my hill

Increasing exercise because it's too easy and one needs to push themselves I would like to one day run a marathon currently just working on a hill and me stay strong my friends get out of bed watch the sunrise take your shoes off and walk around you'll feel better everyone needs to get healthier I need to annoy everyone for much longer and no one needs to go to a funeral before your time and if you feeling down it's okay I've been there and if anyone ever wants to talk I have got lots of Secrets that I don't share ever..... 24 hours a day seven days a week 365 days a year I will always listen because I've needed that person from time to time and I didn't know who to call so you can call me, generally I'm awake at 3:00 a.m. and if I don't pick up just keep calling I will call you back and listen it's ok to get down we all get there it's just not okay to stay there trust me I fucking know, last year I was holding a gun and I made a noose like I said trust me I know, there was a particular spot at memorial park that I was going to dangle from but never did because I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings and I wanted to find a way to do it without anyone getting upset so I just didn't but I made the noose just in case I changed my mind, and trust me if I want to get it done I would have done it, it was never gonna be a cry for help it would have just been job done, long term solutions for short-term problems are not smart and I'm smarter these days so like I said you call me whatever time you want.

Remember to smell the flowers and everyone loves a good butterfly appreciate the small things in life like the song of a bird the sound of the wind even the rain touching your face no one can see you crying the rain I know this is well, the sun on your skin the love of a small animal not a gerbil..... feel the cold air in your lungs appreciate the warmth of a fire and find someone to hug if necessary and always remember you can always call someone who cares and I do

Preferably Don't Hug Me I don't like it I hug people don't hug me, I do not like being touched buy most people I have my reasons.

One more thing cry and if you can't cry learn I had to again I know it's difficult I find it hard but cry and let it out find a place if necessary you can scream just let it out again trust me I know and always remember you can always call I've said this repeatedly and anyone that knows the knows me knows you can always call, I don't care what you've done unless it's my ultimate can't touch children then burn but anything else it's all good I've been a piece of shit too and made so many mistakes it doesn't make us who we are it's what we have done.

And always remember just call and I will listen