What is London doing to me?

July 19, 2017
Last week I went for a walk on the River Thames in east London, the scenery was beautiful, lots of nature with paths crossing it all flanked by the river and canals, I decided to take one of the canals and follow it in the hope that it would take me to the other side and then resume the walk on the river until I got out of London.

The canal was very long and never seemed to get to the other side, I walked for hours and hours and finally got to the point where I could cross the canal and get back on the river, in the meantime it was 6pm and the sky was beginning to form beautiful colours, in front of me was a huge plain with a few spots where some local people had built gardens, I started to walk towards the river following the canal, next to the path there were what was left of the houses of the past, only the walls remained and inside plants and trees were growing, the view was beautiful and the fact of being alone in this immense clearing of green and with the sunset approaching gave everything a magical and surreal touch.

The whole thing was so magical that at a certain point something started to happen, I started to have this image of myself in New Zealand, in Auckland, I was walking on a street that is a parallel to Queen Street, the fact is that the feeling I had was not that of a memory from the past, the image of me that I had was as if at that very moment I was there, it was as if I was in 2 places at the same time,I was in east London but at the same time I was in Auckland,the feeling was something so strong that I could see myself in Auckland as if I was watching a film but inside my head,I was aware that I was in London but the image of myself in New Zealand was immense, The sensation I felt was something I had never felt before, something indescribable but at the same time wonderful, what I was feeling was beautiful, I was aware that I was there in Auckland, I began to think if I was there at that precise moment, if it was a parallel reality or if it was an image from the future, slowly it all started to fade and the film I was seeing of myself in my mind started to become like a memory, the very strong energy I felt around me diminished until it disappeared, but it left me with a very pleasant feeling that stayed with me until I got home.

What happened was a very interesting experience but since I arrived in London many interesting things have happened, I am beginning to think that there is a reason why I ended up in this city.

I remember the first month that I arrived,all I did was complain about how stupid I had been to leave Auckland,one day when I was particularly sad about being in London I went for a walk along the river to relax, suddenly as if to make sure I could see her, a guy running in my direction had a shirt on that said ‘you are where you are meant to be at this time’ translated ‘you are where you are meant to be at this time in your life’ I’m sure I attracted this and my being in London was attracted to me in some way, London has something powerful on an energetic level, a very strong energy and sometimes it’s very difficult to deal with.

The most important episode that happened to me was two months after I had been here. I had managed to find an incredible mental and physical balance, I was at peace in a way I had never been before, and I had maintained it for several months, On one of these nights one of the most important things in my life happened. I woke up in the middle of the night, there was only one person in my room, a very nice Spanish boy who was still asleep, The strange thing was that I looked at them as if it was nothing strange, as I touched the bed these blue lights appeared, at which point I took off the sheets and touching my tracksuit that I used as pyjamas these blue lights continued to appear, I touched the bed and the same thing, after a few minutes I decided to go back to sleep, I woke up in the morning aware that something wonderful and extraordinary had happened but I had no idea why or how, I decided to get dressed to go for a walk and as I took off my sweater the friction between the sweater and my body had the same effect as an electric shock, my conclusion was that during those months of calm I had recharged my body, as if I had recharged my internal battery.

A year later I decided to go to see a psychic whose stories I had read on the internet with the intention of asking him questions and having him hypnotise me. Some interesting things happened there too, but the most important thing was that he pointed out that I probably had healing powers.

He was not the first person to tell me this, but this time it made more sense than normal,he asked me if I had relatives with similar powers and of course the first person who came to mind was my grandmother Gentilina.

She was well known in my village for being able to cure certain pains with just the touch of her hands, plus she was able to tell you what your problem was just by touching you, most of the time she guessed right. At the time, my grandmother came from a very poor family and from a very young age she had already started working in the countryside, she hadn’t studied and couldn’t read or write, so she certainly couldn’t know anything about medicine, plus she was known for being able to cure negativity, the method she used was very interesting, with a lamp like Aladdin’s where he put oil and lit the tip of the lamp with fire, he would pass it over your head, over your shoulders, he would say things I couldn’t understand and after a few minutes he would stop, she would put a finger inside the lamp and drop a drop of oil into a dish with water, if the oil did not expand it meant that your energy was clean, if the oil expanded it meant that your energy was negative, at which point she would repeat the ritual again until the oil did not expand any more.

The strange thing was that oil theoretically can’t expand in water but in some cases it did,at the time I never considered what grandma did but now I know there was something strong inside her,recently I asked my mum if she knew when my grandmother started doing those things, my mum told me that my grandmother never wanted to tell anyone not even her children when she learned to do those things and how she found out she could do them, apparently the only one who knew was one of her sisters who is now dead.

Last year during a deep meditation a voice said to me “in the morning” I had no idea what it meant, but the next morning at work a very dear friend of mine for some strange reason was reading the tarot cards to another friend of mine, at which point I asked her if she would read them to me when I finished work, the interesting thing was that what she told me was what kept appearing on the internet, In books and everywhere, my main card said “Faith”, and as if to make sure I was taking it seriously, when at one point my friend advised me to watch a video on the internet that would help me emotionally, the video happened to be one that I had been watching and listening to every day lately, I interpreted it as if my angels wanted me to understand that it was all arranged for me.
Another day in a deep meditation a voice said “Slingshot” to me, I did some research and it turned out that in spirituality the meaning of Slingshot means that the universe or God is pulling you back not to make you suffer but to launch you like a slingshot into the best possible life, I don’t know, what I do know is that this is a very hard time that seems to never end, I’m doing my best to keep calm and focused and at the moment I’m feeling proud of myself because I’m managing to control my emotions, I feel I’m close to some kind of truth, close to discovering something but I can’t quite grasp it yet, this Saturday I’m going back to east London to the same place where I had that experience of being in 2 places at the same time, I don’t know if I’ll have the same feeling but I feel I have to come back.

We live in a world of energy and London or maybe England has something special, it has a very strong energy, at least that is what I feel, it is said that in England and particularly in Glastonburuy there is the heart chakra which is the main one of the 7 chakras, and considering my transformation on an emotional level and especially in regards to loving myself and others, I am starting to be more and more convinced that I was destined to come here to learn, I believe that we attract to us what we need, if we are happy we attract good situations, if we are sad, nervous, dissatisfied, we attract situations that only bring us into a deep state of reflection that is made to make us understand where we need to change and that is why bad things happen to us because it is only when things go wrong that we stop and reflect.