Have you blasphemed the Holy Spirit?

I was born and raised on a hutterite colony, a very religious group that lives together in a community setting apart from what they would consider the world. This is a condensed part of my testimony of how I ran from God and His will for my life and kept fighting against Him and He kept having mercy on me and preserved my life. I hope this helps and encourages especially those believers that are struggling with the idea that they have committed the unpardonable sin (blaspheming the Holy Spirit) I pray the Lord's help and protection over you in Jesus name.