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I Don’t understand life and I will be never tired to say it but then sometime you experience some extraordinary events and you restart questioning all of this madness, I noticed that everyone journey is different so that we all have apparently an unique journey so seems that what is life for me isn’t for an other and that’s when actually problems arise cause if we aren’t awakened enough we start to believe that our Journey is the real one and everyone else should stick with that, obviously I could be wrong and they are right who the hell knows. I was in a deep meditation the other evening needed to unplug from this world for a bit when at some point music begun to play inside my head or I tuned on the right energy frequency and a beautiful music was the only sound in my room and only when I come back to our dimension that all went silent……soo I don’t know who is playing with our existences but I wish that they would give me some more puzzle pieces, with all that is going on in my life how I could go back to care about football or the silly mundane society distractions, obviously I want to know more about this mystery but why I won’t get more info about my purpose here on Earth I don’t understand but I believe is the same for many.

Chemtrails: What are they spraying? Chemtrails: What are they spraying? - I’m not a conspiracy theorist, not at all. All I have to say is, it’s time that I write about a subject that was brought to my attention eight years ago. When the subject of chemtrails came up, I just shrugged it off and let it go. I did not think much about it. I, of course, did from time to time see these long trails coming out of aircraft that were at a great height. They were at an altitude that was greater than any commercial aircraft I had seen flying over. Still, at the time it did not matter to me. Today it’s a different story. Something is taking place and I do not believe it’s a good thing. To start I need to go back a bit. Remember when, as children, we saw the first jet aircraft going over? It was unbelievable to say the least. It was a great sight for a child. Then the sonic boom would come from the aircraft breaking the sound barrier. I can still remember the trails of white smoke coming out, or that was what I thought it was. As it turned out, it was water vapor. These vapor trails are called contrails, that being condensation from the aircraft. Those trails lasted for but seconds as the aircraft flew over. Those trails were about a 1,000 feet long or so. My point: they did not last that long at all. …. https://www.yourdailyjournal.com/opinion/columns/79582/chemtrails-what-are-they-spraying @chemtrailsworldwide

By someone that might have discovered something huge Today, a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration – that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively. There’s no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we’re the imagination of ourselves.

Chemtrails: What are they spraying? - I’m not a conspiracy theorist, not at all. All I have to say is, it’s time that I write about a subject that was brought to my attention eight years ago. When the subject of chemtrails came up, I just shrugged it off and let it go. I did not think much about it. I, of course, did from time to time see these long trails coming out of aircraft that were at a great height. They were at an altitude that was greater than any commercial aircraft I had seen flying over. Still, at the time it did not matter to me. Today it’s a different story. Something is taking place and I do not believe it’s a good thing. To start I need to go back a bit. Remember when, as children, we saw the first jet aircraft going over? It was unbelievable to say the least. It was a great sight for a child. Then the sonic boom would come from the aircraft breaking the sound barrier. I can still remember the trails of white smoke coming out, or that was what I thought it was. As it turned out, it was water vapor. These vapor trails are called contrails, that being condensation from the aircraft. Those trails lasted for but seconds as the aircraft flew over. Those trails were about a 1,000 feet long or so. My point: they did not last that long at all. …. https://www.yourdailyjournal.com/opinion/columns/79582/chemtrails-what-are-they-spraying @chemtrailsworldwide

Venezuela, a man working in a cafe’, barista and Chef, over the years he will make two kids that will take different paths, one working in a supermarket and the other in a factory and stationery shop, the two kids will leave Italy eventually and like if there was a bigger purpose in their lives or that life is already written they ended up becoming like their father, one a barista, the other a Chef, we can call it “coincidence” or “Synchronicity” I don’t know but I feel we are meant to create something together like to continue our father legacy, I feel we were born all with different skills that needs to be used for the betterment of people lives.

By Alessandro Carosi We were born with certain personalities that evolved depending on the circumstances that life throwing at us, we can become more aggressive, shy, develop psychological issues, growing up most of us wish to change some aspects of our character we dislike and cursing life for what it did to us, I’m not different then the majority of the world population, life didn’t treat me fairly but it could have been worst, there is something about me I never liked but initially I wasn’t fully conscious then I kept postpone it and now I have to face it, that’s what piss me off, I didn’t chose my weakness and I’m forced to change it too cause life loves to throw at us challenges that will highlight that particular issue at first gently then if we don’t understand punching in the face, change is hard that’s why everyone gives life advice and ready to blame others for their weakness because truth is that to change ourselves is really difficult, stressful, depressive, exhaustive, when we start to think about what we could have been, or with who we could have been if only we would embrace the change earlier in life but everyone has their times, in the last 2 weeks I was in Malta to visit someone of my family that lives there, I thought it would be a happy time playing, laughing, eating and travelling but have been the opposite, I cried, I cried a lot wishing, praying to see a change in what was going on, a change in the people I love but I realised that if so hard for me to change it is for everyone, for someone even harder. I come back to Edinburgh with so much anger toward life like I didn’t have for so long, I want to help my family but I can’t even help myself and this forced me to reflect of many aspects of my life, at what is happening right now and what I want to be in the future, it stress me so much to think about all of this, what I have to become if the end result is death, it seems so stupid to me, silly, what I have to accomplish in life if the reward will be death ? I don’t know so I will do my best to be happy and fully enjoy the present even if life seems unfair, I have to be aware of my emotions and thoughts, aware to consecrate the NOW, that’s what I want to accomplish at the moment, the day I come back to Edinburgh from Malta I had an appointment at the Thai Buddhist temple where a famous Thai Monk was teaching a meditation method called Vipassana, unfortunately I arrived late but I had time to be blessed by him and left with some important teachings, kneeled in front of him with my knees falling apart and a pain that was becoming unbearable I tried to focus of what he had to say and he was right, we must to control our thoughts and emotions every time if we want to be able to be in the only real moment we have, the present moment, if we don’t we will fail in the most important achievement in life, the true happiness that comes from within and that can be attained only if we are always focused in the present moment.

