kaleidoscopeANON

i talk about these things a lot cos they are prevalent in my life i am obsessed w/ myself cos i don't have much of a choice the fantasy of being on stage the other side of ptsd ag is a mirror reflection on lsd blonde on blonde has the worst track one in the world no excuse for an artist to have a terrible track1 rainy day women #12 & 35 musta been bob dylan's sick joke on his fans i like stuff that's from the heart which is why i love folk so much i don't idolize or idealize anybody i hope to help others thru my creativity the way that others have helped me thru theirs yet another opportunity for them to impress themselves n their "friends" on the internet i'm unhappy only some of the time it's fun to yell in my car, damnit sobbing on the living room floor is just a part of it, man why i try to stay off the radar how to have empathy w/ ag: cancel yourself imagine that you are that person w/ their stupid twitter handle wearyourdamnmaskDENNIS pretty good at gauging when it's appropriate to reply back i don't see the importance of being right a millisecond hit of dopamine ain't worth all the trouble i wish i wasn't right about technology society will always be stupid, never forget it

more proof... giant ass white board w/ nothin on it...CLASSIC ag irony ugh uh paisley...no shame at all at least dogs have shame i washed my harr, be proud i don't wanna go back on the internet my sub count shot up to 420 subs i shoulda taken a picture, alas what do i have to say to get my sub count back down don't worry, it ain't plant based i can't stress enough how much i despise the internet i still need to apply for a job @ food lion i look up my brain, so much out there that i'm convinced nobody reads why don't people care more about their well-being there's really just a hole in my brain what if it's a demon that tells me to hide things from myself blood on the tracks on repeat kimberly was also sobbing so many piece a shit narcissists in this world i'm grateful that waffle house still exists it's not just a southern staple but an american staple i've never had a bad experience at a waffle house man, i miss the smoking section just leave the pot of coffee the multiple sides of my brain...

being real is my appeal but i dunno what else to be not much of an accomplishment to do what comes most naturally i guess it makes me free in a way my tongue is a tool of separation n annihilation is that a freudian slip or what i nuke every opportunity to be relatively normal i don't have to assume, i pick up on energy i can hear all the words you've bitten just go on social media that way you can spray it there's a major role reversal going on nobody is what they were once before when you rearrange it's just the same thing from another angle polischticks...there's nothin else i can do, i'm a woman will anyone get what they want if they dunno what they want i don't expect much from people that can't stop themselves from hitting a button "don't touch that red button" meaning i was always the one touchin the hot stove i did the opposite of what i was told anybody that wants to do anything is gonna do it regardless it takes most people a long long while i come up w/ epiphanies every day all day so often i wish that at least one would stick well i guess comedy stuck sorry that was kind of abrupt will sumin ever fill me w/ such inspiration that i become organized can i keep using the "artist" title as an excuse, what if it isn't an excuse but an actual reason as long as i do the dishes, pay the bills (and of course clean the litterbox) i don't want my house to stink! these little animals inspire me to keep goin when i really don't want to how can you not feel pretend loved God will allow you to still have everything

glad that you get sumin outta this, that is why i do it (on the internet anyway) i always knew that there was sumin in me that was bound to be important sumin inside of me is problematic anything they don't understand they have to reprimand so they have the upper hand why get mad about it, it's still annoying i wanted to get my nose pierced when i was 8...10yrs later i lived my dream psychotic break is a good thing everything is the opposite i wish i could save the whole world i wanna rid myself of all these negative feelings i have towards society sometimes i want em to feel to shit in this little fantasy bubble... people want a vigilante hence tv appeal everything is an opportunity to study culture so much you can learn watching a football game i make a lotta bold statements being extreme is kinda my thang way less strife w/ flip phone life the best option would be to break that smartphone but i will take what i can get sumin is most definitely missing when it comes to sex addicts but i suppose that asexual people are probably missing sumin as well sex is about connection n i feel dead inside whenever i do it can i create a sexual non-sexual experience opposite of porn: watching a crazy bitch pet her cat

