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thelonious (car) always wants me to know that it's 37 degress is that an unlucky number for a mini cooper the flute sound is my fave if i'm gonna talk i'll do it all by myself i don't need you to listen to me i hate instagram n anything like instagram everything is just a replica of sumin else that's terrible if i'm being unfair plz lemme know nothing is a requirement n what most needs to be said won't be said anyway language is important but it's also trivial i don't expect too much from this world but i can tell that you do keep on doin the thing that doesn't work stay mad that i won't join you i will never vote again thank you dt for proving that every sneaking suspicion i ever had about this country was totally accurate they'll never wanna know... that's not the real dt no more we gotta use up that starbucks gift card couldn't wait to jump off that swing set i was a destructive kid rippin my harr out serving n protecting should be noble but the state ruins everything it's always the military how could i hate minorities working in restaurants if you say anything true about minorities you are racist all welfare $ does is help the poor self-destruct (which is exactly what "they" want) rich kids have similar problems tho "people of colour" really just means black (but the other races ain't fallin for it) not all of em but a lot of em tho social programs have ravaged the black community as well as appalachia blacks created way better musical genres than rap n yet... it's just the nword on repeat, really country n pop are both degenerate, stupid n trashy more like sodomy, psych meds, n dub step all the races have their issues but the white race is esp susceptible to social pressure https://williamsinstitute.law.ucla.edu/wp-content/uploads/Race-Ethnicity-Trans-Adults-US-Oct-2016.pdf https://www.cbsnews.com/news/psychiatric-drugs-study-reveals-widespread-use-women-men/ https://time.com/4597720/psychiatric-drugs-race-white-americans/ https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/data/databriefs/db419.pdf white people lack a tribal identity so we're "depressed" these "racists" are on fuckin reddit, they ain't neo nazis you stupid fuck people are so bored n insecure so the identity groups boost their sense of importance (in the west, in third world countries a lotta these kids either get kidnapped or recruited thru coercion) *i can't find the article, maybe it got scrapped or yours truly got too tired that cop was so hot i wish i coulda done a close up there are ways around every mfing thing the rules only impact those that are on the fence about following them if you wanna do it you had best figure out how to do it w/out getting in trouble, logic that's it people that know what they're doin don't get caught cos they simply bend the rules i'm proud of myself for smoking pot in my closet every night after my parents went to sleep, i had to time it perfectly everything is essentially a chemical they're all designed to control ya this is how i exercise my voice(s) the cutest little keyboard ever he'll never say that part outloud my eggs are probably shit but i could still make my best attempt i would keep handling it if i thought that i could i can't stop this so i have to just do what i can w/ it don't whine about what chu can't do, focus on what chu can the world will hate/judge/mock you no matter what shame comes from the devil humility can only come from God i have to clarify what i mean by ego plz could you do a little better, try a little harder, be a little wiser wisdom in knowing yer limits i promise it's not emotional crap it sounds like a real ass flute ...but i don't want anyone around i believe in the nuclear fambly not this disaster area called fuck it i wouldn't wanna take any chances w/ having a kid you don't have to make babies, you could instead start a cult

the lighting is so good there's an innocence to these chords this is me, mad i have lots of emotions don't wanna play victim all cos i'm uncomfortable i wish these people would just up n leave this world nobody would mind no matter what we wanna pretend don't expect me to be a liar like everyone else varying factors contributing to the video's poor sound quality...bumpy ass road, hitting sumin, running off the road varying factors such as yours truly's driving

outta focus xmas lights a whiff of the xmas spirit smells a lot like whisky xmas will be here in like a month i like this one a lot if i could just trust the process it would be magnificent i hate that i'm so typical but we can't always be original or sing in key when you whip it out think of these things they view a football game as sacred but not sex ya understand the position we're in society was always doomed wtf could you expect when your mindset is shit such a cool shot of the keyboard in my lap we wouldn't go to jail but the ticket ain't worth it

