Going Full Retard

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . Just as with every paper of mine which I have presented aloud in my own voice... So much commentary to have before and after, including concurrent events to make me have thoughts to express as a totality of my public persona. This was fun to cover again and, like, I guess it may also be the first experience that one may have with the actual rigorous field of linguistics even if I am not a linguist and we are not in a linguistics course. Reminds me of, in the Bible, "when two or more of you are gathered in my name [Christ's name], then I [Christ] will be there also". Even if I am not qualified to be a linguistics professor... If we are gathered in the pursuit of truth, then Truth will reveal itself. So... I wish we had universities that were like that of 1860s Germany when we discovered that there was not a necessary life force such that, in a laboratory setting, Chemists can create components of ... urine ... without the "life force" of an animate being like either humans or animals in the process of creation of such chemical compounds. This is how Chemistry branched into Inorganic and Organic Chemistry, on the factor of a carbon-skeleton of the compound making that Chemistry study into an Organic Chemistry study. Etymology, among other ideas and concepts of study, would be linguistic. It was a fun video to record but like... It's nice that I finished it and have this. A bit surprised that it ended up being 2.5 hours but, hey, it's ... Ya just get into the mood of speaking of Truth and you just keep going...

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . It was a lot of fun going back through my linguistics work since, ya know, been using that study since I was just in Taiwan and will be soon in Korea while being in Japan at present. And, fighting against peer pressure, I'd rather do something other than be an English "teacher". I don't think that is a good use of my time, nor theirs; I think I would be better put to use in something other than English "teaching" given that, ya know... I have studied literally everything and can amusingly present the work that I did while learning it. While Katakamuna is likely fake, I don't care: I think it is really cool to have found and I wish I could play with it more. It was "discovered", if that is true, at a time when Quantum Mechanics was starting to become the overarching scientific theory in Physics. As such... It seems that this electrical engineer was trying to find a way to help transmit learning by making songs and, also, calling it an "ultra-"ancient language. Sure, I think it is an elaborate hoax and... yet... Could be incredibly useful, given that I do not think a universal grammar exists regardless of Noam Chomsky's argumentations for the existence of it but not the existence of God... in helping transmit scientific knowledge to the future. Everyone loves songs! There's 80 of them in Katakamuna, with extensive Japanese writings about these songs, and it's pronounced like Japanese if you figure out the analog to the Katakamuna characters!

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . Like with all of the papers from my community college period, and also later university period that had some work recorded here already... Everything seems to get an A yet only the comment/remark of "Good job". While it seemed okay at the time, since I tried to make the most assertive presentation to make the professor grin and laugh or be impressed... Maybe push the limits of the field... It would have been nice had they given an idea of what made them think it was a "good job". lol. Why the hell did I pay to learn any of this crap? Sure, it was interesting and I had my own personal use for it but, like, who the hell would want to learn to be a linguist?! Pay me to learn and do this job, damnit! lmao. Same with all the other subjects which I studied. ... I'm literally paying to be "challenged" but why the hell would I want to be "challenged" by retards when I'm the one doing the challenging and not the professor whom I paid to "challenge" me?!?! They literally just sit there and collect a paycheck because EVERYONE ELSE thinks it is important to pay for college and get a degree and struggle/whine to pay back like $80k in debt after four years yet I did way more course work than they did (200 credits where 120 credits is what earns you a Bachelors degree, though there has to be particular courses and it's not due to number... Liberal Arts shouldn't matter, lmao) and only paid $20k and don't have debt... The whole university system is suspect... Anyways, it was fun reading through this and reminiscing on my studies and also repeating my thoughts and memories of learning. But, uh... Who cares? It doesn't do anything for me since I'm not employed in this line of work nor would I want to be, lol. However, I did like learning linguistics since, well, I would like to be able to learn Japanese at the level of a native speaker and... so... I'm glad that I took this course. Yes. However, I mean... There's a reason it doesn't produce an amazing citizenry as it would have in the past before we flooded the market with the idea that students should pay for higher education... I am quite sure, 100 years ago, you would be accepted for a university and they would teach you, sure, but you would have to work to ensure that they are properly understanding the material by arguing it. If it doesn't make sense, then it's probably not right. And, like, you would be doing research for them. It's definitely not that way, any more, which is why people think of it as an extension of high school. People used to think of a university as the pinnacle of human achievement. Now, it's the worst forms of lifeforms (especially the administrators).