actually i can. the people haven't got much sense left you're not wrong if you wanna kill yourself, just don't do it do yawl see paisley get intimidated by a pink fuzzy ball why are people so afraid of ______ that existential crisis will never go away until you start making stuff nothing will fill the void so... maybe the void is supposed to be there you "care" in a way that you can't help but share i dunno how to not _____ they can't stop themselves i'm happy in my sadness, knowing the purpose sometimes this is all there is other times so much more could be expanded upon most are too dim-witted to see thru these divisive tactics that thing you think is a threat for whatever reason they usually reject me haha why wouldn't they continue since that's all they have done the majority be lyin' i wish that everyone would benefit but you couldn't take it seriously if they did not everyone is gonna get it x3 it's okay to be depressed n da da da da da i'd be super boring if i didn't gaslight myself if you look at ALL of it like it's important to your growth it's worth it, that's where i get my fulfillment if God is surrounding me always... you don't see what all i can see

that's a cat, i bet you're so shocked a cat: "lonely" woman mascot if you're in touch w/ the childlike part of yourself then you still got it don't worry i wish yawl could experience a cat's "love" the purring really is what makes them the best pets it's harder to establish a bond w/ a cat canines are submissive, felines are just rude if i had a dog it would pretend to love me for food things have always been this way, justice is not a worldly virtue 50 yrs to solve a crime vs. 45min episode of crime drama once you realize how long this shit has been happening you will understand why the future is always bleak should i just get addicted to opium who's gonna feed paisley if i'm passed out on the floor you can grow opium tho all my plants die cos i can't remember to water them, they're too quiet to remind me "mentally ill" people have a lotta detours she has to do that cos she's a cat, amy she does whatever the fuck she wants too many things distracting me always i forget my destination all together cos i either get lost in the woods or my car gets stuck in a ditch

being proactive is good if you're anxious about the outcome none of us know what the future holds the future holds a phone i view inanimate objects like real people real people act dead inside so... that mini cooper was perfect when i got it i have a fuck ton of everything that i like my white boards have yet to help me accomplish or organize anything why would i ever wait for an epiphany i dunno why i'm covering my mouth like you haven't been watching this entire time treating myself to chocolate milk i tell myself that i will use it eventually there's gotta be a parallel yt channel involving ag's evil twin (i'm adopted so i can believe that) trust the process cos everything in that process is important i just call it epic sadness peter, paul n mary by the way things are supposed to be terrible cos of the decisions that americans have made over the past several decades i'm trying to figure out how to use this instead of just throwing it away "mental illness" is disconnection from society Jesus descended into Hell to save adam n eve the internet people just wanna stroke their ego if i ever wanna get drunk again i just go online n my head spins they simply don't see themselves the internet is mass psychosis so they said that thomas edison said this i actually think that the 10% of those that think they think has increased most would rather die than not be sheep regardless of how dumb their peers are they will not challenge them n be ostracized satan disguises himself so's he can manipulate a person's weakness satan sowed doubt in eve's mind he's really good at imitating whatever we think we need i'm supposed to be tormented yes my couch is falling apart if it was easy nothin would be worth it you can't learn anything w/out humility a wiser person learns from the world's mistakes you gotta let me have this one since yawl wanna turn everything into a contest... there's always been sumin distracting us from facing ourselves n the world lotza $$$ in exploitation fuck america every 4 years you can press a button n pretend that YOU can change things depression w/ a capital D today apparently maybe it will inspire some to improve upon themselves, but most will not rise to the challenge, i'm willing to bet $ i don't have the victim/hero mentality is very unproductive n an attempt to lie to yourself don't chu love this lighting i hope that i accomplish a lot in this life what should i say to make my sub count go back down i gotta at least go thru my comedy notes or whatever they are my cat holds me accountable you have to have a boring, conventional life in order to be "fulfilled" these people are so simple-minded i hung out w/ my frenz n their little kids last night n they were an absolute hoot so many older women have kids or dogs cos they don't wanna be alone i didn't even ask for this affection you're just jealous of our cat love did yawl see paisley's asshole a mess of a mess of a mess of a mess of a... depression is a part of life if you're a conscious person most in western countries are so unconscious i don't have what chu think i should have so i'm not fulfilled? i'll more than acknowledge that sumin is definitely "wrong" w/ me why would you wanna fit in w/ society anyway it still brings me down sometimes paisley inspires me to chill the fuck out prophets ain't supposed to have kids considering all the darkness that we are aware of point out my nose ring, plz when you already know what their ammo is... it's hard to not get defensive but at the same time i shouldn't be mean about it cos that's what they're doing they can't help themselves, they feel threatened by anyone that doesn't go along to get along imma pretend that this cat really loves me

