but plz pray for us thank you

beyond physical therapy...fucking i will assume for the purpose of a "joke" a few yrs ago i had a toy microphone n stood in front of this brick wall n did sumin similar to what i'm doing now let's pretend we're in cleveland real comedy only seems to exist in my head no time for actual art cos they just love their tvs so much i find plenty of what they do questionable n totally degenerate BUT... i love being outta the loop (we're in another one) the loop is fucking dumb comedians used to be counter-culture n now they just go along i don't think it's just about "success" i think it has to do w/ following the trends n culture as a way of life not just for some career opportunity what i do shouldn't be authentic in certain ways i don't wanna be found n i prefer obscurity lifestyle has to do w/ brain stuff it's a strange paradise. think of beach house sometimes it's really sad n i feel the suckage of the world but most of the time it's a beautiful life that feels like a buffet superficial people are a lotta the time super pc so they tend to wanna get away from me

vortex i gotta show you sumin *SPOILER: i don't i don't like filming in front of other people for the same reason that i hate being on stage this is kinda cool, people don't notice you walking for the most part i walked all the way over here n didn't even focus on what i wanted you to see hahahaha i am so silly it matters who leads...no it doesn't exercising, eating right, teaching yer kids, treat yer animals right whatever you got bust yer ass at yer job do stuff that you believe in they are all masons so... it's only a matter of time until all the "red" states turn bright blue we could have a functioning system but we insist of continuing to trust them you go on the internet so you can get the media involved nothing is ever a secret anymore let's just get shit done you can't have this attitude when you wanna make sumin if they lack nuance they won't be able to solve problems i think i use social media right and this is a very very small demographic over here it is actually subjective tho black anti-5g paint, that seems like sumin i would have they always stop right when you pay more attention why i continue to go to bars it is possible, glad to be out on a saturday night i'm willing to bet that bitch is 250lbs n drinkin tequila i never did stuff like that back when i partied sometimes i am jealous of those that socialize just like kurt said...oh and also you guys you can't listen to the nay-sayers no matter what their reasoning i get super suicidal so this is just self-preservation for me i haven't trusted the govt since i was 6 i have taken booster shots so i know what they do i definitely don't live in no sand i am not gonna fixate on orwellian crap n i really don't get how anyone w/ a smartphone can complain about it it's pretty hypocritical wouldn't you say maybe if you only accessed yer phone once a wk... just going along cos it's what people do they'd never listen to somebody like me confirmation bias will kick in but i promise you i don't wanna control you imma continue to walk around i think i really really like walking n so do mentally ill people i do drugs that allow me to walk around haha i don't wanna be a cunt but... the reasons for doing "dummie drugs" as stanhope calls em most are not too conscious of the decisions that they make they play victim cos they made the wrong choice real prominent people complaining about not knowing stuff but they all have the internet in their pocket all the time nobody knows how to use this technology right if i had a smartphone i'd not only be the prez but i'd run this whole place you're soooo lucky i refuse to upgrade cos as ruler of the free world i'd be a one helluva fascist

the bunny won't get offended cos it ain't black i call this grassing actually haha the fake moon is still real purty good to do stuff that raises yer vibrational frequency n releases endorphins it's good for me to socialize even tho i don't wanna unfortunately thelonious (car) is sick again apparently this is a common issue w/ bmw i called eurofix n it's in the shop now (i had to get it towed over there cos it was smoking when i last looked at it) sumin tells me that it ain't gonna be cheap "covid" destroyed my hypochondria i am paranoid about everything BUT a virus made in a lab i was sick for like a day maybe three x in the past 4yrs i treat my body pretty well aside from the occasional impulse i have to force myself to eat eggs too many donuts during coffee hour technically the Blessed bread is a mystery i won't ever forsake eating Holy bread but regular bread maybe the jokes about being asexual aren't just jokes mental illness is why i'm alone not feminism most women seem to have a cluster B personality disorder everywhere it's still high school if you have to get it on stage, you will never get it i can tell that these colleagues of mine really really want it smokin hot redhead in a wheel chair that has a lotta talent n dark sense of humor if she were more conservative she'd have a lotta jokes about how her disability is an opportunity for the booking agent to gain woke points if she could literally stand up she probably wouldn't be as much of an asset i still want you to succeed even if you hate my guts you won't stop being insecure all cos you get more stage time i understand the lie that is the audience i love my jokes regardless of how the audience feels about em comedy is not the same cos authenticity is out they can't use me the way they can use other comics haha i can talk about way more if i use their language i don't want uptight Christians, sorry they're just words people that have a smartphone don't seem to mind wasting time nevermind do whatever you want haha not my fans! wandering around the grassy area of an optometrist's office...CLASSIC ag i got another camcorder that's got night vision it was pretty cheap for all the features on it i still love you canon camcorder, you are not being replaced! everything attached to me has feelings yes my life is somewhat satirical i am still doing the piano punk cos i think it's important if it represents my humanity then i won't refuse to put it up most of these people don't try, they just wanna fuss at you ooooh i just saw a skunk, glad it didn't see me

