I have felt like crying since then.

I am so sorry for your loss and I completely understand the intensity of your grief. Crying can be a very healing thing to do and I hope it will bring you a little relief. Please google pet loss support groups. If you live in or near a larger city, there may be one in your area. However, with the pandemic still going on, these types of groups may have moved online. That makes it even easier to find the support you are looking for with people that truly care. Some veterinary schools also offer grief support services. Our animal companions are important family members and this loss is real. I'm hoping that over time, memories of this special love will bring peace to your heart. Take care.