Blackpilled Doomer Journal Entry #02

To whoever may find their way into this video I welcome you. I'm a doomer, blackpilled, the name is Crimson, and I'll be sharing my thoughts, my feelings, and more with no filter, just pure and honest in this video and others to come. In the small chance that anyone may find themselves resonating with my thoughts and feelings my heart goes out to you. May you be free from your suffering sooner rather than later.

Blackpilled Doomer Journal Entry #02
There was a time, in my younger years, where I harbored a hatred of incomprehensible depths, towards my own kind. A hatred born from a lifetime of experiencing cruelty, mistreatments, and injustices at the hands of my own kind. During such a time, not a day went by in which I would find myself wanting nothing more than to be able to repay my fellow human beings in kind. I wanted all of the pain, and all of the suffering, both of physical and emotional nature, that was inflicted upon me against my will, to be theirs. It would have been so easy, in one of those dark days, to allow my hatred to consume my whole being and make those twisted desires a reality. I would have been justified and well within my rights to do so. But I would have become a monster like them and would have been unable to stop. Forever locking myself in an endless cycle where we commit atrocities upon each other seeking to balance broken scales. I resisted then and was able to stop my hatred from consuming me. It was difficult and it took everything within me to hold on to my humanity. To this day I still resist despite it becoming even more difficult. After all, my hatred has only deepened with the passage of time. With every passing day I look beyond me and find countless others who have been, and are, forced to suffer a lifetime of cruelty, mistreatments, and injustices just like me by their fellow human beings. With every passing day I look upon the world and see the little good of humanity that's left being slowly extinguished and empathy, kindness and decency being in shorter supply if not nonexistent altogether. With every passing day I look upon the world and see the evil of humanity flourishing and greed and ignorance growing deeper roots. Sometimes, I can’t help but wonder about some cosmic entity or calamity erasing our collective existence from the face of the earth. It would be something akin to an act of ultimate mercy for humanity is doomed. Either way, as we are, all roads lead to ruin. There is no future.