Forgot to tell you about my mistake

of hugging Helen Zimmerman.

This confused Helen and others and they thought I needed to work out my inhibitions.

I figured out that we weren't reconciled after all and she was still saying bad things about me.

I also thought that when she died she went to hell.

It wasn't until recently that I figured out she was reconciled to me in her heart when she died and that she had been angry that I didn't initiate an interview with her, Bert and myself about the black magic.

God bless you both Bert and Helen. What an awesome eternal couple they make.

I love you guys (I had told Helen I loved her in the Sunday school meeting. That only made her more lonely for Bert).

I still love you both and remember your best nature when you both came to visit me in the hospital and held my hand and talked to me for a really long time.

Both of them know my suicide attempt had nothing to do with the fact that they were saying things about me behind my back. At that time I didn't know they were. I thought I had done the right thing by not accusing them of adultery.