the house of a crazy artist paisley can improve my mood way better than that scrunchie i haven't had my car in over a week cats want you to know that they are satisfied by showing you their ass...CLASSIC paisley animals extend yer life bc powder, tampons n other important things fulfillment is not so easily defined maybe i'm not supposed to drive for a little while, this is the conclusion i must draw i couldn't get a rental car due to my license being expired n the dmv is closed for renovation (i can't do it online cos i gotta renew my photo ID) probably way longer than a week too sad to have self-awareness today sorry for that unappealing sight saving the spices for later old skool folk music in hopes to lighten my spirits i never thought my depression would go away acceptance really is the answer to quite a bit no kiosks at this food lion, just two cashiers chicken noodle soup is good depression food i also ate breakfast food which i have always loved so much i ain't taking meds cos they will rob me of my creativity it's good to work tho walking to work would be pretty dope always consider yer options, there are way more than you realize

i do wanna change things i've only written like 3 actual songs if you got a ballsack i originally wrote about nick but then i realized that it was actually about me haha it's typically the case where you write about someone else but then you discover that they were just the vehicle that drove you back to yourself another beautiful thing about empathy there's probably coffee grounds in this but this is trashville so... i spy: grateful dead coffee mug plenty of videos in a maga hat w/ a trump flag, low point sumin felt fishy, that's why i didn't go i'm not so crazy about dt that i'd go to a fuckin protest rally *besides, protest rallies are for liberals it's too easy for them to control everything thru people, places n thangz i do everything i do on the spot clouds in my coffee *yep carly wrote that they don't ever deliver n yet they keep votin for em oligarchs controlled by technocrats n then mass society chooses to be guinea pigs pretty much everybody has a smartphone these days so... if you got the internet on you all the time you'll eventually use it for dumb shit sooooo much dumb shit being pushed on you all the time cancer is totally plausible i don't necessarily trust the numbers cos they can always botch em but this seemed legit they're all lazy so why would anyone try to change never expect society to be a shining example of morality er self-reliance why do these mfs get to be the arbiters of what's cool or what's right n wrong i am inherently skeptical due to God not due to reddit haha glad to piss off the sheep that already left

i hope i don't sound anything like this time! sumin effortlessly timeless not that it matters... i'm down here for a reason i sang that so country haha you complain about things that you can change it'd require you to make an actual effort tho many people don't wanna be a better person ag don't give a fuck about grammar or anything else university-related mlk is ml gay his rapist ass the select few know what most don't need to they don't have the time do they logic ain't all that but it is important that noise sounds familiar... i totally filled it up too high, my stupid ass it's okay, we all make mistakes some women get their appearance absolutely perfect i used to be jealous of what i don't have hyper consciousness of my appearance maybe your mmmmmmorality i guess this has had an indirect effect on me there's always a massive wall between me n so many there's guaranteed to be sumin that'll make you wanna turn against yer neighbor my savior is that alternative that greyhound just keeps comin back around it's just the way it is, it's the way it has always been it won't work the other way around many things sound profound to someone that hasn't heard it before that chord change is just sooooo good this is the feeling that i've been trying to replicate, not create i'm not offended that they leave maybe it's the super sick part that wants them to leave that tiny ass fraction of humanity that understands...i hope i don't upset you everybody else is exactly what i expected them to be i hope you get sumin out of it, that's the only reason why anybody should do anything i am so many places in my head right now, yawl can't see where i'm at

