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this angle is pretty cool don't chu think now i know how it feels to be stuck behind me some days brilliant, other days not so much my ego tells me all kindza things in the grand scheme of things i seem pretty small this piano punk thing is the truest thing to my soul do you do anything that means this much to ya i wanna donate my relationship w/ God as well as my relationship w/ myself that's the man in my head correcting me

speaking of the word no... men that wanna fuck are the worst about the word no a lotta people are never taught how to say no super shocking that i didn't kill myself in high school, man music literally saved my life conservatives dunno how to truly appreciate art i hate anything regimented the comfort of elliott smith in the formative years music enabled me to carve out my little place in this shit world i love my cats, i appreciate them if my cats weren't there i'd survive i spy: eczema you can't teach people how to do their own thing people plzing is more about societal roles suicide for me to have it yer way just the thought disgusts me it's just social programming tho throw away yer image if you wanna be married BE PATIENT who ever is holding you will hurt you if you don't work on yourself you will never be capable of appreciating it cos it's a drug most do social media to validate themselves (but they are using total strangers to do this) when you dunno yourself well enough to understand why you do what you do expect the worst outta life so many ways to be a horrible person western demoralization, this is NOT a civilization! it's still the same solution: trust God n get to know yourself they go hand in hand cos we are the temple you can't possibly leave you so why wouldn't you wanna be buddy buddy w/ yourself it's too dark *outside haha hope yawl got sumin outta that, goodbye now

imma show yawl these posters b4 i colour em my fave part is writing the msg cos i enjoy doing the different letters real drug dealers are more trustworthy eli just got 2 felony charges AND violated his probation selling schedule 2 drugs in a school zone he was just totally self-destructive title + $ + no prison time (doctors) a head doctor's whole profession is getting people hooked on shit drugs that do the opposite of what they say (at least opiates get you high) psychiatry n ethics don't mix the algorithm is not our friend i crossed it out on the back haha their whole purpose is to just keep you hooked on moronics spewing schizo babble will never be what the people want mazel tov if you like me ronnit tells me all the time to stop being so negative you can't make $ off the matrix n educate people about it at the same time w/out making it obvious that you work for people andrew tate is a fucking dirtbag at least he could fuckin box men that allow women to manipulate them via sex love the fuck outta that mf raise yer kids plz otherwise they will become leftist lunatics or trust some sack of shit like andrew tate the philosophy of failure feminism doesn't even make sense n collapses on itself i told yawl about this poster the victim mentality will kill you (speaking of...) the more you think you're a victim the more likely you will be one in the future guilt trips ain't from God...just a reminder to myself ag don't need to fear-monger, we're already schizo when it comes to hell, our punishment is already here (it's been here i swear) am i wrong for thinking we've been in the tribulation for awhile now i have given myself quite a hard time over the years being an empath is far better than the alternative but it can be fairly difficult i have no choice but to make art more likely to do it again if i feel guilty about it slow suicide: morbid obesity (you can't unsee it) we live in america so we're around fat people all the time physique is the tip of the iceberg, what about yer internal organs (saying it cos i care) psych meds cause mass shootings i remember being on all this shit wanting to jump off a precipice i already had that sentiment n meds just made it worse sit w/ the discomfort n you'll realize it ain't that bad waaaay more people that have a gun but DON'T shoot anyone what about all the suicides that involve a gun the hypocrisy of the L is maddening put on the whole armor of God since there are so few of us all comment, no content (for the trolls) social media appeals to narcissists more than anybody the world is run by the prince of darkness so why would it be good again not just the jews but also the jesuits (it's another J) focus on the negativity n the devil wins AGAIN a social media site w/ only positive shit? absolutely not i can't stand people being nice tho, i'd much rather receive a dirty look genuineness means way more now than ever crying doesn't mean much coming from ag respectable people respect boundaries, devoted to a lotta people not just my trolls boundaries are a quandary for many if you don't have good examples of boundaries from yer parents then all yer relationships will be terrible bad parenting begets emotionally unintelligent kids the whole boomer generation is helicopter esque i was the wild child (scapegoat), my brother was the people plzer n he isn't a very happy person i went w/ myself n it was the best decision ever why would i go against my own principles n make decisions for other people you will have to deal w/ the repercussions not the people you're attempting to plz people plzing is instant gratification of pretend validation blaming yer probs on people that never forced you to do anything i get off on saying the word no

