Daily Motivational Randomness Journal - 3-25-22

I see a change in my life. It’s not happening fast but happening at last. Why am I so scared to be happy? I think it’s because if I ever learn to become happy the next day I will drop dead. Like I am not meant to be happy because I have been so sad for so long. I don’t know any other way of life. I'm scared. I know most of you may not understand what I mean but it’s such a weird, strange, horrible, and sad feeling deep down.