Last week heading to the Korean festival in Trafalgar square happened to find out that this year the festival was hosted in Hammersmith,but instead there was the London pride,it was late so i decided to stay and enjoy the parade,meanwhile seeing all those proud women and men i began to think how things changed in the last 40 years,fortunately in better. I come from Italy where life for gays,lesbians and transsexuals still not easy but improving compare to the past,i remember when i was a kid,we didn’t even know what gay or lesbian was,nobody would ever talk about it and when i started to hear about it was not in a good way,coming from a Catholic country didn’t really help to see homosexuality in the right way. My father died when i was only 10 years old and i can’t really remember which was his position about religion but my mum was a conservative and catholic woman,would go to the church every sunday and pray every day,my grandmother that lived with us was even more conservative and religious and would go to the church every day,living in Italy where Catholic was a compulsory subject at school,churches every where,and forced by my family to join the church every sunday i became practising,I would go to the church,i would pray,celebrate Christmas,Easter and all the others Catholic celebrations. When i started to know about homosexuality i reacted in the normal way that a brainwashed Italian would react,having fun,teasing,offending whoever guy that would look or behave a bit girlish, i would not think if it was right or wrong cause nobody never showed me any other reality then the one where i grew up,i have to be honest,religion helped me a lot when i was young,when my father died it was so traumatic that my mental health paid the consequence,depression,anxiety,difficulty to socialize,loneliness,i have to say thanks to religion that gave me support and hope in that hard time,it helped me to explain the chaos i was going trough,an explanation that maybe isn’t true but was good enough to re-balance my emotions and my life and at finally start a sort of normal life,but something was going to happen and it would trigger a chain reaction that would completely change the way i view the Catholic religion,most of religions,and homosexuality. I was 18 years old and i was going to have my first trip outside Italy destination Madrid,Spain,during New Year Eve,at the time i didn’t have many friends and the few friends i had could not afford to travel so i went alone,that then became my way to travel until now,i find that travelling alone is the best way to experience the place you visit,the locals and gives you the freedom to choose how to move around and what to do,that trip started in the worst way,i finished my cash and when i tried to withdraw money with my credit card i was unable to get the cash,there was problems with the card and in the typical Italian way even if the bank told me that i could use it overseas it then turns out that i couldn’t,i had no money and the fastest way to get it would take 2 days with the company Western Union,i have to say thanks to a guy working in the hotel where i stayed that secretly would pass me food from the Hotel restaurant,after 2 days the money arrived and i could begin to enjoy my holiday. One night i decided to go party in the most famous club in Madrid called ”The Kapital” a beautiful ex theatre on 6 floors,i was having a lot of fun and drunk a lot,at some point during the night i met this beautiful girl,we started dancing together and after a while we started kissing,we decided to move to her place. We where outside her house but before let me in she told me she needed tell me something,i thought she would ask me if i had condoms but what she said shocked me,she asked me if wasn’t a problem for me to have sex with a transsexual,of course was a problem and babbling something i said that i couldn’t do it,i left and went back to the hotel,the rest of my time in Madrid was great and didn’t really think much about that night,i went back to Italy and only after few weeks i started to think about what happened,the strange thing was that instead to feel disgusted at the thought i was actually excited,it would actually make me horny thinking about me having sex with a Transsexual,that was scary and couldn’t explain it,how i could get excited thinking about a man,even if looking like a girl it was still being a man,i was becoming gay,bisexual,what was happening to me? I decided to stop thinking about that transsexual and eventually i would forget it,that’s what i thought but wasn’t like this. My mum used to own a stationery-newsagent shop and at the time when Internet didn’t exist the only way to watch porn was buying porn videotapes or porn magazine in sexy shops or newsagents,i used to steal it and watch it at home when mum working and then put it back in the shop without that my mum could see it,in those porn magazines there was everything,boys,girls,and transsexuals,i couldn’t resist and watching those magazines with transsexuals would get me horny,but with this strange feelings thoughts began to come in my mind,thoughts about God,Catholic religion and how come if being gay or lesbian was wrong according to God and the Bible,i would get excited about men dressing as a women? How it was possible that God would make you born as a man liking other men or born like a woman liking other women and then punishing you? It didn’t make any sense, those thoughts brought many more that made me began questioning a lot of other things about what Catholic church would teach,one year later the answer arrived when i realised that wasn’t God to say that,it was human beings to say that,it was human beings to create religions and making them in the way they feel,a God that will punish you and send you to the hell for your sins,send you to the hell for the rest of your life,who if not human beings who made up something like this,my relationship with the Catholic religion was over,it helped me a lot when i needed and i will be forever grateful for that but i couldn’t be agree with it teaching anymore. I never spoke to anyone in Italy about this thoughts i had cause i was afraid to be judged and left alone,at the end of the day most of the people i knew were brainwashed and not easy to understand something like this,i keep it for myself until one day i told it to a girl i knew,after that i never heard about her anymore,i don’t know if the reason is what i shared with her but i’m quite sure it is. Italy is changing so much,now a days new generations are becoming less and less religious,Catholic church had to start to get their Priest from other countries and this detachment from the church is opening Italians mind,immigration in Italy from other countries and Italians moving to work overseas cause the recession is teaching a lot,after i left my hometown in 2006 and went back 8 years later i was really surprised to find out we have a gay bar in town,that’s amazing,there is a lot of work to do but the seeds have been planted ans it will grow bigger and bigger. When i lived in New Zealand happened to be in relationship with a Transsexual from Thailand,i didn’t plan it,believe it or not when i met her i was sure she was a girl,the story between us have been short but taught me something really important,i learned to hate labels,we tend to label them,we call them transsexuals,gays,lesbians,bisexuals,i believe that we are all male and female just in different percentage,we are human beings,love is the same in whatever way you show it,when walking on the street i don’t see anymore Vegetarians,Vegans,Catholics,Buddhists,Muslims,Gays,Lesbians,Transsexuals,i seeing only human beings looking for someone to love and being loved.

This is another story of fortunetellers but this time not mine, but from a friend. We were in Bruntsfield having a coffee at one of my favourite cafes, Artisan Roast, we were chatting about life in Scotland and our old relationships that actually in the evening developed in a small synchronicity, anyway we ended up talking about peculiar people with extraordinary gifts, I told about my grandmother and how without have been to school and unable to read and write she was capable just touching your body to know or heal some minor injuries, she was quite popular also for what nowadays is called Chakras healing, to reach the fortunetellers topic wasn’t so complicate and I recounted about my experience with them especially with the lady from Milton Keynes, She met a Chinese Chiromancer in Hong Kong that predicted she would have two kids when at the time prevailed the law of just one and that she would divorce, twenty years later she did have two kids and last year sadly she divorced, it reminded me of when at Tiziano Terzani in Hong Kong a fortuneteller foreseen for him death if in twenty years time, in 1983 he would fly, he believed her and in that year he never flown then one day he was supposed to go to Cambodia but couldn’t make it on time his company sent an other journalist instead of him and the helicopter he was flying precipitated, this event was the beginning of a change within himself that brought him to quit journalism and searching for the meaning of life. In those years in search of extraordinary people, events and the meaning and purpose of life took me to a path I would never think to walk through and there is no turn back, I feel like capable to see things that majority of people can’t and is frustrating at times to not be able to wake the rest of the world up, I would like to help them, make them understand that there is much more of what our eyes can meet, I want to shake them up to show that life isn’t, waking up, going to work, going to sleep and repeat in a permanent fear of death when should be life what they should be concern about, maybe we are heading there, I see more and more people awakening from the illusion of life. Earlier I said I would write about the synchronicity, this is what is about, at the cafe’ my friend asked me if I would go back with my ex, I said no cause we are different people now and what we might have liked to each other at the beginning is gone, we acting different parts now and we must to move on, I miss my ex but life moves forward not backward, in the evening I joined a Japanese class where I find out that an Earthquake hit Niigata prefecture, her family lives there so I got in touch to know if everything was ok, fortunately it was, at night a friend stayed over at my flat and we watched a new Japanese TV series, the story is about a taxi driver capable to take his clients back to the past and make changes to their lives, in the first episode the main character was……. Kaori Chan, the name of my ex, sometime I know the reason of those synchronicities but like in this case I have no clue, maybe I will discover it in the future. I wish I could be a fortuneteller myself to find out what awaiting me in life.

