lesser antichrist dragged screaming to minor sainthood, midlife crisis jung/dante hell

oh, in a way what I'm describing is jung's and dante's descent into hell (for self knowledge) or a midlife crisis as well
why do I exist? - john piper
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iuj0BKwhoJA
St Silhouan the Athonite - Spiritual Trials
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tWlutXHuxUE