I need some help with my Qigong development - Honesty and Truth -

I've wanted to share this for a while because it's important for my health and well-being. Like anyone, I have ambitions and goals I want to achieve. I need to ensure that my system is strong enough to support further development safely.

For context, it's been a tricky journey for some time as I searched for a purpose in life. Through Qigong development, I’ve begun to find something opening up. It’s not about making grand claims; it's a subtle, ongoing process.

At 38 years old, I've gained enough life experience to observe many characteristics of people. This has given me a sense, even if it's just entry-level, of perceiving subtleties in human nature.

For instance, take philosophers like Alan Watts. They excel in philosophical inquiry, helping people understand the human mind and spirit. However, from a pure Tai Chi perspective, this is just mental exercise. The real question is, what can you actually do?

I didn't grow up with all brain functions fully developed, perhaps due to genetics or environmental factors. So, I want to say to my dear mother, "Mum, I love you. There is no better mother in the world. Despite our challenges, you provided the best upbringing possible. Thank you, Mum, Dad, for the gift of life and the challenges we've faced together. These challenges have allowed me to view life with honesty and truth."

Through these experiences, I've developed a greater awareness of subtle aspects of life that I might never have noticed otherwise. I now have a solid foundation to build on, focusing on positive aspects and avoiding over-religiosity.

Recently, I started going to church, learning how to pray and connect with the Holy Spirit. This has refined my human experience, reaching God through Jesus Christ. These historical figures were pure human beings, even though the world is complicated, and corruption is inevitable at certain levels.

Despite the complexity and corruption in religious and political institutions, it's crucial to focus on the virtue of the way. In my Qigong practice, I've faced many challenges, such as irritability and insomnia, due to the intense energy build-up. It took time to adjust my lifestyle to accommodate this development.

Unfortunately, even within the Qigong world, as with religious institutions, there's a tendency for corruption and monopolization. This makes it hard for genuine practitioners to progress without encountering obstacles.

Our society now has amazing infrastructure and resources, yet people often focus on negativity. With that aside, I hope this sets some context. If we were face-to-face, much of this would be clear through our interaction.

The monopolization within Qigong, yoga, and meditation traditions often highlights a few top students, creating unnecessary barriers for others. I had to focus on this path because certain brain functions were disabled until I was 30, making communication difficult. I even experienced mild psychological disorders due to genetic and upbringing imbalances.

I hope higher-level practitioners can empathize with me, despite my imperfections and imbalances. I aim to align with your values and seek your help to diagnose my energy system and suggest treatments, such as herbs, to strengthen my foundation and support further development.

我想分享这个话题已经有一段时间了，因为这对我的健康和幸福很重要。像所有人一样，我有自己的抱负和目标。我需要确保我的系统足够强大，可以安全地支持进一步的发展。

为了提供一些背景信息，这段时间以来我一直在寻找生活的意义。通过气功的练习，我开始找到了一些突破。这不是关于做出什么伟大的宣言，而是一个微妙的、持续的过程。

今年我38岁，有足够的生活经验去观察很多人的特性。这使我获得了一种感知人性细微之处的感觉，尽管只是初级水平。

例如，像阿兰·瓦茨这样的哲学家，他们在哲学探讨方面非常出色，帮助人们理解人类的心灵和精神。然而，从纯粹的太极角度来看，这只是精神上的练习。真正的问题是，你实际上能做什么？

我在成长过程中，某些脑功能可能由于遗传或环境因素而没有完全发育。因此，我想对我亲爱的母亲说：“妈妈，我爱你。世界上没有比你更好的母亲。尽管我们面临了许多挑战，你提供了最好的成长环境。谢谢你，妈妈，爸爸，感谢你们给了我生命和我们共同面对的挑战。这些挑战使我能够以诚实和真实的态度看待生活。”

通过这些经历，我对生活中的细微方面有了更深的认识，这些是我可能从未注意到的。现在我有了坚实的基础，可以在此基础上继续发展，专注于积极的方面，避免过度的宗教色彩。

最近，我开始去教堂，学习如何祈祷并与圣灵连接。这提升了我的人类体验，通过耶稣基督达到了上帝。这些历史人物是纯洁的人类，尽管世界很复杂，在某些层面上腐败是不可避免的。

尽管宗教和政治机构复杂且存在腐败，我们必须专注于真正的美德。在我的气功练习中，我面临了许多挑战，比如易怒和失眠，因为能量积累得非常强烈。调整我的生活方式以适应这种发展花费了一些时间。

不幸的是，即使在气功界，像宗教机构一样，也存在腐败和垄断的倾向。这使得真正的修行者在进步时遇到障碍。

我们的社会现在有了惊人的基础设施和资源，但人们往往关注负面的事物。撇开这些不谈，我希望这能提供一些背景。如果我们面对面交流，很多事情通过互动会更加清楚。

气功、瑜伽和冥想传统中的垄断往往只突出少数顶尖学生，为其他人制造了不必要的障碍。我不得不专注于这条道路，因为某些脑功能在我30岁之前没有发挥作用，使得交流变得困难。我甚至由于基因和成长环境的不平衡而经历了轻微的心理障碍。

我希望更高层次的修行者能同情我，尽管我有不完美和不平衡之处。我希望与您的价值观保持一致，并寻求您的帮助，诊断我的能量系统并建议治疗方法，例如草药，以增强我的基础，支持进一步的发展。