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lots of stutters this time, and initially misreading a word and correcting myself right after

when I say I broadcast my suicide attempts I just mean that I mentioned them after the fact not that I livestreamed them to paraphrase CS lewis "blessed is he who looks around at a world that seems without god and says "I am forsaken, but still I obey" I forgot to mention that part that was part of my spiritual trial during these events and why I believe I'll be truly blessed by god with a prosperous future going forwards bugman death drive (by the destributist) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ODjsfoZVqGI

I think I'll read jeremiah and the book of acts old and new testament books for my next readings

christian, conservative, capitalist ontology is basically the argument of the essence of a thing and how it differs from other things in its primary nature

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Just_war_theory https://rumble.com/v2diu66-thoughts-about-gods-world-politics-showing-scars.html https://rumble.com/v2orlia-gods-harsh-but-fair-disgusting-sins-of-mine-and-my-good-faith-repentance.html

Going to be reading Mathew 26-27-28 and finish the book of Mathew tomorrow, sorry for not reading 26 today but I've got a headache and it'd double the length of this video, plus I feel like based on the chapter names it'd be better to read the last 3 chapters together

lex fridman talking with bishop barron (2 hours) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgytXF0SPh0 mere christianity audiobook by CS lewis (5 hours) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ElNB3tldviA

I guess I should also say for creatives, there's nothing new under the sun, everything has been done before mostly, but a revival of something you find out existed 100 years ago creditable to you that you came up with independent of the others, with your unique spin on it, is just as good as coming up with the latest "never been done ever before" thing, since apparently it speaks to the human condition, and reminding people of lost wisdom is as important as coming up with new perpsectives

bishop barron deunks baptist "by faith alone" salvation argument https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJMl6tJpKdo

I started reading chapter 17 (middle of the chapter) because I flipped two pages instead of 1 after starting chapter 15 so there's a bit of confusion, then I read chapter 15-16 properly, and then read the little of chapter 17 I didn't read the first time (beginning of the chapter) with a short description of what I read earlier of chapter 17 to finish

this is my personal experience, however I am fairly well versed in the rent, food and income aspects of disability/minimum wage over the years because I kept track of them out of personal necessity some would be mad at me for being disabled but alas that's not by choice anyways, I've been getting by on the cheapest hotdogs money can buy while I used to be able to buy steak on occasion or ground beef more often in the past and also the streets were safe enough I could do paperboy work early mornings and that's no longer possible

https://rumble.com/v4cwhre-life-or-death-fun-or-suffering-fiscal-responsibility-and-economic-competenc.html