You're not the antichrist, work out your salvation in fear and trembling

I'm beginning to suspect that I'm not the antichrist either, which was a very real worry of mine
at the very least I kind of suspect that if I were the antichrist, which I'm sure you'd understand my worrying about being, based on my confession, that somehow, jesus will save even such a lowly sinner as I
how wonderful a god that would save even the most evil of sinners and get them to truly repent

CS lewis probably said it best, it is only when we do our very best to be good, that we realize how bad we are, and that there comes a point in time when you are struggling to say "I can't do this god, you must do this for me"

pride is a big sin of mine, and the effort to earn my salvation through works is a constant temptation of mine I fall prey to
but I believe that even when I am doing poorly, god means for good what I do in bad, perhaps my stumbling around and admittance of it will provide heart to you who are struggling as well