kaleidoscopeANON

i used to fantasize about having a whole posse it felt like it was outta my head i was ashamed of it cos it was proof that i was crazy i could listen to the same song all night long i'm cheating on you mentally i've always known the struggle that most women experience ag literally smh well yeah masochist too i sound like a sexist man cos i am up in my head it's why i don't wanna come down it really is one of our Father's many mansions animals, that's how they behave n not like these lovely felines over here i don't want to give her back sophie is such a sweet baby (total lap cat) everyone is on the spectrum i think we are on the edge of the edge gleefully sittin on this billboard but the guilt makes it hard it's not the longing to do it like them this reminds me of elliott smith, RIP when do i not look at me i know that this is the way that it's supposed to be unless you're giving me Holy Communion i ain't missin out on shit schizophrenia is awesome, don't believe the bullshit you just dunno the deal is all

just found another memory card that i forgot about i think that looks pretty cool if the marker fades i add another color n this happens imma color the outside of this red bad things are dark, good things are white just call that racist morality is subjective these days so true about this world in relation to narcissists...i really like this poster i like how the colors i use on that one about suicide sorta blend together which kinda resembles how people don't often notice or care when someone is slowly committing suicide truth comes from God therefore we shouldn't be instructed to fear Him aside from our own conscience i do not need to be told to fear God real drug dealers are more trustworthy: i stand by this msg til the day i die you gotta trust the person you do sumin illegal w/ doing whatever i feel like in that particular moment...CLASSIC ag life somebody will mention that i don't look too good right now (i need to take a shower) the flute sound is the after midnight sound i'd rather slit my wrists than exist how you exist or how you'd have me exist perhaps these are just stories that i wanna believe about everything is this an ag problem or an everybody problem i know what i can't handle so... how i think you exist perhaps FOMO is how they do it, that's why it's partially everyone's fault social death is the only thing they fear fear of not being relevant FONBR their devices won't let them become better people whatever you're told makes you bold, see: metoo movement hashtags, selfies, posts terrible taste in my mouth when i think about all of this i'm sad for the world not for my circumstance isolation nation the only time i think about fucking is when i'm bored around other people very strange girl, i know the thought of sex makes me wanna vomit morality got chipped away back in my teenage years i glory in being alone for reasons that i don't expect many to understand it's fine cos i didn't slit my wrists today

such a dude, i love this hat i didn't get picked tonight but it's okay cos i made a buncha posters during the show if you had told me when i started that i'd be disgusted by sex jokes i woulda laughed at ya proof of what God can do to ya not trying to be haughty but it's pretty bad what society allows for themselves they don't strive to do better pretty steady continuum of human behavior it never does what it promises they turn to everything but God God is everywhere n we're so lucky He coulda given up on us a long time ago, i wouldn't blame Him their standards are below sea level i know that i've sunk that low before who am i to tell em that they'll be in trouble... i understand the importance of this now more than ever but clean comedy bores me, too either clean comedy or eating ass "comedy" God forbid there's a comedian in a conventional marriage asexuality is the complete opposite experience sex shouldn't be evil they tell themselves that this is what they want what can you do, i've been saying this a lot here recently

pretty sure that this whole thing is a musical version of yer experience, amy uh oh five oh six hour work day ain't shit, i'd much rather be there for fifteen i haven't tried that hard to learn any of the notes that i'm playing i guess i have a good ear for it tho i used to smoke sooooo much marijuana cigarettes n marijuana cigars can't forget the peace pipes n water bongs if i go back it won't be the same n i'll just feel so lame it ain't the same plant thank you israel for spiking the cannabis plant NOT! when i go to church i dress like a woman, everywhere else i get called sir bathroom material ain't too modest a bloody tampon proves that i'm a woman, trance women will never know let's bust drunks not sex traffickers expect me to fuck up, that way you won't be disappointed (also a note to myself) oh yeah...gender it doesn't have to be sooooo complicated but it ain't simple either why can't we just accept the weirdness n move on just look at em they're so purty if i were really a man i'd fuck the hell outta that bitch nothing will alter this chemistry of mine too smart to be brain washed for too long a time yer tributary is no better the general public allows themselves to be exploited the children don't deserve this shit world somebody's gotta have some sense in this stupid ass country who's gonna be the good example that shows em it doesn't have to be this miserable does this sound self-righteous or what everything is part of it this is clearly an ALL ME problem their word: gender queer, my word: eunuch yer own private algorithm i can only speak for my country i ain't planning on leaving even tho i ain't no patriot i'd probably fit in way better ANY PLACE ELSE IN THE WORLD ag knows what's up (God) the devil is the prince of the air, look around he's everywhere people love to be lied to i guess

