i always wanna be the good guy but villains are way more interesting

if i told you about my life you'd probably be horrified
if only i were motivated to write a memoir
i am a star in my own personal life
i've always talked to myself about everything n i dunno how to not constantly be processing multiple types of information at the same time
i can't explain this to people that watch tv
that's why everything they're building looks like shit
i need no chemicals from this world
i have figured a lotta things out thru fucking up
being bad at least gave me an interesting story to yack about
He wanted me to see His glory n i doubt i coulda done it any other way
i had to break my own Spirit in order to truly understand
it makes even more sense now but a different kinda sense than it did then
since i'm not a wife or mother this is my sacrifice
everything is some kinda burden
that weight is always there esp for women becuz of that uterus
don't think i dunno what people see when they look at me
a lotta boring people play a particular role for society that gives em more of a personality than they actually have
villains typically mean well n had a shitty childhood