I made a choice few weeks ago after thinking about it for long time,I’m gonna go to Thailand for two months and then move to Scotland for a while then if everything goes as planned i will move to Thailand with my brother and with a Thai friend open a coffee shop,pizzeria,we have been talking about this project for a while so i will try my best to make it happen,all of this is a big change for me especially moving to Scotland,i came to London for a reason but after 5 years i didn’t achieve what i came for but i had gained something else instead…….wisdom,i corrected and improved part of my personality that needed to be changed and i’m really happy about that,have been hard,painful,sad,frustrating but at finally i made the change within myself i needed to make,now that i attained something different then what i actually wanted i have this urge to leave,to move,isn’t easy cause i think that what i’m looking for i can easily find it in London but this is my mind to talk,mind makes mistakes,i feel that i can attain what i want even in Scotland,everywhere as long i carry within me inner peace but my mind won’t shut up,i had let my mind taking charge of my life for long time but this time i want to listen my soul,it’s scary cause i’m going to leave all my securities here in London for new adventures i have no idea where will lead me,as i said my mind sees all the worst scenarios but my soul feels like is gonna be a great adventure that will lead me to achieve my dreams,sometime i think why i have to achieve those dreams? why i have those dreams? if at the end i’m gonna die which is the purpose of achieving dreams with the consequent happiness\pain,maybe is right Anita Moorjani that in her Near Death Experience said when back from death that she understood we have a sort of obligation to evolve spiritually,if coming to life we wouldn’t have those urges,instincts,we wouldn’t chase any goals with the consequent challenges so we wouldn’t make any mistakes and we wouldn’t learn anything,so it is like we have an obligation to evolve spiritually. Closer i get to the day i leave bigger the fear of the unknown becomes,i’m trying to control my emotions and don’t let them control me but isn’t easy at the moment,i want to believe that all what we go trough is for a bigger purpose,a good purpose,i like to believe we are all connected,i like to believe that the spiritual world try to reach us in a daily basis with synchronicities,numbers,sentences and from all the messages i got especially trough synchronicities and numbers makes me feel i’m on the right life path at the moment,few months ago for fun i registered to an online tarot reading,after that i have been receiving every day in my email the relative explanation of the tarot card that have been chose for me,so many times now when looking for a guide,an answer it would pop up a card that would be like an answer and guide me trough my worries,sometime so accurate that didn’t leave me any doubts that was for me,same with numbers,every time now i see a number that drawn my attention when reading the relative explanation it feel really like is for me,all the messages have been almost the same,i’m in the right life path and i should go ahead with what planned. Few weeks ago going to my GP to check for the results of a MRI i done last month after leaving the clinic i stopped to a coffee shop for a coffee,inside there was a good friend of mine that does tarot readings and was studying about a new tarot’s reading method,i knew wasn’t a coincidence and joking i asked her if she would do a reading for me there and she said yes,that was great cause i was planning to see a tarot reader and having it from this friend that i trust was even better then i thought,she took the cards made me chose randomly some then explained the meanings of the cards i chose. Among the cards i chose there was a symbol that drawn my attention,the Hermit,months ago i requested a free online tarot reading from a woman that daily email me a new tarot card and relative explanation,few weeks earlier before meet my friend at the coffee shop i have been emailed not one but 3 cards that i felt a kind of answer to what i was trying to figure out with some life choices i made,i felt strongly they were been sent to me purposely to tell me what to do next with my life,i felt everything connected,the online lady,my friend at the coffee shop.the card with the Hermit,my friend pointing this card more then the others and then when done with the reading heading back home checking my emails i noticed a new email from that website,i checked it and……….there wasn’t a new card for that day but there was a deeper explanation of a previous card……..The Hermit,obviously that confirmed that’s what i need to go trough if i want to start to change my life,this is the email with the card:

July 19, 2017 Last week I went for a walk on the River Thames in east London, the scenery was beautiful, lots of nature with paths crossing it all flanked by the river and canals, I decided to take one of the canals and follow it in the hope that it would take me to the other side and then resume the walk on the river until I got out of London. The canal was very long and never seemed to get to the other side, I walked for hours and hours and finally got to the point where I could cross the canal and get back on the river, in the meantime it was 6pm and the sky was beginning to form beautiful colours, in front of me was a huge plain with a few spots where some local people had built gardens, I started to walk towards the river following the canal, next to the path there were what was left of the houses of the past, only the walls remained and inside plants and trees were growing, the view was beautiful and the fact of being alone in this immense clearing of green and with the sunset approaching gave everything a magical and surreal touch. The whole thing was so magical that at a certain point something started to happen, I started to have this image of myself in New Zealand, in Auckland, I was walking on a street that is a parallel to Queen Street, the fact is that the feeling I had was not that of a memory from the past, the image of me that I had was as if at that very moment I was there, it was as if I was in 2 places at the same time,I was in east London but at the same time I was in Auckland,the feeling was something so strong that I could see myself in Auckland as if I was watching a film but inside my head,I was aware that I was in London but the image of myself in New Zealand was immense, The sensation I felt was something I had never felt before, something indescribable but at the same time wonderful, what I was feeling was beautiful, I was aware that I was there in Auckland, I began to think if I was there at that precise moment, if it was a parallel reality or if it was an image from the future, slowly it all started to fade and the film I was seeing of myself in my mind started to become like a memory, the very strong energy I felt around me diminished until it disappeared, but it left me with a very pleasant feeling that stayed with me until I got home. What happened was a very interesting experience but since I arrived in London many interesting things have happened, I am beginning to think that there is a reason why I ended up in this city. I remember the first month that I arrived,all I did was complain about how stupid I had been to leave Auckland,one day when I was particularly sad about being in London I went for a walk along the river to relax, suddenly as if to make sure I could see her, a guy running in my direction had a shirt on that said ‘you are where you are meant to be at this time’ translated ‘you are where you are meant to be at this time in your life’ I’m sure I attracted this and my being in London was attracted to me in some way, London has something powerful on an energetic level, a very strong energy and sometimes it’s very difficult to deal with. The most important episode that happened to me was two months after I had been here. I had managed to find an incredible mental and physical balance, I was at peace in a way I had never been before, and I had maintained it for several months, On one of these nights one of the most important things in my life happened. I woke up in the middle of the night, there was only one person in my room, a very nice Spanish boy who was still asleep, The strange thing was that I looked at them as if it was nothing strange, as I touched the bed these blue lights appeared, at which point I took off the sheets and touching my tracksuit that I used as pyjamas these blue lights continued to appear, I touched the bed and the same thing, after a few minutes I decided to go back to sleep, I woke up in the morning aware that something wonderful and extraordinary had happened but I had no idea why or how, I decided to get dressed to go for a walk and as I took off my sweater the friction between the sweater and my body had the same effect as an electric shock, my conclusion was that during those months of calm I had recharged my body, as if I had recharged my internal battery. A year later I decided to go to see a psychic whose stories I had read on the internet with the intention of asking him questions and having him hypnotise me. Some interesting things happened there too, but the most important thing was that he pointed out that I probably had healing powers. He was not the first person to tell me this, but this time it made more sense than normal,he asked me if I had relatives with similar powers and of course the first person who came to mind was my grandmother Gentilina. She was well known in my village for being able to cure certain pains with just the touch of her hands, plus she was able to tell you what your problem was just by touching you, most of the time she guessed right. At the time, my grandmother came from a very poor family and from a very young age she had already started working in the countryside, she hadn’t studied and couldn’t read or write, so she certainly couldn’t know anything about medicine, plus she was known for being able to cure negativity, the method she used was very interesting, with a lamp like Aladdin’s where he put oil and lit the tip of the lamp with fire, he would pass it over your head, over your shoulders, he would say things I couldn’t understand and after a few minutes he would stop, she would put a finger inside the lamp and drop a drop of oil into a dish with water, if the oil did not expand it meant that your energy was clean, if the oil expanded it meant that your energy was negative, at which point she would repeat the ritual again until the oil did not expand any more. The strange thing was that oil theoretically can’t expand in water but in some cases it did,at the time I never considered what grandma did but now I know there was something strong inside her,recently I asked my mum if she knew when my grandmother started doing those things, my mum told me that my grandmother never wanted to tell anyone not even her children when she learned to do those things and how she found out she could do them, apparently the only one who knew was one of her sisters who is now dead. Last year during a deep meditation a voice said to me “in the morning” I had no idea what it meant, but the next morning at work a very dear friend of mine for some strange reason was reading the tarot cards to another friend of mine, at which point I asked her if she would read them to me when I finished work, the interesting thing was that what she told me was what kept appearing on the internet, In books and everywhere, my main card said “Faith”, and as if to make sure I was taking it seriously, when at one point my friend advised me to watch a video on the internet that would help me emotionally, the video happened to be one that I had been watching and listening to every day lately, I interpreted it as if my angels wanted me to understand that it was all arranged for me. Another day in a deep meditation a voice said “Slingshot” to me, I did some research and it turned out that in spirituality the meaning of Slingshot means that the universe or God is pulling you back not to make you suffer but to launch you like a slingshot into the best possible life, I don’t know, what I do know is that this is a very hard time that seems to never end, I’m doing my best to keep calm and focused and at the moment I’m feeling proud of myself because I’m managing to control my emotions, I feel I’m close to some kind of truth, close to discovering something but I can’t quite grasp it yet, this Saturday I’m going back to east London to the same place where I had that experience of being in 2 places at the same time, I don’t know if I’ll have the same feeling but I feel I have to come back. We live in a world of energy and London or maybe England has something special, it has a very strong energy, at least that is what I feel, it is said that in England and particularly in Glastonburuy there is the heart chakra which is the main one of the 7 chakras, and considering my transformation on an emotional level and especially in regards to loving myself and others, I am starting to be more and more convinced that I was destined to come here to learn, I believe that we attract to us what we need, if we are happy we attract good situations, if we are sad, nervous, dissatisfied, we attract situations that only bring us into a deep state of reflection that is made to make us understand where we need to change and that is why bad things happen to us because it is only when things go wrong that we stop and reflect.

