why am i weirdo for wanting to know their true intentions (piano punk)

rocking, per usual
coffee shop, after hours
kinda/sorta obsessed w/ xmas lights
these lights are less ghetto
small biz coffee shops are always ridiculously overpriced
coffee shop "experience"
feel superior sitting at a coffee shop doing "work"
double take to make sure that the people i see reading books actually exist
never bitching about technology but the numbskulls that use it
free smartphone from govt? obviously bad
suspicious...certain things they tell you to do/buy
why why why why why (won't anybody ask that question)
why does that make me a conspiracy nutjob
pay attention to the timing
why is this the only thing they want me to think about
they wanna retard me
without it how would i exist/live
why do they insist
it's a genuine question w/ no answer apparently