resilience n resistance get confused cos they are two r words that are relatively the same length the reason why i'm on insta!spam the last night @ twin kegs 2 comedians are the most unsupportive artists i suck at schmoozing i'll talk to anyone but i'd much rather be alone i accepted the $6 that he gave me for the poster since i don't have venmo that had everything to do w/ spiritual direction my prayers are answered in less than a day now, it used to take weeks the resistance part of me would have me convinced that this was of the devil necessary change vs. going against principles i don't think i'm caving in as long as i do it my way you have gotten used to it that's why it's normal to you the ways to escape are endless but they don't seem to do that, do they oh look there's a bunny over there the last thing i wanna do is participate in this destruction this technology has usurped our humanity if i seem cold get chu a shawl i have rebuttal jokes in case they get offended bye bye bunny

man this ginger is amazing, i wish i could share it w/ you ginger clears your palet i couldn't find my mosquito repellent this has been helping me a lot as of late grounding/earthing reduces inflammation the west loves their false promises n pretend remedies if the worst that happens is name calling then i'd say that's pretty good i learned from fiona apple what to expect the poem when the pawn is amazing that really is her best album emotional intelligence is undervalued those that inspire you were made by God i'm satisfied knowing that God is pleased w/ this the internet is a very strange place if you are mean i will pray for you wokeness ain't about identity, it's about gullibility all this stuff is connected you're less likely to abuse sumin if you know what it's for they (powers at be) want you to be depressed good things don't seem to motivate me contrary to my internet presence i really lack motivation resilience not resistance (resistance never works)

forcing myself to watch standup n it's been pretty terrible haha it's good for me to get an understanding of how the sheep are perceiving world events, so if anything it's a learning experience it was gonna happen at some point now if only this whole thing wasn't a psych op trump is a character, those that hate him are caricatures the memories from when i grew up are still very firm in my mind ag shoots w/ a canon camcorder FUCK SMARTPHONES i knew i was gonna pay for that attitude that sushi was huge holy shit you're just not bawlsy enough to make unconventional choices i hate having a laptop ascension, psychology n psychiatric medication withdrawal...that's my algorithm i woulda still become an alcoholic i know that for sure drugs that deplete you of your regular flow of dopamine will probably inspire you to do crazy shit like shoplift on a regular basis every addiction is different n should be treated based off our response to it stupid to take advice from anyone but yourself living in a society that has already killed itself i have been rewarded for trusting my instinct not getting a smartphone was the best decision i ever made people that think they have to go along are SHEEP

people choose to be miserable you choose how you deal w/ your life circumstances i'll sing about stuff that pisses me off but i can't focus on it, thank God a little schizophrenia goes a long way...welcome to the party shit has been crazy, it just took the internet for people to notice if you find Truth in it n it motivates you to be a better person then it is good i ain't gonna wait on the world, man asians eat right that's why (they also walk everywhere) i don't wanna eat crap cos i know what it does to me psychologically since i know that the food is poison i try to consume as little of it as possible obesity/addiction/porn/social media all prove the same thing anytime sumin gets americanized expect that sumin to turn to total shit americans have the freedom to walk away n yet... yeah people think ______ but fuck those people they're hateful to me for no reason i hate standup comedians comedy used to be about telling the truth, now it just promotes degeneracy how can a comedian not care about censorship speaking generally not specifically at least we don't have hate speech rules apparently portland is really bad at least we can still say the word faggot down here, that's sumin there is no risk in doing standup comedy anymore

super easy in this age to focus on the negative cole hastings is more a conventional, non-conspiratorial version of me (oh and also an actual male) coconut water is amazing waaaaaaaaaaa...majority of yt comments negativity keeps liquor stores in business that ain't an app amy, that's a google search option what if america wasn't the country that you were told it was the internet is here to prove... i already knew society was stupid before smartphones, no additional proof required resilience is a beautiful thing they couldn't foresee the negative repercussions of going along w/ the world doing stand up literally makes me sick to my stomach ...but their image would be tainted! being a piece a shit is fine so long as you're not racist the internet has proven that most people are only image-oriented very messy eater, that's why i'm covering my mouth they don't have the time to seek after what they claim they want