from proverbs 26:11 you know i brought my coffee cos when do we not about to buy a 5lb bag of organic coffee beans tired of drinking crap coffee such a dude, i love it what proverb ain't accurate tho humans behave like animals due to lack of consciousness analysis makes me neurotic in case you didn't know that's why i've always been open to drug use very rare to be self-aware apparently talking about anything seems to involve a lotta comparing n contrasting they will have their mind made up about you regardless of yer explanation twitter is a public service so i refuse to do it hahaha unless the algorithm feels like being weird... truth don't involve fear-mongering no point in scaring people w/ Hell, i mean... most people wander around w/out a purpose i have always been my favorite study subject even when i was self-destructing... totally aware of that demonic spirit (we all have it to some extent) people don't realize the effects of everything they put into their body/mind so i was reading the Bible as we do... 2 thessalonians chpt 2 this definitely feels like falling away strong delusion everywhere false hope in politics i had the sneaking suspicion that it was false hope hahaha they make more $ n have more control over our negativity booze had such a firm grip of my mind no guard rails w/ technology politics has the same effect but it's pretend empathy if i ain't the temple of the living God then i am probably a host body for a plethora of demonic spirits not many skeptics involving technology the internet has puffed up a lotta people that have little to no talent standup forces me outta my comfort zone just call me a _____ so you can "win" twitter has proven that nobody has aged past 12 the devil (or his underlangz) would tell me that we are just doomed if just one person can retain the information that you provided then it's all worth it i'm totally content working @ a burger joint doin my thang (planning on dying in the parking lot) if anything i do makes you feel seen or heard... if you think you will ever be accepted you have already lost how easy it is to assume a person's intentions (esp on the internet of all fuckin sewage plants) at least trump made em feel alive if you were hated by the right people then you were just tellin it like it is (i might be talkin bout myself here too) most don't even know their own intentions internet brain screams validate me ad infinitum they didn't hear that amy (well it happened) i had a smoothie earlier, it counts damnit i don't wanna have to eat so... i don't take anybody seriously now i make mistakes all the time but i am nowhere near as impulsive as i used to be so that is success technically everyone is a drug addict now the only ones that are truly drug-free are the amish that beloved camera crew inside my brain catches ALL of it this was totally an issue until i discovered the cannabis plant that pops which was my goal, thank you Lord

is this my kid voice or is this my real voice do you learn things n are actually able to retain the information if i don't text back IMMEDIATELY i will forget i really wanna read this book but... we forgive that he's jewish they don't believe in Hell which explains alot does it not ronnit never texted me back, it's fine if she's mad at me over some miscommunication you love n hate the same people if she wasn't my actual friend i wouldn't care

americans are ever so predictable i'm a bitch cos i notice shit that the rest of the country don't those that don't wanna bother won't ever understand what's the matter... compromise will be their demise feeling bad short term vs feeling bad long term you can't do as much about it later on tho trying to take care of things before it's too late tho many would declare that it already is! about that wall...building mine since i was 5 i will always be a total cunt if you don't leave me alone i'm still the same tho i tried gaslighting myself, ever done that (it didn't work for shit) conventional people can't visualize happiness in this way i'd be crawling outta my skin any other way better off being over here, don't take it personally i can still come to yer party disassociating during yer wedding it's totally fine, at least i don't stare at my phone false light of photography n visuals n media reading about the occipital lobe... hallucinating OR seeing the truth many schizos don't have the luxury of a protective shield against psychosis most people don't look for solutions esp medical profession n those that trust em america is THE place to do this line of work