i never did watch that movie, i ended up passing out on my floor n spilling coffee all over the carpet n almost got it in my laptop cos i'm that fucking careless the body double adhd productivity tactic having sumin on in the background helps w/ the motivation memento is the story of my life either cannabis or natural born dementia look at all those damn shoes (more upstairs) that mural looks like a photo imagine doin conspiratorial research over frasier art inspires more art i really don't think highly of mass consumers i can't get cancelled by a canon camcorder, i will not accept this that cup was so small! my $ just went to china, imagine that i could just stop buying crap *i have little post it notes all over my house that say, do not buy more crap from china i'm nowhere near as impulsive as i used to be progress not perfection? how bout success IS perfection any amt of success is perfect to the Lord b/c at least you're trying the beastie boys were impressive due to their musical comradery this is paisley's active time *UPDATE: she knocked it down the following day my fave genre is suicidal art my emotions are elastic, way darker than light you can't realize this when in the light all the time i think that optimists are lying to themselves good on keira for taking criticism fat acceptance is quite strange, how bout alcoholic acceptance more proof that i'm a disorganized schizo i love cows so much, here go you more evidence there's a cow on the telephone! raw milk is what we are supposed to drink don't run n tell the neighbors, paisley i usually forget whatever i wanted to say, luckily there's way more it takes much patience to put up w/ my ass sometimes it takes the negative to bring out the positive how bout depression acceptance not coming from a place of judgment or belittlement i promise there are plenty of fat people who can take this, it's really just that small fraction of (typically) leftists "capitalist freedom" true freedom is doin God's will you can't tell another person what God's will is for them, how would YOU know they highlight one Bible verse n toss the rest of it the person you were when you were a kid is who you really are i don't have to have kids to realize the amazing ability that children have to enlarge the God part of you you never have to have x, y & z no matter what they tell ya it is disingenuous! grandstanding about yer lifestyle doesn't convince me that it's workin for ya but people like you will buy what you're selling i just hate technology, yawl i don't like this about myself at all people don't seem to mind being pieces a shit just admit that you weren't paying attention the visual stimulation is killing yer ability to concentrate nodding in agreeance w/out paying any attention...CLASSIC adhd american (all but the amish) i picked her up to annoy her since she is annoying me she meows when she wants to meow, but i suppose that's why she has earned so much of my respect paisley is such a woman

this is the greatest thing that you can do w/ soup i lack affect sometimes, othertimes i get so passionate that it scares people why are people so hateful towards the feline community less women involved in public life is better twitter turns everyone into a woman social media can be used as a vehicle but... cats purr when they die apparently why is dying alone a threat society is already proving how animalistic they are why are people afraid of what will inevitably happen to all of us expand upon yer relationship w/ God n you will no longer live in fear everything is short-lived or could leave God doesn't die so you're never alone! both things are true here; we are all alone in a way n in another we are never alone

pick mes...aren't all women tho i get mad being picked it used to bother me not being a pretty girl why do people have to be attractive, i mean i get why there's more pressure on women but still that's just not possible for all of us haha why don't i just accept aging, which is the natural process of life they run away from all the things that make them real n choose the artificial world n all its' lies everything is witchcraft it seems not fun witches but the media n frenz tell a vision but more like sell a vision maybe i just didn't hear em say it somebody out there has already done what you think makes you soooooo original just accept that you are probably more mediocre than you wanna admit n move on w/ the rest of yer life

