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this is how i love the world i have to stay as far away from the world as possible this is what the world has done to me but i don't take it personally man i am reminding myself of james murphy right now they don't wanna solve problems, otherwise they would no identity or personality w/out these problems it reminds me of this song by the talking heads called no compassion sitting in the same chair, shitting yourself they MIGHT move to another chair n shit in that too i can't motivate people to change i do what i do cos i know it can help people most will shit on anything/anyone that's too demanding (seemingly) i just told you what you didn't want me to it musta surely resonated tell yourself sumin over n over n then call it fate many are not willing to wait for sumin to happen that will make sense all good things are worth waiting for n you gotta work for em accommodate rather than expecting society to cater to em play victim/make victim...these people are always quite toxic just accept that you're broken n deal read the Bible, it will help you not gonna waste my energy on you it works out for me in the long run i sound like such a dude haha i would rather have less to _____ about I: phone this point just won't stop proving itself to be true accommodate to whatever hindrance you think is holding you back stagnation ain't cool, man

they don't want me unless i have bread the man-made lake has its' perks yawl know my feelings on hypocrisy the last one to the party, my kinda goose that feather stickin out is just adorable i dunno if the problem is me yawl see that goose behind me one of the select few that know how to learn from experience we are chosen, damnit you could say that about anything silly or seemingly trivial quetions that people ask about gays: queerie GET IT a lack of dull moments is very unhealthy even self-help n shit can be a distraction if i don't retain any of the information then it kinda is a waste

this girl was so on my level i am way more capable of paying attention if i give myself sumin else to do i know that i'm annoying damnit i'm good at figuring out a person's level of sheep making america great was never the intention trump doesn't think much of republicans so... eating is a way for me to rationalize socializing (i am hardly motivated to eat when alone) working on posters during the eating ass "comedy" bits i also go to black mics hahaha, eddie murphy started this a long ass time ago *but it was actually funny back then they're just trying to get a gig cos it's socially acceptable to talk about shit like that the really cool eating ass crowd eating is more of a cope than a necessity eating n tv go hand in hand, hence tv dinners rare to struggle w/ only one thing i didn't ponder shit! alcohol n cigarettes, marijuana n marijuana hahahaha

so i got the part for my car n it's functioning now, no longer leaking i like to have fun in spite of my dysfunction if you're always complaining then you suck find enjoyment outta spite normies will never understand but that's okay i'm not a mass consumer, i am a semi consumer sponges can't watch gore porn i ain't gonna choose to be bothered if only there was an award for self-awareness those that don't focus on their own experience will focus on yours neck roll did you catch it i am a fascist due to my personal experience w/ both sex n food i'd rather just look at shit around me i guess they're just used to that strain people don't have any time to notice things around them here's my smoothie recipe i did say banana! the spinach is what gives me the energy i hate the task of having to eat i got way too much shit to do to take a break to eat

why can't people break down a box i don't wanna be either creepy or control freaky this is a pretty peculiar way to live hold on thelonious (car) this coat is so not necessary every day n a half the weather changes the struggle of a diy bitch no clicky noise this time giant tub of motor oil rolling around in the trunk 2 seconds up the road you can pay 20 cents less for gas, that's crazy you have a nickname, dearest internet it should creep people out but it doesn't if only people had this mindset before they did anything my mom n i almost got into an argument over the same shit that we always argue about but i digressed before it got to that point complaining about sumin n then refusing to do anything about it it actually is legal haha boomers were brainwashed by the tv no change, no change