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . For the COM263 papers, besides the last one, I wanted to just get the recordings done and then post them. Kinda just get the files uploaded and off my hard drive. As such, I came back to do a description, later. As in now. But that means that, unlike the other videos, it may not reflect anything like what I recorded. lol. Whatever, that's fine. Who cares? It's part of this whole process and, I mean, it's just interesting to have done and noted. Funny, given that "intimacy and love" is the last recorded video before I came back for writing these descriptions. Who knows why we make such a fuss about Mealtimes or Food and the various ways of receiving or being guests. It's kind of important, and yet not always. And, even then, we don't always follow cultural procedures, anyways, so... It is interesting to at least discuss the Japanese "itadakimasu". :) As noted at the end, it is also a bit interesting to think when someone is betraying us by forcing hospitality onto us. It's weird to think of as being a thing but, ya know, it does happen.

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . For the COM263 papers, besides the last one, I wanted to just get the recordings done and then post them. Kinda just get the files uploaded and off my hard drive. As such, I came back to do a description, later. As in now. But that means that, unlike the other videos, it may not reflect anything like what I recorded. lol. Whatever, that's fine. Who cares? It's part of this whole process and, I mean, it's just interesting to have done and noted. Funny, given that "intimacy and love" is the last recorded video before I came back for writing these descriptions. It is a little amusing, looking back before 2020, how even with people complaining about the police... They will literally stop for anyone who directs traffic and, yet, the more uniformed and seeming like police officers one is... The more respect they will get in that position, regardless of the situation of the driver in traffic. Maybe things have changed. Maybe it is due to culture and governance... I don't know. But. ... It seems that law and order always has a kind of way of having one situation that always is respected. I dunno. Just... Seems like a possibility. :)

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . For the COM263 papers, besides the last one, I wanted to just get the recordings done and then post them. Kinda just get the files uploaded and off my hard drive. As such, I came back to do a description, later. As in now. But that means that, unlike the other videos, it may not reflect anything like what I recorded. lol. Whatever, that's fine. Who cares? It's part of this whole process and, I mean, it's just interesting to have done and noted. Funny, given that "intimacy and love" is the last recorded video before I came back for writing these descriptions. Quite honestly, I forgot if there was really any point behind this or if it was just... bloviating.

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . For the COM263 papers, besides the last one, I wanted to just get the recordings done and then post them. Kinda just get the files uploaded and off my hard drive. As such, I came back to do a description, later. As in now. But that means that, unlike the other videos, it may not reflect anything like what I recorded. lol. Whatever, that's fine. Who cares? It's part of this whole process and, I mean, it's just interesting to have done and noted. Funny, given that "intimacy and love" is the last recorded video before I came back for writing these descriptions. As noted, this was really short yet, ya know, whatever lol. What is intimacy (I did an assignment which is featured after the next paper in this section on intimacy, lol), even? And, like, does it matter if we are online in our relationships or not? I don't really think it is ultimately important to be in-person for a relationship until, ya know, it is an available option. Obviously, if it is more than a friendly relationship as in desire for dating and marriage, you want to be in-person but... Maybe by having the ability to court via communication before getting "serious"... Y'all's can feel each other out. Same thing with marrying... But... You probably should have at least one or two encounters, in person, with the other person before ever asking them you marry you. LOL Then again, people have had arranged marriages for a looooong time and... They do find a way to love each other. The biggest issue with online relationships would be, if you feel that you trust each other and then... They disappear. They ghost you. ... It's a crime in Singapore to ghost someone. Ghosting would just be to disappear, but like... "Sorry, this is it. Bye" would be much better, I think, then nothing. Then again... Maybe that would be worse? Whatever! lol! Life is life. Just be careful of observations and, well, struggle with God before struggling with any one else and, ya know, you end up better for it. However, what does it even mean to "struggle with God"? ... Hitting the hard questions, I guess, I am? XD