chasin tail...CLASSIC ag trashville ballcap courtesy of myrtle beach, THE most ghetto beach in the world i can't see shit right now that damn sun how many more x are we gonna listen to this album, you tell me vortex green goo face courtesy of being the smoothie queen one of the guys that doesn't give a fuck how shitty we look shame for not looking up to speck, whatever man i am going to a dermatologist tho don't got enough pride to wipe the crusties off my face why does it take a year to turn right my driving is not very good so i should probably shut up this is a cool angle it's too bad that ag couldn't have been in the allman bros band there you go some smoothie mouth yawl like my meow rendition i can do that w/ certain jazz songs and st. vincent's guitar parts my friend brad compared my piano punk to jazz n you know i can't take that making music legit makes me happy so i feel i'm supposed to do it, it's also a major release how piano punk started back in 2017 fave thing to do: drive around chain smoking it's not anywhere near as calculated as i wish it was very rare that i'd utilize an idea immediately, piano punk was one of the few that's a thelonious (mini cooper) look alike on that tow truck 4 x i think, poor thang so jealous of guitar players i'm sure it was written for melissa BECUZ he cheated on her (seventies)

some people aren't wired to do anything other than expire wishin to be different is stupid pray for acceptance cos that's the best thing you can do for yourself you really dunno what's gonna happen next i accepted this video is gonna cut me off now it resembles an ASMR ending haha trust the process of yer time running out...there it goes

that lighting makes me look purty there's that familiar scratchy sound once again what chu love is cos of what chu hate this whole channel is devoted to me in a way i pay a lotta attention to my life, i think this is way too obvious all the little things that drive me up one wall n down another i've always felt this way sneaking suspicion that i'd never grow out of it, i'm usually pretty accurate so many rites of passages i just wanted to die hahahaha everyone's laughing but nothin's funny everyone's scared but there's nothin to be scared about everyone's conforming but nobody's intelligent i can't wait to get outta this life i enjoy it a lotta the time now but this world just brings me down i am totally intolerable to those that don't agree w/ me i do this so that i understand myself better congratulations but no we will never fuck stop thinkin like that, go after somebody more open to the idea i failed miserably when i tried to deny these things about myself i don't need anymore proof but i'll leave it to you to accuse me of being sumin other than what i know i am a loner w/out a boner aside from the one i got for God, play on words calm it

so i went to zanies to support my friend brad... i fucking hate improv i always feel guilty if i don't laugh this mic was afterwards n the whole nashville comedy scene was there i swear so i fuckin bolted now i am going grocery shopping i dunno how people do the social stuff i get a smidgeon out of it if that every time we hang out i am disassociating boredom or disappointment i'd rather just spend time w/ myself n we get way more accomplished totally present right now cos we are fully in the moment when alone constant reality for ag: disassociating at a restaurant i'd rather slit my wrists than be in another romantic relationship NOT KIDDING it's way more selfish to appease society in order to save yer face there were waaaaay too many people there that i don't get a very good vibe from i can be kind of a cunt, it's just a boundary thing don't force yer beliefs, it won't work this poor kid i go to church w/ he followed me outside so he could confess that he HATES going to church the lil' deacon hahahaha most kids don't wanna be forced to go to church early sunday morning, going to school is already bad enough all these lgbt people grew up crazy religious maybe the experience YOU get is not the ones yer kids are getting when are we gonna quit this groupthink you actually can't tell that i'm freaking out, i think i understand now why people tell me that i seem so comfortable on stage i made the decision so i'm just mad at myself i calmed down don't worry

