ag's instincts cos the out stinks...i play the disclaim game

i have a very messy house i know
i should probably talk about this...
giant pile of clothes to fold so i hope you enjoy this
there you go vortex
everybody has at least one friend that is this way
still not a clinical psychologist so this is just an unconventional laywoman's assessment
fuck medication. it's evil
it can always be questioned but i have had enough clinical people along w/ regular ass people that agree w/ me
that narcissistic spirit that does not come from God will do a number on you
ocd can turn into really amazing music when God is working thru you, i am talking about myself somewhat but also about my friend judson who can actually play piano...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r2RK40p5XUo
judson is a very captivating performer
passion will manifest in not so great a way
mental illness but also addiction...that's why alcohol is referred to as spirits
those in western countries dunno much about it
if it directly relates to you then you probably should learn a fuck ton about it, fam
and here comes my arrogant voice
i've also managed to learn that the world is pretty useless n stupid (lacking a true interest in understanding anything)
technology makes narcissism a helluva lot worse
this was already a problem before the internet
technology has nuked communication as well as creativity
AI memes? memes were already uncreative as it was
some of the AI art is pretty fuckin cool
not saying that artists don't exist but as a culture people don't care much about art for the same reason that they don't wanna resolve their psyche troubles
text msg or tweets or posts that garner a particular type of attention, i know what's going on
kinda sorta obsessed w/ me AND a fucking boomer that i met @ my church, no thanks
i will always hate compliments. i prefer challenges
i wish that i'd never smoked pot w/ this mf
it clearly meant sumin different to him
i don't think nothin of these types of things but they obviously do n then i feel bad cos i'm like leading them on even tho i establish my terms n conditions in the beginning
tension will hang in the air unless sumin is done about that sex part of everyone's brain
i feel bad for people, it's the guilt complex they attach themselves to that they must read off of me
i knew all these things in the beginning n i totally validated him just by replying
as if i need that, oh the fucking audacity
they're the ones that need the validation
i have to stop talking to him becuz the same shit happens so it's kinda sorta my fault
they are frontal lobe deficient so...
they can't see themselves do anything so they make really bad decisions more often that not, hence this one involving totally destroying his truck
most narcissists are only malignant towards themselves
they don't desire to hurt anyone but w/out self-awareness
they can't do anything that would offer effective change
this is a crazy ass story n he showed me pictures of his poor truck, RIP big ass farm truck
he has man skills tho so that's still sumin
dudes that make it obvious that they wanna fuck me are absolutely revolting to me
i hate men that can't shut up, it's even worse than women not shutting up believe it or not
i don't need yawl to listen but i appreciate it if you do
i hope that you get sumin outta this n i guess it's good for me too (therapeutic anyway)
i feel bad for this dude but at the same time he's the one who keeps shooting himself in the foot
no boundaries, impulsive, hot temper...the frontal lobe strikes again!
they must talk n be the center of attention at all times but they're their own worst enemy, man
they can't see themselves making mistake after mistake after mistake
you can't do anything about it when you can just blame somebody else, i mean this is america so...
this is such an american pattern of behavior isn't it
i love this fucking sweater
i can feel that manipulation now
i gaslight myself into thinking that i'm paranoid n give em the benefit of the doubt