the three little bears i think i love the fuck outta chuck klosterman i want that phone so bad authors are so motivated, jelly! it's easy for me to write a simple msg n color it angst is anxiety! paisley wants pets n is distracting me the simple-minded will never get it the seventies were way worse than the sixties the nineties were all about ambivalence imma do sumin about it but over here i'm really lucky to be in this situation i haven't been on fb in awhile so it figures that my car would make an appearance i'm a terrible driver minus snow + ice blaming an entire group of people for our set of problems now is kinda silly n immature the sheep are reliably complacent, no matter the time period breakaway societies are very possible the fact that liberal anarchists n super conservative amish achieve the same outcome is telling they wanna keep trusting those that ain't trustworthy it just pisses me off that people don't see that they're essentially being spat upon by this govt thru their immigration policy so what's to take pride in regarding being an american (the people that run everything clearly don't feel that way about you)

most door dashers do not have people skills those that do it as a side job tend to have more of a personality door dash is perfect for phone junkies it's not gen z's fault that they were brought up in this shit time who wouldn't wanna have constant internet access that soup is hot!

anywhere ag is is the crazy corner a prime example of why women shouldn't be in politics back to the story... all cats go to Heaven, RIP arlo the reason i have to hit it repeatedly is cos the frame broke so it doesn't work right i couldn't get rid of that lamp cos it's from my first apt (it belonged to my landlord) the land before time is all about racism n it ain't subtle at all if you're just doin it for a cultural purpose then it's fun i'm happier cos i'm unabashedly on the fringe to hide their ignorance they call you nuts i never take that shit personally bullies are bullies due to insecurity this annoying kid voice that i do... i know what's up, down n sideways since we're already programmed to self-destruct, we can spot it real quick i dunno my bloodline n it's always bothered me my depression brought me closer to God God knows why i'm schizophrenic n that is such a comfort you don't have to be conventional to succeed you should be doing this cos we're doing this this is art, damnit...at least i'm entertaining this internalized experience is very, very sad if you live in america you have a.d.d. negative emotions are okay working is good, very anxious to get back to my job if only my car weren't in the shop at least i'd be getting paid to not do much of anything fuck door dash

if the mainstream is talkin about it, it's clearly for political purposes "victim" of a "scandal" blase is right hahaha her voice was embarrassing on a scale of 1-10 i'm a 27 there's never just one free mason no. clones damnit i still feel the same about God the world is all they know so... like a cat, i can pick up on negative energy

i must do positive posters now the sheep used to bring me down, not anymore! the sheep are always gonna be grasping at straws i'm the prime candidate of ag's insults i'll never be religious the way that most people are i think it's more about ego for them than an actual relationship w/ God if the devil has done it w/ me, he will definitely do it w/ sheep i gotta do just as many hopeful posters as i do the ones that scream nihilism when you realize how correlated everything truly is you stop giving a fuck the point of art is to feel better about this shit world art can be a lifesaver a lotta people don't have the emotional capacity to understand the purpose of art coercion is how most bad things are accomplished barbituates then benzos now ssris i've been on the pills i complain about so... so many people put themselves in a position to be manipulated

that c looks so stupid the letters don't have to be symmetrical there's no pattern to anything that i do i promise my harr ain't greasy it just always looks like shit i look too much like charles manson *before the family did what everybody knows they did charles manson was considered a prolific poet n songwriter blame everybody damnit it's always the masses that are truly in control ag is a new wave luddite 4:20 is second to 3:33 what if the crazy cat ladeh is actually a genius america gets it all wrong don't they if we still smoked weed we'd be doin it right now it's always 4:20 in ag's mind what's the point in goin anywhere when i can just disassociate very adaptable over here so many people doin things just to fill a void *progress is an uncountable noun which explains everything language tells all the secrets

i still can't believe that i was that ambitious comedy is male-dominated for a reason women chase whatever makes them popular once again, men are women 2.0 women shouldn't play video games w/ men you can only hope that the trance! people will scare off the real women he wears fur coats men want to kill things AND blow shit up the internet is just proving how hopeless society is we love andrew dice clay was he a misogynist tho, he had sex w/ women it definitely didn't work SOME women are hot take that testosterone n put it somewhere better than the bedroom natural to be disgusted by sex when disgusted by the world celibacy doesn't involve masturbation we must be on guard! luckily if/when i slip i can just turn to the Father n ask for forgiveness