July 19, 2017 Last week I went for a walk on the River Thames in east London, the scenery was beautiful, lots of nature with paths crossing it all flanked by the river and canals, I decided to take one of the canals and follow it in the hope that it would take me to the other side and then resume the walk on the river until I got out of London. The canal was very long and never seemed to get to the other side, I walked for hours and hours and finally got to the point where I could cross the canal and get back on the river, in the meantime it was 6pm and the sky was beginning to form beautiful colours, in front of me was a huge plain with a few spots where some local people had built gardens, I started to walk towards the river following the canal, next to the path there were what was left of the houses of the past, only the walls remained and inside plants and trees were growing, the view was beautiful and the fact of being alone in this immense clearing of green and with the sunset approaching gave everything a magical and surreal touch. The whole thing was so magical that at a certain point something started to happen, I started to have this image of myself in New Zealand, in Auckland, I was walking on a street that is a parallel to Queen Street, the fact is that the feeling I had was not that of a memory from the past, the image of me that I had was as if at that very moment I was there, it was as if I was in 2 places at the same time,I was in east London but at the same time I was in Auckland,the feeling was something so strong that I could see myself in Auckland as if I was watching a film but inside my head,I was aware that I was in London but the image of myself in New Zealand was immense, The sensation I felt was something I had never felt before, something indescribable but at the same time wonderful, what I was feeling was beautiful, I was aware that I was there in Auckland, I began to think if I was there at that precise moment, if it was a parallel reality or if it was an image from the future, slowly it all started to fade and the film I was seeing of myself in my mind started to become like a memory, the very strong energy I felt around me diminished until it disappeared, but it left me with a very pleasant feeling that stayed with me until I got home. What happened was a very interesting experience but since I arrived in London many interesting things have happened, I am beginning to think that there is a reason why I ended up in this city. I remember the first month that I arrived,all I did was complain about how stupid I had been to leave Auckland,one day when I was particularly sad about being in London I went for a walk along the river to relax, suddenly as if to make sure I could see her, a guy running in my direction had a shirt on that said ‘you are where you are meant to be at this time’ translated ‘you are where you are meant to be at this time in your life’ I’m sure I attracted this and my being in London was attracted to me in some way, London has something powerful on an energetic level, a very strong energy and sometimes it’s very difficult to deal with. The most important episode that happened to me was two months after I had been here. I had managed to find an incredible mental and physical balance, I was at peace in a way I had never been before, and I had maintained it for several months, On one of these nights one of the most important things in my life happened. I woke up in the middle of the night, there was only one person in my room, a very nice Spanish boy who was still asleep, The strange thing was that I looked at them as if it was nothing strange, as I touched the bed these blue lights appeared, at which point I took off the sheets and touching my tracksuit that I used as pyjamas these blue lights continued to appear, I touched the bed and the same thing, after a few minutes I decided to go back to sleep, I woke up in the morning aware that something wonderful and extraordinary had happened but I had no idea why or how, I decided to get dressed to go for a walk and as I took off my sweater the friction between the sweater and my body had the same effect as an electric shock, my conclusion was that during those months of calm I had recharged my body, as if I had recharged my internal battery. A year later I decided to go to see a psychic whose stories I had read on the internet with the intention of asking him questions and having him hypnotise me. Some interesting things happened there too, but the most important thing was that he pointed out that I probably had healing powers. He was not the first person to tell me this, but this time it made more sense than normal,he asked me if I had relatives with similar powers and of course the first person who came to mind was my grandmother Gentilina .She was well known in my village for being able to cure certain pains with just the touch of her hands, plus she was able to tell you what your problem was just by touching you, most of the time she guessed right. At the time, my grandmother came from a very poor family and from a very young age she had already started working in the countryside, she hadn’t studied and couldn’t read or write, so she certainly couldn’t know anything about medicine, plus she was known for being able to cure negativity, the method she used was very interesting, with a lamp like Aladdin’s where he put oil and lit the tip of the lamp with fire, he would pass it over your head, over your shoulders, he would say things I couldn’t understand and after a few minutes he would stop, she would put a finger inside the lamp and drop a drop of oil into a dish with water, if the oil did not expand it meant that your energy was clean, if the oil expanded it meant that your energy was negative, at which point she would repeat the ritual again until the oil did not expand any more. The strange thing was that oil theoretically can’t expand in water but in some cases it did,at the time I never considered what grandma did but now I know there was something strong inside her,recently I asked my mum if she knew when my grandmother started doing those things, my mum told me that my grandmother never wanted to tell anyone not even her children when she learned to do those things and how she found out she could do them, apparently the only one who knew was one of her sisters who is now dead. Last year during a deep meditation a voice said to me “in the morning” I had no idea what it meant, but the next morning at work a very dear friend of mine for some strange reason was reading the tarot cards to another friend of mine, at which point I asked her if she would read them to me when I finished work, the interesting thing was that what she told me was what kept appearing on the internet, In books and everywhere, my main card said “Faith”, and as if to make sure I was taking it seriously, when at one point my friend advised me to watch a video on the internet that would help me emotionally, the video happened to be one that I had been watching and listening to every day lately, I interpreted it as if my angels wanted me to understand that it was all arranged for me. Another day in a deep meditation a voice said “Slingshot” to me, I did some research and it turned out that in spirituality the meaning of Slingshot means that the universe or God is pulling you back not to make you suffer but to launch you like a slingshot into the best possible life, I don’t know, what I do know is that this is a very hard time that seems to never end, I’m doing my best to keep calm and focused and at the moment I’m feeling proud of myself because I’m managing to control my emotions, I feel I’m close to some kind of truth, close to discovering something but I can’t quite grasp it yet, this Saturday I’m going back to east London to the same place where I had that experience of being in 2 places at the same time, I don’t know if I’ll have the same feeling but I feel I have to come back. We live in a world of energy and London or maybe England has something special, it has a very strong energy, at least that is what I feel, it is said that in England and particularly in Glastonburuy there is the heart chakra which is the main one of the 7 chakras, and considering my transformation on an emotional level and especially in regards to loving myself and others, I am starting to be more and more convinced that I was destined to come here to learn, I believe that we attract to us what we need, if we are happy we attract good situations, if we are sad, nervous, dissatisfied, we attract situations that only bring us into a deep state of reflection that is made to make us understand where we need to change and that is why bad things happen to us because it is only when things go wrong that we stop and reflect.