recognize that symbol i guess mason lodges ain't that fancy ronnit is so high-maintenance

just look at that red door we used to line up outside this door n you had to show up super early if you wanted a good spot on the list i hate people that bang on doors i used to bring a stuffed animal every set this is googl EEE *thank you lauren i love cigarette smoke, we'll forgive their communism

my immunity is so high cos of these smoothies i swear not bragging i promise, these are blessings neuroplasticity all day applying new information to my day to day life i can't shut out inconvenient information politics is ruthless cos everyone has to lie to themselves look at all those clothes! everyone's bias will convince them it's the party they hate that i'm referring to just kill yourself if you think we gettin outta this all becuz i changed my eating habits... you can get more immunity very easily i kinda sorta hate food cos it's a liability i never wanna eat, i just have to the majority of the smoothie must be green! sometimes i will add an extra banana always use the root instead of just the powder any type of liquid so it can do its' thing gotta have flax seeds tho hemp hearts would also work oh yeah, the drugs! and also, the euphoria yes you can smoke mitrogyna, it's fucking leaves amy i've seen enough people ruin their life w/ drugs alcohol was the only thing that really destroyed me i quit smoking weed cos it reminded me of cigarettes way too much inhaling smoke is obviously toxic but the fact that it goes straight to yer brain is also have you ever met a pothead when they're NOT high outta their mind they ain't more creative, man plenty of people all thru out history have used drugs very important to learn how bad you can be i ain't ashamed of the fact that i used to be an alcoholic cos i learned a lot about myself that wasn't very good i wish that pot made people more creative such low motivation that's the main problem all these brilliant ideas will go nowhere the drugs i like to do i don't have to do always trying to expand the conversation about controversial topics twitter is fucking evil anything that turns you more narcissistic is not a good thing! oh yeah, kratom hahahaha i don't recommend drug use to anyone that can't handle it it is of the utmost importance to know yourself these recent strains were just too much for my head like clockwork ag starts crying (after any n every live show) i can't handle duane allman's final words at that concert i don't need help being more schizophrenic but that's what pot does you have a smartphone, look this up more likely to masturbate after smoking pot n i don't wanna do that i used to have a whole day devoted to masturbating but now it's a little too degenerate for me if the drugs you do lead to compulsive behavior then you probably should avoid them more likely to act gay n slutty after downing some booze not ashamed to kiss ladies as much as fucking black guys *confession

God is always lookin, it's always His business so many believers must think that God is comatose who ain't on xanax over analysis kinda drags me down but it's sorta my life how could anyone living right now say that they value sanity anyway how terrible yer life must be if this is how you conduct yourself daily everything is a reflection of yer state of mind everything is connected so... there's nothin for me to say to these people don't think that your conscience is a problem do the opposite of what you find objectionable if everything i see is misery then i will do whatever i can to be happy i started my life at thirty i tend to have the opposite experience ag is up-trodden every time i see this i think it's a mason lodge well that was totally irrelevant but... you ain't happy cos you keep going along w/ the world understand yourself n live yer life to the best of yer ability, that's it the expectations are different now so it's kinda useless to bother about what the world wants from us kill yourself one time n people get mad, get yourself repeatedly thru yer habits n nobody cares

no idea of how good this would be for me the devil wants you to hide all yer faults (even tho they are obvious) much to the dismay of societay the medical profession would lose so much $ if people would just talk about their problems why does anyone trust politicians i think my piano playing is getting more creative exclamations proclamations affirmations confirmations validations vindications what else what else i get all the good becuz i am doing God's will i am pretty loyal about my job cos it helped me in so many ways us schizos are dead to the world applying the Bible means being spit on by society which is fine, eunuch all day