i just want yawl to hear this again... enjoy the allman bros damnit i wanna support small biz even if they're run by liberals so on this bulletin board i couldn't help but notice... suicide awareness dance party brought to you by social justice renegades i film maybe a quarter of my life, if that i couldn't take a picture but i most definitely woulda joy division is great suicidal dance music but they probably dunno about bands that good how to not kill yourself by ag: don't see a shrink *i just noticed sumin, i looked to the left to indicate that i just told a fibberoni 2:07...more like DIShonestly i won't do anything unless i have a significant reason to be there AND i feel up to it enough to force myself doing comedy as well as going to church or an AA meeting achieves sumin similar equality can only be achieved thru humility i wanna resurrect berry oakley from the dead and HE can play bass for me, i won't have it any other way *that's greg allman on the organ if people have the same goal then people should be able to get along just fine cos there's no competition (people can then work as a team, if need be tho they should also be able to hold their own cos they know what they have to do n genuinely desire to do it) nobody cares about identity in these places, that's the beauty of it none of this shit is profound but it still amazes me we can get over our petty differences cos we want the same thing (at work: $, doing comedy: laughter, at church: more God) what if those on the opposing side want the same thing just from another angle the L & R are obsessed w/ certain freedoms am i bridging the gap at all cos it don't feel like it i promise there was a plane i get very distracted by aircraft, as you know i hate zanies and i also hate comedy (even tho i'm a comic i know it's bad) ESP any kinda themed comedy the alcatraz seating over there is horrible but i'll fuckin do it thank you jeep, thank you takoma i hated this room so much, it was almost as bad as the actual comedy club i actually enjoy shopping w/ other people cos there's shit to look at so i can't get too bored i was debating switching my entire diet n now i know that i probably won't be doing that avocados all day vegan food is disgusting, i can't do it why eat fake meat, that just kinda defeats the whole purpose does it not it's actually the type of fake meat n it's called seitan which is wheat flour n water to create gluten which has protein they are mocking religious people i think, i don't think i'm reading too much into this either considering... being militant is not the way to win people you will never garner positive attention w/ this kinda attitude whenever they come to the realization that you're full a shit they will come out w/ a buncha "exposure" videos n shit nothing that i'm so into that i gotta be pushy about it i don't love doing comedy but i do enjoy the idea of it being an artist is awesome turning painful experiences into sumin cool some wisdom from an enjoyable experience but nowhere near as much an an unenjoyable experience you have more of a reason to pay attention when you're in pain cos it's a form of survival hey check out that beautiful sunset over there

that sound has gotta be my brake pads i think they suggested sumin about my brakes the last time i got my car serviced yawl can't hear that shit, sorry vortex i am dumb sometimes (a lot actually) he is amazing, he puts up w/ so much from me i forgot him at work n turned my car around immediately i understand why people would assume i don't have self-awareness who cares how i look tho, generally speaking if i don't care then why do you you don't have shit on me considering that i'm the one revealing this information so what if people hate it weird or unconventional things but not hurting anyone the internet itself is degenerate so... they "woke up" all to later on take an ambien they're like possessed by the AI did yawl hear that, that was the sound of a literal cat fight

everyone wants an escape do they not you're just fine, His grace is sufficient for thee God is the best thing about me i have so much feeling, i feel the intensity everywhere i've ever been life in HD, everything is a visual when yer life is a tv show nobody has to know how wonderful this is most people are social, they wanna fuck n they wanna cuddle that face tho i watched this fantasy of mine slip into the abyss like all my other addictions my afflictions will remain, various things i'm conflicted about if there wasn't this constant contradiction i wouldn't be half as interesting no doubt every teenie tiny fragment of discomfort is worth it when you figure shit out *twenty years later hahahahaha this isn't information that you can pass on, they don't want it! that was really abrupt haha, that IS my brain tho, to a capital T they can't accept being alone, i have the advantage of having known the feeling my entire life always obsessing about death so i'd just rather rough it w/out you mourning the future, reflecting on the past i can't be in a room w/ you w/out pulling all my harr out (what's left of it anyway) i can always trust a woman to tell me the truth when it comes to physical appearance i guess i need to see a dermatologist i've been up since 7am cos my neighbor had these mexicans ripping out the shingles of their rooftop n they started whistling at me as i went to check my mail it's just a true statement i bet myself a lotta $ n i owe myself a lotta $

i can't explain the vast sense of comfort i get from knowing that God is always there can't be deceived by these petty people, places n thangz i'm happy in my ways no matter how sad n depressing this song sounds an excuse i have to make in order to fake whatever happiness i claim to have? i know exactly the way you look at me empathy can only go so far, you'll never be what you think you are grateful to have this ability tho, glad to not be the other way even tho for awhile there i had a way darker side n my behavior proved that shit at least you're having really good sex *that's just cos of how badly you want it ______ is sex to me my feelings are all over the place, i can't keep them in one place better to know yourself than not yourself... that's not a cop, that's a fucking honda nope they don't hear shit amy imma go to budget brakes sometime in the near future i am married to the man in my head