schizophrenia made blatantly obvious thru my "art" consistently inconsistent my brain is on overdrive pretty much always drugs n alcohol can do it but that's probably not good when everything is a drug... so many dudes act like they have a vag i'm not pointing it out to be a bitch yawl they ain't even living up to a quarter of their potential that time i got kicked out of a gay club for passing around a bottle of whisky i was a really stupid drunk haha *not broadway but church street i lost a shoe n a liter of whisky a somewhat memorable time tho the finished product will bear a striking resemblance to the original product it's a choice how you react to things our ancestors are turning in their graves

i expect people to leave most are too pussified for ag george carlin was probably workin for people, too social media proves that you can't ever really know a person i used to take photos of myself crying but i never put em on the internet haha crying really is my most natural state don't chu dare feel sorry for me authenticity ain't everything tho bitterness coming from all directions it's always a psych op n the same dumb shits keep falling for it no i don't believe in having kids to fill a void reading the comments teaches you a lot about society i make bold statements on these posters, not on twitter humanity does exist on social media but it's very rare social media encourages you to be the worst version of yourself i don't like being in conflict w/ people criticism is supposed to help you i wouldn't be an artist if i didn't have this wide spectrum of emotion certain letters look terrible, others are alright i guess imma have to explain this one, good thing i'm so good at explanations

should i amend this poster all people that act like women don't belong in politics i was a liberal for the right reason, damnit if only social programs didn't just destroy the family unit 3:33 my fave time i still get excited getting a text from someone i've never gotten a text from i missed a whole wk of work due to the weather n yet another car accident oh yeah i was gonna get coffee iced coffee w/out the ice lauren knows how much i love my cold brew *when i use the term bitch it is often times a term of endearment universal misogyny involving anyone that acts like a woman just bite the bullet n accept blame when you are wrong don't apologize over dumb shit SSRIs encourage violent behavior cos you can't turn down those negative voices society is constantly rationalizing bad people doing bad things everyone's just following orders the system thrives due to the unsuspecting masses totally apathetic about their well-being hence the term hell-being

i promise i won't start talking conservative politics now no women no women no women women don't belong in politics including conservative women i wanna destroy everything n everyone exasperating that nobody is learning diddley squat is this colour indigo so many grey harrs! women are too emotional. that's why i'm sorry but the artificial ain't the same accept yer lot in life it doesn't have to be degenerate but the decision to go along w/ homosexual desires is in opposition w/ God's desires for us i was right about psychotropic drugs i can't expect people to understand unconventional since i ain't a parent my opinion on potential child abuse won't (and shouldn't) be taken seriously since i have no skin in the game, objective statements can be made but that's about it we need to just start the fuck over does revoking the 19th even matter considering what happened to dt last round winning over stupid liberal women really ain't a win, son i highly doubt that they have the desire to actually change anything in this country circling the wagons is all about preparing for an attack, so that's about right women in politics is too tricky to navigate if women can't handle a mgmt position... county or courtroom just worries me for so many reasons (oh yeah, divorce/family court) nobody should be on twitter social networks have turned men into women 2.0 nobody has an attention span anymore they used technology to expand upon our easily exploitable desire to be liked i would argue that it wasn't worth it

alopecia or maybe simple hormonal imbalances marilyn monroe effect minus the mkultra they will never be satisfied why i call myself an anti-artist it depends on the type of art n who's paying for it soooooo good at correcting myself over things that really don't matter haha everything in the public eye is controlled tho, this really ain't that surprising joe strummer had NO IDEA...LEAVE JOE ALONE! why you shouldn't idolize people that's why it's called a covert operation epstein's island is the way of the world it's very difficult to remain principled which is why so many don't disgust when people "sell out" back to my poster... receding harrline up close n personal race wars. gender wars. letter wars. generation wars. holy wars. and then regular-ass war but of course