habits must highlight your creativity not hinder it

i look naked, like a mermaid or sumin
yes i am in my car. again
my mind is always goin n goin n goin
i have a problem i can't not complicate things
i just discourage myself before i even try
do you do this, is this a choice
it's a lack of discipline, regimen cos i suck at that shit, i just do but i know that i can improve
i just gotta come up w/ a method, MY method...i still have faith
you really have to try n if you don't try you're just gonna give up
think of it like a darker force
those negative voices are probably right
those voices are gonna get louder n louder til you do what you're supposed to do
spent the better part of my twenties self-destructing
stealing shit, drinkin all the time, losin jobs n places to live
shoulda been a street rat
got escorted out of a liquor store
the metaphor or simile or what
genius or retard?
last time i shoplifted...it felt like Judgment day
hopefully it's a nice touch, highlighting what i've already played
is it complicated enough since i told myself in the beginning to keep it simple
jamming is so much fun n it brings me joy
you didn't have sex for $ but booze so...
the man in my head has just conceded
booze? i'll be right over
i know why i need the blood of JC$
the best of the worst of all the mfing sinners
small church organ that sounds like a synth
teenie tiny church in myself, not preaching but confessing
what i do is pretty revolting to many
to some, i've won em over
what if i'm a fallen angel?
CLASSIC thought from the devil, schizophrenia fuckin w/ my head
i quit drinking n shoplifting, what else
i don't even like porn n yet it still sucked my ass in
compulsive spending is never ending
typical lie of ocd/addiction/possession
i don't compulsively do what i should do for myself
i looked it up, he is not dead! bernie is being a really awesome jew right now opposing the obvious genocide in gaza
i stay up way past time when i say imma go to bed
i'm not gonna do that thing that i keep doin
thank you Lord that i don't vape...fruity ass gaypor
it's not good to inhale sumin that tastes like candy
why would that be better than smoking cigs
there's shit that i know how to do that is very beneficial to quitting
i am a total mess i know it
i miss smoking cigarettes every second of the day
you might as well smoke five packs a day at this point
first yt channel: aimless
relapsing is just terrible
my mom motivated me to quit smoking mainly cos i was beating myself up enough for it
i forgot about the nicotine patches
i can't chew nicotine gum, it makes me feel cracked out
these kids are so terrible, i watch them vape like every 3-7 min
it resembles a cigarette n smells like a camp fire
cinnamon toothpicks here tho, go to your local health food store
the visual n the sound will trick yer mind
nicotinic cholinergic system
we have all these drugs already in our bodies which is why those drugs are natural
the part of me that wants to smoke
schizophrenia instruction manual
you have already enabled some sorta solution anyway
40 cigs a day for 10yrs, i miss mommy a lot
making a beeline for the gas station at half a pack haha
i get the habit + identity + social aspect
leave it to the zoomers, it's their thing damnit
all i have are my delusions
if your brain is tricking you then trick it right back
you look silly already & gay, you gape you gaper
i am a force to be reckoned w/ when i chain-smoke
i know that it's somewhat demonic but i think that every artist has some kinda habit like that
being open in general is typically a good thing
tv box. phone box. x box. gaystation (box). laptop/computer box. tablet/ipad box.
IT'S ALL A BOX
do people listen to the radio anymore?
if we create our own shit the world ain't got shit to do w/ us
proving your insecurity day in, day out
most that are obsessed w/ twitter n various aspects of the world
celebs/politicians...same thing
what they call the matrix
it's just a cycle that pays them
using the matrix to whine about...the matrix
i don't actually practice this method anymore, this is just what i did it in the beginning
i love to vicariously smoke
smoking AND vaping is...
i always tell marisa to smoke in my car cos i want it to smell like an ashtray