Transillusidental Transparency

So, because the first word is made up I could only define the second word but in doing so I am sure it will get us there:
Transparency
1. Also transparence. the quality or state of being transparent.
2. something transparent, especially a picture, design, or the like on glass or some translucent substance, made visible by light shining through from behind.
Nope, not enough depth when applied to the heart.
Transparent:
1. having the property of transmitting rays of light through its substance so that bodies situated beyond or behind can be distinctly seen.
Synonyms: crystalline, limpid, pellucid, clear
Antonyms: opaque
2. admitting the passage of light through interstices.
3. so sheer as to permit light to pass through; diaphanous.
4. easily seen through, recognized, or detected.
transparent excuses.
5. manifest; obvious.
Antonyms: secretive
6. Obsolete., shining through, as light.
Nope, not so much either. Allow me to define as per the way I think it applies specific to human behavior. And I know but there is probably a better word for it that I do not know as it applies to human behavior but I am not a word smith in the sense that I will understand word application. I just say what fits in my head and if I have to explain it, so be it.
Transillusidental Transparency simply means that you share your current reality without verbose obstruction as if you were using other words to hide the true meaning or phrases to deflect so that you retain some sort of perceived judgement protection. It’s essentially an all open, and not to draw attention to the issue or to myself, but to confirm that, although I am not in your shoes, my shoes too also have issues and this is what it is like to walk in them.
Hopefully I didn’t make that too complicated.
On with my shoes.