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . For the COM263 papers, besides the last one, I wanted to just get the recordings done and then post them. Kinda just get the files uploaded and off my hard drive. As such, I came back to do a description, later. As in now. But that means that, unlike the other videos, it may not reflect anything like what I recorded. lol. Whatever, that's fine. Who cares? It's part of this whole process and, I mean, it's just interesting to have done and noted. Funny, given that "intimacy and love" is the last recorded video before I came back for writing these descriptions. So I don't really know if anyone even knew about the particular incident that is being referenced here but, ya know, it was at the beginning of 2018 lol. Probably old history, by now. XD Still... Commenting on my writing and recollections a bit... I don't know if it really was a proper judgment I had back then. Then again, I didn't really care that much... It was something to comment about, sure but... ... I wasn't a judge and I don't have a prosecution's case and defender's case before me so, as such... I don't particularly care. It happened. I don't even know what I opined about as it occurred. Curious if anyone else even cared about it or if I just happened to be in that particular niche's part of Youtube to have seen it?

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . This particular college paper is from July 20th 2017 for my English course. I forgot about the specifics that went into this policy paper for advocating a more tolerant, somewhat Portugal-drug-solution, approach to tobacco smokers to achieve a future with decreased levels of tobacco smokers and nicotine addicted persons. Took much longer than I anticipated to cover 10 pages, yes, but there's a whole lot of feelings that went into this paper and still have been repressed given that I have a decent policy that people likely don't care to hear, thinking it either is ineffectual from the starting point (smokers) or that the current policies are okay (non-smokers). Regardless. It was a bit of a shock to remember shocking things which I had included in this to make my point, and I even got myself a few times with how I separated facts to build up one side of the story and then crush it with the second half of facts from the same source. If only things were different after having written this like seven years ago.

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . Just going to quote 2018 me, "curiosity is the defining characteristic of human success, but also to human demise." I explain some particulars about the audience and what not that almost got me to not be able to write this paper to begin with. Whatever lol. It's just something I've written and, like, in a way... I guess it might be decent? Whatever. lol.

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . So this is an article originally written in 1907 which I digitized so, as such, it's the digitization that lets me believe that I could include this into a "collection of my works". It's obviously no connection to me so, as such, I believe it's fine given that it was over 100 years old and copyright law tends to be 70 years. Even then, I digitized it and that would be my claim. Regardless, lol, I think it is nice to keep here since it's like "Proverbs" in a way. But in a simplier and more updated language, I guess, for our more contemporary society where the Bible has retained its place on our shelves yet not always in our lives and hearts. Was interesting to re-read this document. I might have made some mistakes in digitizing it but, yeah. It's still nice to be able to try to share this thought-provoking document. :) Even if the old man claims not to be of a religion, it seems that he's rather Christian. The Japanese do not find it polite to point out the obvious and, even if he didn't mention Christ, could have been teaching what Christianity teaches by being secular regarding the teaching.

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . So this is like off-hand remarks that I preserved and published with other stuff. There's discussion of "Leontief’s Paradox" and "Heckscher-Ohlin theory" but like... wtf are those? I wrote this thing in Summer 2017 during my International Business 101 course, lol, but it doesn't mean I cared about economics. I wanna make some money but, maybe it is useful to look into if one wants to better advocate for public policy (politics) of the nation and also regarding international relations?

