confessional "musical"...what happens after taking Holy Communion

6 months ago
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i wish you'd get dropped on yer head if it would make you think
i thought so much that all i wanted to do was drink
i drank a lot n almost died several times
learning the really hard lessons is way better than the alternative
think about this when you're being humbled
back when i was getting my head stapled back together...
there's always a darker part of us that wants us to self-destruct
it's been a long time since i've done things that i used to do just fine
He forgives me for abusing my body which belongs to Him
my body is a temple so i probably shouldn't drink a whole fifth of vodka in a stairwell
why i don't drink anymore hahahahaha
so disappointed w/ myself even tho we've come so far
God was leading the entire time, He doesn't need to be validated
you don't need to be validated if you have God
just by existing, breathing, feeling, thinking YOU ARE ENOUGH
laughing is worth all the crying
will i do comedy tho
this "cold" weather ain't shit being from chicago
jump off that precipice, God's gotcha
always thank God regardless of what's happening
trust the process of recovery n it will happen
trust that there's a reason n it will be revealed
if you never get it you weren't supposed to have it
perhaps i shouldn't use words like always n never in relation to myself (self-fulfilling prophecy)
grateful that i have taken the time to understand mental illness cos it has really made sense outta the world n esp this country
i dis the world w/ ease, thank you more plz
i totally fucked that up but that's okay
coffee break now, goodbye

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