3 falling outs in one week*another self-fulfilling prophecy fulfilled!

Saint Mary of egypt
it's okay we will be perfect one day
*the videos i've been posting were from several weeks ago
i've been listening to the band for awhile now
this will be the third time that i show up on time holy shit
i wish i could turn this into a morning routine but at least we did it this one time
should i just be patient? yes
i am the slowest poke on the road
this is definitely a day to take the backroads, so nice out
*i ended up not going to nashville cos multiple people called out n i stayed late at work (i need the $ bad)
ronnit really pissed me off so i dunno if we fell out or what
i know that i'm not a clean person (my last name is gross AND i'm adopted)...yawl know this about me considering the state of my house AND my car AND my brain *why do you think i take Holy Communion?
what about my existence ever exuded any sense of normalcy
at least they weren't honking at me
why would you yell at someone about stuff that you already know AFTER they do a buncha shit for you that they didn't have to
i waited a whole week to talk about this by the way
it was literally a personal attack so i am allowed to have these feelings about it (it made me very upset considering how much i adore ronnit)
not a big fan of females so the ones i actually do like i will do a lot for
i have fucked over every dude i have been friends w/, it's not his fault but at the same time i have been totally honest w/ them
this ain't a feminist point, it's a nature point
all too often it becomes a source of resentment
i no longer desire that closeness w/ a man, rather i don't even see it as a possibility
i think that these weirdos see me as some kinda last hope cos i don't have a smartphone n i'm not a feminist
i can continue to communicate this information n they still won't listen
strictly a white man problem, no other race does this
i think it's a lack of confidence
12:53 see: latino construction workers
biology vs psychology
you can't truly love or appreciate someone that you idealize
IT'S JUST NOT FAIR!
i've accepted these flaws about men
acceptance makes more sense
stop nagging damnit
these mfs will NEVER do what i want em to do but i don't whine about it
i already showed you who i was, you chose not to pay any attention
don't chu feel so enlightened by these words of wisdom
YOU have phone brain, we are not the same
i warned you for a reason
crazy. asexual. anti-social
stop insisting that i bring sumin to the table that i don't offer *find someone that does
no podcast. no chords. no relationship
this is what chu get, take it or leave it
sari if i sound self-righteous
i guess i just gotta stay the fuck away
i am so much better off over here anyway
i know that it strongly resembles a cope hahaha
lesbians have never given me grief
there's no way i could do even a small % of what they want me to do
i don't wanna disassociate outta boredom, i always feel guilty about it
that IS a narcissist thing
you don't have to be interested, just walk away n i will keep talking to myself