the part of me that's funny is the part that's always in pain

not motivated but i still keep wakin up
just being mundane is bad enough
my shame i hold very very dear
i can't deny that all these things are there
when you're too old to self-mutilate...
knowing it's wrong don't make it disappear
at least i'm honest about it if only to freak everybody out haha
don't feel bad for feeling bad
acceptance is the hardest thing cos it is more natural to wanna fight anything this uncomfortable