My name is Alessandro Carosi but could have been Kevin, Sky, Marco, Akioshi, name is a name with little importance cause you haven’t chose it as you haven’t chose your nationality, education, hairstyle or religion….get over it you aren’t in control, you aren’t in control of anything, your breath, love, what you like, your personality, your desires, you are the result of circumstances out of your control, you believe ….YOU ARE, I AM but the reality is we are nothing then the result of circumstances created from who knows who, you are pride to be Italian, Irish, English, Japanese, Nigerian, are you proud to have a predesposition for Diabets, a cancer or a malformation ? Then why you are fuckin proud for something that was out of your control and as I said the result of circumstances, so stop bulshitting around pretending you are better then others and get to work to be the right circumstances for others.

I tried to avoid talking about politics and the world problems cause the main focus should be within nothing can be solved from the outside but this morning I couldn’t keep it inside and had to saying my opinion on video and written. There are a group of people very wealthy that are trying to set a sistem of rules to have a total control on the world population something that can be done with internet and the easy connections we have to each other from one part to an other part of the world, I believe that some of them are totally unconscious and want to statisfy their ego, others knows how the world of energy works and choose evil over good but they got togheter and placed many of their people in governments and now in control of countries, going on the street protesting is good but if we didn’t understand that the real change comes within we are going to just repeating history again cause after big demonstrations and fights and wars what changed was something at the beginning and then slowly everything repeated itself with different names and ideologies. They know that everything starts from within and that’s the reason we are in a permanent state of fear cause they need to keep you like this so that you manifest iwhat you don’t want, they are United knowing that we aren’t not and they are boosting this divisions with fake news, hate toward others labelled as terrorist or whatsoever as long that they can mantain our ego believes that we are separated from others and not that we are one but I feel and can see that there is a change and more and more people are fed up and begins to understand that the real change will come from within. I have hope and faith that a change is possible and the great reset they are trying to achieve will be the great reset of the Soul

Thanks Alan Forsyth to make me being part of your last Novel is a honour and it is even more special cause the book is wonderful and so many parts of Edinburgh that I miss, at the same time reminded me of when I was a young boy and could end up like the main carachter …. For me would be over but not for the people that stays here on Earth dealing with our daily Humans struggles. I wish to be able to use this Job I Love to bring as many smiles as possible Milk Tea Can’t As soon as you discover Fraser walking backward and barefoot on the Meadows, Edinburgh Castle splashed by Hogmanay fireworks, you will be hooked. You will be further compelled when you find out Edinburgh is a character in the novel, her worried eye on Fraser that ominous night. Allow yourself to be both warmed and appalled with the characters you will meet, all in some way dealing with core human concerns that resonate with us all. Taking place in such a charming location, this is a book that celebrates the spirit of the city and its people whilst exposing the underbelly that can destroy all of us. This is a book that will generate important conversations. https://milkteacant.com/

By Alessandro Carosi Everybody journey is different and what I need to learn from life is different from an other so comparing our lives to the one of strangers makes no sense, what make sense is to keep moving forward trying our best to become a better version than what we used to be. What is my life purpose ? I have been asking this question for almost 8 years now and got no answers except some glimpse that might be something else then what meet our eyes, strange experiences have been popping up any now and then that gave me some piece of puzzles to try to figure out what this is about but I must to be honest I have no clue, I begun to meditate 9 years ago in Auckland where once a bright light started to fill up the darkness and shocked about what was happening I opened my eyes and everything was over, after that day nothing happened while meditating till I come to London, here the most interesting things took place, from voices, visions to what I believe being spirits moving things around to show me their presences, an other wonderful moment was in Edinburgh where I lost completely the sense of my body and I could feel what I could just explain it like being one with everything but retaining my consciousness and individuality, it was amazing and lasted for what I felt being few minutes. Today I was off from work but not in a great mood and spent grand part of the day meditating but with not great results till in the afternoon, I went to do some shopping and then had a stroll around Brixton discovering some great cafes always in that amazing way that is to get lost in the off streets of the main roads, back home I was tired but relaxed for the nice walk and decided to meditate again, I sat on the bed in the lotus position and closed my eyes, I begun to breath in and out to find balance within and to rise my vibrations that I know is my only way to reach the ”Spirits” and get in touch, slowly flash of energy brighted for few seconds the darkness but it begun to be bigger and more intense, initially was in front of me and then light of energy started to flood toward me from above, it was wonderful, uplifting and felt serene, I wished it would never stop but it did after a minute or so, I can’t really tell what that meant for but I enjoyed it, maybe they were trying to communicate or recharging me, not sure. I done some researches and that’s what I found on the web “Meditation: Light from above and below Once you are settled and your mind is somewhat under control, imagine that there is a stream of bright white light descending and entering the top of your head, filling every part of your body with light and energy that you require. Allow that energy to accumulate in your navel, because this is our energy storage, in Oriental tradition this center is called “dan tien”…..https://magical-journey.com/meditation-light-from-above-and-below/ “Seeing White Light During Meditation Meditation Experiences It’s not all that unusual for meditators to have an experience of light during their practice session. The experience may be along the lines of “I felt I was dissolving into an intensely bright white light,” or “I could really ‘see’ swirling lights even though my eyes were closed,” or “My mind was perfectly calm and I became aware of the presence of energizing white (or another color) lights.”…..https://mindworks.org/blog/why-do-some-people-see-white-light-during-meditation/ “Seeing White Light During Meditation (What It Means) Have you been seeing white light during meditation? If so, this is completely normal. At least, seeing colors and images while meditating is. It’s going to mean something, it’s just finding out what it means to you that you need to explore. What does seeing white light during meditation mean? The color you see while meditating often relates to a chakra in your body. The white chakra relates to the crown chakra and is located at the top of your head”……https://selfdevelopmentjourney.com/seeing-white-light-during-meditation/

I was sleeping in my room at farm lane in Fulham 4-5 years ago I can’t remember exactly but isn’t important cause what I want to point out is the experience I had while sleeping, in this dream I was inside an Elevator that slowly going up gained speed faster and faster when I woke up and like I was lifted I plummet back on my bed, it wasn’t the first time to have some extraordinary event to take place in my life but as many other times I was left with just some pieces of the puzzle and not the bigger picture, I asked to my psychic friends and checked on internet about the spiritual meaning behind that and the unanimous answer was that I was transcending to a higher spiritual level, I want to share with you some of the info I found on internet so that could help someone else with a similar experience …… “An elevator that is slowly rising in your dreams indicates success, wealth, or fortune. You are about to experience fulfilment and happiness in your waking life. You are also in the period of harvesting the fruits of your hard work.” Elevator – Dream Meaning and Symbolism To dream of an elevator If you see an elevator in a dream, it means that someone will help you if you end up in trouble. There is a chance that the following period will be very hard for you, but you will successfully overcome it, thanks to the support from a person that means a lot to you. You have believed that they will run away from you as soon as problems emerge, but they will prove to you how wrong you were with this gesture……https://www.dreamglossary.com/e/elevator/ WHAT DOES THE ELEVATOR MEAN IN YOUR DREAM? Traditionally, elevators or lifts only move in two directions, which means you’re either in a good place right now, (the lift went up) or in a place where you’ve been better (the lift went down). If you had a scary experience of the lift falling or crashing in your dream, you may be in the middle of a crisis in your waking life. It can also suggest you feel out of place, or that all your efforts have been for nothing…..https://luciding.com/elevator-or-lift-dream/ 20 Signs You’re Experiencing A Spiritual Awakening What does it mean to be awake? What are the characteristics of the state of ‘spiritual wakefulness’ or ‘enlightenment’? Is there a way to tell if you are having one? Chances are- if you are reading this article, you are well on your way. Things or experiences might seem different, but is it just your perception? Is there a bigger change happening in the world around us? Spiritual awakening is not an overnight venture. It’s simply a term that helps define the beginning of your initiation on the spiritual path. When we undergo a spiritual awakening, we literally “wake up” to life. The spiritual awakening process is complex, multi-layered, and different for everyone. In reality, it cannot be fit into neat categories. Therefore, it is possible that you may experience none of these, one of these, or all of these:…..https://medium.com/astro-fieldguide/20-signs-youre-experiencing-a-spiritual-awakening-b5a5d7a9887a