gonna do the responsible thing you know me big ole risktaker remember ebay this thing is just amazing we couldn't not do that it's part keyboard/part synth/part sampler man i am so distracted i dunno what i'd do if i couldn't do this i used to be super self-destructive, well i guess this is why i drive around n do shit like this haha this keyboard solves that previous problem this casio is from the eighties i don't like it at all your later interpretation could be way different it wasn't phenomenal haha

the last time we were here things were way less shitty nobody is ever satisfied not just women why did the serpent tempt eve instead of adam is it just cos we're the weaker sex it's way easier for women to fall into deception cos we're too emotional for our own good the real reason why women are emotionally manipulative back in the day when i played pretend holding hands, having sex n other crap look at how they eat, no wonder they can't get sex right eat. fuck. procreate. that's it they have manipulated our natural human tendancies indoctrination based on nationality n other identity boxes if you wanna keep up w/ the times you gotta have a ______ not a fan of unnecessary change we could be satisfied w/ what very little we have n just shut up but no certain aspects of capitalism are very feminine but they always make the claim that it's masculine (that's the good side of capitalism haha) who do we blame? i want this to be easy if only we could put our differences aside but alas emotions heightened n insecurity exacerbated if i was an actual nihilist i wouldn't even do this channel i believe in what i do so nobody else has to

aren't you so lucky that my piano finally died that little keyboard had been teasing my for weeks i switched purses n forgot my double A batteries don't worry i won't sing like that i got a lotta self-awareness but i'm still not other people it ain't my responsibility damnit doin what little you can possibly do to plz yourself everyone is forced to live in this shit world plenty can be done about the little stuff vs the big stuff but that outcome never seems to change so long as the devil runs the world things gon be shit yawl not wanting shit to do w/ society ain't the wrong position doin what makes sense to ______ instead of yourself later on when the consequences really come around i feel sorry for those that don't have a personality you're just gonna hate yourself even more than you already do this is a false sense of security once that initial excitement wears off you're gonna be even more depressed (it's like taking MDMA) i don't regret my tattoos even tho i don't agree w em now i don't feel the same way about AA that i did when i got the tattoo i don't deal w/ addiction the way that the cult people do if you dunno what's best for you SHAME!

that was cool that it was outta focus at first this just needs to be said damnit good ole fashioned american freedom criticizing the govt is not enough nothin is being done so there's no power in complaining censorship just makes sense (if you're the elite) easy to subdue the public cos they are inherently dumb if they don't value the truth then the truth is super easy to fuck w/ it is anything changing as a result the devil runs this mf so we can't expect policies to make things better you don't have enough people who know this about the system n shit nobody is on our side yawl too many people are only rooting for their enemy to be destroyed for the good of humanity to make a comeback they're all up in their feelings regardless of their genitalia so many women nowadays regardless of that penis it's obviously had a dramatic ripple effect on everything hence i'm talking about it one more time

big hands i know you're the one is not a reference to heroin, gordon gano has tiny ass hands i could never imagine marrying any mf that i've been w/ social media is the permanent record everyone is proving that they almost enjoy being lied to whining w/out solutions the right loves blowin shit up too much boxes boxes everywhere! talkin bout politics always makes me feel drunk sns has always been kinda sorta fast food sometimes i miss pei wei just say "the bitch" habits. routines. convenience. society won't get any less screwed up cos they keep adding n they don't understand what they have it's pretty simple: people are mad that others are different i know too many people that repeatedly make bad decisions n don't learn from em this culture is so sick capitalism is a huge part of it cos so much of this has to do w/ money but it's not the only thing to be blamed it's important to look at ALL statistics it's just an ego trip, they're all doin it i hate being surrounded by the types i complain about on this channel

don't chu love my nails not all the time yawl how many x have i asked you how YOU are vortex how can i explain personal pain if you were gonna talk about anything extensively why wouldn't it be yourself what if EVERYTHING is arrogant always analyzing this emotional process i will take leftist hippie whenever a woman gets a cat should she just kill herself instead? people are obsessed w/ their version of events if this hurts society then i will be quiet if i really wanted to ruin shit i'd just use their devices yawl heard of anarcho utilitarynism

