What to do when you got Depression /Anxiety and you got rent /bills to pay but you cant find a job?

I've been in your situation. Many times in my life. And when I was in that situation, I couldn't ask any friends or family to help me.
And this inability to not be able to get assistance from friends and family really made it all worse for me.
You feel so afraid and paralysed to even move your body.

I used to feel so afraid to even open any new letters that were coming, especially if they were about bills that I needed to pay.

You get yourself to apply for jobs online and you see so many of them there and you give yourself hope that you will get a job very soon.

For me, applying for a job was not the hardest part, the hardest part was to receive the rejection emails, after rejection emails for my job applications.It made me feel worse and more anxious and upset about who I was.I couldn't even find a job and I needed to find a job to get my life together and pay those damn bills.

When I used to leave my home to go for a walk, I use to avoid places with many people. It really hurt me to see people that were ok, they got their life together, they got a job and I cannot even get a job. You totally feel you got no control in your own life and that can bring a lot anxiety to not have control in your own life.

You need help from others, but you feel a sort of ashamed to ask and tells others who you are right now, someone that doesn't have their life together, someone that doesn't feel good enough, someone that can't even a job.I share this part of my life with you because I need to tell you, I can. Understand how stressful. You can feel right now and how afraid you can feel me with your situation.

When you suffer from stress, fear and feel anxious about your financial and your self worth, it can't be very difficult to think clearly and feel there is a solution to all these.I can tell you and confirm there is a solution and not just one but few.

You are worth it, with a job or not you are valuable.