the vortex is to blame (tho it's still not your fault, vortex!) this is society spit back out after chewing up the internet yours truly still waves when people let me in tree of life coal burning music right here why so invested in anybody's sex life but your own he never really had a problem w/ that, it was more part of his identity at the time he deserves that bitch walkin all over him the same people putting themselves in the same situations is this a lesson or a trial...drowning in narcissists eating cucumbers, that's what i am stuffing into my mouth nvrmind let's get back to speeding narcissism is easier, it just is most will choose the route where nothing is required (human nurture) the God part recognizes that we are part of the problem if you are part of the problem you can also be part of the solution, that's the best news! we made it vortex! major accomplishment avoiding bumps on the road temporary pain vs overall pain already ready for any criticism chinese water torture ringtone no affect, sorry i mean, i never asked you to do that you know that person that insists on "helping" you that is what they really want...woman qualms such a woman, oh my good gracious i kinda/sorta hate women so... there are major consequences for our actions as women now that we're not oppressed anymore, it seems like we're still miserable just to be a woman is to be psycho (no understanding of our emotions) most women don't come equipped w/ a magnifying glass, they don't have to i know i probably sound like a pick me right here but i am way more of a DO NOT PICK ME not answering the phone right now can you tell that i totally spaced out most people just don't care is all many insist on staying the same i have changed n grown a lot but i have also stayed exactly the same haha normies couldn't handle "covid", yours truly + all the "crazy" people i know were thriving it's all a balancing act i hate driving next to semis i really don't want this person to be a narcissist i just wanna be amicable i have worked w/ her for the past five years so... she is a bonafide worker becuz... maybe yer brain ain't supposed to shut off, that's how i choose to look at everything, NOT A VICTIM DAMNIT you have been chosen to understand yourself! a culture that's addicted to screen time is another dark age stimulation nation, no sensation (also a simulation) if you refuse to pay any attention to your lifestyle in relation to your moods n shit, you don't deserve to be happy she won't try harder n it kills me watchin her kill herself (i used to be her like ten years ago minus a kid) she did say that she was trying to talk to her mom again so i applauded her for that ag's mockumentary; ag is the original butt of our always n forever life joke she takes everything as a personal attack regardless of the context of the statement (it just reminds me of doin standup in nashville haha) yeah she's probably just a narcissist maybe i should stop giving people the benefit of the doubt that they're gonna change whenever her high wears off she's back to thunder cunt i don't ever wanna blame my problems on other people i guess maybe i was just a liberal haha angry universal truth is funny but if it's personal it just sounds bitter n bitterness is not very funny that cigarette "schtick" is just the coolest you can still make personal shit funny but you really have to try on that one the empathy route requires tough love on yourself nothin harder than holding yourself accountable

this is the dumpster, where the trash goes you have hands to use yer phone ag provides a how to put trash in the trash can nobody wants to hear that siren from me that old bitch be starin (i mean if i were her...) protect me from evil glances, dumpster! my core personality is strikingly similar to back when i was like 6 already not a virgin PLUS cat-owner i'm not gonna taint myself in ways i can avoid i think it's antithetical towards Christianity to wanna get up there (in this world, rather) just be jewish if you're gonna go along w/ the world let's see how much more thelonious has leaked all over the pavement the dipstick is dry as long as she stays wet... i always feel like these situations are my fault always getting mad about the industrial revolution at some point every day most of what complicates yer life is not good*just be a woman the internet has feminized society due to all these added complications unnecessary details is not advancement i know i come across as a total lunatic if it's a common problem then nobody is gonna care listen to krysta take that order it didn't die on me n is in the shop

i tried to pet one of them geese n he tried to jump in the water to get away from me most of these people are gonna kill themselves GO OUTSIDE, DAMNIT to have it is to be addicted to it (specifically smartphones NOT social media) i dodged a decapitation it's chopping their heads off since they can't seem to function w/out it the smartphone is a guillotine a smart person wouldn't total 3 cars (4 actually) all the sheep stuff i was forced into if i am the one making the decisions, it's gonna be in direct opposition w/ society luddites were right tho somebody had to label me that in order for me to look that up on the internet haha i look like such a moron carrying around all this trash we do live in trashville do we not yes i talk to everything i see thru that grain, most work for it none of these mfs have strong convictions it seems my lifestyle is based off my conviction my speculations are pretty accurate tho this is such a lovely day to pick up trash you almost got my boobie in yo face vortex we picked it up w/ our little pinky! strong convictions vs putzing thru life the general public does not have to understand! they're jealous n they don't even know why but i do TREE! (this is the second time i have gotten hit in the face w/ a branch if you haven't watched my earlier videos from this day) you can mock me cos i'm still right regardless

arrogance is not a good thing i don't like the way i talk about certain things i'm not superior to anyone but that doesn't mean that i don't get cocky sometimes ego ego ego ego ego (that's all they hear) those that can't take criticism don't shut up these people invent orifices for shit to come out of this really is the nicest thing i could say science proves that those in the lgbt community actually exist n aren't just doin it for attention ag has a man brain narcissists definitely bring that out in me americans will never do anything about real shit so they react over dumb shit if i take ownership over sumin that i said or did wrong n you still wanna whine about it... compassion but not too much compassion, at some point you are enabling them to walk all over you leftie loosies call me a racist, rightee tightees call me a coal burner just one time when i was drunk gay marriage accelerated this downward spiral i had sex w/ a lotta people in 2010 women have weaponized their vagina against men but i just did it to myself back story or should i say black story? the problem w/ this logic it's really weird that people are so concerned about who's fucking who stop making yer business everyone's business when you're totally honest w/ someone n they react narcissists hate honest people cos all they do is lie to themselves dude actually has a lotta talent of course people like me are a threat schizotypals are schizos w/out the psychosis no funding towards shit like this cos they won't be able to keep controlling people we all mistakes (like taking psych meds) look at what they did to Jesus i use the term mf in a positive way as well as a pejorative most cast people out better than they do shit else no need to be uppity about language, it changes too much Jesus wouldn't take offense, damnit admit that you can't solve their problem cos you can't relate to their experience what makes you think that you're supposed to know the answer to everything no pets, just bread bitch webbed feet are so cool unless you're a person, when you're a bird it makes sense

