most just follow but they don't have to

i talk about suicide cos i don't run n hide
plenty of proof of life's futility
there's still plenty of beauty in the world
the devil wishes for me to despair
i won't turn it off or down
imma trust that God will help me come around
if only i could play it right
most of em ain't deep enough to process these things
they woulda offed themselves surely
it might sound self-righteous but i've studied this shit i promise
i got vomit in my mouth every time i dare to leave the house
most don't have faith to wait
it subsides all to come back
no patience n no endurance
amerihahaha is full of simpletons
anyone w/ depth is apparently in psychosis
i'd rather be alone than...
everything is a choice, get on it
stop making excuses for yer many abuses, you don't have to keep choosing this