Build a wall

Block it.
Hold it.
Build a wall.
(Breathe.)
Block it.
Hold it.
Don’t let it fall.

I laugh too loud so no one sees
The static war inside of me
Smile like armor, joke like stone
But I’m not okay when I’m alone

Hands in fists, thoughts on fire
Every breath’s a tripwire
I say “I’m fine” with perfect grace
But my mind’s a battlefield I can’t erase

Hands in fists, thoughts on fire
Every breath’s a tripwire
I say “I’m fine” with perfect grace
But my mind’s a battlefield I can’t erase

Shut it down.
Fix your face.
You don’t get to feel in this place.
Blink the tears, hide the glitch
If they see the truth, they’ll flip the switch

Block it. Hold it. Build a wall.
Don’t let the panic show at all.
Lock it. Seal it. Don’t explain.
You break in public, they call it “insane.”
Battlefield inside my skull
Every feeling—too damn full
Do better. Be less.
Don’t let them see the mess.

I’m the strong one, right? The storm?
The one who’s calm when it gets warm
But tonight, I bit my tongue so hard
It spelled “help” in broken parts

I wanted love but settled for
Being useful, being “sure.”
I carry silence like a prize
While screaming behind my eyes

Smile, babe. They like you bright.
Not too loud and not too right.
Don’t ask for softness, don’t expect
You’re just the girl who self-corrects

Block it. Hold it. Build a wall.
Don’t let the damage start to crawl.
Lock it. Seal it. Reinforce.
They won’t stay if they see the source.
Battlefield inside my head
Wishing I could cry instead
Do better. Be less.
Don’t let them see the mess.

hold too much.
feel too fast.
bleed slow in hopes it lasts.
If ever open all the way—
Would anyone stay?

Block it. Hold it. Build a wall.
Maybe no one cares at all.
Lock it. Seal it. Burn it clean.
Be the girl who’s never seen.

Block it.
Hold it.
Build a wall.
Block it.
Hold it.
I won’t fall.