Father Arranged Loss of Virginity - Wanted Children Through Me

Yes, the loss of my virginity at 13 y/o. I share a glimpse of an 18-year span of having no choice but to live with an individual who was not legally allowed to have me, being separated from family support and left at his mercy and manipulation—being separated from all potential love and nurturing and intentionally put in an unhealthy position to further an appalling and disturbing cause all to satisfy twisted and corrupt addictions. We have to be careful what we look at and entertain! It's not innocent to secretly harbor and nurture unhealthy thoughts and desires. Proverbs 4:23 states that above all else we need to guard our hearts for everything we do flows from it. Turns into action! Though there were many life-changing events while growing up from abandonment to being released as an adult with only a 5th grade education, this particular event was one of the most damaging that strung over decades to where I allowed it to dictate my actions and poor personal decisions. Proverbs 22:6 comes to mind: "Train up a child in the way he should go [teaching him to seek God’s wisdom and will for his abilities and talents], Even when he is old he will not depart from it." But through it all, there is nothing impossible for God to do! He took what was intended for evil and turned it into good. Through all my issues of depression, addiction, abandonment, rebellion against authority, and a ton of wrong thinking, He never stopped trying to draw me unto Himself to show me the love of a true Father, and despite my graveyard of a life steeped in sin, promised to return all that was taken from me. If you have lost all hope as I once did, ask Him to make Himself real to you! He is a good God and a good Father. He loves you and seeks you out as if you were His only! He is waiting at the door. His name is Jesus.
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