I remember that period when just moved to New Zealand by myself and took some time to think about my feelings for my ex-girlfriend that in the meantime went to Canada,it was a tough time for me,mostly emotionally,i guess being on my own after many years in relationship and being on my own in a cloudy and raining city like Auckland wasn’t the best,i felt lonely,afraid,i didn’t have anyone except myself,it was hard,every day i felt deeply sad,grief,hopeless,i tried to fill up this emptiness with sex and alcohol that would help me as long i had it but would feel even worst the day after. One day my brother contacted me and told me he would come to live in New Zealand and would take Mum with him to live with us for few months,that few months became 6 at the end,i thought my life was getting worst and worst,i was desperate to the thought of my brother and my Mum coming to Auckland and live with me,but……..they saved my life,i realized it years later,their coming in my life filled up that emptiness and sadness without realizing it,and set off other events that slowly changed my life in better,now 8 years later i thank God for sending me my brother to New Zealand. My life was slightly better since they arrived but i was still feel sad and hopeless the most of the time,then………..i met someone and everything changed. Some people believe that Life like to surprise us making us meeting the best people in the most unexpected way,what i believe is that we meet the best people only when we feel at our best,when i met this girl i was having a great period,my sadness,anxiety,hopeless gave me a break and i was feeling calm and in peace,that’s when i met this amazing Chinese girl,she came into my life and changed me energetically,she recharged me,she is one of the best human being i ever met and she has a power, a power with her only presence to lift people feelings,she was and even if now she is with someone else she is my guardian angel. That night i had no plan to hook up girls,i was with a good friend met in Australia and we were drinking remembering the good time spend in Bundaberg,at midnight pubs started to close and we wanted keep drinking,the only bar open,free entry and cheap drinks was on K’rd,Family bar was the most popular gay bar in Auckland,who cares,drinks was cheap,the bar was full,the music great and a lot of guys staring at me and even if i like girls i can’t deny that the feeling to be liked so much was quite nice,we were dancing when i saw this girl,she was beautiful but cause the bar was a lesbian bar too i thought she might be lesbian so i dropped the idea to approach her,after a while i noticed she was looking at me so i thought that maybe she wasn’t,i made a move but when closed to her one of her friends came between us and asked me if i was gay,i told him i wasn’t so he said,my friend thinks you are hot,oh well that was a good start,i got closer to her and told her she was really beautiful,we were drunk and after few minutes we were already kissing,at the end of the night i asked her if i could go to her place but she told me i couldn’t cause she had to wake up early to go to work. Everything started that night,we became to see each other once a week where we would go party,drink and having sex,no feeling attachment or at least what we thought,something i noticed straight away was the fact that being around her was making me feel emotionally better,only being next to her or in the same room she was i would feel lighter,my sadness,hopelessness gone,like she had some sort of energy that would push it away and now i believe she has it. Slowly i began to love her personality,she was always happy,smiling all the time,always full of energy,i remember one time she left for a month,i missed her a lot but i couldn’t tell how much i liked her cause i was sure she wanted just to play around and i didn’t wanna ruin the great sex we had. One day at work i remember making a story in my mind where me and her were lying on bed at my house and telling something like we were special friends and her saying,Alex……..we are more then special friends,that thought made me feel better and in good mood even if i knew she would never say that. A saturday afternoon were i was really horny and she was at work not capable to control myself i contacted a prostitute,she was expensive but i was too horny,it was raining but i didn’t care,i got the bus got where she lived,had sex,paid and after feeling a completely idiot for so much money lost for 20 minutes of rubbish sex,i left the house sad,disappointed and upset about myself,how stupid i was,i was feeling miserable,i needed someone to be with,i didn’t wanna be alone,i knew she finished work at that time,i called her and met at my house,i had a couple of bottle of wine and we drunk it,we moved in my room and had sex,we were lying on my bed and without thinking about it i said we were special friends……….and when she replied,Alex……we are more then special friends my heart stopped,what just happened was exactly what i imagined at work a week earlier,i couldn’t explain how was possible maybe just a coincidence,i didn’t want to think about it too much i was too happy for what she said,maybe she had feeling for me too,i couldn’t be sure and afraid to tell her what i felt,but one night drugs did it for me,i was supposed to date a girl,she was waiting for me in a bar on K’rd,i was excited about meet her but when i arrived the unexpected happened,the girl i was supposed to date was chatting with a girl i had sex in the past and i had some issue,i was screwed,if i would show up she would tell the worst about me to her friend so i walked back home and send a msg saying i got sick and couldn’t make it,i was so upset so i decided to calm down smoking marijuana,normally it would knock me down and i would not even move a finger but that night it had a strange effect,it made me sad,depressed and started to think about the Chinese girl i felt in love,i decided i would meet her that night and tell her i was in love with her and we couldn’t see each other anymore cause i knew she didn’t care about me,i called her and asked to meet,it was 2am in the morning but she was awake and let me go to her place,i will never forget that night,we were in the kitchen,the lights was off and very dark,i told her what i felt and i didn’t want to see her anymore,i would never expect a similar reaction,she started to cry so much,she took my shirt holding me there to don’t let me go,she put her face on my chest crying and asking me to don’t leave,i never saw her like this,she always had this strong happy personality,she was there desperate at the thought she would lose me,i couldn’t image that,i thought she didn’t care,she wanted have just sex,funny was she thought the same about me,we spend 6 months just having sex worry to lose each other if we would tell our feelings,life is so strange. Unfortunately our story didn’t have a happy ending and as usual because of me,because my weak personality,my permanent indecision about what i want and don’t want,my stupidity,she loved me so much,she was the only one to know everything about me,absolutely everything,still she loved me,then i met this Korean girl and i screwed up everything even more,i left this Chinese girl for the Korean girl but after few months i realized i had nothing in common so i decided to go back to my ex,the Korean girl was broken heart,she left New Zealand cause she thought i would never love her,then i left the Chinese girl to go back with the Korean girl so i broke an other heart and at finally because Karma does exist i screwed up myself and i had to live New Zealand and moved to London,i screwed up everything i could,people around me,family,myself,i deserved it and those 4 years in London taught me a lot and at finally learned things about life that i should learn long time ago but not everyone are fast learning,someone takes longer,this is my case. In London i thought a lot about this wonderful Chinese girl i have been so lucky to meet and wanted to get back together but i realized that even if she would take me back she didn’t deserve someone like me. A year passed by and couldn’t find any girl to start a relationship,every now on i would think about her but never contacted,one day out of blue i received a msg on facebook from her telling me she couldn’t renew her New Zeland visa and she had to go back to China,the family had a plan to open a tea shop in London run by her and the sister that in the past studied in London,i couldn’t believe it,the universe was trying to give me a second chance? i thought so especially when she told me she was looking for a space in my area,she needed some help from me about business plans ideas for an interview with the British embassy in China,if the business plan was good enough they would grant her a business visa,i gave her some advice and agreed to keep in touch to know if she would get the visa,she never contacted me again and never replied to my msgs,i thought she just used me and was ok,i deserved it,i deserved even more then that. Months later when at finally i moved on with my life here again a msg from her,she was in London and wanted to see me,i didn’t know what to do,i should meet her or not,what i could tell her or how i should behave,they were useless thought and the only way to find out was to go to see her,we met in Chinatown,when i saw her was like time never passed by,i felt comfortable like when we were together and i could still feeling that good energy from her,we spend all day chatting about our lives,i missed her a lot and even i thought to ask her to get back together,i dropped the idea,i felt it not right,it was night late and she left,walking back home my mind was everywhere,what all of this meant,which was the reason for her to come to London? why between all the suburbs the one where i live? God gave me a second chance that i missed? i couldn’t find an answer,i decided i should stop thinking about it and when she would open her business if was meant to be it would be. I messaged her few times to know if she found the location but never got any reply but God wasn’t done with me or maybe the karma wasn’t ,a day talking on skipe with a good Japanese friend from New Zealand that knew her asked me if i went to see her shop in Cambridge,what?? Cambridge?? i told him i knew it would be in London but apparently at the last minute someone suggested her this good space opportunity in Cambridge bigger and cheaper then in London and she liked it,i had to go but it was a good idea? it was my second chance?i didn’t know,the only thing i knew was that i was just good to mess up with everything,so……fuck it,i decided i would not go,but like always after few months here again the doubts coming up in my mind,maybe she still love me,maybe not,if i don’t go to see her i will never know,thinking about all of this i had this idea to check if maybe she was in an online dating website i was using,i put Cambridge in the search engine and started to scroll down all the Asian girls in Cambridge,i spend maybe half n hour but nothing and when i almost gave up her profile came up,here we are,apparently she was still single,decided it was my opportunity,i would surprise her,the week after i went to ….. https://anextraordinaryandordinarylifeblog.wordpress.com/2017/12/19/karma-is-done-with-you-only-when-it-decide-is-donenot-earlier-not-later/