i have successfully used the white board i like me, little girl voice if you liked you you wouldn't hate on people i am 27min early which is amazing since i'm typically 30min late i gotta flip it w/ time like i do in other aspects of my life i love being in clusterA but is it a choice tho? the medical community never had the intention of understanding the "problem" human beings don't have much regard for their humanity "mental illness" is just extra _______ i avoid what i know is not good for me the internet is too complicated for me the voice of God is my instinct i'm too analog for this technical world i don't have mush brain cos i still have a flip phone with a passion i hate memes even the clever memes are still memes don't think that i dunno how stupid that was max is late too cluster A is for the freaks schizos are stigmatized cos we utterly reject the world some homeless dude babbling to themselves clearly doesn't care what society thinks any white person that says the nword into a microphone... i really don't wanna associate w/ anyone tho the genders are indistinguishable i don't think i am doing a good job breaking the stigma i'm not gonna do things that enable bad behavior who knew that the schizo spectrum would be an advantage the sheep just dunno any better fuck teachers sumin about liberty...CLASSIC american bullshit as carlin would say ...for liberty and justice for all i've never trusted anything that the system is pushing it is authentic is go against the grain, that's why it's the grain how many "doctors" even know about akathisia so many in the medical community are psychopaths they're not paid to know anything, they are paid to push pills society has been trained to trust the drug dealer in the lab coat the street dealer is way more respectable actually you DON'T hear about that, i just lied to the vortex i'm sorry what i meant to say: you read about (if you care) suicides involving firearm are not media friendly media people are even worse than psychiatrists if noticing stuff was more common this world would be way better it took you twenty years to ask a question about yer medication i've definitely made accommodations here we are 30min early today but can we do it tmrw?

one last thing vortex... accommodating to my all or nothing personality rather than fighting it i have to turn my drug use into a system i really miss smoking a joint after work on my way home instead of lying to myself i try to just accept these things i wish i could figure out a way to drink that wouldn't kill me there are certain things that i will always suck at due to how my brain functions you are victimizing other people when you refuse to work on yourself

this camcorder is fixin to die i reckon everyone has a phone now so camcorders are cheap for what all they can do it is definitely a worthy investment did yawl see those choppers i know pulp fiction by heart movies are not for snoots and films are not for morons i haven't taken psych meds in a long time but i felt like i was experiencing akathisia this morning that is also hypochondria amy anything you get from the majority of restaurants is poison we don't typically wake up at 7am just get up n do some shit i went on insta!spam since i was already up processed food increases inflammation which contributes to psychological problems such as anxiety n restlessness momentary impulses never lead to anything positive so glad that i know a lot about myself my body is very adjusted to coffee haha do people in this country pay any attention to what they are going thru you have all this time to get on yer phone n do nothing but not any time to care about yer health the DIY approach is totally discouraged how can they call it self-help when it ain't coming from you gullibility is a form of laziness fake remedies lead to fake success

my brain is always going in a buncha different directions my intentions are just the best silly little attempts to be organized my methods are memorable if i were to do that tho i wouldn't have the other better parts of my brain i'll try real hard to stay on topic holding onto anger at those who have wronged me does not serve me that guy behind me is mad if i'm not gonna speed i really shouldn't be in the fast lane amy sits corrected, literally i piss people off enough w/out even trying so... i can't help but notice...CLASSIC ag speculations ag is at the bottom of yt, i'll be lucky to hit even a thousand subs those w/ sociopathic tendencies WILL get ahead in life if everyone agreed to use their phone less... the way that "men" behave on their internet handles technology is encouraging feminine behavior twitter capitalizes on drama n psych ops positive content won't get people fired up so that's why men n women would have to live a more natural life in order for that to happen i'm fixin to buy a night vision camcorder my lighting is terrible, i know you know side note sorry ag is your schizotypal representation ag's biweekly pep talk about the internet it is a dumpster of ag's head i finished 21 posters n put it up on insta!spam small victories are better than no victories literal baby steps are just me leaving the house it sounds like a lawn mower tho vicarious hypochondria, ag is paranoid for EVERYONE yay! i got thru ONE subject...