what is this...the sound of success that's what it is it's really hard for me to follow the rules i just don't like seatbelts is all i don't adhere to things all cos other people are doing em since i was bragging about not following the rules n then immediately ran off the road... these clouds are so beautiful, way prettier than this here face listen to the violent femmes instead so i was gonna go to the doctor but then i did what my nutritionist friend told me to do n just used essential oils if you don't hear from me for wks it's cos i died from a staff infection fancy coffee that i don't even like that much, i'd rather be punched in the face by a cup of black coffee they aren't my habits unless they punch me in the face people are always mad these days here a box, there a box, everywhere a box, a box stereotypes n tropes about lonely old women "happiness" is all about doin shit that is socially acceptable those that do x, y n z that are comin out n sayin actually this is terrible are getting all kindza reactions i didn't do it at all haha self-awareness is essential n people that don't have it shouldn't have the same rights, is this some kinda sexual fascism you shouldn't be motivated by fear or shame i don't feel right fat-shaming not just cos i've always been a skinny bitch another rock hit my car did yawl hear it

have yawl ever seen ag sneeze i'm not sick i promise i had body aches n a scratchy throat for 2 days maybe my immunity is good, i wonder why i missed out on xmas but yawl know how much i hate holidays if it's negative it ain't comin from God if my Bishop told me this... but this is also tricky cos the devil is very sneaky n the unsuspecting public is hardly ever conscious of this on time every time, so the opposite of ag i feel sorry for truck drivers cos of this i'm pretty sure that they still do shady stuff regardless of all these so called regulations they can always fool the public, see: war on drugs war ON DRUGS, yes exactly don't they already do this, amy they could just give em aderall remember those bath salts i've been doin sooooo many rants about sheep as of late, sorry if it gets redundant everybody's wrong about this if they chose technology, they all believe in abortion or suicide, whatever you wanna call it it's destroying civilization i didn't choose that cos i don't agree w/ smartphones CLASSIC ag...hangs up phone i know i know i'm not supposed to be using my phone i can already judge myself thank you for your concern it's not good to be on the phone, driving around, it's annoying for anyone it typically is a bill collector which is why i hung up all these people talking are sheep people always get so defensive about this one that phone has too much power i'm looking at society as a whole not people on an individual basis, don't get offended you pussy i am passionate about this cos it's social suicide they don't wanna see it this way cos of how reliant they are (as well as EVERYONE AROUND THEM) it's annihilating society quietly this is what sober mind means to me that's literally why it's called an I phone gender's been out since the seventies the shit they complain about is a little late but it's a chance to stroke their ego maybe it does n i am just wrong i don't like to be vindicated by society they never wanna talk about what's really driving anything bad i would prefer to have less jokes about society yawl the long n short of it: people are mad that other people make different decisions i will keep stressing that all you mfs believe in relying on technology so that shit brings you together in a way you can't even see no denying what i'm saying, don't even try artists do what makes sense to us rather than trusting society i have a hard time believing it's a problem if it led me to God i don't want yet another mentally ill woman to have kids

paisley wants to play twister i just love the sound of the rain multiple tits on my wall ignore rosie (low point) it's gotta be a little satanic this is expensive icecream paisley just moved the camera w/ her face most people assume that there are no ups but only downs drinking iced coffee in twenty degrees fuck it to be alone is to essentially be a dead person (according to society) why can't you complete yourself i mean, most women are shit 3% of the time i am sad that i don't have a family but then i remember that i can't handle that n it's back to the 97% the higher the % of time that you can't be alone, the more you need to work on yourself the less likely are to do that i mean i literally can't change cos i've tried n failed over n over again they're just mad that people exist in a way that they don't understand not speaking for crazy cat ladehs everywhere just ag paisley disagreed w/ that immediately she loves cars, she used to chill on fiona (former red chevy aveo, RIP) all the time i ate all my espresso beans so no more icecream (it's a decent rule to have) to all those out there livin life the way you wanna live it...you have my indirect support

