I am angry at GOD

I got autism, a mild form called Asperger's Syndrome.
Open and honest about my rage with God.
Why am I angry at God? @MindShift-Brandon @Heartcrymissionary @illbehonest @desiringGod @Soteriology101 @InspiringPhilosophy @howardstorm5217 @coryodo8791
I don't deserve to have a family if I am too chicken to defend them.