i hope these videos are good since i really felt it just now if you can't accept yourself you won't be able to appreciate good things when you have em cos you won't know what to do w/ em how many people are in terrible relationships or shooting up dope or self-destructing each n every day they don't love themselves enough to stop i used to fill that void w/ so many things that would never do the thing i was most hopin they would do yeah i used to be a kleptomaniac back when i was an alcoholic such a baddie4shoes i'd lift so much shit that the alarm would go off...keep on walkin amy keep on walkin i can't imagine how boring all these patients are but also the therapists best therapists were either cheap or free i enjoyed talkin bout myself for 45 min on a fancy ass couch but i didn't learn shit if there is no growth spurt whatsoever then there really is no point i got revelations no matter what purposely sounding like shit cos i can't do a good bono impression starbucks is lame cos they're not open at one am, mitch hedberg would say that's an unreasonable time for me to expect them to be open n he'd be right, RIP mitch i'm pretty sure that starbucks ain't even fair trade what corporation isn't lying about most things they advertise do yawl spot my grey harrs, they're so sparkly yes i am always distracted i hate cops, there are too many of em in my town it's my brake pads i think i really am fucking paranoid this is a fine example of projection most people do know that i'm a bad driver tho once again, lost my train of thought...

what chu think of me is none of my biz they used to say this back at that 12 step cult i have the tendency to get off the subject i used to argue w/ people over this if i am confident n i'm doin what i'm supposed to be doin it shouldn't matter short of an identity in my early twenties could culture have anything to do w/ depression? man i look like such a dude (no adam's apple tho) everything is a transaction which can't possibly be functional PLENTY of observational wealth tho i'll give myself the benefit of the doubt that it's useful in some kinda way analysis kinda sorta ruins it but it's also a good way to not be bored always picking up mainly bad energy there's always gonna be this prickly part of me i kinda relish the fact that you don't understand (or can't stand) it i do get off being hated, i am liberated i can't wait for you to leave can you hear the battery running out (it starts making a scratching sound) acceptance allows the doors to swing wide open i know i woulda killed myself if i did it their way so lucky so blessed to accept the stress (and it's no longer stress) what mess it is n i don't feel obligated to clean it up anymore society will always fault me for that blame me i get off, i revel in the things that make most people scoff messing up is just what i do take whatever you just had to break n make it into sumin better...we always say this to ourselves right gaslight! gaslight! gaslight!

we love propaganda so much, he's just adorable is he not that's a lie, he has a big mouth w/ sharp teeth luckily made outta plastic so like me to run over rice snacks i just had a really long therapy session w/ my friend brad there ain't enough empaths to go around wait for the sound... easier to learn sumin when you value yer experience humble bragging is annoying i really wish this was a joint that was a pretty good impression of somebody from the late sixties every time i say sumin "mean" somebody proves my point in like a day i promise this is outta concern n not a superiority complex how many people that don't have schizophrenia would think that they are better than those that do equality could never exist cos people are different how to prove that their worldview is complete crap things could never be remedied cos they can make too much $ off of societal problems i am embarrassed by the society i live in policies can't change the way that people are wired, either by nature or society when social media exists you can forget all that equality crap (also, social media has proven how similar EVERYONE is so they can compare n contrast all day but they all act just alike) don't worry THE perfect metaphor is coming...