we live in amerihahaha, where the joke is always on ya shooting a gun at a tree trunk, now that's freedom blowing off steam that's what i meant to say the most dangerous weapon that society has on their person is that phone i didn't mean to hit that note i'm sure you're already gone if you hate it i never got up in the morning haha it's almost impossible for me to go to bed any earlier than 3am if it's not mainstream they won't give it the time of day i gave birth to this cat, my uterus is better than yours if you had confidence you too could be happy being unconventional contributing to net taxes n this satanic mass consumerist economy that's just awesome man if you live yer life in a way that you agree w/ n understand then you're fine self-assessment questions that people should ask themselves i misspelled genatilia hahaha if i make a mistake i convince myself that it was supposed to happen His praise abideth unto ages of ages, true true i do not like my s es these letters either look like they were done by a drunk person or a child, which makes sense doesn't it death to the lukewarm YES glory to thee o Lord glory to thee the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom technology is sorcery, you know it empathy is the way, always n forever the white race is expendable, we can't wait to go where ever they tell us to go women don't believe in choice, yawl already saw this one short-term success is long-term failure these are parts of the Divine Liturgy the ball is always in your court (and nobody seems to know it) everybody hates liberals (including liberals) i think i'm just a fascist...

so you say, amy so you say the man in my head is not satisfied if i wasn't filming i'd still be doin it why does everyone need to prove so much STOMP really is the best musical people bangin on shit esp trash cans is just fucking awesome what to do about the homeless? STOMP pt2 just get em to make art (aren't they already on drugs anyway) this keyboard really was a good will find they fired me cos i was late, imagine that if i'm on time you had better check my breath cos there's no way i didn't relapse, man it still feels good in spite of itself i told yawl that i rock back n forth, it must be an idiosyncratic behavior i prefer talking to humble people most are stuck in the trenches of the internet warzone it's beautiful even if it's fake rain

that was insanely decent timing don't that sound like a doorbell, well it is the bell sound i didn't mean to hit the frog button haha i said i wanted to make music w/ toys n go back to my childhood not the inner but the outer child it's okay if they run away i'm totally honest about most of which society objects to it doesn't surprise me that they say what they think will hurt me i wouldn't know that i was psychotic haha i understand way better than they'll ever gimme credit for accept what appears to be bad n eventually it won't even be bad enough to complain about what makes you think you're supposed to be happy all the time anyway i couldn't stop crying until i stopped haha i don't need meds you stupid fuck everything is a choice, the devil has convinced you otherwise so nostalgic that one note right there i'm hung up in a moment n that's why i do everything that i do, i'm just trying to understand that one thing that sounds just like this one grimes song damnit now i just wanna go upstairs n listen to grimes (i never did btw) i dunno how people work on music, i am just not motivated to do the same thing over n over n perfect it, i am in awe of those that can i sound like annie sometimes my favorite females have a man in their head that they're not ashamed to reveal i'm getting way more confident in my playing keys as of late get some zzzs w/ zoloft (cos you kill yourself so you can really sleep)

experimenting yawl i dig the bell sound cos it reminds me of a synthesizer i really need to go do standup comedy nobody can copy what i do hopefully i'll show you an even bigger bit of my life i want you to focus on what's in my mind not what my body looks like the female body is just a distraction i really like this, it sounds like comin home is this attempt to create that nostalgic feeling any good they won't understand but that's ok cos i come home to this every night this ain't no sad ass cope, i got God all to myself when in tune w/ yourself everything is a song n that's how i get along just walkin around n feeling His presence maybe it's somewhat sick cos i am all over it how could i not be passionately in love w/ my God this is the zone can you tell when you can accept yourself you can also accept everyone else no matter how mean i could've very easily ended up in a hearse due to my stupid mouth, dumb antics, alcoholism, etc i could escape ad infinitum black the fuck out literally where has the time gone i always ask myself that question tho i hope yawl love the dog as much as i do i love kyler, my fellow comic n conspiracy universalist friend if you're a sheep you say byebye

i suck at doing this on stage i'm not w/ it cos i hate everybody i just hit myself in the mouth i'm trying to weane myself off dairy thru lent all these new dairy free, vegan products but they are still totally processed dairy is only bad cos of how it's made n what they add to it back when things weren't so shitty n milk was delivered to your door this reminded me of cheap ass liquor i used to steal expensive shit n purchase super cheap booze sorry that i cream over this nowhere near as many piano punk videos as the ones where i am driving around, yelling surely i'll probably do another video when i get on this roll i don't wanna stop not a fan of the uppers it's all the same experience after awhile everyone involved w/ the food industry in any kinda way is probably on some stuff you'll never guess where this was made...

