I Don't Know How To Miss You

I Don't Know How To Miss You

I still reach across the bed,
Half-asleep, still in my head.
The silence tells me you're not here,
But I keep pretending you’ll appear.

I count the hours, I hold my breath,
Living in love after death.

I don’t know how to miss you right,
I cry too much in the middle of the night.
I wear your name like it’s still mine,
Talk to your ghost like you’ve got time.
I know you’re gone, but it feels untrue—
‘Cause I don’t know
How to miss you.

Your picture stares from the kitchen wall,
I never moved it… can’t at all.
I eat alone in the quiet room,
Still set a place like you’ll come soon.

And every sound, and every song—
Just reminds me you’re really gone.

I don’t know how to miss you soft,
I only ache, I only get lost.
I try to laugh but it turns to rain,
Even joy just feels like pain.
They say time heals, but that’s not true—
‘Cause I don’t know
How to miss you.

I wish I could let go with grace,
But I’m still stuck in your embrace.
The world moved on, but I just freeze,
You're in my lungs with every breeze.

I don’t know how to miss you less,
Every memory is a heavy mess.
I still wait for your footsteps near,
But all I get is hollow fear.
You were my heart—what do I do?
‘Cause I don’t know
How to miss you.