pleasantly surprised for once many videos of me driving around yelling haha i yell a lot cos i'm a sponge (you don't have the stomach) living in america is difficult if you actually care about the world that you live in healthy people are very limited in the south imma pretend that they are saying hi to me society doesn't value their experience why ag is a stoned called cynic is God telling me to get high (i think so) i don't exalt myself for this but it definitely is a divider between me n the rest of the shitheads that live here many positive things have happened as a result of me accepting my negativity everyone is obsessed w/ themselves, the wiser ones are conscious of this you will never be able to troll me, stupid ass if you had anything to offer, you'd be offering it ag was reacting before that was even a thing n it's also totally internalized i have no problem challenging "authority" i don't value social status so... that's sooooo woman hahahaha it doesn't necessarily mean whatever i want it to mean

people don't do things cos they genuinely want to i know that people ain't gon stop goin online so... why would you think that sumin is gonna work out if you don't even understand why you do it i already have the problem of disconnecting i did the letters rainbow for a reason most don't wanna just live for God no i'm not autistic you stupid fucks w/out self-awareness you dunno why you feel the way you do that medication ain't supposed to work trust someone that doesn't know nothin vs. have some patience you can't become virtuous, you either have that inclination or not desire to be a better person vs. make excuses til you die people just don't wanna change, no motivation i need a large collection of only black markers i won't pretend to be good at sumin i suck at why try to fit in w/ a society that wants me dead ANYWAY

any gays that have questions about what they oughta do, i am making this poster for them yours truly is wired to not want sex or anything related to normal shit i've already had enough issues w/ heterosexual men wanting to fuck me if you wanna stay true to yourself, you gotta be a bit of a cunt i don't wanna have to be a bitch but... that thing that makes me unattainable is what you want so much the song is called strange loop, the final track of her 1993 album, exile in guyville what you find so appealing to me is my freedom that dumb fuck made me fall in love w/ him even after i told him what would inevitably happen poon tang ain't worth it dear "men" all so you can come all over yourself most problems in society are due to 2 people fucking there's orthodox kids and then there are spawn i invented that wall that they speak of, i built it myself using your children as a bargaining chip when you have sex outta wedlock... i ain't gon do sumin that i know imma suck at all cos society doesn't understand my unconventional thought process accolades on twitter of all shitholes

stop feline hate! so i was gonna go to nashville to do comedy tonight... the only thing i disagree w/ him on haha you can have preferences n biases but to outright hate sumin is somewhat demonic i'm getting sunburned chinese water torture mode, only funny in context God made cats, damnit i meow to stop feline hate banning pitbulls doesn't seem to work never try to break up a dog fight anytime you have a bias, you will typically only look up information that confirms or re-affirms your belief just like pugs will always have breathing problems pits will always be aggressive many can't admit that maybe just maybe they could be wrong about sumin

this Psalm totally encapsulates my sentiment towards this world in relation to my paranoia i guess i've been keeping watch w/ the Lord i can't hardly wait to see the wrath of the Lord ideas of reference always n forever i know that it's somewhat delusional but... everything has whatever meaning we give it stuff happens totally randomly n it doesn't have shit to do w/ me but i tell myself that it does it's super easy for the devil to fuck w/ me for this reason alone discernment is crucial the holier than thou attitude is obnoxious not upholding tradition but upholding ego God knows where my heart is at

putting sumin out into the vortex ie internet is a bit irresponsible ain't it gotta fast from coffee, that's the one coffee is a placebo really i didn't feel like working right now Saint Mary freaks out my coworkers i almost slapped my coworker you can't take any of it w/ you tho women shave cos of WW2 compassion makes women more feminine good women exist but very sparingly my nose looks so weird i wonder if people are gay cos they've just had bad experiences w/ the opposite sex why can't the good men find the good women toxic people tend to be attracted to those that are easy to use n manipulate borderline personalities n narcissists the reason why they are the way they are is cos they didn't have what they were supposed to growing up stone walling is worse than exploding yours truly is a boundary nazi boomers...you know how we feel