a different kinda feedback they/them is demonic as fuck mental illness will always have a demonic element to it clinicians exploit the public's lack of knowledge about themselves as well as spiritual things technocracy/pharmacracy is real easy w/ the public's help i love playing music no i don't hallucinate, anyone i seem like i'm talking to is an audience that i know is only inside my head myself is a lot which is why i have to be alone 3% of the time is real sad but the other 97% is just fine all these mfs on the internet, they must be in a real blunder they do seem to be in an existential crises clams are happy at high tide i make the world what i want it to be cos i have always hated the world this separate world i live in is different every decade i diss the world w/ ease 4 double A batteries, that's it what dog sound is that is that weird to love goldens, the typical avg american family dog? my friend at work just got attacked by his pitbull n had to get stitches in his hand it's only a matter of time

MY FINGER! that was a stick that i just ran over john d rockefellar baby they can do simple shit tho, they still have that stethoscope cleaning out earwax...for once they do sumin useful aren't yawl so proud of me for wearing my seatbelt i'm talkin like yer avg suburban white southern mom will i ever use all dem white boards i have a lotta stuff that i don't use these chords will work for the time being i do call this my polemical musical/mock opera complaining over notes, it's not intentional for this to have a purpose is it somewhat nihilistic but w/ a purpose variety is good it's very dangerous to use any hand symbols, i already have enough silly tattoos of course i got a peace sign tattoo we make mistakes, oh yes we do the shittier your politics the more mistakes you're prone to make below sea level past life accept that you are not well perceived n just shut up i'm like a socialist w/ these bonafide intentions i don't like social anything sns people could take over the means of production maybe if people understood how the world worked n how humans behaved but they never have n they are just getting further n further from reality none of these philosophies ever take into account that people are terrible we could always do better people are running away from personal responsibility of any kind don't expect anything from this world

i ain't that much better at piano haha i am better at keys when i play em whilst driving still a woman (multi-tasking is sumin we are prone to be good at) the chord in my mind is not the chord that i am playing it's not that big of a deal, amy keep goin they're just doin it, amy i'm not really speeding, i'm goin like 5over it ain't that serious "that thing" hahaha no i don't cruise or drive in neutral it always feels like a major accomplishment being able to pull this off FUCK THE FUCK THE FUCK THE FUCK THE FUCK THE FUCK YOU this is just play mad, when i'm for real for real mad... maybe i didn't say all that i coulda, but it's a good thing cos i didn't have ta i say what's necessary n no more when i don't have to say sumin i digress i mainly just say it to myself it comforts me that God is there always God sees this mistreatment, long-suffering baby too much compassion to get away w/ it i don't wanna think about what i deserve now haha everyone has violent thoughts at some point if they live in this world long enough psych meds encourage one to give into to all violent thoughts, no thanks "doctor" i ended up putting helichrysum on it n i'm pretty sure it is healing now thank you Lord for yer medicine i could die from a staff infection tho who knows i got off meds cos i already wanted to kill myself why continue to do sumin that increases suicidal thoughts i literally can't stop talking about things that i care about you don't deserve my channel, go back to yer guinea piggery current zombies cos they can't accept that life is hard so they forsake all their emotions why do drugs that numb you the experience you have vs the one you run from people are just so typical it makes me sad