i didn't wanna do comedy ANYWAY i utilized my time at the comedy venue pardon my humanity bad people prosper, good people suffer how you treat others is a reflection of how you treat yourself most bad people either don't have self-awareness or they're just garbage people say hi n bye to propaganda (plastic dinosaur)

this is a goodbye video dear poster how i feel about all govt but esp THIS govt if you're not an anarchist at this point... plants over pharmies all day he's done a lotta opium hahahahaha i hope charter is satisfied w/ these cos that's what he is getting last week i stood next to the window n meowed at this stranger cat, she meowed back repeatedly i don't think she slowly blinked, she dunno me like that

propaganda is back! literal propaganda underneath my dear dinosaur friend, propaganda somebody that comes into sns every tue w/ a copy of the wall street journal n i always yoink em i don't even read em the majority of the time just in case i wanna do sumin artistic... i feel bad for eli but i also don't drinking or getting high to deal w/ emotional pain vs doing so cos you're bored n you don't have a purpose always thwarted by mental health stuff spiritual people are more valuable in regards to what they can provide society but this is precisely why the devil consistently fucks w/ our heads most people really are blockheads i just try to accept the bad about me n it's no longer as much of an issue started to chill the fuck out after i turned 30, this dude is only 18 anyone w/out a sense of purpose has nothing to really lose ag gets honked at, can you believe that (i can) many people have this attitude in west civ so bored let's just self-destruct but the allman bros (and every band in the seventies) did a lotta cocaine is it super sinful if you're making stuff most of those people are sheep that's why they obsess about stupid shit cos they have nothing going for them twitter is the absolute worst sorry i reminded you that you're alive n you'd much rather be dead n shit so many drugs n waaaaaay too much time it's thur, time for some oxycontin pieces a shit don't value anything, they are w/out love why can't i cut people off at MY job if they keep hurting you they are also hurting themselves stop letting them get away w/ mistreating you cos you're just giving them an okay to mistreat somebody else unless you set a boundary... it might take em a min but hopefully it will happen this has happened a number of times i did this poster recently n i love it those that belittle BE little, GET IT they put you down cos they have no sense of self, they do that as a defense mechanism so true about dummy drugs...here go you another fucking rant about the same shit no choice but to rage (i know i've been on those same drugs) if you were actually self-assured you wouldn't give a shit about somebody else's uninformed opinion i don't wanna validate anyone's misconception by getting all defensive about it my personality always seems to involve an explanation driving to ronnit's house... SPOILER: my wish came true! i am always relieved when i don't get picked it's worthwhile to do comedy even if i don't like it or feel good about it addicted to having experiences where i beat myself up i guess tho i think that all comics have a guilt complex technology has made everyone so boring n it has still impacted me even tho i don't go along w/ most of it i wish i could pretend that it didn't exist but i literally cannot is my flip phone life ridiculous or what not just about principles, i don't want a smartphone damnit it sounds like i am lugging around a dead body back there why would you want the internet in yer pocket considering how toxic the internet is now the cold war has been ongoing do yawl remember the internet's early days w/ all the pedophiles in the chat rooms they were actually honking at me i think nothing to look at on my phone aside from a txt msg THIS is a camcorder back when the internet was simple it was still creepy BUT people actually appreciated it do yawl remember AOL n the little man that would walk across the screen for like 4hrs now if there ain't free wifi EVERYWHERE boo fucking hoo our society doesn't deserve a lotta things but the internet has nuked their humanity so many good things about the internet but it takes more outta me now to ignore the bad i don't even like to think of myself as on the internet (and yet i have more videos on yt than most people) the internet is a record store on pcp most use the internet to prove that they're a narcissist GET THE FUCK OFF YER PHONE, that's the msg technology decreases empathy we're all here to appreciate this one piece of art, that's pretty amazing to me what i hate about doing comedy more than anything i notice a lotta shit that goes unnoticed in this country just trying to help people cos i know that i can, i've had enough of these experiences so important for artists to put themselves out there we already have enough useless piece a shit drug addicts in this country, we need people that actually contribute sumin artistic

listen to the allman bros band on my way to nashville when i realized that i left propaganda (plastic dinosaur) at my work place still doin what i was fixin to do but i am not doin it w/out my dinosaur friend! this is where my abandonment issues kick in reading this interview w/ st. vincent... concerts increase yer empathy whether it's a concert, comedy special or play i hate crowds but i think i realized why a bad person isn't the slightest bit bothered by this overzealous empathy can be sickening as well you can't brag about empathy for the same reason that you can't brag about humility empaths are always mocked, see: Jesus so this dude i used to work w/ just got popped w. 2 felony charges for selling fentanyl in a school zone pieces a shit don't value their life or anyone else's super easy to pretend that you're doing work on yourself in a 12 step program you never know when you might benefit from sumin that you randomly heard at an AA meeting tho the judicial system is all about gaslighting sadly most don't do anything for the right reason he's about to get fucked up in prison cos he loves to brag (stupid white boy)