here go you Psalm 142 i cried to the Lord w/ my voice, CLASSIC explanation of ag's life sooooo hard to not swear i shall declare my affliction in His presence bring my soul out of prison we sing this during vespers we love us some Psalms if that's how you feel about Christianity then don't even bother self-discipline allows you to expand upon yer relationship w/ God well i guess we gotta fast from coffee (it just makes sense)

meet my patron Saint...Mary lived a very lustful lifestyle before she ran off to the desert to devote her life to God the world hates pious people w/ a passion if you're unaware of demonic forces you will succumb to them at some point favorite Psalm 139 Psalm 9 is not divided into two parts God is always the audience the spiritual ones will always be funnier n more interesting sorry if i am haughty, don't wanna be you understand my thoughts from afar your knowledge has become too wondrous for me where could i go from your spirit? God is everywhere all the time no matter what and the night shall be bright as day i guess my hatred is perfect i hope God is not displeased, but i highly doubt it anything done w/ a clean heart is gold i have tried to cry n sing but it cannot be done semantics shemantics...the gyst is the most important thing paul spoke out about petty shit going on in the Church it's none of yer business what other people are doin i wanted to make sure that i wasn't twisting the Scripture to my liking it's crucial to have yer own personal relationship w/ God why would you try to put God in a box sodomy is not justifiable awwww that's so sad that little goose hurt himself but he has apparently gotten over it n moved on w/ his life sodomy crap...GET IT could it be possible that people are different bored in govt school? women have solutions it's a funny story now once you start making stuff, you no longer wanna do yourself good luck closing that door to total debauchery *why porn is bad of course those that use it are gonna make excuses for it hook up culture is not only immoral but a total waste of time my instincts are usually correct if you've made honest attempts to leave an immoral lifestyle then there's no reason to hold it over your head i get offered every day at work haha if i smoke pot i will never go on the internet again i wouldn't be putting up thousands of videos on yt if i wasn't a good vlogger anything that's important for 5min ain't important

currently at the man-made lake what if those geese are also man-made the one conspiracy i really don't wanna believe we're gonna pretend that it doesn't smell like shit over here i love the smell of second-hand smoke i shoulda brought my tripod, oh well i had my comedy clothes prepared you'd understand if you saw this sweater my car is leaking oil like a mf so i gotta take care of it asap fuck you again stupid ass plane they're gonna laser-beam whatever they spray on us directly at me why is it flying so low they must know that i'm talkin some shit ag is always on cannabis time the reason why ag chose cannabis over the world now that cannabis is being legalized it's terrible if boomers are smokin pot... back when it actually was totally natural, they thought it was sinful haha you can see the effects immediately actually you should be wiser, more aware n understanding the older you get i wouldn't waste Ezekiel bread on them i guess people don't take it upon themselves to make the world better society don't seem to mind getting dumber i am misanthropic due to living in this world western demoralization, this ain't no civilization

back in the day i'd kick one of these poor ant hills i knew that it was wrong, exploring my shadow self that branch just hit me in the face haha empty liquor bottles scattered amuck do we have this many town drunks back in 2016 i checked myelf into that psych ward over there i don't wanna claim ptsd but i really understand that experience the fact that anybody can say they are _____ yelling at aircraft might actually get me thrown in the psych ward this time look at our frenz over there bread messes them up cos it's essentially junk food watch them eat! imma tell myself that they're saying goodbye ptsd2 is PRE traumatic stress, imagining sumin happening over n over until it actually happens ag explains self-fulfilling prophecie that's gotta be the same plane circling back around here there come for me what are you gon do sign...nvrmind trespassing is over my most annoying voice: the kid voice women hate it cos they think i'm doin it for attention they're just projecting, per usual

i hate anger but it's necessary shame allows one to change all b/c it's not fun don't make it less necessary i think imma go up the street to the man-made lake n air out woman logic at least when it comes to cars once you understand emotions not only do you understand a lot of what human experience is all about but also why this world is so dumb emotions are easily manipulated when people don't understand them if i haven't read a Psalm in too long it's obvious by my outlook

i must drink a smoothie to coax oil ain't up to speck girl parts still in spite of my grey harr oil leakage evidence european cars do this a lot apparently now it's actually serious, i had a panic attack about 45min ago i'm somewhat in awe of normies no instincts about non-conspiratorial things anytime that sumin is falling apart i get it of course it is adjacent to me haha i've already put money into this car so i might as well just keep going how can you give up on people so easily my brother n i have clashing energies since we have the same parents we could bond over growing up kinda fucked up but i really don't wanna do that resentment just takes you on an elevator that only goes down

