Encapsulated Hearts in Their Whole Value Of Love: not Jessica Long! oh No!! 🙄

how am I supposed to deal with a heart that was set up in the works of their crimes, when normally, normally, people care about their own to ensure you're never going to feel this way... these people did this to ensure to try to kill me, to take me out to ensure that nobody else would ever be able to figure out what I'm even saying. But it's true. They tried to take me out before I could figure it out myself, so I couldn't speak out or do anything about it first, and all to hide all of their own faces - when you know people who don't poison their own little brothers from a young age, would choose to be there for you FOR REAL, not fake their love to keep you poisined and stage up the rest of what they couldn't control by hacking you, hijacking your love life, your work life and trying to ensure you never get your own good standing - in what would be normal to me - would have been me left alone in all of my jobs and not having Jesse come around to keep me poisoned up and positioned for a cold and calculated hardcore type of hidden and covert warfare. But it's murder that they wanted to write, because now I'm too wise and onto them and they simply couldn't stand me, calling them out, so their go to plan was to take my life or make me crazy made as crazy made as narcissists could be, but it was on repeat in my relationships. dating as far back as I can remember, psychological abuse, poisoning me, having their affairs and being set up by my own BROTHERS and JESSE to indemnify their involvement in identity theft, the kind that is for all time. not just some isolated incident, but the kind that's meant to play all the way through my life, on repeat, while staffing up people in their proxy to get ME poisoned, praying to find a way out and all that.. because of how arsenic works, is it leaves you straight up confused and lost in your own mind, heart health, safety - without reasoning skills to word it out, or rather construct the words you need in order to suggest to what's happening to you... it leaves you blind because you just don't want it or even want to think of something as bad, coming from the ones that you love - not loving you right at all. Not in any stretch of the imagination - is that way of life - Love. So now my heart hurts for 3 years and even yet, doctors can't figure to do anything about it... and truth be told about Gangstalking or organized satanic ritual abuse of the type that it is... I simply feel they they only have power of suggestion to work well within these crimes to not let you get help.. help others, sure.. but you specifically... they can't even pretend to treat you right. not to mention affairs with someone that works in the medical field, but with Jesse Lee again and again and again and again, in my life, plus a few other proxies that know exactly who they are.