this is what i do when i dunno what else to do i will take a guess as to what you do when you're bored what does EVERYBODY do when they are bored this person that just got honked at had pulled out practically in the middle of the intersection so... i know i sound super self-righteous but... brain-washing has to have a medium i get that many dunno how to fight the system, but they don't have to indulge in it either round 2 wearing a mask can only mean one thing i'm glad that we now have proof as to who still watches cnn if God saved me from booze n ocean water... everyone is saying the same thing i typically horde my art so appreciate this vortex! i suck at lying i'd encourage lying by omition way more, a lotta information is not necessary to reveal i wore sweat pants all cos i felt a bit of a breeze n now i am burning the fuck up SPOILER: there were no geese to hang out w/ i am going to nashville tonight to do standup only losers don't like me even the ones that don't get me keep trying to pester me so...

that was not the chord i was playing before i started filming feel like shit? buy some crap (the luxury of living in america) so much shit you can buy to gaslight yourself stoned cold cynic cos i pay attention to the world i live in i guess i just notice what most don't most don't wanna pull their head outta their asshole my experience ain't more important than yours it's actually not making that sound this is the freedom our ancestors died for all they do is piss away whatever freedom we have i guess ag is a beatnik or sumin i am validated by their confusion or misunderstanding my harr looks like shit in spite of me washing it so original to mock schizophrenia back when i was an alcoholic i didn't wanna do anything but drink so bathing was most definitely OUT i'm convinced by their behavior i'd rather be wrong way more if it meant... chronically explaining myself, sorry bout that i promise it annoys me waaaaay more than you think it annoys you these chords are somber n beautiful people used to tell me that i was the saddest person they ever met be prepared for the upcoming blizzards that's how the harp system works america is nurture running its' course since this is MY country i can criticize her damnit the people here ain't resilient in the slightest they love the fuck outta the system nothing surprises me, i coulda just said that shit n covered all my bases this is what chu get damnit my grey harrs are sparkly!

this really is gonna be the last video i hate that clicky sound of the keys is that mind-blowing or what i wanna give away what i got for free i really did work for this it means more that i got here the way that i did society cannot be trusted tho freedom has destroyed society nothing is fair if you think about it long enough politics has an emotional appeal, not a logical one all too easy for women to ruin the whirled why does this need explaining it's my experience damnit, it don't need validation i'm sure that this will be a new invention they will all get chipped cos they are already robots the dudes are on the same drugs as women i take your confusion about my gender as a compliment i shop as a woman but i'm way more of a dude i'll be feminine for God, not motivated to wear a skirt outside of church i used to lift a lotta makeup, it's just too easy modernity has nuked actual masculinity n femininity carl jung vindicated me ag is a lot like camille paglia andro(gynous)

so i say this will be the last video what is that topic again there's always a camera crew following me around watchin everything i do that camera crew takes me out to lunch now cos they know i've come far reality is very disappointing, i think that the smartphones have proven this when your life is a tv show... when all that knowledge keeps expanding this is the only way we can be together i'm only cool w/ me, you're so lucky that God told me to do this my true feelings on peeing outside plenty to bitch about but all this shit was already here when i arrived back in 85 so... consistently inconsistent 5,700+ videos so far i can only have a man in a song the great curve was all about me, i swear more fun to live a life of deeper meaning do yawl know what a joke is a persona is an exaggerated self if i try to help it n can't help it then i'm supposed to have it ag reads John chpt 15 so much you can do w/ your adversity i wish people knew the value of a painful experience you don't learn much from a happy moment my first bf wrote a lotta poems about me don't write a song for me, i won't reciprocate drinking made self-destructing fun i got to know the darker part of me which was a good thing overall i can't be over there with you, i'm sorry you think it'd be easy to remember but see the next video...