My Jesus In The Rain ~ Luke Johnson

Where's my faith gone these days
I feel so battered; no courage, no grace, no manners
my whole life's slipping through my fingers, like gold sand
I need to change up this old plan
Feel like the reapers knocking at my door,
but I aint answering, swear I'm gonna get it together one of these days,
but the darkness is, darkening my light like a lamp under a basket
fighting off the tackles of these bastards
I'm so fucked, Oh God, it's the same tune
same drum banged again, same record playing too,
the same promises, the same old honesty, the honesty that honestly
just turns to an apology, so daily its the same maybe
same challenges, still tryin to balance my mind its so hazardous
still trying to talk straight to brainwashed managers
still trying to put God in a canister, its damaging
Akira in a new light, new frame, see it run,
widescreen TV, 3D, the deed is done,
I'm lost in it, so when does all the freedom come?
I can't see it, all I see is bleeding blood
I'm stressed out
like my stress is my best friend
never get a moment alone
it's like I'm stuck in zone
with no escape from it
hanging off a cliffs edge
its just another bloody test, I'm living like
Tomorrow is a given
My whole life's riddled with tragedies of the living but every body is dying
While Donny Darko is crying
I'm telling the truth, lying
I'm lying to myself telling myself I'm still flying
I'm falling into a hole
I'm trying to break a mould
I'm trying to get a break
I'm trying to get a soul
I'm trying to find a place,
where there's no disgrace, but every thing that I try to do, just leaves me inside a room of
Sheer desperation
I've really found my final destination
I've lost myself to love and I've found myself in fear
It's just a dedication
To the failures, the drop outs,
The addicts in the gutters and the cop outs
There's never any elevation
Just a pain, a pure pain
But I swear I'm gonna make a proper change some day,
get this feeling out my brain
break away from the chains
find my Jesus in the rain
Yeah I swear I getting saved
That's my revelation
My Jesus in the rain
He's the one who's gonna take me away from all of the shame
that's my estimation
of what my life is gonna come to,
just give me my saviour and then I'll come through
I swear I will

beat by Rrarebear 'Kept it Real'