i no longer wanna hold onto things that make me feel bad

i pretty much always get emotional during Divine Liturgy
i love waving at people
you'd think i'd be used to going to Church by now but it still throws me off
i'm used to being the oddball
not voting in regular ass elections but church assemblies are different
the whole purpose of purchasing this land was to build a new Orthodox Church
standing n singing to the Lord, acapella is the way we're supposed to do it
i know i just sound crazy
schizo episodes are fine tho
stand up comedy changed my life
i patched things up w/ my dad becuz i no longer wanted to hold onto this anger
every parent is limited in some kinda way
my parents are not spiritual people at all so the fact that they noticed a transformation in me says a lot
the narcissistic part of us that we all have wants us to stay angry n bitter