that's probably why they're called brights, amy the rain is so cold right now wind advisory, damn weather machine sumin tells me that this mini cooper has pretty good brights man, i need an alignment in case you missed that string of videos where i wouldn't shut up about running off the road did i just hit a couch cushion that ever so typical trope of a "joke" lauren remembers arlo, i miss that mf so much they obviously didn't watch the video i can only assume that they were mocking me it can't get no worse than the sheep repeating the same tired bullshit that makes em feel better about themselves "you're gonna die alone" you can't bid on yer kids (or yer spouse for that matter) stickin around (you can always hope for the best but no guarantees) why would you wanna make decisions based on fear or society's preconceived notions i don't have the time to explain it's just the way that it is, i'm over here n you're over there i'm not yelling at you for being boring now you don't hear a peep from me i expect you to think that certain things are a threat to me the most unoriginal age that has ever been when don't chu need to share yer biz all over the internet yt is my creative effort, my "documentary" on mental illness free "philosophy" course? thanks, lauren i feel too cynical to be called a philosopher i don't wanna be hopeless or nothin but i don't wanna lie

one of these days imma climb up a tree n that is where i will die why is "dying alone" a threat do they not realize the power that we have to multiply ourselves haha God bless syd barrett football fans are pretty crazy about their team football jerseys. band tshirts. posters. as long as it doesn't become an idol there's probably two people in every arena that aren't sheep ...unless it's echo & the bunnymen haha passion turns real ugly when ego gets involved, no better example than team sports if you question things you realize the utter pointlessness of all of it the crazy cat ladeh trope exists b/c of the sheep we really wanna say fucked up shit most of the time this art form ain't very nice we internalize what everybody else puts all over twitter just b/c everyone else is doing it doesn't make it right or acceptable we cannot make objective statements anymore who am i to criticize a hitman since i dunno shit about cleaning up a crime scene if everyone's opinion is important than nobody's opinion is important americans don't value creativity if it sounds fascist it's cos it is a little fascism goes a long way when it comes to sex i hope that this is enough of a contribution i still get disappointed w/ the utter futility of everything having kids is a risk, not having kids is a risk quitting smoking is still better than a college degree objectively speaking i can see the value of child rearing this world will always value the plebian sheep over the artist

i greatly underestimated what this would do for me pursuing a life of creativity things came together in a way they never did before walking examples everywhere i go i wish i could let em know that God is real if you would tap into that you God part of you... you won't feel sorry for yourself anymore looking at society why would you wanna please em why would i listen to em considering... the select few wanna grab it n the rest are to terrified to talk to you there's a dog in the piano that iphone is another appendage at this point it really is a drug tho addiction makes yer soul decay, convincing you that you actually wanna live that way no adult store required anymore porn n social media are totally normalized the psychedelic experience is very depressing but good thing God is bigger than all of that there has never been a better time to find God than right now

i hate how i'm concerned about what won't do me any good whatsoever my capacity for caring what they think is very small but it's still there i'm past the point of trying to do anything about what i know won't change it's better for my endeavor if i look like shit fuck aj, zionist loser act "crazy" n sheep won't take you too seriously why do women think that the female experience is funny making men laugh that you know hate women they still wanna fuck dem bitches so they gotta play it cool i ain't gonna pretend to be someone i'm not women whine better than they do shit else maybe my cramps aren't so bad cos i'm a woman of God if you have the right attitude things won't be so bad since this is gonna happen every month i might as well just get used to it my menstrual cycle is better than yours becuz i'm not a bitch it wouldn't be mine i made it formulaic i might as well take this misogyny n run w/ it

i'd be so boring if i wasn't this moody haha i'm lucky that i don't have the choice to stay the same give it time n you'll see what the purpose was sometimes you just gotta make up the reason maybe i'm just gaslighting myself the doctor is the last place i wanna go my finger really hurts in the cold i know i freak people out in public i never mean any harm b/c they don't understand they can only assume that i'm up to no good the elite do it so why can't i i gotta come up w/ some other words we're gonna start w/ the word progress we are a work in success since progress is death "progress" false language for a false reality we are already succeeding since we are working towards our goal i can't change the big things but i can sure as shit change the little things i have rocked back n forth since i was a kid kids in public school were very scared of me rocking back n forth is totally harmless but all becuz it's weird...