Yesterday I had a lovely synchronicity that helped me to release some stress and that I wanted to tell cause I felt draw to the need to talk and write it about, I was on the bus to take my Mum for a Doctor appointment I was quite worry about and reading stuff on internet I come across a comment to an article I wrote on Reddit about Spirits and Angels guides, the person wrote that didn’t believe that they help and guide us cause they got more important things to do and I replied that everything is possible even what it said but might be that due to each of us having different life lessons to learn about we might experience different things so someone got spirits guiding and helping other not. I felt to look at the clock at the beginning of the bus and on the clock 4:44 pm …… what is interesting about this number is that in spirituality means that Angels/Spirits are looking after and guiding us, what is more interesting and this is already interesting is that in Italy where I am in holiday now we use numbers from 1 to 24 for the digitals clocks, should have been 16:44 but I was compelled to look at the clock that strangely was in British time and said 4:44 pm, I saw it as a synchronicity and message from my Spirits/Angels guides to confirm me that they are around me helping and guiding and maybe to tell to that person on Reddit that they are there for Him/Her too. I like to believe that we have all different life lessons and some might have guides some might not based of what we have to learn so now I find really important to don’t try to impose our believes toward others cause that’s when problems begins, I feel that everything is possible and discuss about something is good but always in a civil and kind way. 444 Spiritual meaning By Sacred Scribes On http://sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.com/2011/09/angel-number-444.html?m=1 ANGEL NUMBER 444 Number 4 resonates with the vibrations of the Archangels, practicality and responsibility, productivity, illumination and initiation, building solid foundations, stability and ability, honesty and inner-wisdom, determination and endurance, hard work and progress. Number 4 also represents our passion and drive and encourages us to work harmoniously yet diligently to achieve our goals and aspirations. Number 4 is also the number that represents the four elements of Air, Fire, Water and Earth, and the four sacred directions, North, South, East and West. With three 4’s appearing, the influences and energies of the number 4 are magnified and enhanced. Angel Number 444 asks that you pay attention to your intuition and inner-wisdom as your connection with your angels and the angelic realm is very strong at this time. You are encouraged to continue on your current path as your drive and determination will lead to success and fulfilment. Angel Number 444 is a message that the angels and Archangels are with you, encouraging and guiding you. They are offering you positive energies, inner-strength and support to enable you to get the work done that you need to. They know and understand that you have been toiling diligently towards your goals, and encourage you to continue on your current path to achieve the success and results you desire. Use your strong connection with the angelic realm to your benefit and be open to their promptings and messages. Listen to your intuition and follow its guidance. Angel Number 444 is a message that you have nothing to fear in regards to your life, work and Divine life purpose. When you take positive action towards your highest intentions, aspirations and goals, the Universe works in your favour and helps you to establish solid foundations and advance you along your path. Know that the angels surround and support you, encouraging you to keep up the good work you have been doing. Angel Number 444 brings a message that ‘all is well’. Trust that you are on your correct life path and are doing a great job. The angels and Archangels are available for help and guidance – all you need to do is ask. Number 444 relates to number 3 (4+4+4=12, 1+2=3) and Angel Number 3. Repeating 4’s (4, 44, 444, 4444 etc) Angel Number 4 Angel Number 44 * Joanne Sacred Scribes

Do you believe in Guardian Angels ? ……….I do believe it I had some extraordinary experiences to confirm it but I can’t promise that everyone would be able to experience what I did when I’m in deep meditation, I can only share my experiences and let whoever resonate with my stories to take what is good for them. The story I’m going to talk about happened to my cousin, I find it out only few weeks ago chatting with my mother after I told her of this little boy that without warning crossed the road giving a heart attack to his father that was waiting for the green sign from the traffic light, fortunately nothing happened but it was scary, that’s when my Mum told me the story of my cousin that at four years old was run over by a car in my hometown, the impact thrown him few meters away, he come out of it without a scratch, he was taken to the hospital for ascertainment just to make sure that everything was ok and when they asked him how the accident happened he started to tell that his mother that have died few years earlier for cancer showed up hugging him, reassuring that he would be ok and was protected. We will never know if my cousin told the true but cause my personal experiences I do believe that my Auntie really come back to protect his son, I never met her she died before I come to life but my name was chosen in her honour, my father loved her sister. They are around us everyday and we can get in touch with them if we adjust our frequency to match theirs but we have been taught to ignore those things, to dump them down and care about make a living, a living that our sick society keep telling us, it’s time to change this society cause is wrong and chasing the wrong purpose, we are here on earth to learn how to love and to share it, only in this way this journey will be a meaningful one. I want to share with all of you one of my favourite movies ”Wings of desire” of Wim Wenders, a story of Angels and Love

When the kid was a kid didn’t know to be a kid all he/she wanted was to play and to play with other kids, we trusted everyone and everyone was good but then the kid become an adult and our toys become our jobs, we stopped playing with other adults to don’t look like mad people, we stopped trusting others and rarely we found good Souls in our fellow beings. When the kid was a kid lived heaven on earth but then as an adult all he/she could see was hell and cursing life. History will always repeat itself I said it many times cause we haven’t start the biggest revolution that is the one of the Soul, agriculture revolution, industrial revolution, technology revolution and so on, nothing will change this broken system cause we are broken inside ….. quicker we realise it and quicker we will be able to seeing heaven on Earth again.

When the kid was a kid didn’t know to be a kid all he/she wanted was to play and to play with other kids, we trusted everyone and everyone was good but then the kid become an adult and our toys become our jobs, we stopped playing with other adults to don’t look like mad people, we stopped trusting others and rarely we found good Souls in our fellow beings. When the kid was a kid lived heaven on earth but then as an adult all he/she could see was hell and cursing life. History will always repeat itself I said it many times cause we haven’t start the biggest revolution that is the one of the Soul, agriculture revolution, industrial revolution, technology revolution and so on, nothing will change this broken system cause we are broken inside ….. quicker we realise it and quicker we will be able to seeing heaven on Earth again.