i know how i come across...very very very Cross i don't see eye to eye w/ the very many among me maybe that's why they despise me cos i don't see the virtue in weakness when i can seek God n He sees me thru all that God is the only one that will truly help me society won't fix their own problems it's not God's fault that man is broken n chooses things that make him more broken that scratchy sound is just right amy, it's just right i love that chord change sing what i want n explain it later i have to gather my thoughts, excuse me if you know there's a reason you are less likely to play victim about it mistreatment has taught me a lot i gotta get what i need to get from me n God, not the world that's not a cope the L is nuts cos they turn to things that don't work for them perhaps you are in the victim mentality american shitizens dunno how to do anything for themselves gaytriots gay for this country's idealized history why idol worship a place that poisons you it's been dead, no politician will revive that "react" on twitter DO IT. IT MEANS SUMIN anybody can say anything, it doesn't mean nothin i practice what i preach n fuck everyone that doesn't it ain't a Christian sentiment i know n i'm sorry it is funny n i'm the only one that gets it no insult comics anymore (aside from ag) i have the tattoo so i can trash 12 step programs "help" don't help tho, that's the problem it just turns into this identity complex they have no right to be narcissistic about it all cos they quit i guess i didn't need support i freaked out my sponsors cos i couldn't wait to do 12 step work most people don't like self-evaluation cos it typically ain't fun my 4th step was sooooo much fun they're gullible n super controlling very few comics do actual comedy now, it's just way different another issue w/ 12 step programs...it's this illusion of getting better my mom doesn't sound like that but she did scold me AA is definitely a sheep thing what did i just scream about damnit it sounds judgmental cos my perspective is Biblical i guess i'm some kinda prophet or some shit those of us that can actually see n hear...i can see why the schizo stereotype is real hahaha anytime you listen to the voice of God you will stop believing in pharmies those people will never have yer back it's your responsibility to fix yer damn problems sponsor/sponsee or therapist/"patient" has a similar power dynamic as well as liability that contract is not for you, it's for them it would be important to know these things up front

it will stop in a second, just wait waiting is a part of life isn't it i do standup...many people dunno this so should i always say that? so i said i was gonna bring a whiteboard... not trying to tour or nothin i suppose i have a fairly intimidating aura i will never take it personally not gonna fear nothin but God terrified of anyone who understands themselves they can't wait to inform ya of their insecurity i wish you'd prove me wrong i pity em so i don't stay mad at em bdpd n ptsd are emotionally entangled for this reason you'd never say EVERYTHING anyway saying it to the air...CLASSIC "mental illness" maybe they're in the other room it's crazy what they think warrants them to be ugly the nonchalant way that i talk is way more offensive than overreacting screaming at someone all cos they said sumin that you didn't like is kinda absurd what am i tellin you? hahaha they'll never hear you out so fuck em they make it up so let em cos it's kinda funny if you know who you are it's fine that people lie about you so much of the world is exactly this way i made em think i guess

being inconvenienced when it makes sense is fine look at that cop over there thelonious (car) is fixin to tell me for 90 seconds straight i love this album so much, miles ahead is a lot like a musical you hear this turn signal slow ass people out on the road today i am being a cunt right now, i'm sorry do i need a white board behind me expressing my view points at all times if you don't already know how opinionated we are, BYE no that's not empirical research amy but you do definitely do that too the masons control a lot of it but the you know who controls the $ aspect you gotta show up at the mason lodge n shit i am very open to new information if it seems like i have ptsd it's cos i have a camera crew of self-awareness in my brain n it gives me a super charged sensitivity to my surroundings yeah they're gonna hate you man this is a very anti-human society ag is most definitely stayin salty they might not have the strength tho you don't have faith that it will get better if you trust head drs it legit makes me so angry i wanna spit nails at these people well i guess she is the reason why i have that bit about not talking about yer problems in front of a sheep even tho for awhile i swore that she wasn't one of em, i guess time reveals all we as humans deserve the full spectrum of emotions i shoulda been a robot zombie like her OBVIOUSLY psych meds are neuro toxic, that is why akathisia will make you way more suicidal than you were initially God doesn't have to punish you, this is the devil at work at least alcoholism is a DIY kinda addiction

i hope this is the last video i had a good time tonight aside from all the nausea i feel like i'm in jail actually i hate hate hate my stage persona monologue w/ myself so i guess it's dialogue the dude w/ the man voice just imagine how much more God has to listen to! i repel society cos society repels me i'd much rather bomb than kill it i can understand why people say it's electric if you can get them to actually give a fuck you're supposed to reveal yourself up there i know yawl saw that fly he/she already revealed himself/herself there's always gonna be at least one person... i have been chatting long enough i think i can do a pretty good impression of josh lewis i love the appalachian accident, i'm sorry vortex he's one of the few kind souls in the nashville comedy scene many have a very disrespectful, cut throat attitude any kinda "support" is fake n totally in vain i hate roasts but i understand that there's an art to it comedy is very similar to hazing 6mos into comedy i shot myself in the foot hahaha it was mainly white women n one black woman who acts super white God knows why they're so jealous hahahaha i gotta throw myself under the bus first i'm kinda over hating women tho it's not a joke tho, it's how i legit feel about them scowling at me either cos of the Crucifix or cos i'm skinny (i think she's just insecure regardless) histrionic bitch right there luckily the muslims WILL take care of it