the joe rogan effect has made everyone sooooo boring this doesn't even have shit to do w/ joe rogan himself he doesn't do anything but fuckin sit there smartphones have made everyone sooooo boring joe rogan of all boring ass mfs is a controversial figure just cos you believe in certain conspiracies or use certain words don't mean that you're being edgy there was a dead deer on the side of the road, that probably means sumin terrible shit's getting weirder n weirder hw 65 is a major sex trafficking road IT'S TOO DARK! joe rogan IS light my nword joke that's endearing white people get so excited to be culturally relevant up until you were forced to hang out w/ em... w leftists are totally condescending but b leftists are too dumb to notice the L is super controlling tho they give off this impression that they don't care about anyone's lifestyle (only if it's totally degenerate) the R just wants people to behave n if not they want em locked up it ain't the time to be taking chances i have taken so many chances driving around that's just the worst right there just park yer car n go into the restaurant to place yer order how many x i have seen bags of trash on the side of the road healthy compulsion for once if i have the opportunity to improve sumin n i don't utilize it then i feel like a terrible person maybe i'm reading too much into things... GOD IS ALWAYS LOOKING

can you tell that i'm still drinkin my smoothie i'm a lot like a kid when they find a piece of chocolate cake sex to adults is like chocolate cake to children tell me is that funny we didn't actually do comedy, we didn't get picked people trying to normalize this freakshow are the most fucked up i don't wanna focus on what YOU'RE doin wrong don't wanna make excuses for daily abuses or misuses of anything pointing out other people's faults is a nervous tick i have so many posters as of late but i haven't posted on instagram in awhile i tend to just dump my shit the comment section shows us precisely where we are as a society i'm allowed to shit on society cos i'm a comedian damnit none of these sacks of shit do comedy do n say what chu want (you always do) a society that gives into every last vice that never thinks twice or once they tend to run away from any bit of consciousness this is what we're stuck w/ now people air out their dirty laundry for all the world to see i hate this when i switch lanes it's the little things, yawl ya gotta be happy w/ minor success somebody told the owner of the comedy club that i said the nword, it's true yawl it's true i did it for comedy, damnit

they love to attack eachother in this thing gay pride tubee right here since it goes in five different directions krysta might be taking back sophie

i turned the keyboard off which is the first step gonna finish this kefir n then go inside my friend is probably gonna take sophie back but i have fallen in love w/ this cat why are furries the slightest bit surprising total debasement of society via sex at least i never stuck my tongue in their you know what i understand sexism cos mentally i'm a sexist dude just cos i feel like a dude doesn't make me a dude i guess this is transgenderism on lsd i like all animals, real animals n plush toys the spectrum of nutcase... if you can pass for normal in a public place then you can get married n have kids eventually mental illness will show up in the form of addiction if you dunno yourself you won't be good at what you're trying to do being adopted explains a lotta that i get attached to what seems to have been rejected this is a rescue channel mentally mainly i can wonder, i ain't lookin em up on instagram social media is all about keeping tabs on people

the jews voted to kill jesus ronnit don't hate me so... i'm the closest thing to Jesus that ronnit will ever be a lotta these political thingies correlate w/ other political thingies not trying to invalidate anyone's experience herd stupidity doin whatever i can to stay sane in a world this stupid i will never plz a man like i can plz God the closest thing i will ever have to writing an actual song is repetition ag is 25 people so it's quite taxing being around just one staying true to myself is the most important thing if you had the right opinion you wouldn't care what other people think about it eternally grateful that i don't have to do any of these things anymore the last time i acted like a lesbian i was drunk the last time i drank n shit really hit the fan... it's funny now, ain't it so i did some posters for nick a few years ago, i will probably do more when i'm not doing this i try to pretend that i don't do this at all double bookkeeping all day

this is me gaslighting myself in action blame game is counterproductive but at least it's not YOUR fault you are still responsible damnit i've always been very patient so it's fine that i get annoyed from time to time that bass reminds me of the beta band i can't make up my mind but i guess that's interesting to watch (just not from the top of my head) front row seat is kinda narcissistic but at least i know about this demonic element God has provided me w/ drunk goggles any time i get on a roll i fuck it up kefir break! now do you get how we're not alone i have always lived in a landfill (mentally) the joke is always on amerihahahahahahaha i can't stay either i got a tv up in my brain that's buzzing the world is in HD n ag is the satellite dish why wouldn't you understand yourself better than anything else we only have one life w/ this particular mind narcissism just kicked in n i know it's a sin world flat web OR what if it's both that's why they do what they do silly asses everywhere trying to be God gotta verify this statement nope, 1 thessalonians...proof that God is anti-semitic

there was a cop behind me for the past ten min, sooooo glad i didn't know that part of my track record i know technically... what they're told is a news story anyway society is good at making ag gag let's not get sidetracked, we always do n then go on some rant no amy. politics is the solution to the world but the world is run by satan so what's the flippin point i love these chords right here gypsy is now offensive cos of romania or something the seventies has been cancelled fave song by stevie nicks, pretty sure she wrote it about her abortion is pygmy offensive or what i can't help it, man sorry paying attention is hard to come by so excited to go to confession, you will never understand!

