if there was a pill that would prevent this drill i wouldn't take it

i used to fantasize frequently about being a different person entirely
it got me thru the hell of govt school w/ sheep
i've been pretty vindicated as of late
to the rest of the world i am a failure cos i don't have _______
they don't even know why they supposedly want the things that they think they want
i know why i want what i want n why i don't want what i don't want
those w/out self-assuredness can't help but be jelly
i try to take all the bad things n purify em a little bit
maybe i don't want there to be a cure
my instinct told me to get off at that last exit, oh well
moving is still a good sign
i wonder about all the things that i do w/out
i doubt that most normies would be able to handle what i handle quite well
can you tell that i just received a text msg from my mom