kaleidoscopeANON

i am very emotional...humanity makes me cry whenever people are genuinely kind it gets me all choked up lumping everyone into the same category is characteristic of the restaurant industry decent people get duped every day all day i am always arguing w/ myself there are at least 500 things that are killing us everything can affect you indirectly you should always care about what happens to other people they are destroying everything all for the purpose of "development" jim morrison had some good quotes

ever eat a bowl of cereal when driving around i don't have the heart to take out this cd i didn't see the eclipse cos of the clouds should i pull over? i'm paranoid i'm always stayin crazy i totaled my last vehicle right here i always thank the Lord cos i am a very bad driver that's my personal sidekick who is a man i finally got the flashdrive be proud of me for doing what i said 6mos later my media player killed itself so... i finally got what i shoulda gotten a long ass time ago back when i still had fiona...damn i do miss her expressing yer authentic self is very self-gratifying dani is one of the only women that can stand me dani's journey to where? talking is beneficial, that's why therapists get paid so much 3rd world countries can't whine about the govt n shit crying is fantastic we are supposed to have emotions, logic is good too tho as long as you understand everything in the basket they binge cos they are crazy haha they're a reflection of what makes em sick they put me on a pedestal for reasons i don't agree with easy to use emotions against other people i hate it for em n whoever is around em n must put up w/ their shit i'm funny cos i always had faith in the reason technology has just made people more impatient you can alter the pattern once it is recognized climate change is the one they're sayin now i just studied mental illness, so that's why i know a lot about it the powers at be have very easily weaponized mental illness super easy to control society they gotta pretend that they believe in self-preservation they're cocky about having kids n come to think of it everything else they do too children are a gift from God so gloating about it doesn't make sense arrogance is not from God empathy is an advantage but it does not feel like one for sure a leg up that keeps kicking you...oh well it torments me cos i care projection is self-defense you can't make a point when you're a piece a shit, too those that don't make an honest attempt to understand their own faults are very annoying people i keep saying this... not looking forward to insta!spam kim said imma get so much hate trying to get back into stand up but the mics suck around here i guess the Lord wants me to expand my horizons people just don't wanna work is all non interesting people that don't have shit to offer i'm showing you what our ancestors really want from us explaining the "joke" / bit all these people are dead inside so what the fuck does it matter they've already killed their spirit it's way more selfish to do sumin all to win the approval of society following my heart meant going against society stfu

paisley likes to jump on my back n chill on my shoulder, very very cool cat

why do they talk this way don't really hate women, i just get aggravated these groups are so oppressed that they cannot be criticized even tho all these things are true i paint w/ a broad brush cos i'm allowed (for the art of the joke) this girl on the headset is not fake at all but this little drive thru persona of hers sounds fake as fuck don't think i dunno that i am also obnoxious i don't wanna say anything n then they self-mutilate if i ever resemble a narcissist i'm sorry women vs men taking orders

if you can call this shit music it makes me feel better than i did before i started the happiest person on the internet cos i know how to use it everyone wants to be depressed n sick n pissed IT'S A CHOICE ad infinitum we don't choose the world we live in but we choose what we do about it it's easier to point the finger than admit that they made the wrong choice it just might be a sin... it's very plausible cos i used to have very toxic empathy too much of a good thing very easily becomes a bad thing how can i not think about drug use when do i do what i don't have to do i even appreciate it or is it just a part of my routine so conscious that it makes me nauseous so i analyze this vomit bill w(ilson) was a free mason your most trusted 12step cult... should i go gambling on my 13yr anniversary i always wanted to go to new orleans this is called creativity it comes from a very fuck you place come back paul i'm not supposed to be comfortable get good at being uncomfortable you can always pray in the bed so do that productivity doesn't mean shit if you don't get anywhere i used to deal w/ crippling anxiety this mf is in the middle of intersection, he doubled down it was very very busy tonight i am working for a friend of mine that is at a funeral right now there's this park conveniently 2min up the street from my house i sang Psalm 119, the longest Psalm people like this annoy me cos they just wanna sit in their shit nothing is ever hopeless, i'm sorry that you're knee deep in despair they corrupt everything so it's no surprise philosophically it's the best book in the world so the college dropout was at the record store recently, so lucky to snag it now is the BEST time to get into kanye west, 20yrs after this album came out + antisemitic accusations

