Sounds like an ISRAELITE but caught between TWO OPINIONS

"It doesn't matter how you FEEL... It's about what's already KNOWN to be TRUE...."
"Truthers Love Truth, until The Truth of The Most High, Find Lies Within Them"

Sources:

We Woke Now
https://www.youtube.com/@WeWokeNow

Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? Even so every good tree brings forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree brings forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. Every tree that brings not forth good fruit is hewn down and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them. Mattithyahu (Matthew) 7:16-20

Be not deceived; Elohiym is not mocked: for whatsoever a man sows, that shall he also reap. For he that sows to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that sows to the Ruach shall of the Ruach reap life everlasting. Galatiym (Galatians) 6:7-8

You shall not bow down yourself unto them, nor serve them: for I Yahuah Elohayka am a jealous El, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me, Devariym (Deuteronomy) 5:9

And it shall come to pass, if they say unto you: Whither shall we go forth? Then you shall tell them: Thus says Yahuah: Such as are for death, to death; and such as are for the sword, to the sword; and such as are for the famine, to the famine; and such as are for the captivity, to the captivity. Yirmeyahu (Jeremiah) 15:2"