Detailed Story (Part 43)

This is the the 43rd video of the detailed series. These videos are in mostly chronological order.

Regarding the IRS: I think I failed to mention that my debt to the IRS was paid long ago. My parents are the ones who paid that debt. This is important to note because in addition to locking me out of participating in the beneficial parts of society, such as borrowing money from financial institutions, the IRS had taken taxes from my income for years and I was never able to receive my returns for overpayment. I don't know how much money they owed me each year, but I do think it is safe to assume that the total figure over those years is likely over ten thousand dollars. The IRS is a contemptuous and cruel institution and in all my years of speaking about it to people I have consistently been met with an apathetic response.

Regarding my struggle to heal from the abrupt onset of OCD: I am confident that I would have been able to heal fully from this terrible condition within two or three months if I simply had a safe place to live without harassment and the hostile, volatile and turbulent environment I was subjected to. The residual fear I feel is something I am nearly certain I would have been long free of if I had not lived under those conditions and then forced to survive in such a chaotic environment that homelessness has subjected me to.

This overwhelming anger and bitterness that I feel and have lived with for so long is such a departure from my true self. Not only have I been robbed of my money, health, possessions and my future, the very essence of who I was has all but vanished. The information that these videos reveal will not mend the damage that was done, but it may bring some amount of peace.