not a cop sorry for the sound b/w people are stupid n make the same mistakes ag is trying to figure out what went wrong who needs tv when you pay attention i used to not love my life this much what i went thru was an eventual blessing appreciate what chu got, there might come a time when it's not there that iphone is the litmus test to the mark of the beast reality of missing out, that's what we deal with we are mining up here i'd rather be up here doin this you can tell i'm somewhat conflicted about it but not enough to make the decision that "they" want me to make all you can hope for is that God ain't smh it takes me forever to figure out an acronym an uber ain't an acronym tho what happened to you a long time ago that is keeping you in a perpetual state of agitation when i look at them i look back at me always don't expect me to stay, sorry another human being w/ a beating heart n sexual needs more masculinity plz i know how this energy comes across the man in my head will always get in the way when you can easily lie on a social media post

his name is googlie he is either always on LSD or he's also schizo it's the fans in the engine if you dunno you (ie: i) naturally assume that sumin is wrong how long have yawl been riding around w/ me i didn't like that ditty, it was too somber imma take the long way home tonight now's not the time to wasting gasoline i tell myself this now, whenever i feel the tank again i will feel differently that didn't make sense but that's okay sorry if you feel invalidated, never what i'm trying to do i get sad driving over here 2 cops behind 1 chevy, guess the race predicting the future ain't difficult if/when you pay attention i don't pretend to love others, i actually do why can't we come up w/ a better philosophy the ones that run everything love to lie the devil n his underlangz do shitty thangz politics is always in denial of a particular chunk of reality assumptions make people stupid many don't like the all angles part anybody can be bad n stupid n reckless they always use black people to prove some kinda narrative about the entire police dpt the end of the month is fast approaching why do people act crazy around authority figures esp THIS particular govt we usually do a california stop right here but we're gonna do it frfr tonight brianna taylor, SAY HER NAME

everybody that uses the internet gets sucked in n never spit back out this is the freedom our ancestors died for i used to live a very shameful life these parts of me that aren't fun to look at willing to be disgusted lookin at all the awful shit i did grateful to be able to take inventory it's too hot to wear pants haha yes i change in my car focus on whatever makes you the most ashamed you can do sumin different if you're willing to be uncomfortable so many pussies unwilling to try harder no skin off my nose to admit fault eat that wisdom for lunch instead of that fake food you're fixin to consume

soooo excited about going to confession not enough representation of what we believe in no such thing as conservative arts conservatives don't do drugs aside from... Divine Liturgy is a lot like psilosybin running joke between me n my priest you need people to represent the opposite of what's popular it's not that authentic to be weird when you stare at a screen more than you do any other thing you're probably gonna be autistic in order to make art ya gotta be pretty masochistic becuz i can't submit to a man for shit... nobody else will say or do these things i break my own rules sometimes the truly smart ones admit that there are those waaaay smarter than them empathy n humility are strengths not weaknesses medicine is poison, it didn't used to be this way matt graening is a mason so that's why the simpsons are consistently telling us the truth about what's going on thinkin conspiratorial thoughts in my living room at 8 years old 1994 was a much simpler time i've always pissed people off that don't believe in questions questions prove the gullibility of yer avg american all the sheep dutifully take their shots n their anti-depressants regularly the joke has always been on them it's all in reverse

no excuse for me to go the harr salon considering that there's one literally right next door to me am i so slovenly cos i can't stand the modern woman what if i develop an annoying ass voice all cos i begin to care about my physcial appearance split ends, no good i never thought i could pull off sumin like that tho ag is on offense cos of how pushy everyone is about their world view you can't force somebody to want sumin that they don't want i love to set conventional things ablaze i'd rather serve God in this way instead of gaslight myself am i wrong to enjoy schizophrenia as i got older my "mental illness" became more of an issue this "brain disease" makes alone time way more fun

tweet others the way you wanna be tweeted, it's kinda cute i hate it when church billboards prove how protestant they are money drama attention validation money simple suggestion, that's it *NOT TEACHING NOR PREACHING mental ills are the exception to all the rules that society dunno about anyway those that are right w/ themselves don't need to prove anything to anyone ego food that's all it is some of these church billboards, man... as if walmart needs any help staying afloat i assumed i was on the L cos i ain't a capitalist trying to appeal to the world doesn't make sense when you're a church just this one time i will brush my harr this is ag projecting don't worry vortex, i gotcha