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . I forgot just how much the professor's "questions" of my final project annoyed the shit outta me. I paid for this stupid course, when universities should pay us after making us go through hoops to get in (then again, community colleges would be of a different method of instruction but... I paid for this course and the professor had asked stupid follow up questions and even insisted the ACC was corrupt, in response to an assumption that I thought the ACC was the best thing ever which is a wrong assumption and probably made an ass out of the professor and myself. Pronouns omitted; who cares more about conversations and texts? Men or women? Also, which gender likely will abuse authority over written communications if they are made to look stupid for asking stupid questions to appear intelligent?). Not only did I probably meet the silly questions, which I guess they probably should have been acceptable but the "I'm not saying it is [corrupt] but could you look into that [and give a history report despite that being outside of the expected bounds of the assignment{, just to help back up that I am the professor and you are the student}]". Regardless, I was actually involved in the case because my Dad was one of the opponents as amicus for the Sun City residents, lol. So I literally, for a year, had been hearing him bitching about the rate consolidation case and knew that his arguments were quite solid that, uh, the precedent used was improper for the attempted "consolidation" that ended up passing. Why couldn't that have been asked? I literally had written neutrally despite my Dad hating the ACC, and like literally what I ended my assignment with shows why there isn't even likely to be a similar case in a lesser developed country: in Africa, the businesses owning the water weren't even international businesses like in this case! And, with South Korea, the example still wasn't international busines yet at least showed government ownership contrasted with privatization. XD I dunno. Was funny looking back at this since I remember the intended focus on "eminent domain" that I told the vanquished opposers about as a future plan of attack if EPCOR decides to have shitty service, going forth. Still, it's interesting how the other districts wanted granny to pay for their wastewater rates yet then 3 years later during 2020 wanted us all to think that their wearing masks was saving granny while they would be trying to say that non-wearers of mask were killing granny! THE SAME PEOPLE FORCING GRANNY TO PAY THEIR WASTEWATER BILLS WERE THE ONES TRYING TO FORCE US TO SAVE GRANNY FROM L'PLAGUE SO AS TO KEEP GRANNY AROUND TO ENSURE THAT THEIR BILLS WERE PAID! LMAO!

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . So, this wasn't an assignment or anything but was for the consideration of a wise old friend that has interesting conversations with my Dad, a lot. I don't know if I sent it to the professor, too, given that I was thinking of these things while reading the course's textbook but... Whatever. Interesting that here is like the basis of my enthusiasm to reject Marx and call Socialism/Communism as "Christianity without Christ" as why it fails but also that those two concepts, and Capitalism, are only possible in a purely economic worldview such that... Reality could never be Communist, Socialist, OR Capitalist. We try, sure, but that's why Communists create Socialist states that are better described as running like a state-capitalist system. Regardless, I point out at the beginning that proper Japanese for the concept is understanding would be that the verb of "to understand" in English has an equivalent in Japanese yet that this equivalent is properly used by grammar to say "it revealed itself to me" rather than "I understand it". The "understanding" of English is something that WE force, whereas understanding in Japanese is something that the OBJECT does to US. lol. Bunch of random things linked together without actually using words to bridge things together. Essentially, "off-hand comments" that, when read in succession, are supposed to paint a picture. Not sure if I did it properly but, perhaps, the reading over this and giving my thoughts aloud helped make it more understandable? Dunno. Just reading the stupid thing and bloviating along the way. It's just content, really.

The PDF of my first book can be found at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . In this, I go through the first part of my book up to when the book technically starts with the material collected within. Not only do I just read it off, but I try to explain why things were put in the way that they were, even if they seem merely as one should do with a book or that they were just stylistic choices. Really, I threw the whole thing together and, since it is paper, it just ended up being one way of doing things which seems like it was the best. Unless we are known and have a style, we may as well publish our first fruits even if we think they are not worth looking at as one would a published book. And that may be the difference between Cain and Abel. Perhaps it was one person, they felt the reward of God but the anxieties from dealing with the world caused us to kill the reward we received from God; I dunno. Still. There was a lot of little things that I hid in here, "easter eggs", which likely were never caught even if someone should have seen it. lol. Publishing this video on Easter Day, too.

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . I wish that my first book was a blank book like Michael Knowles's. He should do a book reading of his first book, too. It would be the book readings of book readings, and leave everyone Speechless. Anyways, I tried reading this but like... It's an emotionally driven collection, to begin with, so as such it was emotional to get through while I can use the soapbox to explain what was missed in these last five years, potentially, that should have been caught had people actually known me. Maybe people know me, given that there are truly people who know Christ and we all have Christ within us. People just wouldn't expect me to be in need for, as I said while reading and came across the line, a "supportive community". I'm used to being neglected. Even when people are around, I am usually serving their desire to enjoy their night and, in a way, it helps me enjoy another bad day. Even though I like the saying, "I've stopped hoping for something good to happen, and started hoping that whatever bad happens is at least funny", in a way that humor is something good that will occur, whether or not it was funny or not when that something bad occurred. Anyways. Only an added twenty minutes to the time to read just the first part of the speech, which I read stand-alone to start this playlist off. Amusingly. ... The first part is shorter, 6 minutes when I first read it straight through back in 2019; the second part is longer, 11 minutes. And maybe the speech was its original length, this time, given that I already unpacked the first part by starting off the playlist with it before coming back to it. In a way, it's still all just content. Shitakke, ne!

