faith is always a risk, which is why i do comedy

sumin i wanted to talk about
we finally had this conversation
eventually gonna hit some dark alleyways in yer head
i try to push him away and it doesn't work
one of the only guys in the world...
i get marriage but i hate govt and conventional anything
i just wanna have sex and not feel like i'm sinning
if we just keep talking arguing is silly
me in my head telling myself shit
you don't wanna take ownership for thoughts/feelings
sometimes i hate myself still
i want there to be an issue that's not there
now's the time to establish OUR world
mental illness, pushing away people who are good for me
i believe in fate
futile to have faith in the tangible
every time i try to push him away
i haven't wanted to have sex in so long
he randomly showed up at twin kegs tonight
i did hate it when i watched it haha
i am getting what i want creatively