Completely devastated after losing access to my Bitcoin wallet. This is my story

I’ve been buying Bitcoin since 2020. My goal starting out was to get to 1 whole Bitcoin and I got all the way up to .88. I bought almost weekly for the last 4 years. I bought all the way up to $69k and back down to $16k and back up to $100k + and I never thought about selling.

I’ve learned so much about Bitcoin since I started. Bitcoin has become my hope at a chance at wealth. I’m a strength and conditioning coach by trade, self employed. I have no retirement, Bitcoin was my retirement.

I’ve put my life savings into Bitcoin over this time period. Bitcoin was hope for my financial future. Bitcoin is a chance for a normal person to have a chance at financial security. I believe this in my heart.

Last week, I went to transfer my bitcoin to a jade wallet from my ledger nano s. I didn’t realize I only get 3 chances to enter my PIN before the ledger factory resets. Well, it did. I thought it was fine because I’d find my recovery phrase that was written down.

I spent the weekend searching my small 2 bedroom apartment and looked through every inch of my home. I looked through every shoe, jacket pocket, pants pocket, every drawer, cabinet in the house and I can’t find my recovery phrase.

My Bitcoin is now inaccessible on the ledger and I spent the greater part of my week feeling hopeless. I’m an optimistic person, I’m usually inspired and try to inspire others. That’s why I’m a good coach. This past week I’ve felt unmotivated and pessimistic about everything in life. I’m devastated and I feel hopeless.

With Bitcoin I knew I’d be good financially in 10-20 years. But that’s gone now. Life feels pointless to be stuck in this rat race. It feels like there’s no way out.

I come from nothing, I’ve been climbing against all odds my whole life. I’ve made money before and lost it all. I’ve slipped, fell, been knocked down 100 times and I get up 101. I always fight my way back, it’s never been easy.

There’s no resilience without adversity, there’s no courage without fear. I’m going to fight my way back and get to that 1 Bitcoin, I will find a way.

If there’s anybody out there that can offer advice on how to move forward or that might have tips that can help me, I’d really appreciate your help. I know I’m an idiot or whatever else people might say, I’ve been beating myself up for a week. You never think it can happen to you, until it does. I’d greatly appreciate any advice or tips on how to deal with this situation.

I want this to be a lesson to everybody out there. Guard those seed words with your life! Keep it somewhere safe, somewhere you know you’ll never lose it. It’s so important, you don’t get a second chance. It’s a responsibility that comes with being sovereign. Please, learn from my pain and do not neglect your security.

I’ll end this with a quote from Nipsey Hussle, who has inspired me more than anyone in life,
“The game is going to test you, never fold. Stay 10 toes down. It’s not on you, it’s in you, and what’s in you they can’t take away.”

The Marathon Continues! Love you all 🦾💙🏁