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . Had to pee, so I broke this into two parts whereas I wanted to read it all in one go. lol. The next part, Part Two, will end up being broken up into individual articles as I did with later works from university. Since I was going back to 2015 and remembering how I used to be... Before seeing a particular person a second time and after seeing that particular person the first time, with a tangential taste of family in the interm as well as seeing a long-term penpal for the first time in-person... It is a bit emotion-provoking to re-read it, right now, so maybe it helps with understanding what was going on at the time of writing in 2015. Even if it looks clear and concise, it was very turbulent times. In a way, I have never needed to do this again in a public format since, well, I decided on a path for the future. But, also, perhaps in a way I am doing it again but without the solid paper, like this, because this is the same kind of reason why I do what I do now. It's like a 2.0 of 2015. lol. It is interesting, though, that... I guess I did pretty good even if I still kind of worry that there's more that I could be doing. I guess, if there was any thing more that I could do, it would be to publicly show off my thoughts on what I made public in the past. It's a little interesting to be looking at these documents after 9 years, hahaha. The 2019 space speech was looking at these documents, if I remember correctly (though, perhaps, it was still in mind or maybe not), and remembering the push forward towards space. Maybe it was when I compiled the book that I was like, "oh hey, I actually fulfilled the space thing earlier in the year with that space speech in April!). Still. The future could have been different. We didn't need to have the COVID retardation which had occurred. In a way. God knew that we needed it, perhaps. Look at what He wanted, at least me, us to see. ... A bright future. With Him. In the center of our lives. :)

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . Came back from peeing so as to finish off Part One. Not really much reason to expand further in the description when you should go back to part one of Part One... lol

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . Given that this is the lengthiest part of the book, being that this book is a collection of college essays and other small writings... This is a video to provide a header for the whole next series of small videos which will make up the rest of this Part Two of the playlist. While I read off the titles of each paper and give a little description, at least we have a sense of the purpose of this part as I titled it and also discussed before simply reading off the paper titles and whatever popped to mind regarding them. Kinda interesting to read this off as a finished work. Never really intended it to be that way and, yet, it turned out pretty good. I hocked it as a finished work but, actually, it turned out to be great just the way it is. Obviously, I am spotting errors but, ya know, it's part of the charm of this work, as a finished work, I presume. There's not much reason to pay that weirdo lady $150 to make it look better when it was always supposed to be a "diamond in the rough" or, at least, rough. lol

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . It's better than getting or giving Herpes. I would imagine...

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . As I summarize at the beginning, these two writings are due to Spring 2019 and right before I would be asked to give a speech at the local Phoenix chapter of the National Space Society in a week after these writings. 1. If ya want war, then I'll give ya war. 2. I merely wish to root out that which is bad so, if you just stop being bad, then we can let things go. That's what I was essentially saying, on Facebook, to the cheating students whom I told that I exposed yet that I wasn't concerned with as much regarding the Mathematics students as I was the Physics students. Short, yes, but it has quite a pack. Much like "Jude" in the Bible, I guess. lol

This is me reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . Well, that was embarrassing to finally re-read that poem from September 2019. Whatever lol. Obviously, I'm the one that wrote it hahaha. This marks the end of the playlist for y'all's yet it's just the middle of my work on this audiobook/commentary since, ya know, I wanted to go ahead and knock out the rest of the book outside of Part Two such that I can take my time with the filling of this sandwhich. As I said to end everything off, "Do you not [...]?".

Go forth and do great things. This is me after reading my first book. The PDF is available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe .

This is from my Film History course, written June 2nd 2021. The PDF is here: https://www.scribd.com/document/718183971/Hack-LAS36673-Week-4-Paper-4 .

Right now, this is a stand-alone video. The idea is to make this the first video of a playlist for my reading of my first book of which a PDF is already available at https://www.linktr.ee/hackingcovfefe . It's only the first part, and the second part is essentially combined in the process of reading this. Both took only about 17 minutes to read off back when I first wrote this speech. It is available here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pw06WAyCl4Y . Ad astra, per aspera. "To the stars, through hard work".