i must stress that i'm a comedian they can only trust what they see/hear at the moment everything has whatever meaning they give it it's not even worth it to explain yourself plz use discernment or you will regret it selection year...so "climate change" it is weather system...you got that right i don't wanna be right about any of this stuff i do get pissed off, it's one of my flavors a flavor is not natural oxymorons are used on us all the time to prove how stupid the general public is women's rights...but they are never right carlin talked about the "civil war" it's mother nurture, actually i try to respond to as many comments as i can being hateful will not get a response from me other than maybe a thumbs up cos fuck you disorganized schizophrenia is an adequate reason why i work pretty hard man so forgive me for forgetting to respond

now that it's actually serious... i have to take care of it now since i have no other option it's selection year n all the timing is always on point, just sumin i have noticed since i was like 4 i promise you i've read revelations i know enough about the code we don't have any say in what the powers at be do Jesus is w/ us all the time, stop waiting for Him people are very clueless the Bible has too much truth for me to discount it like i said about my religion...NO FEAR MONGERING if you focus on the evil of this world satan wins over n over n over it's an energy thing damnit so obsessed w/ semantics that the bigger picture goes poof! how is saying that the Kingdom of heaven is w/in you hateful i'm sorry trail blazer i am too close i'm a lot happier when i listen to my music the world is made of sand

if i don't leave a response... don't trigger the bots, they are too sensitive you knew i had to say that i'm sure many CONTENT CREATORS can relate to this yt is not shielding me from criticism haha sarcasm randomly crops up, i typically hate that form of humor a lotta people that make art are trainwrecks i put it out in and out of spite of how it will be received earnest self-expression is crucial right now it's not gonna feel good but what does yawl like my practically nonexistent ass...insult holy shit we are 8min early mainly cos i was expecting heavy traffic i totally told myself that n that's exactly what happened haha *i finally got the flash drive just to prove that i am everything that i say... it's like the replacements never broke up i will get everything myself damnit

taking a chance on this part of the interstate i actually left the house on time i gotta do things earlier the nicotine gum didn't do what i wanted it to i gotta take periodic breaks from doin drugs haha tired of the lethargy two pots a coffee later n nothing is done making excuses to mistreat my body in hopes of accomplishing things i don't drink multiple cups of tea i'm forcing myself to drink tea obsession is possession resisting sumin will make it persist more, so don't focus on it n it will fade away on its' own it is very rare that we thank the state for anything what a trainwreck...exactly i agreed w/ this person i put all this pressure on myself n i think that's why i wasn't very comfortable w/ what i was doing up there it's okay that it was terrible cos that was the nature of the mic not much pressure on standup comics i did sooooo much comedy summer 2021 no opportunity in nashville either shitty open mics or major comedy venues too bad all the comics are fucking liberals political comedy is lame cos all it does is pigeon hole the Bible is a really good way to control both "jews" n "christians" bernie sanders believes in a living constitution, the powers at be call the Bible the living Word of God so that explains why it keeps changing (the difference is, they apply Biblical prophecy every day since they play God n hardly ever apply the constitution)

just in case you need further proof that the ones who run the world are reading the Bible so a buncha fish died recently... i go to an antiochian Orthodox Church most of the Divine Liturgy is sung bewilderment is typically the reaction of most normies at my church haha at least he didn't walk out in relation to this recent "news" story i get why the normies think that any support for palestine is an indication that these prophecies are being fulfilled in relation to God's love for israel yawl remember that story about the frogs weather manipulation courtesy of the military i do believe that you have to be on the schizo spectrum to understand the Bible martin luther had a point about having a personal relationship w/ God the media creates a lotta unhealthy fear (that's the whole point of it) the media is way more powerful here than anywhere else in the world having freedom isn't necessarily a good thing (esp when people are stupid and/or lack self-discipline) freedom is way more about your mind make mcds great again, just kidding

