if you quantify everything how could you enjoy anything

what chu think of me is none of my biz
they used to say this back at that 12 step cult
i have the tendency to get off the subject
i used to argue w/ people over this
if i am confident n i'm doin what i'm supposed to be doin it shouldn't matter
short of an identity in my early twenties
could culture have anything to do w/ depression?
man i look like such a dude (no adam's apple tho)
everything is a transaction which can't possibly be functional
PLENTY of observational wealth tho
i'll give myself the benefit of the doubt that it's useful in some kinda way
analysis kinda sorta ruins it but it's also a good way to not be bored
always picking up mainly bad energy
there's always gonna be this prickly part of me
i kinda relish the fact that you don't understand (or can't stand) it
i do get off being hated, i am liberated
i can't wait for you to leave
can you hear the battery running out (it starts making a scratching sound)
acceptance allows the doors to swing wide open
i know i woulda killed myself if i did it their way
so lucky so blessed to accept the stress (and it's no longer stress)
what mess it is n i don't feel obligated to clean it up anymore
society will always fault me for that
blame me i get off, i revel in the things that make most people scoff
messing up is just what i do
take whatever you just had to break n make it into sumin better...we always say this to ourselves right
gaslight! gaslight! gaslight!