in the suburbs you have to drive places i work @ steak n shake, been doin so for over 12 years on n off (mainly on) totally in my element when i drive, that's when/where you come up w/ a lotta good ideas n interesting thoughts i do way more than drive tho i've gotten into enough accidents to prove that i ain't a good driver haha, sorry thelonious/miles (mini cooper) nothin could bring me back to this world, sorry sexual dysfunction due to obsessive fantasy life that i've had since i was a kid, disassociation nation no more imaginary friends or lovers unless i'm bored i hate that i get so bored around other people when i'm alone, i talk to myself so i don't need nobody around demetri flagged me down after i did standup n asked me how to stop being gay my cd is skipping damnit when it's widely acceptable in our society more people will identify that way for obvious reasons homophobia doesn't accomplish anything tho i told him to keep reading the Bible n praying i get their predicament but i am fine w/ celibacy a lotta my fans are gay n don't wanna be associated w/ the lgbt???!!! a lotta people don't wanna devote their life to God n be "alone" a lotta that crap fell away due to expanding upon my creative life struggling w/ addiction/sexual deviance...MAKE SUMIN it doesn't matter if it's any good cos it means sumin to you n keeps you on the straight n narrow (literally) my mom had knee surgery earlier today we already know that it's cos we weren't wearing our seatbelt haha this method does not work which is why i suggest a creative outlet my relationship w/ God is worth turning my back on everything else that society would scold me for not wanting yawl know how much we hate aircraft me n paisley (cat) were confused earlier today not blood, red marker it's not enough to just give up sumin, you gotta have a decent game plan replacing addiction w/ addiction ain't the solution, it not only has to be a healthy replacement but it must also be personal just read the Psalms, every facet of human experience is in there once you develop a personal relationship w/ God n yourself you will be fine you gotta work for what chu want period so much easier to fill that void w/ demonic shit than anything healthy iron sharpens iron, right...we have lived in the south for over twenty yrs this is what happens when you are a sponge

ag eyeroll so typical when i play keys thank you God for my foresight even tho my regular ass sight ain't too good it's just too good for the world i live in that fear of God is pretty deeply instilled in me i won't boast about it or make a thing out of it mainly cos that shit's annoying why the flex, man thank God for those kids that you have rather than go on this brag fest you forget where it came from in the first place n what gave you that grace what motivates you to get up outta bed n lift up yer head you can pick up this piano cos it's a synthesizer hahaha a regular ass piano is too big i sing how i talk, all weird n shit have yawl not seen my beautiful armpit harr you don't have to be a feminist to agree w/ me here back to God now that we got distracted talkin bout women i don't think it's that crazy in light of everything else that has happened everything is meant to control us so... my whole fambly is not religious at all nobody outside of my church goes to church at all, not even my black frenz new agey crappity crap 5years ago i woulda said no if more americans knew about it they'd probably fuck it up no discipline tho, that's why they're protestants i've been in this parking lot for like an hr n a half

i hardly ever take suggestions that one time somebody had requested to see my mismatched chuck taylors i obliged n then felt wrong about it just watch regular ass porn damnit if i don't get the tempo right it's gon throw me off killin time...not just me, also you n everyone is anyone having fun anymore the man in my head challenges me maybe this isn't the way that it's always been i need to stop throwing it around like that, that's why the last one broke those that know me know that i won't upgrade the narcissism in you is making it all about you that smartphone is such a liability eventually everything will do the opposite genZ didn't choose to have technology thrusted upon them i hate whiners w/ a passion tho once again, societal pressure typically wins

such a beautiful sight right there that's God shining thru that cloud...it's the SON of God silly heads...the people that run the world worship the sun don't try to argue w/ me, no point i used to pick fights just to pick fights every emotion scrutinized til there's nothin left...kidding it's pointless sometimes, i'll admit eventually yer habits gon be tragic not an addict anymore fo real for real did so much of that that it just made me sick even tho i greatly miss cigarettes, i can enjoy them just by smelling them proved every point i set out to prove to myself no need to go to meetings when i already know all this side rant: fuck women again my mom is just a boomer haha the beef ain't w/ my mom it's w/ my former "sisters" total trash in spiritual arena, imagine that white knuckle that shit, too many toxic people in too small a space yer own solution/method will be better i don't swallow alcohol that's it i spit it out that one time hahaha restaurant life baby instinct: this is poison the more people do it, the less can explain why the more excuses they make the more obvious it is that i was right all along plz call me names, i do miss elementary school sometimes good i don't have to live yer life, man