Psalm 104 vindicates bob marley's cannabis habit (he saw it as a sacrament, as did his rastafarian religion) *i couldn't locate any information on him quitting weed he became an Orthodox Christian later in his life n they killed him for it i reckon he was very oppositional towards the govt so he saw smoking ganja as a way to liberate himself (that's literally how it's supposed to be used tho) this particular Psalm is all about how God has a purpose for everything on this earth various versions of the same thing, hopefully they don't stretch it too much (not a protestant Bible) green plant for the service of man, i dunno how else to interpret that ignant people that dunno how to not abuse the things that God has given to them will call anything potentially addictive a sin *vodka is sometimes made from barley but it comes from various grains, scotch is made from barley it's very easy to abuse anything plenty will swear by sumin n then plenty will swear against that sumin i highly doubt that i'm pissing off God but it's good that i don't want to (healthy fear) most "christians" (lower case for a reason) are total candyasses that can't accept that their interpretation of the Scripture might be false

these little billboards have been very clever as of late that's true for multiple reasons good comedy involves a visual of some sort just imagine a bunny w/ a stethascope would bunnies shill for big pharma in my mind bunnies are innocent n not consumed with greed like those of us at that are at the top of the food chain you're welcome

only gay cops give me tickets i love stupid bumper stickers like that cos they're actually funny back when i was a liberal, the back of my car made it all too obvious this one morning my dad ripped all these bumper stickers off at like 6am i'm glad i grew up n got over my black sheep persona i'm pretty certain that my brother hates my guts cos i always told our parents off whereas he waited til he was nearly 50 to do that my brother always tried to plz them n i did the exact opposite most live according to the rules of society perhaps they've never really thought about their own personal standards nobody ever taught them that they don't have to go along due to schizotypal personality disorder i've never really gone along w/ what other people told me i was supposed to do i own all my decisions point the finger at ______ so's to never have to take personal responsibility i'm not moving any farther than i was several years ago (they'd say if they had self-awareness) i doubt i'll ever not be brutally honest my country is very very stupid i went to college cos my mom is a feminist i majored in sumin totally useless: sociology which is essentially a leftist view of society liberal arts kinda says it all i'm hoping to go see my high school do a production of grease good that this kinda shit still exists even tho everything feels like it's over *apparently it was sold out cos you had to buy tickets online so...

i gain subs only to lose em w/in a day bye narcissist. bye sheep if they were here, i'd give em a mint on their way out they don't deserve a weed cookie my whole plan was foiled! i look forward to my sub count going back down my personality cannot be manipulated our split mind will not allow hypnosis! bye patriot! am i a bitch (a little bit) you serve _____ not the citizens of this country you thought you were doin the right thing...karl marx had good intentions, too technology n the education system has never been this bad back when i wasn't told to hate myself for my pasty white skin public school was still shit society signed up for their demise when they got that smartphone addiction just takes you right back to where you were wanting to escape this world is natural, you're not a bad person the world is a horrible place run by the devil so... many work for satan w/out even applying for that job aleister admitted that he wanted to be the devil's chief of staff what if politicians came right out n said that shit real men smoke cigarettes that's probably a bill collector right there i'm willing to listen to people way deeper n smarter than me at least i try to read, damnit way easier to get thru a book that's about religion, psychology or conspiracies these local news anchors are the worst actors i've ever seen just accept heavy traffic, amy since it's election year n all... the roads are gonna stay shitty that's the man in my head yelling at me we have an incredible relationship we used to be frenemies but now it's way better

