I cannot do anything good (Romans 7:19)

I cannot do anything good. I try to reconcile my intentions with my actions. I often feel disappointed in myself when I try to do good, but the results feel almost evil. We may strive to do good, only to discover that our efforts do not always have the desired outcome.

I question the source of my motivation. Am I acting out of love? Is there an ulterior motive? I always want the best for everyone, regardless if they trespassed against me.

I don’t wish my enemies anything, but I hope they get whatever they desire. Similarly, I can be my own worst enemy. I hate myself because of the things I do. Why do I do good or evil? No matter what I do, I am subject to the world as they criticize my every move.

Instead, I give up and walk away, leaving it incomplete.

Self-doubt and self-hatred can be powerful forces that hold us from achieving our goals. We may find ourselves easily swayed, giving up on our challenges instead of persevering and overcoming them.

This lack of discipline can lead to many failures in life.

We may also find ourselves avoiding our problems, using distractions and escape to forget about them instead of facing them head-on. Self-hatred has caused me to fail many times in life.

I never had the discipline to stay, persevere, and overcome my challenges. I feel so lost; no one to save me. Not only that, but I live as if I have lost all hope. Even if I complete noble actions, such as feeding the poor, sheltering them, and providing them new hope or a new life, I still feel evil.

Even when we do good deeds, such as helping the homeless or the poor, it doesn’t necessarily make us good people. It’s easy to fall into the trap of thinking that society’s expectations of what is noble are what truly matters.

With a genuine desire to help others, our actions will be empty and meaningless. I often do things not because I want to see something good but because I believe it is what society will deem as noble.

It is important to remember that our sins do not absolve by doing good deeds. We are born with a scarlet letter and an inherited curse. No matter what we do, we will always be evil.

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Even with this understanding, it is essential to strive to do good and make a positive impact on the world. Just like the rose that grew from concrete, we can still create beauty, even in the midst of evil.

Because deep down, I don’t want to help the person on the street. That’s something most of us don’t want to admit to ourselves; We lie to ourselves and say we will help the homeless and the poor, but how can we help them if we don’t even attempt to give them spare change?

I cannot gain status because of the good I am capable of doing. No matter how much good I produce or how many deeds I complete, I will always be evil. Nevertheless, I hope that people remember me for being someone who did well, even though he could only produce evil.

We all strive to do good to overcome our evil tendencies and cultivate a sense of discipline to do what is right.

Doing good is not always easy. It requires discipline and dedication to stay on the right path. We all have moments of weakness.

I face temptation by the selfish desires of my heart. I remind myself daily how it is vital to remember that our motives should be pure and honest. Doing good requires us to be mindful of our thoughts and actions to live today as if we do what is right.

My soul, bring me to ecstasy; without ecstasy.

May you always produce good even when all you are, is evil.

Romans 7:19