this won't ever subside so i don't run n hide

yet another grocery store parking lot, this time a health food store
i never agreed to yer conception of me
i can't lie to save my life
my ego don't like what i am sometimes
why are you so determined to prove yourself
whoever you're performing for won't love you more
i realized a long time ago that i was pretty fucked up in the head
knowing that God loves me makes me behave differently
i can't seem to resist the undeniable urge to obsess n do things in excess, even things i don't really wanna do
maybe i should be grateful that my brain won't stop goin
most things can't change cos people aren't conscious enough of their world
i could get high but it's still the same shit