paul westerberg is my shit the five oh are even more ominous than ever adequately grunge many musicians make music that is strikingly similar i guess i'm not that confident w/ how i present myself insults help me grow as a person you don't need to impress me they don't actually value you but that one thing that they really like that reminds them of themselves so i did this podcast last night... if conspiracy people wanna be told what to think then we really are fucked of course people will be mislead w/ this attitude it is never my intention to pigeon hole how to be neuro plastic w/ ag i backed off talking about technology so much cos people are so broken in this fallen world there's plenty of shame w/ porn addiction but not w/ social media this is why the west is not the best first: world could it be that maybe people wanna escape the world becuz it's terrible can you really blame these people for choosing a substance if you can admit that you're fucked up you will be a lot better off no i don't support the military most seem to have a slave mindset i might as well burn in Hell w/ ronald reagan all cos i caved in w/ this damn seatbelt addiction seems to be a natural response to childhood trauma everyone is in a trance the water supply is altering people's hormones even w/out childhood trauma people are exhibiting anti-social and narcissistic tendencies you're already ignoring the person in front of you you don't really care you just want yer life to be easy i must digress since i'm too much of a cunt plz call me a cunt, i can't wait one side: cunt, another side: protective mother hen i wonder when the word gematria will be banned, damnit i shouldn't a said anything i'm getting better at understanding it, thanks aleister zachary k hubbard, gematria effect news i pick up on it but that doesn't mean that i'm any good at it i notice repetitive phrases quite a bit BLAME IMMIGRATION, obviously kidding damnit imma miss my 15min mark oh well in a way these mfs can live forever thru this code if they can control the language then they can control world events jim morrison was just being used the dumb assery of the people is ever so predictable the news media had never been more powerful than when dt was prez a win win for every sack a shit in america pc anything ain't funny all the religions have been infiltrated no fear porn in the Orthodox Church, that's why i go even in the pamphlet about Orthodoxy it stated that the fear tactic is the most effective which is why religions use it so much we focus on God's love as well as worship i underestimated the power of being surrounded by God's people my priest is dying cos he has cancer the medical profession is all about $ n that's pretty much it how many people will flex america's obsession w/ making money morality cannot coexist w/ a love of $ many people love to soak up a bullshit narrative i do not bemoan my sadness, i wanna experience it to the fullest the less they accept the bad the less they can accept the good none of these people understand what the devil does they are pussies n pussies they will remain

never do anything you don't wanna do w/out getting high first it's more of a survival skill drugs are a tool for the seldom few i don't wonder who i am w/out cannabis i have lived too long n am too old

that clucking noise ain't for everyone it ain't my problem that you don't get me they won't let themselves forget you're pretty fuckin sick they're sadists cos they're actually masochists they can't let it go cos they refuse to analyze themselves i'm definitely on an ecstasy roll (not drugs) i have earned all this confidence damnit this beautiful crown that has cat harr all over it living alone/dying alone clang is a schizo thang natural rhyming n timing is sumin we know all too well correlations are very very interesting we don't have room on this channel for boring sacks a shit it's not just about pride but innocence i'd rather give em the benefit of the doubt i couldn't fault my mother for this what is choice when "reality" is magic

i am fully aware that most people these days are total candyasses (to say the least) i just don't wanna be a piece a shit is all i just don't wanna make anyone feel bad cos i've felt bad about things that people have said to me i guess it was my fault tho for taking it so seriously personal problems seem to become universal problems i love this weird ass voice i'm doin right now what's fun about self-evaluation dealings for feelings, addictions for afflictions i don't wanna make excuses for abuses every tool will be misused by a fool hopefully you get sumin outta this... if you feel like shit maybe analyze it

i don't wanna be annoying, sorry if i am easier to see these traits in other people than to see them in yourself if you even have that realization will you do anything about it it is futile to bitch since it only brings it out more this is all part of my repoire well i know what to do next time i will never be comfortable i can always pretend to be someone else for a min i wonder what it's like to live in someone else's house i'm not really pissed off but i am annoyed these bumps in the road affect my mediocre filmmaking multiple reasons for different things this one time when i was driving on broadway... i will remember that forever but he forgot it immediately this is a fine example of human behavior on a daily basis

i just did sumin weird...a livestream i made a lotta awkward facial expressions since i was so uncomfortable i really suck at talking in a group i hate group chats anyway i've gotten way better at not bulldozing the conversation i do this channel cos i'm quiet everywhere else i used to bombard my frenz w/ all my self-analysis i doubt they woulda continued to be my friend if they really had a problem w/ it tho they get to keep their clitoris tho