I was talking with an Indian friend about reality being just an illusion when she tells me that in the Hindu religion “reality” is “Maya” (don’t know if I spelt it correctly) traslated …. An illusion and with that I’m totally agree then she tells me that she believes that when we dream actually we are in the real realm and cause we don’t have this body that bond us on emotions and feelings we are free to be whatever we want and that’s the reason why in the so called dreams we can fly, run faster than normal and doing other things we can’t when we are “awake” that made me think of when 3 years ago working in partnership with an old friend that I didn’t trust and that gave me so much to think plus other life problems I felt powerless, frustrated and hopeless …. Then one night I had this dream ….. there was this entity that I felt strongly to be a woman but I couldn’t see her face cause was covered by a fog of light, this is the best way I could describe it, I wasn’t afraid maybe more curious then anything else but not worry, I knew that she was wiser, powerful and with some sort of authority but more like the one of a teacher at school, I was looking straight at her when with a soft voice she begun to tell me …. be your own light, be your own light, the soft voice begun to get louder …. be your own light, be your own light till the point that she literally shouted …. BE YOUR OWN LIGHT, BE YOUR OWN LIGHT !!!! I woke up straight away fully awake and between sleep and awakening the voice stronger then ever for one more time ….. BE YOUR OWN LIGHT !!!!! My interpretation was quite clear, I was in the presence of a superior entity that as a teacher that loves you tried to remind me that there is no one out there that can really help or make me stronger, everything comes just from me, from within and I have to be my own light, it was a strong message that stayed with me for a while till like many times happened before faded away and sometime forgot but sometime I remeber like the other day and I remember that to help others I have to be my own light first and then only then I can be a light for others, our power is within but we forget, society want us to forget but we are stronger than what we think cause we never been taught to learn to use our own light, we have been taught to rely to others, to the government, authority but we have a power that is immense and we must remember. I made a video where I was talking about this event and once done I had a nice walk on the Hills near by, I put my headphones on and started to listen to a podcast where Folco Terzani son of Tiziano Terzani the famous Italian journalist and writer was talking about …. Guess what ….. that we are stronger than what we think, that we all have all we need within but that we have been made to forget and that is time to take back control of our energy, perfect synchronicity to remind me that I’m not writing this by accident, I didn’t made a video by accident, I didn’t meet that Indian girl by accident and that dream by accident, I have to remeber that I’m my own light and we are all OUR OWN LIGHTS !!!!

I was in a deep meditation state till a point that I didn’t feel my body any longer…….there this incredible feeling to be just mind, Soul, I felt part of everything like I was one with all but able to maintain my individuality, I had my thoughts with me that gave me this sensation to be one but at the same time I was everything with all the surroundings, it was such a powerful feeling. The body is a sort of prison for the Soul and after this experience I can feel stronger the limitations that we carry within this casing, maybe that’s how it is after we die, we don’t know it yet. There is a fuel that makes in motion our body, it is the Soul but who gives the fuel to our Soul ? How can we leave our casing without killing the body ? I’m trying to reach that point cause I feel that we can, those days filled with stress I would love to detach from my body even more but maybe that’s what prevent that to happen, we need to have such a powerful frequency that comes with Joy, Peace and not with sadness and frustration, so challenging. I wish you a day full of joy and Love

I was in London 9 years ago cursing the fact that I had to be where I didn’t want to be ….. I was walking around Regent’s Park trying to figure out how I could ended up in a polluted, noisy, extreme capitalistic city after spending such a wonderful time in a spiritual, clean and green country like New Zealand, I couldn’t believe that I could have fucked up so much my life, I could have had everything I wanted but I couldn’t learn my lessons so that I had to leave and come to U.K. so depressed and sad walking looking straight ahead I saw this Man/Woman I can’t remember with a huge sentence written on the shirt, a sentence I couldn’t miss ….. YOU ARE WHERE YOU ARE MEANT TO BE !!! At the time I saw it as message from God/Universe/Myself to myself to remind me that I was where I was supposed to be ….. 9 years later I am now sure that I was, I learned more in those 9 years between London and Edinburgh than the previous 34 years, obviously that 34 years was preparing me for those 9 years. We can’t be sure about anything in life so the above story but I can’t deny that I changed and living in U.K. the best school to improve and evolve and again as many other times I learned most when struggling and suffering, I don’t like but seems like to be the only school for me. In the end I would like to say that even if I can’t prove it but I strongly feel that …. WE ARE WHERE WE ARE MEANT TO BE !!!

The Church or any religion in general is useful to give a sense to life and make it easier for us to go trough this journey we call existence but doesn’t mean that they are right or act in the right way, most of the time religions are the pure example of hypocrisy and selfishness, religious people feel statisfied with their lives cause they accepted the fairy tales that have been told them by people that like to give themselves big names, Priests, Monks and so on and believe that living a life of deprivations and telling other people to believe in their symbols is enough to make their Gods happy. Most of the time they do nothing for others excepts when they want something in return, joining their clubs, if someone isn’t interested in the club then they don’t care, I spent years listening those high religious authorities about helping others and living a simple life while they talk from extreme expensive buildings as much as their furnitures and sculptures, while selling one of those Churches or Temples or Mosque could give food to an entire third world country they prefer to believe that their are doing the word of God. How many of those religious buildings are close during the night or even the day if no service is made ? Most of them ….. almost all of them and we don’t need to go far away to find poor people, homeless, I live in U.K. and I was born in Italy and in both countries is full of poor human beings and many without a home for the most various reasons, so now we would expect that with so many religious buildings they would have a place to stay in a cold winter night ? No they don’t have it cause they are close, for which reasons ? Safety reasons, safety of what ? You are a religious man that preach simplicity and poverty so nothing should be so precious to be protected but while you preach about good deeds and helping others you let less fortunate beings to die outside on the streets …… hypocrites I was in Whitstable for work for a day but spent the day before in Canterbury that is 20 minutes by car, I bought a return ticket from Canterbury thinking that I would get the bus back to London from Whitstable not knowing that National Express stops only where a ticket is purchased so after work waiting to be picked up nobody showed up and it was the last coach, it was 11:30pm, cold and the next available train would depart from Canterbury at 5:30am and no place to stay, it was really cold and I wasn’t prepared so I walked back to the town hopefully to find a place to rest, too late to get an accomodation to spent the night so I thought I could do it like in the old great times when younger I would travel solo and sleep on the street unfortunately no where was warm enough and even if I tried to sleep in the station it was too cold, to keep warm I decided to spent all night walking around and what really upset me was to see all those beautiful expensive churches all close when only one open would save me from the cold I was experiencing but that’s the hypocrisy of most religions, they preach things and most of the time they don’t do it and often they really believe to do the right thing ……. What a fuckt up society we live in, isn’t ? In all those years I found only one Church leaving it open for homeless to have a roof over their head and it was in Edinburgh, one over the thousands I saw over the years, you talk to people and you will hear all the greatest bullshit why a Church keep it close, vandalism, religious items stealing and so on but I thought that a man of God should live in simplicity and attached to nothing so what they are worry about ? They are worry about their hypocrisy challenged that’s the problem. Until we live in this kind of society doesn’t matter how many religions and religious people we have, our society is doomed to repeat wars and hardships so if you want a change start to change within and when all of us included Priests, Monks and other “spiritual leaders” will begin this process then we won’t need open churches cause we would have solved poverty and mental health related issues.