this angle is pretty cool don't chu think now i know how it feels to be stuck behind me some days brilliant, other days not so much my ego tells me all kindza things in the grand scheme of things i seem pretty small this piano punk thing is the truest thing to my soul do you do anything that means this much to ya i wanna donate my relationship w/ God as well as my relationship w/ myself that's the man in my head correcting me

speaking of the word no... men that wanna fuck are the worst about the word no a lotta people are never taught how to say no super shocking that i didn't kill myself in high school, man music literally saved my life conservatives dunno how to truly appreciate art i hate anything regimented the comfort of elliott smith in the formative years music enabled me to carve out my little place in this shit world i love my cats, i appreciate them if my cats weren't there i'd survive i spy: eczema you can't teach people how to do their own thing people plzing is more about societal roles suicide for me to have it yer way just the thought disgusts me it's just social programming tho throw away yer image if you wanna be married BE PATIENT who ever is holding you will hurt you if you don't work on yourself you will never be capable of appreciating it cos it's a drug most do social media to validate themselves (but they are using total strangers to do this) when you dunno yourself well enough to understand why you do what you do expect the worst outta life so many ways to be a horrible person western demoralization, this is NOT a civilization! it's still the same solution: trust God n get to know yourself they go hand in hand cos we are the temple you can't possibly leave you so why wouldn't you wanna be buddy buddy w/ yourself it's too dark *outside haha hope yawl got sumin outta that, goodbye now

imma show yawl these posters b4 i colour em my fave part is writing the msg cos i enjoy doing the different letters real drug dealers are more trustworthy eli just got 2 felony charges AND violated his probation selling schedule 2 drugs in a school zone he was just totally self-destructive title + $ + no prison time (doctors) a head doctor's whole profession is getting people hooked on shit drugs that do the opposite of what they say (at least opiates get you high) psychiatry n ethics don't mix the algorithm is not our friend i crossed it out on the back haha their whole purpose is to just keep you hooked on moronics spewing schizo babble will never be what the people want mazel tov if you like me ronnit tells me all the time to stop being so negative you can't make $ off the matrix n educate people about it at the same time w/out making it obvious that you work for people andrew tate is a fucking dirtbag at least he could fuckin box men that allow women to manipulate them via sex love the fuck outta that mf raise yer kids plz otherwise they will become leftist lunatics or trust some sack of shit like andrew tate the philosophy of failure feminism doesn't even make sense n collapses on itself i told yawl about this poster the victim mentality will kill you (speaking of...) the more you think you're a victim the more likely you will be one in the future guilt trips ain't from God...just a reminder to myself ag don't need to fear-monger, we're already schizo when it comes to hell, our punishment is already here (it's been here i swear) am i wrong for thinking we've been in the tribulation for awhile now i have given myself quite a hard time over the years being an empath is far better than the alternative but it can be fairly difficult i have no choice but to make art more likely to do it again if i feel guilty about it slow suicide: morbid obesity (you can't unsee it) we live in america so we're around fat people all the time physique is the tip of the iceberg, what about yer internal organs (saying it cos i care) psych meds cause mass shootings i remember being on all this shit wanting to jump off a precipice i already had that sentiment n meds just made it worse sit w/ the discomfort n you'll realize it ain't that bad waaaay more people that have a gun but DON'T shoot anyone what about all the suicides that involve a gun the hypocrisy of the L is maddening put on the whole armor of God since there are so few of us all comment, no content (for the trolls) social media appeals to narcissists more than anybody the world is run by the prince of darkness so why would it be good again not just the jews but also the jesuits (it's another J) focus on the negativity n the devil wins AGAIN a social media site w/ only positive shit? absolutely not i can't stand people being nice tho, i'd much rather receive a dirty look genuineness means way more now than ever crying doesn't mean much coming from ag respectable people respect boundaries, devoted to a lotta people not just my trolls boundaries are a quandary for many if you don't have good examples of boundaries from yer parents then all yer relationships will be terrible bad parenting begets emotionally unintelligent kids the whole boomer generation is helicopter esque i was the wild child (scapegoat), my brother was the people plzer n he isn't a very happy person i went w/ myself n it was the best decision ever why would i go against my own principles n make decisions for other people you will have to deal w/ the repercussions not the people you're attempting to plz people plzing is instant gratification of pretend validation blaming yer probs on people that never forced you to do anything i get off on saying the word no