over 3400 to fix this vehicle of mine since i'm so low maintenance... you can't tell from the front or from the left side if it gets you where you need to go who cares how it looks this paul westerberg cd was only $5 i'm so excited about st. vincent's new album which is coming out in late april dave grohl is a damn good drummer i'm gonna talk about things i care about n one of those things is music the vibe we're experiencing as of late seems to be nostalgia you can use technology but it is highly unlikely that you won't abuse it people have lost faith in themselves fasting is way easier than dieting just don't eat, that's it w/in a week this girl gave up, it just made me sad while i commend the honesty it's upsetting that people give up on themselves so easily in spite of all the actual incentives... instead of the govt paying you to not work n just get high this world will never be good, we can't pretend that people will do anything about it the people up top have never done that shit so... which politician/generation/race/gender screwed it all up it's hard not to get depressed looking at how lazy most people are

since i am questionably trance! this is fucking hilarious women's restroom: men stay out! they are fighting back in columbia, tn this same sentiment was not expressed on the door of the men's restroom i am very androgynous nurture way more than nature i can complicate but also simplify men gave women that supposed "right" abortion benefits men way more than women since they can just freely fuck us w/out any kinda responsibility they are never gonna stop obsessing about identity about to do a podcast w/ my friend todd everybody's trying to make you feel stupid...exactly paul exactly yawl know my feelings on these art forms that have usurped the internet a lotta positive n very useful information is being put out there but what are we doing about it other than freaking out (for the most part) those that run this place don't give a fuck about those that live here the whole point is to exploit us til we kill ourselves i can't be angry about what i can't control (right now) most will unconsciously choose to be docile it's one thing to be conscious it's sumin else entirely to act accordingly

i never went to electronic express 2 more days of this strike the one perk of rumble is that it's the fastest uploading process there's no art over there so it's nowhere near as large a platform generally speaking conservatives don't have taste the R doesn't do anything creative to promote what they believe in degeneracy has its' appeal cos it ain't boring my parents are soooooo vanilla n dutifully watch the news the whole reason why i was forced to go to college they wasted 20 grand, first on college then on rehab having children puts you more in the world AND you're subjecting innocent children to this shithole gleefully celibate but if somebody knocked me up... it doesn't seem as if many actually value the blessing of children join the amish community. now i said this joke to my bishop n he didn't get mad protestants don't have a reliable religion so i dunno why they would get offended anyway i'm glad i didn't say this joke to my priest just imagine a less awkward set all about eating ass comedy ain't what it used to be nothing seems to matter to a lotta people they don't practice or preach, they just bitch i try to live up to the things i talk about so frequently

craZart...doesn't that just make sense those that make this much art are most definitely nuts one helluva cope right there so i was watching my recent comedy performance... you can't win em all being a woman, holding a microphone feels very unsettling you gotta know i'm doin it for the right reason since i have so many misgivings about it YOU special ones (schizo weirdos) watch me but the mainstream don't want shit to do w/ me mr. theron...check out his channel adam is one of the few people i can call at 3:30 in the morning what can we really do about this besides what you're seeing me do right here flexing is not humble so many of em are total zombies now it really is your responsibility we can blame _____ but that doesn't seem to get us anywhere don't worry i won't go on twitter i want the purple to stand out since i'm talking about Jesus who is royalty you have the power to better your life they mock you cos they don't have self-awareness they never questioned that grain a day in their life so... it's not what's wrong, it's what right but you will never understand so bye

i hope that people will understand why i do this the way that i do it there will always be people that we will never be able to reach many many artists use insta!spam women have no biz getting involved in politics so i must make political art instead they've been trained like monkeys uniforms mean sumin to earth people but not to God all these rankings are of society not the Lord why i'm so uncomfortable living in this dumb fuck of a nation america is the best example of gaslighting i don't wanna be associated w/ a people that lack self-control or a govt that starts wars unnecessarily no hope in people, places n thangz (worldly shit) i am never talking about the amish, good they ain't watchin i see more n more people getting rid of their devices n social media i've never had fomo so i don't struggle w/ worrying about social status caring for the world n wanting what's best for society means loving yourself first n foremost since that inspires people Jesus is the best husband the fomo is the worst aspect of this culture n every culture wanting to be included in the gossip started w/ the tv/newspaper/radio it's all just another version of the same shitty thing designed to manipulate society into behaving a certain way that helps the elite